Nicole4usage

10 white6 black5 brown/south Asian2 Spanish

Yes I am luv 😘

Gangbang in a public park. I'd go nuts without cumming!

Mostly but not exclusively 😉

I have become addicted to the shame I bring to myself Aroused by my own secrets My darkness is a familiar hideaway A shelter from bleak realities that risk compromising my true self. I need pain on my terms Pain from a source who gains pleasure from giving it A source who’s reasons are real as the scars I hope to gain In this way, I could be the source of someone’s satisfaction I want to be hurt physically and emotionally My spirit is strong and wants to play So down the rabbit hole I go I crawled and begged and opened wide Wide enough for the right person to see And He saw He pushed me beyond my limit and I thanked him I thanked him after each strike He gently touched my face and told me I was doing great I smiled and he growled His face grew stern and I trembled My fear aroused him He then took me in every way I gave myself to him He fucked  hard and I received without question I took the brunt as well as what it produced at it’s finest moment When it was over I walked home by myself in the dark The night’s events were evident in my tattered appearance I displayed myself as used for others to see I wanted them to know I made a sacrifice I gave myself for use to satisfy a need I did not receive money I was not that kind of whore I sold myself for use and in return received shame I eagerly swallowed his ill repute and let it live inside me This shame aroused me and gave me the will to keep on going I was an addict now, for this beautiful self destruction I believe it was an art what I did The physical and emotional sensations made me feel so real The humbling sting of words and blows painted different textured and coloured strokes on my being I had been a canvas for both our darkest expressions But I need more now I am not satisfied with being one piece of art. I want to be a museum of usage and shame On my darkest days I want everyone to see I want people I know to see me reduced to this recipient of moral filth I want them to see me in the midst of my degradation See me reduced to holes and flesh But I can’t do that There is no returning from there Instead my canvas is my words And these are those of a thirsty deviant

I'm getting thicker 🍑🙈

Of course!

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