desperate kingdom of love

How life has changed in the last few years. Bless it. Henlo tumblr, its yo girl. Can I just say... I haven’t typed on a computer in a hot minute, however I miss this being my mental health outlet. Being in the service industry is oh so very stressful, so it is wonderful to actually to be able express my feelings without judgment. 

Life is quite difficult but not all that bad thanks to the amazing people in my life.

As everyone knows you learn from day to day, and I continue to do so. As I said, it has been difficult and I try to put on a façade in order to get through the day without anyone asking me difficult questions. However, now that I think of it... maybe they should, Perhaps, maybe I should not only answer for them but also for myself.

I found myself a wonderful person who understands, communicates, listens, and loves me for who I am. Everyday I feel as if I don't deserve him, but he always treats me as if I’m a queen. 

Do I deserve this after all I’ve been through and all I’ve done?  

In the words of Leonard Cohen, “Maybe there's a God above... but all I've ever learned from love was how to shoot at someone who outdrew you.”

What the hell am I doing?

I’m trying this again! Let’s see how well this goes.

Currently, I am trying to get back into school and get a semblance of my life together.

Currently, my life revolves around throwing on a queue of two or three true crime podcasts and cleaning the house. Pure housewife trash. Trying not to offend, however, I just never thought I would be living my life like this. Cleaning for a man who works his ass off, bless his soul, and bringing in a bit of money. Eek! I haven’t tried to put my feelings into concise sentences in a very long time so forgive me for being so awful at it.