“Courage dear heart” -C.S.Lewis.

"someone who allows you to rest" is the relationship dynamic of all time

A parent that welcomes you back home after things have fallen apart. A best friend whose voice alone who can make you relax. A spouse who convinces you to stay in bed an extra hour and leave the dishes for later. A stranger who sees you tired and gives up their seat on the train. Augh. The humanity of it

my new motivation idols are children’s shows antagonists. no matter how often they fail to defeat 2-5 children every single week, they’re back at it again the next episode with a barely modified plan and endless optimism. i aspire to live life like the entire plot depends on me trying again

anyway people who don’t like history are boring

I hope things get better for you. You deserve to continue to live and see how beautiful things can come out of the worst situations. I hope that you can step back and watch the world from somewhere far away from the midst of the noise and see the trees and the skies and a city from a distant point of view. I hope you find spark of inspiration from a movie or a quote or a song that brings you hope in humanity. I hope you take a break and remember what matters, and forget thoughts that paralyze you like why you don’t measure up to someone, or the thought that things will never get better for you. Because those thoughts may feel very real and based on facts when nothing could be more wrong and senseless, and I hope that your life is an endless pattern of realizing that those thoughts are never true like they feel in the moment. I hope one day you can life in a warm house that you decorated nicely with your favorite plants, books, blankets and colors. I hope you continually find joy in reinventing yourself and learning new things because sometimes happiness is found in the journey and in the simplest achievements. I hope that a hopeful, kind voice rises in you that can take on the bully in your head that can grow strong enough to be the only thing you hear. I hope you reach a part of your life where you can look back and be glad that you stayed alive when it was the hardest thing to do. You don’t need to know the answers, you don’t need to know how to make it better, and sometimes you just need to wait for the storm to pass and just do the best you can while it lasts. It’s ok to ask for help and it’s ok to feel everything to the fullest, just take care not to live there because it’s a space to reflect and grow, not to live forever. You deserve to see what’s on the other side of this, and I hope you stay alive to see it.