夜の影

ugh this is gonna sound so sappy and probably no one will read it but that’s not the point. I wanted to write something small to officially close this blog, kind of like a final chapter.

it’s been a year since I was last active on here and it makes sense for me to write this now. I never had a particular reason to stop coming on tumblr and no one on here made me want to leave but I think I honestly just grew out of using the site. that’s truly it. I have met so many wonderful people and if we ever did speak on here whether it was through a tag challenge, through inbox or whatever, it made my time on here so so incredible. thank you thank you :) this is where my love for Arashi truly grew as a fan and I was so lucky to share that experience with other amazing fans as well :’)

speaking of Arashi, I’m still a dedicated fan! I even got to see their 5x20 tour in Nagoya (arena seats say what?!) best day of my life :’) I do keep up with everything they are doing and wow have our boys come a loooong way. I don’t have to go into specifics but man have they accomplished so much recently. I’m so so proud to be a fan of theirs and will continue supporting them forever. while their hiatus announcement did make me incredibly sad, it is well deserved. whatever they end up doing I hope they thrive and take care of themselves and I’ll be right there when they decide to reunite.

I could never bring myself to delete this blog so it will remain as is. I do look at my archive from time to time and it truly makes me smile and brings back so many good memories.

thanks for everything ♡

i'm heartbroken. i'm really fucking heartbroken. i can't lie and say wholeheartedly that i'm okay with this. it's honestly one of the most devastating news i've heard in my life.

arashi says it's a hiatus. ohno says he wants to quit after 2020. arashi will have been together for 20+ years. so to me i can't really hold out much hope that they will get back together after their hiatus. it's really hard to see them wanting to get together again. they probably don't want to say up front, "we are disbanding." which makes me even more frustrated and sad.

i've never loved another group as much as i did arashi. i can't even think of how much i've dedicated to this group. i don't regret it all. arashi is and will always be my everything. i'm so incredibly thankful for how much they've sacrificed and all arashi has done for their fans. arashi is not arashi without all 5 members, so i'm thankful they are going out as 5.

this is a very sad time for all arashi fans, but we all need to remember that arashi are human beings. they deserve time with their family, friends, and loved ones. and you can't call yourself a fan if you say "it's all ohno's fault" or "they don't deserve to have a break."