Self Satisfaction

But inside, I am in chaos.

I dont think this is accidental since I randomly tried to apply this dojo in January 2026 and miraculously able to be the member of the dojo. Yes, I have been doing archery; kyudo, since this January 2026, which actually this activity was not in my 2026 plan.

After 4 times (since the keiko was once a week, so it was 4 weeks) I and the other 5 new members officially join the dojo. It is more relaxed than I thought to be. The senpais were nice and quite patient when teaching us.

So I have been two months practicing kyudo and I think I am going to keep this for years. I hope I can do well, have good relationship with other members, senpai and with other dojo as well. Since this sport also quite pricey, I hope this year I can complete everything necessary! Letsssgoooo!!!

My first time of astrophotography.

Yeah last 2025 actually I was trying to get into new club related into astronomy and to be honest that was great time. Surrounded by environment and people that thinks positively about science, space etc was really a fresh experience for me after working for days. And astrophotography was expensive as hell. Yeah even common photography is expensive but astrophotography is much expensive since you will take photos with much further objects in the darkness.

My first experience was fun. People quite crowded and their excitement was quite high. I got to know few people but unfortunately due to my schedule I could not get into the club (they need minimum number of my attendance of their seminars). So now I am trying to attend their activities again. I hope I can become their member in 2026.

I took this photo with Iphone 13 pro with their telescope (I forgot what telescope I used). It was quite tricky but I think I got the hang of it.

So, 2026, I really should arrange my schedule better for able to join this club lol.

Photo taken on 2025, Aug 2nd.

って言いたいところだが、実は仕事でSNSが使えなくて、Tumblrだけが開けたので、じゃ少しずつ昔話や、思い出や、まぁ、色々更新したいと思う。

とくになぜか最近辛い思いがたくさんある気がする。自分が自分に不幸になるまで考えてしまう。自分が弱い人間だと思っていたが、ここまで生きていると人生は何とかなるもんだ。

残念なのは22年から写真を撮る趣味を戻っていて、インスタグラムで写真を上げて、自分が好きな音楽と合わせて、とてもいい気分だが、ここはそういうのはできないので、まさに残念。

写真を上がる予定なので、好きな歌詞載せるかな...

できろと言いなw

「違いを愛して生きてゆこう」

Second solo trip…. And joining open trip…もうめちゃくちゃ楽しかったんだ。他の参加者も明るくて優しい人だったし、自分が1人旅行思えないぐらいの楽しさ。予定遅れたり、寮変更したり、夜めちゃ暑かったのでよく眠らなかったりしたが、本当に久しぶりにこんなに自由と楽しさを経験できて、本当にありがたいです。

他の人の気持ちからやっとお別れでした。最初は嬉しかったけど、少し違和感があるけど正直に言うとほっとした。