✩　Nick　✩

Believe you can, and you're halfway there.

I scripted that I'll forget about this reality after successfully shifting.

I'm writing another script, where i can be loved like I deserve to.

Where i can be happy, sad, and lost without an urge to take my own life or no one to talk to.

Every time when I'm at school, i just put on my headphones, close my eyes and imagine myself living a life I've always dreamed of and the life I deserve to have.

When i go to sleep i imagine myself how joyful i would be only if my dreams came out to be true. Without worries, depression or any of this shit.

I know i can get my desire life, waking up feeling great, loving myself and having everything I've ever dreamed of, and i also know how easy and close to me it is.

But at the same time I can't stop catching myself with doubts buried deep in my mind and soul like a memory you want to forget, but the more you think about it the harder it gets to forget.

I know it's only my mind making up excuses like "I'm not good enough" to shift or "i am doing something wrong" etc. I know that it is not true but at the same time I can't believe and trust myself enough to just 'let go' and be Happy like i dream every day.

Is it too much to ask for? I've shifted 3 times but I still doubt myself everyday. No matter what i do my mind still makes me feel further away from my dreams. They feel close but far at the same time. I know i can shift now in this exact sec I am writing that, but what if I won't? I will just be disappointed.