Nibal

I know how this sounds. It makes me sound like a dirty person. but, listen why do I have to take a shower everyday. I'm not going anywhere. I'm not doing anything and you tell me somebody make me sweat and I have to take a shower. all my clothes are dirty. I have nothing. I know there's a spa out there. life sucks in this dirty apartment room. I've been dreaming about going to the liquor and drinking it. Where ever it is. Life. What am I supposed to do? I don't have nothing. Nobody loves me. sometimes at night and when I wake up. I dream there is somebody next to me. to comfort me with their love. when? when will I get married? what about me? I don't care? Never? why listen? What if? is the only thing I listen to questions? Life is a beautiful thing. I want to live.