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@DeeFizzy: I feel like such a waste of space. I just exist & don’t do anything I truly want to do. Instead i just sit around all day being depressed. Growing up is something so natural, but so fucking difficult to accept. When I’m around the fizzy family & all my youtube friends, I never have time to think about my issues. When I come home, it all hits me. Going to actually go through therapy and change my life around like I have been saying I will for decades. I can’t live in fear anymore. I always feel so empty with no drive to do anything but sleep my days away so I don’t have to suffer. When i see the true sides of a YouTuber, I want to make people realize they’re looking up to a dbag but then that’d make me just as low. The moral is there’s a lot of YouTuber’s who are exactly the person they preach in their videos but then there’s some terrible people too that make me so upset and wish I could just yell in their face to wake them up to how shitty they treat people. Sad thing is, that wouldn’t accomplish anything. You can’t change someone, they have to be willing to change. Otherwise it just goes in one ear, out the other. I leave YouTube conventions both mad & happy at the same time. Happy because I’m so grateful to have such amazing people support me. Mad because I can’t stand seeing a YouTuber be a complete dick & see the behind of the scenes of that person. If you’re a dick in person, be a dick in your videos. That way people know what they’re looking up to and aren’t being mislead. Also any YouTuber who uses their fans for sex and then treats them like shit after is fucking gross in my eyes. These people support you and love you, your way of thanking them is using them for one thing and literally damaging them? Awesome bro. Ok I’m done with my rants, sorry haha. My mind just never stops thinking.

Can’t ever not reblog this piece of perfectness ~

Oh my lord

It still amazes me of how accurate it is.