Yù Yī

I should be thankful for what I have but maybe with the way I am, I simply can’t. I’ve been trying to love myself even just for a little bit, since many people said that you can’t love others if you don’t love yourself, but I can’t. I tried living my life even just for a bit but I can’t seem to find any pleasure in doing so. Am I depressed? I don’t know. Maybe I am. Maybe I’m sad. Or maybe I just want to be depressed. I really don’t know. I can’t take a hold of my feelings because I can’t identify them and for those that I’m able to, I don’t understand. I just know that I want to have friends but at the same time I don’t. I have someone but I’m sure I’m just making her feel more miserable than the day before with the way I treat her. She doesn’t deserve the kind of love I give her. 

Happy 5th Anniversary Babe!! :)

Dapat ilalagay ko to dun sa secret blog natin kaso nalimutan ko pass :( Anyway, thanks for everythinggg na you did for me. After 5 years na together tayo, I just can't believe how happy I have been. Minsan napapansin ko kapag you're by my side, mas nagagawa ko yung mga di ko nagagawa ng alone. Of course, things can't always be perfect pero they've been very, very good, and I'm so grateful to you for that bebi.

Salamat for being loving,kind and specially patient :) Sana mas maging better pa relationship natin as we got to know each other more. Salamat sa pag listen sakin and sa pagshare mo ng feelings and rants.

Now na naisip ko, medio mahirap isipin yung future if di kita kasamaaa yiee :) Sana as the years pass, mas mag grow pa yung love natin sa isa't isa. I look forward to those years na magpapalaki na tayo ng bebis pero sa ngayon ikaw lang muna bebi :) I hope that no matter what, thick or thin, we'll stay together.

I'm so thankful and I want you to know that I know it.