Let me tell you a story...

The older I get, no.

not to get too deep on main but did anyone else have such deeply rooted issues with their self worth for so long that they thought as a kid/teen that their only redeeming feature was being “low maintenance” and now as an adult you give yourself guilt pangs asking for any more than the barest minimum in virtually any relationship because asking for things might negate your only good quality which is just “doesn’t ask for things”

#you don’t believe you can be liked so you settle for being useful 

the thing that makes xfiles truly truly transcendent is the way it is always showing us mulder & scully quietly observing and reacting to each other. if those two were even a little bit less obsessed with each other then it wouldn’t be as good. i’m not even talking about the romantic aspect of their interest. they are just fascinated by each other. they will never close the gap of fully and completely understanding each other but they will strive for it for eternity and that’s what makes them so good