Single, Childfree, and in her 40's

I just needed to vent. Ofc I need to work and I have a good job.

WTF?! LOL. Okay, jewelry company! Out of the touch marketing team must not be aware of the male created Male Loneliness epidemic and the growing 4B movement in the US. Just cause TT got banned, and Trump is now president, doesn't mean the 4B movements have stopped. Doesn't mean dating is now worth our time. It's surprising how many women have just given up on the idea of entertaining a man or dating in general. It's now seen as something isnt worth the time and energy in doing. Dating is now seen as inconvenience, similar to going to a colonoscopy. We all should do it at some point, but we really dont want to.

Like hindering their own well being dumb.

I'm glad I was able to spend the holidays with my family.

#onthisday #dayinmylife #singleandhappy

Now, 42 and single. It took several fights and me moving out twice, but I FINALLY left him. Good, I got so sick of Manuel. I got sick of the "We're happy/We're not happy" BS. I got sick of trying to make things work. Im got sick of his disrespect. It's been 5 months since I left him. My only regret is not leaving him sooner.

Moved to Nevada. Was not my idea, but he went ahead bid on a place, got approved, then bought a place. Did I think the sale would actually go thru? No, not all, but it did. I am surprised, but he did help me reach my goal of living my old state and moving to a neighboring state. So why not Nevada? It’s a nice city that we are in. It is a Big City which is something we are not use to. We are near the Las Vegas Strip, but far enough to where we do not get the tourists. 3rd day in this new city so there is a lot of unpacking to do and school work to catch up on.

In my 20′s I just wanted to have fun and I did. In my 30′s I just wanted to have better....better home..better health..better income. What I really wanted in my 30′s was to fall to love and I did. However this love wasn’t and isn’t the healthiest. When I turned 35 I knew I wasn’t doing “better” at anything so I started to make changes. I started focusing on school. I started couponing and doing other things to save money. When I turned 38 I learned how to budget and I started a BS program however my relationship has often gotten in the way of my goals and now at 40 I can see. I can see what is wrong with my relationship. I can see that he wants a cheerleader. I can see that he doesn’t want a partner that makes as much as him. He wants a partner he can make fun and tease about having a “woman brain.” I see now. Now I plan how to make my future better.

Sometimes you need to do something nice for yourself.

and it’s time to work on positive changes. I grew up poor and in an uneducated environment. Most of the adults in my life, when I was a child, didn’t graduate from High School so University was just something that rich people did... yeah well it’s 2021. Times have changed and I will be getting my Bachelor’s. It is never too late to start and make positive changes in your life.

Ugh! It so hard to be with someone that struggles to communicate. Its impossible for me to be able to read his mind. So I try. I communicate with him. I remind him and ask him to communicate clearly. I remind him that I can not read his mind. So for now, we continue and work on our relationship. We move forward. 

Oh my gosh! Another night of him just spouting off some ridiculous bullshit! Today it was “We don’t do Sunday” and “We don’t go anywhere” then I pointed out that he can go ahead and be in charge of Sunday Dinner since Sunday’s salmon dinner wasn’t good enough for him and I, also, reminded him that we saw A Quiet Place 2 on Saturday, but I guess we are just some boring old couple that doesn’t go anywhere or does a proper Sunday Dinner. Ugh I am getting tired of him. He response is “Sorry! didn’t mean to offend you!” well guess what?! when you pretty much say we don’t do anything or go anywhere I do get offended cause last time I checked there are 2 people in this relationship. I, unlike him, am have responsibilities like my Bachelor's program and a full time job plus cleaning up after him, the cats, and myself so I do take offense

The only good thing about CVS is that whenever I need a job I now I can apply online and receive a call within a few days. Is it a great job? NO. Is it at a CVS location close to home? NEVER. But, whenever I need to leave my current because I can longer stand it there I know that CVS will hire me right away then I can start searching for a job that I may want to stay at for awhile. One other perk about working at CVS is that I keep receiving settlement checks. So far that lowest was $19 and the largest for $321. Crazy huh..... can’t to get my bachelor’s degree and change career

Another dollar. At least for now I am working, but the plan is that in 7 weeks I stop working so I can get my bachelor’s early...ugh I’m scared. I fill like I am too old to be changing careers... luckily I look younger then what I really.