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If every decision hurts, how am I supposed to know which one is the right one?

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herheavyheart

Nobody tells you how moving on from someone you considered your safe place is hard, nobody tells you you’ll keep wondering about them for the rest of your life

deepthoughtsvibes-deactivated20

I saw you the other day. You looked good. You looked older. Your hair got longer and your smile still shines like it always did. You really made it so far and I‘m so proud of you. I wanted to say something but I didn’t. It hurt that I had to pretend I didn’t see you. It hurt to pretend that I don’t care about you. It hurt not to be able to talk about you. Because I really wanted to. But you’re gone now and you aren’t mine anymore. It hurt because you were special to me.

(-deepthoughtsvibes)

notgwinthegreat

I’ll save this

sunsetquotes

I knew he didn’t love me, but I adored him anyway.

Patti Smith (via sunsetquotes)

Please don’t find somebody else. I can never bare the thought of you having someone else. I cannot bare to see you with somebody else. Not having you hurt me, but seeing you with somebody else would crush me. Though, you will always meet somebody prettier, smarter, funnier. I just hope you will not erase the memories the two of shared. I miss you every day.

#somebody else

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Havent written sappy tingzz in a whileee hehehehe ppl I don’t know what to writeeeee

A YEAR AGO, A YEAR AGO TODAY. Was the last day I laid eyes on you.

03/13/20

1 year ago today, was the last day that I saw you. It’s been a year and our “talking” still haven’t stopped. We haven’t greeted Merry Christmas and Happy New Years to each other, and yet, valentine’s day on the other hand, we talked. Still couldn’t believe that no matter how hurt I am, I will still welcome you with open arms. The ignoring, hang up the phone, disrespect, the “paasa”, the broken promises and many more shit that I cannot bare to spell out. No matter how hard I try, I always come back to my roots of disappointments. I didn’t regret meeting you I don’t even hate which suck because I should be. I should hate you. I should hate every single part of you. But I don’t and I don’t know why I don’t. I wrote poems for you but not the poems that you would understand because you’re too shallow, too inconsiderate to actually consider a person’s feelings. You would just rather play with it. A YEAR AGO, A YEAR AGO TODAY. Was the last day I laid eyes on you.

wholeheartedsuggestions

it’s not too late to make changes. it’s not too late to dream a new dream. it’s not too late to start over. it’s not too late to pick something back up. there’s time.

thepowerwithin

“Sometimes in order to find your mind, you must lose it first.”

— Nicole Addison @thepowerwithin

warm-suggestions

Think of all the times you picked yourself up and kept going. You wiped your tears, sweat, and blood, and got up again. You made it through one more day. Think back to all of those times, and remember that you’re still here because you are strong. There’s gonna be so much shit in life, but if anyone can persevere through it, it’s you.

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For the past weeks, I haven't written because I was back to my self-destructive way of being insecure, unproductive, and unmotivated. But, I am slowly finding my way back hopefully I can fully recover from my pain and start writing again.

#life suggestions #thoughts #lifeofsunny

To him/for him

Thank you for introducing me to good music

To wholesome artists

Whenever i listen to them

I always think of you

And thats not sad

Its not missing you

Or wishing that things would just magically

Go back to the way they were

The thoughts that are attached

To these songs are happy thoughts

Because i am happy that i've met you

I know we dont talk anymore

But listening to these songs, these artists

Is like a bridge to the past

Which gives me enough light and comfort

Youll always going to be my happiest yet saddest memory

And that's hard to come by these days

I wish i could go back to the park at night

and sit on the cold bench, or on the grass beneath the trees

And talk until the stars tell us to go home or

When light filters softly through ozone and shatters orange sunshine just above the horizon

Bathing the hills in gentle apricot light

"Uli nata oy"

I miss the sound of waves crashing on the rocks

The cold breeze dancing with one another careless and free without destination

I miss the late-night drives, excursions to 7/11 seekings sips of liquor, drinking as if it was water

I miss my friends, who sang out of tune, confidently screaming wrong lyrics while dancing with the beat like there's no tomorrow

I miss the cooking of expired cans of foods, the expired chocolates that my friends voluntary devour.

I hope to see yall soon.

#thoughts #sad poetry #my poem #original poem #sad poem #poetry #politics #poesia #portrait #positivity #poemsdaily #spilled poem #poema #daily poem #poem

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please don’t ever think that you can’t talk to me about something

ahurricaneinabottle

I turn self-pity into a party for one: Netflix and panic + binge eating half a box of Cheez-its. It’s daylight but the shades are drawn and the clocks are unplugged because I don’t want to try today (Time makes me feel behind everyone else, anyway). The sun tries to offer me comfort through the cracks of these old windows, but I turn it away because I don’t want the warmth. I don’t think I’ll find enough comfort inside four walls in this lifetime, and maybe I never deserved it. Self-sabotage is my best worst quality that I always regret but I’m not strong enough to fight.

– Self-pity at its finest // h.w

notgwinthegreat

I REALLY LOVE THIS PIECE SO I ADDED SOME WORDS TO IT, PERSONALIZING MY SITUATION :)

I turn self pity into a party for one: Netflix and panic + binge eating toxic shits Piles of books unread and chaotic head It's daylight but the shades are drawn And the clocks are unplugged Because I don't want to try today Time makes me feel behind everyone else, anyway Plus, time alone hasn’t always proved the best for me The sun tries to offer me comfort Through the cracks of these windows, But I turn it away because I don't want the warmth. I don't think I'll find enough comfort Inside my little corner of the world, And maybe I never deserved it. Self-sabotage is my best worst quality That I always regret but I'm not strong enough to fight.

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mortalghost

Pain is not the end. It is only stops on your journey

Through life until you reach your

Final destination.

Don't let it take your wonder,

Don't let it feed your fears.

Don't let it wrap

Itself around you until you've nothing left but

Hopeless tears.

You are moments of wonder,

Snapshots of laughter,

Songs of victory,

Full of love and serenity.

The sun will rise tomorrow,

You can be on a rooftop in the rain.

Don't let those breaking moments

Take away everything, since...

You are more.

-H. Murcia 12:52 AM 5/15/2020

As I see the green dot indicating you're online, the urge to click is infinite, it feels like one ticket away from talking to the person I love. But, a sudden hesitation hit me, it will never be the same and we both know it. I turned off mine instead, creating a thicker wall between us.

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