in your wildest dreams

speak now is like. i was a flight risk with a fear of falling. you’re the kind of reckless that should send me running. it turns out freedom ain’t nothing but missing you. don’t say yes, run away now. i’ll look back in regret how i ignored when they said run as fast as you can. someday i’ll be living in a big old city. i’d tell you i miss you but i don’t know how. it’s so much colder than i thought it would be so i tuck myself in and turn my nightlight off. these are the words i held back as i was leaving too soon. wasn't it easier when you believed in everything? it's getting dark and it's all too quiet and i can't trust anything now. and something reminds you, you wish you had stayed. but if, god forbid, fate should step in and force us into a goodbye, if you have children someday, when they point to the pictures, please tell them my name.

what does the wedding mean for evermore long pond studio session

I’m listening to the kind of music she doesn’t like (Taylor Swift)

You don’t get it she saw in her mind fairy lights through the mist she kept calm and carried the weight of the rift and pulled him in tighter each time he was drifting away

The mental toll and exhaustion she must of felt splitting herself in all of these directions trying to make herself a ‘better’ partner thinking it was her fault everytime he pulled away so she worked twice as hard to be what he wanted her to be instead of being herself believing it would pay off in the end and they would have a twinkling fairytale ending

I have so much love and respect for women who are honest about their own loneliness but also find the good in it like when audrey hepburn said “I have to be alone very often. I’d be quite happy if I spent from Saturday night until Monday morning alone in my apartment. That’s how I refuel” and when charlotte bronte said “I care for myself. The more solitary, the more friendless, the more unsustained I am, the more I will respect myself” and when jenny slate said “I think I’ve come to terms with the fact that there will always be a ribbon of loneliness running through who I am. But that’s why I want to do comedy, and why I want to connect with people. You can use that ribbon to be a part of a finer tapestry, or you can choke yourself out with it! Your choice!” and when mary oliver said “whoever you are, no matter how lonely, the world offers itself to your imagination, calls to you like the wild geese, harsh & exciting - over & over announcing your place in the family of things”