idiot blog

lost my zest for life send help

im actually so happy to get to experience this though like for the longest time i was 100% certain i would never like someone in that way but yeah now i know im capable of that which is cool and though its sad that i cannot act in these new feelings its still lowkey fun (and actually scary) to experience them like to my guy looked so beautiful to me i didnt think it was possible for someone to look that good hahaha but i was like wow u’re beautiful in my mind ofc bc it’ll be crazy to say that out loud it is true what they say that when u like someone all u see is 💖💖 like they just become gorgeous to u i actually get hot girls being into some guy now bc they don’t see some guy they see someone so beautiful

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i have NEVER felt more suicidal

anywayss soo

BRO I AM SAD AS SHIT

okay i will stop running away from it lol

my ruminating has caused me to uncover something sus!!! okay for a yapper that literally yaps about EVERYTHING 💭💭💭💭💭💭💭💭💭 why does he always shy away from talking about her hmm sus sus sus

i’m kind of fucked i think hmmm it’s crazy messed up and should NOT be allowed to be into someone who is in a relationship there should be an automatic brain thing that happens when u learn someone has a partner that just like makes it impossible to be into them then i would not be in this situation do u hear me God do u hear what im saying this is an improved design im proposing it will stop a lot of nonsense fr such as me being soooo into soooo horny omg like so so so so so incredibly horny for this boy y’all he’s so cute like ive LITERALLY never been in this situation im honestly not kidding this is a first for me i have never liked someone like this ever omg and honestly im freaking out a bit i want to keep hanging and going on friendship dates w him while i simultaneously suffer the consequences of that knowing i can’t do the thing i want to do which is grab his face and kiss him LOL tbh thats all i want to do lmao i just have hearteyes when i see him guys WHAT IS THIS this is evil af and it shouldn’t be allowed why does gf exist omg can we get rid of her lmaoooo this is so bad why me like why me fr i hate everything about this lmao omg

okay upon further rumination i am being delusional and there is no vibe fr maybe i am just that funny i guess

okay update lmaoooooo i think it’ll happen but i feel i have all the control which im not in support of for me like i would NEVER make the first move like i need him to be like girl i wont u and then ill be like cool lets do it etc but i am directing basically everything rn and thats not good for what i want to happen but there’s def a vibe bc forst of all im simply not that funny lmaoo secondly idk im just catching a VIBE its simply a vibe idk what to tell u lool and then idk today i feel we fell into a natural rhythm that was just too easy simple sweet like???