iiii................... have had a eventful week
1. realising me and mickey at work were into each other and almost going manic over it, esp him staying over an hour longer at the cafe than he had to and not wanting him to leave like oh this is a feeling and a thing that lucia also realised before me/us
2. ending up on a rooftop bar talking to mickey that same evening cause i happened to invite everyone at work to a poetry reading, and he actuallyyyyy came
3. having my last shift with mickey the next day and staying half an hour longer than i had to and making gin drinks for the boys and then telling mickey that we should go for another drink and him saying yeah and leaving the cafe smiling like an absolute goon, partly because it may have been the first time i’ve asked a boy out
4. going to get free coffee at the cafe on sunday with em, the most supportive friend evr, and it happenin to coincide with mickey’s fag break so we talked on the bench
5. later at em’s, messaging mickey about that drink
6. him suggesting the very next night
8. being nervous as hell, but the drink being fine and talking about us being mutually attracted to each other and this break with his girlfriend who that very say said she didn’t think they should be on a break so he was confused but there were so many problems, he didn’t think it would actually be good to be with her anymore but there is a small part of him tht thinks they maybe should try again because of how long they were together (which is stupid) but saying he was glad he was there
9. talking for a while on my bed
10. mickey going in for a kiss but being super confused and repeating “i got to go” about 100 times and not going further than kissing cause it probs wasn’t a good idea and him tasting so so good and it just feeling really fucking good
11. him not knowing how to leave it cause he went home today and then is going on tour most of september and then will see his girlfriend but that’s TOO MUCH TIME FOR HIM TO THINK
12. being teased relentlessly at work, but also lucia telling me he was super nervous and downed two beers at the end of his shift - so realising i wasn’t the only one that was super nervous
13. trying not to feel any emotion over the whole thing until after work it all fell on top of me
14. bumping into Laurie and having a huge rant cause none of my friends were free for phone calls, then sticking around for a drink with him and Katrina
15. thinking how who knows what’ll ever happen bwteen me and mickey now and not expecting anything, expecting zilch - then getting a message from him and ignoring it
16. why can’t i look at it
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