What got you started/ interested in posting nudes?
I’ll try to keep it brief because this topic is worth 5 years of therapy, at least, with a spiders web-like series of tangential thoughts to convey. The short answer is as a sort of recovery program I prescribed myself in an effort to combat the deep seated hatred for myself that being raised in purity culture led to. (<— I know I just ended a sentence when a preposition. Too bad!)
I was raised in a locally prominent evangelical household, taught to hide myself emotionally and physically in order to be a “testimony” to others. I attended multiple purity conferences, and was taught that my sinful body would be my heart, life, self worth, and soul’s demise unless given at the right time to the right man under cosmically blessed circumstances. I actually became so afraid of LETTING myself become emotionally attached to someone after sleeping with them that I was unable to feel real spiritual connection with a partner until… far too late in the game, we’ll put it that way. Another story for another day.
Anyway, I hoped that by seeing myself through a camera lens, I would be able to see the beauty and sexuality that was there and learn to be as kind to my body as I am when looking at others. It has been incredibly healing.
