The NSFW side of my digital schizophrenia

Yesterday I had the most beautiful heartbreaking deeply moving evening, that I never thought possible. I’m not normally one to broadcast my raw self online, unlike the beautiful @mdsnh. But this time I need to, though words can’t express the currents of emotion flowing through me right now.

I was at a play munch for the first time since we separated, with my ex Domme and owner. We luckily knew we were both there and could prepare for it. As prepared as you can be.

I was serving my Domme who I do care for very much. But sitting there close to my true owner, my home, the woman who moulded and created me and showed me my raw forgotten emotional self. Who I will always love undimmed and who creates peace in me even now. I can’t describe it. We both worked hard to make this possible, a testament to our self work and to the support our bond continues to give us. It was beautiful, melancholy heartbreaking beauty.

I honoured my Domme (which I’m very proud of) and in doing so also honoured my ex.

Our life choices lead us on different paths, Yet, the call to go home is ever there. So present on this day, haunting in its power and wholesomeness.

I am so lucky to have this person in my life. To have served her. To call her my friend. To know her love.

I will always love you as mine. No matter if we are apart or not. May our love keep healing us and may we keep prove worthy of it. We came such a long way to protect it, make it healthy, even in separation