editing characters i like

I wonder if Simon feels an obligation to get himself out of his current situation because Maddie has saved him so many times. He already knows she’s going through a bunch of other stuff and doesn’t want to add more weight on her shoulders. And maybe that’s also why he was so desperate to help her in season 1 and season 2. He might’ve thought he owed her for saving him since they were kids. Not that he wouldn’t have helped her even if he didn’t feel like he owed something to her. No matter the situation Simon would’ve done anything he could to help Maddie. But I think it adds another layer to his decision to help her. Maybe it makes him more reckless, more desperate. And more willing to sacrifice much of his own life and future for her.

The paragraph above stems from thoughts I had hearing Simon's reply to Maddie after she says she wants to save him. She wants to return that favor. Simon doesn’t necessarily reject it but his reply expresses that she doesn’t need to save him because she’s done it many times since they were kids. An alternative interpretation could be that he is reassuring Maddie that she has saved him before. However, even in this case it’s interesting that he states ‘so many times’ as if to emphasize that she has saved him just as much if not more than he has her. Either way it feels like he’s not accepting her help. Which could be out of fear for her safety since she’s alive again and he doesn’t want her to risk it on him. Or he feels like he doesn’t deserve it the way she deserved his help. I don’t know if I would say Simon has no self-worth but this season has me pondering whether he cares about himself at all outside of his family and friends.