Triggered at work...
‘You need to “step up”’...
One of the last things my dad ever said to me was “You need to step-up to join the human race”...while I tried to keep that emotion from clouding the interaction with my boss, he is saying this to me not even a full half hour from when I almost broke down crying from all the last minute pressure of the day. I spent most of which busy with customers and unable to focus and think clearly on other processes that I was tasked, two of which I was unable to complete since I couldn’t figure it out and it was too busy for me to stop and ask and learn. So it got pushed onto the boss to do, and that sucks for him, but he’s been doing this for many decades and he has the capability to train better, request help from other trainers...there’s a training system in place that I’m being thrown through at max speed, no regard for the fact that I’m “studying” while being interrupted constantly by customers and other tasks. The skills reviews aren’t done, we just click, click, click ‘yes’ and sign our names...then it’s somehow a surprise that I’m not capable of reliably understanding and processing certain tasks. I’m told to step-up when it’s my training that needs to step the fuck up.
