I thought indecisive meant “reluctant to think carefully about a decision and would prefer someone else made the choice for them” which is not me at all, boy do I ponder

indecision looks like endlessly writing down ideas and brainstorming the process, watching and learning about things that inspire you to make the project, talking and talking about it to people, waiting until you have done enough prep to feel ready and confident to start and then…the project doesn’t happen.

and you tell yourself it’s because you lost interest or thought of a better idea or needed to sharpen your skills more first. but really, you just couldn’t make that final decision to get started.

indecision can also look like making enormous pros and cons about people in your life that you’re on the fence about keeping around because they hurt you or you’re both too different now or maybe you’re just tired of the relationship. you’re not afraid to cut people off! no way! you’re just incredibly empathetic so it’s difficult to come to the final conclusion but when it feels right, you’ll get there. right?

but you want people to keep you around only if they are certain they want you… so why haven’t you cut them off yet?

it looks like beginning to write a post over and over again but ultimately you think, well, no one wants to hear this. or, let me finish that thought later. and your drafts are full but you haven’t made your own post in months

indecision does not just come in the form of fear to make the wrong choice or the apathy of just letting someone else lead every time.