dora

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'Being irritable, being tired, and all the endless worries of problems and plans, none of this mattered any more when he was with her. He brought with him always a funny kind of peace, and with the peace a strange sense of stimulation. So that when she was with Niall she was rested and excited, both at once.'

my head hurts but my heart knows the truth

‘Knowledge has sweet savory, honeyed things which precede in value all other treasures as sovereign; how happy are those who have savoured thee to the full; and still since, I cannot judge of this save haphazardly, as if of a thing of which I do not know the whole, nevertheless that knowledge most gives me the delectable taste and savour of it which I find only in the little interconnections and parts of learning...’

'While one is consciously afraid of not being loved, though usually unconscious fear is that of loving. To love means to commit oneself without guarantee, to give oneself completely in the hope that our love will produce love in the loved person. Love is an act of faith, and whoever is of little faith is also of little love.'

'Her dreaming mind, lost to the world and intensely alive in its own dream planet, would quieten and relax, would murmur in solitude, "I'm here, I'm happy, I'm home again."'

"I loved you too much, wanted you too much, had for you too great a tenderness. Now all of this is like a twisted root in my heart, a deadly poison in my brain. You have made of me a madman. You fill me with a kind of horror, a devastating hate that is akin to love – a hunger that is nausea. If only I could be calm and clear for one moment – one moment only . . ."

"For who would bother to live if promise of fulfillment lay elsewhere?"