Its been about two weeks since Satoru and Suguru came back from the star plasma vessle, and it was tense around everything, you were simply taking a walk around, thinking, taking a glance towards Suguru's dorm, silent, but with an air of suspension and darker muddy thoughts of an empty room, where once a good friend was.
You are friends with Gojo,Shoko and Suguru, while you may not be always with the three of them like the trio they are, you do spend time with them, but not as much, more liking to ride the wave and doing more what she wants, though........ she did notice how tense things were, and word was spread around what happened to Amani, the star plasma vessle that was entrusted to Satoru and Suguru to watch over and trusted to get to Tengen, and the unfrountate event that lead to her death.
You did feel greatly for the girl, it can't be easy knowing what your fate will be, and not live anymore, knowing what will become to you is terrifying, she was more surprised Satoru was that willing to take time to care for Amani's feelings like that, she knows that can't be easy weighing down on Satoru and Suguru, but......Suguru is to far gone, Yaga-sensei said so himself what he had done to that village and his own parents, you don't come back from that type of feeling.
So she decided to head to Satoru's dorm, knocking three times, it took awhile, no sound or indication you were heard, or most likely better put acknowledged, so she tried again, a little more insistent this time, finally the door opened, Satoru wasn't smiling, his eyes were distant, like he was deep in thought, but tried to act casual "oh.... hey (your_name) haven't heard from you in a while" you said "hey...... can I come in?" Satoru looked really unsure, wanting to be left alone, not wanting to talk about what happen, wanting to refuse to acknowledge what he knows, but slowly nodded, saying "don't mind the mess...... can't be bothered cleaning it right" Amayah nodded, stepping over the clothes on the floor, sitting on the edge of the bed, Satoru sat next to her, looking at the floor, you weren't sure really what to say, or how to comfort him, what excatly do you tell someone when their best friend has committed genocide? But you took a breath "look I-" "don't.... just don't offer me pity right now, that's the last thing I don't want at all right now" he spoke, rubbing a hand over his face, you take a breath "I wouldn't lie to your face about this Satoru, and because your my friend, I respect you to much to do that.......Satoru...... you know your allowed to cry, right?" He was silent for a moment, lightly poking her head saying "why would I need to cry? I'm fine, I don't need your consoling" he said a little defensivly and sharply, you spoke a little more firmly "I'm not trying to pity you, or offer you platitudes, I'm trying to help you....... belive me, I hate what is going on with Suguru, he's a good person" "good person?" Gojo laughed bitterly "they are calling him a curse user now, he really did it, I keep thinking they are so full of shit, that the higher Ups are being the vultures they are..... but......I just-" he stopped, you watched him, lifting your hand slowly, about to place it on his shoulder before thinking better of it and pulling away slightly squeezing your hand into a fist "yeah.....I know.......it sucks, but Satoru your putting to much on you, Suguru made his choice, made his decision that night at the village, your not obligated to control his actions, it's not on you to be there all the time, your allowed to be human, it's what you are, and yes, before you say it, cause I can already mentally predict your next words" you said pointedly,making the corner of his lip twitch a little, "I know, I know your strong, very strong, you make sure everyone knows that every five seconds, but......" you spoke, finally placing a hand on his shoulder "your also human, you have a human soul, not a soulless machine, I want you to grieve, obviously not to see you suffer, but....... cause it's healthy, healthy to cry, to feel, to go through the motions of pain, to process, not shut down completely and im not asking you to lay your heart out to me, not in the slightest, but to finally allow yourself to feel something rather then nothing"
Gojo was silent for some time, before saying a little more truthful "wow, when did you get so wise huh?" You chuckled saying "I always have been, your just finally listening for once.....I mean it Satoru, don't bottle up everything, your allowed to feel unhappy or want to cry" patting his shoulder "and if I found out your mentality destroying yourself, I'll tell yaga you were the one who broke once of the statues outside" Gojo sighed exasperated and dramatically but fondly "to be fair, it was one miscalculation in training, accidents happen, and thank you for the saving me the lecture" you rolled your eyes fondly "yeah well..... watching you and Suguru scramble like idiots trying to think of an excuse to tell yaga was worth it" after another 40 mintues, you left, it was getting late after all, and all this thinking was making you tired, time to head to bed, but as you slipped into the covers, you hoped Satoru will take your advice, to simply let himself feel, and not bottle it all up
