Nether2010

Rewatched TDP finally again and damn, it’s still good

I’m back from the death and got some stuff i made!!

The rose quartz one is made with my mew acrylic markers and the clay figure is from the steven universe light series. The one and only GEORGE

Lately i’ve been hating myself and i hate knowing that i seriously need to tell someone about these thoughts i have. I genuinely am exhausted and no matter how long i sleep it doesn’t go away. There are days where I can’t even get out of bed because i just feel too exhausted to do so.

I’ve been feeling like that for now a while and it’s making me believe that I’m destroying my friendships. I know they told me that i can vent to them if I’m feeling self destructive or depressed, but the feeling won’t stop that i’m burdening them with my problems.

It already got so bad that i actually SH for the first time two weeks before Christmas. I felt so ashamed after this that i wasn’t even able to do anything except lay in my bed and feel ashamed of myself.

I can’t even eat sometimes cause of how my grandma talks about my body as if i don’t see it myself. It’s always her who approaches me and tells me that she noticed that i gained weight. No shit, i have a mirror at home. I know how my body looks like, it’s always too when I’m finally coming to the conclusion that my body is actually fine and that i should love myself just how i am.

Sometimes i just want to end it all just so i can finally be in peace.

I am grateful for my younger sister who always makes sure i either eat when i tell her I didn’t eat the whole day or smth related to it. Or when she makes sure i didn’t SH again. I just hate how my head tells me that she shouldn’t do that and that I the older one should do that, not the other way around.

Some drawings i made during my internship at my old daycare. I just love drawing the garnets(+obsidian). I’m still decided if i should give pyrope also a more square head or not(since in her concept art she used to have a more pointy chin)

Small sketchbook dump cause why not, plus i recently rewatched toh again and remembered how good this cartoon actually is

Some opal sketches i did bc if i’m gonna learn anatomy then with one of my favorite fusions: Opal

sometimes I remember I have a free will and can draw anything I want, dunno if that's good or bad tbh.

relatable

i‘ve been drawing the garnets lately. I should really draw pyrope more

first two poses are from @mellon-soup