YOU ARE THE REASON

Origami Around
Claire Keane
i don't do bad sauce passes

ellievsbear
ojovivo

romaâ

JVL
he wasn't even looking at me and he found me
sheepfilms
Alisa U Zemlji Chuda
Peter Solarz

blake kathryn
trying on a metaphor
I'd rather be in outer space đ¸
NASA
art blog(derogatory)
d e v o n
$LAYYYTER
Game of Thrones Daily
seen from United Kingdom
seen from United States

seen from TĂźrkiye
seen from United States

seen from Australia

seen from Yemen

seen from Malaysia
seen from Germany
seen from Romania

seen from United States
seen from TĂźrkiye

seen from Germany
seen from United States

seen from Russia
seen from United States
seen from Iraq
seen from Malaysia

seen from United States
seen from United Kingdom
seen from United States
@nerissatutiven

Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
Free to watch ⢠No registration required ⢠HD streaming
The Fisherman
This is a written piece I wrote, that came to be in 2014.
*Please note there are some areas that need to be worked out.
âThe Fishermanâ a poem
*The word âmanâ is used in its original context to define a âhumanâ
For my Sister
Scene 1:
Narrator:
Salt! in the Ocean Air
I breathe you in fair
I breathe you in deep
I breathe you in whole
I breathe you in sweet
I breathe you in truth.
A man is only a man
but the fisherman is you
(Narrator)
Never felt so whole
Never felt so hollow
(All)
Never felt so whole
Never felt so hollow
Narrator
On the Lip of a Cliff
lies a girl, so sick
lays a woman so roundâŚ
lays a serpent so soundâŚ
(pause)
Mer-girl:
Dear Mother! Iâm stuck
Narrator:
cried the Mer-girl so struck!
cried the mer-girl in fearâŚ
cried the mer-girl sincereâŚ
Mer-Woman:
âWhatâs wrong with you girl?â
as she swallowed a pearl
The mer woman listened
Mer-Girl:
My heart is thumping,
My tail is stuck
I canât make a decision
Iâm tangled up
(Serpent) Kundalini :
I am at the base of your spine
When you do not release me
I bite at your feet
(Swim @ Your Core) Shook to the core
Shook to the core
Shook to the core
Mergirl:
This caught me by surprise
Albeit I had some signs
Dear Mother,
My individuality
has been compromised
Narrator
You see the girl,
had fallen ill..
her mind had gone, at will
from a place of love,
to a space of none
no movement
No passion
No love
Frozen in time,
this maiden divine
could not see-
could not feel
her pure,
Creative energy
(Serpent) Kundalini:
Release me!
Swim @ the core x3
Shook to the core
Shook to the core
Mer-Woman:
You see, fair maiden
You must exercise your freedom
Release what you hold so tight,
and you just might
Rise
Mer girl:
What do you say?
Narrator:
said the mergirl with recall
(pause)
Narrator
you see the girl,
have fallen ill
Mergirl:
I shutter I cry,
for what are these lies?
that have my heart quaking
my tale shaken
my whole being contract
tied up like a mat
Narrator: Her tear ducts
Would not bleed
As the Mergirl contemplated
her mind felt antiquated
For she had tried
to hold everything in
not letting the world hear her sing
but what she needed
was the thing, that lay with in her
Kundalini: (tickels)
I am your potent, creative energy
You need not be afraid of me
Mer-Woman:Â
You see, my dear
the Serpentâs sincere
Dear Daughter,
You seeÂ
You must release your potent energy
***********************
Mer Girl
***********************
Serpant:
Breathe in the deductive air!
Breathe in in thick
Breathe it in rare
Breathe it with life
Breathe it with truth
Once you release it,
Only then will your body,
become a new.
Mer-Woman:
You see, fair maiden
A man is only a man,
if that man
is releasing his freedom
Climax
Metamorphosis:
As the mergirl lay,
She began to sway
She let all that she felt
Break the shell
And gently melt
as the Mergirl fainted
A man came to her
her heart felt - painted
from blacks and greys
to colors that sway
and swing,
in the breeze
Free of judgement
Free of sin
Iâm radiating from the outside in
Narrator:
King:
âHe lives inside,
the oyster shell
he licks his lips
for you to tell
the story of his life
of his legacy
of the battles heâs lost
of the trouble heâs seen
Fisherman:
he lives in the ocean
he lives
he lives by Fair
he lives in truth
for you to see
the story of his
legacy
the energy is only a legend
unless he lives in you
Never felt so whole
Never felt so fluid
Never felt so whole
Never felt so fluid
Narrator
The story of his life,
of his days
of his nights
Of the sorrows
that heâs conquered
of the battles that heâs lost
of the sadness
and the sin
that he washes
away
away
away
Feng Shui
The energy in my room is very intense. I need someone to feng shui.
Reflection
I desire to stop living in a place of abandonment, in order to fully express my inner goddess

Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
Free to watch ⢠No registration required ⢠HD streaming
Serenade
My corazĂłn sĂłlomiento abrar
Cuando tĂş cara
Cozyâs up, closely to mine
Cuando tu liengua
ensaùó me
the fabrics of
how to unwind
The pitter patter
of lifeâs chatters
Tengo nada
on your fifth dimension,
or the innate lessons
that you want to teach me
or reach me
Through your Serenade,
Serenade
Serenade
NT
A Lotus
A lotus
is a flower
although teathered and scour
that comes out of the murky water
Vibrant
and true
Illuminated
Fragrant
From all the lessons sheâs learned
And the Violet
And the Blue
An Olde Poem, by Nerieda
âA Poem for a Lover, A Poem for a Friendâ
This is the 10th or 12th time,
Iâve lost sleep over you
my desire to be with you,
vs. my desire to let you go
You are a Flying Laureate
and I am a bow
I cannot contain you
Yet the moment you touch my strings
I sing!
When quiet comes
I grow ill
So do not stray from me wordsmith
For the moment you touch down
You Elongate me.
- NT
to MIGLEP
Written April 2016
Health
What would you if you were loosing your life?
While my optimism is as positive as it can be, I am hyper aware that my physical body is not well. I lost so much weight, and energy. Itâs been difficult, bc as much as I love physical activity, itâs been hard to keep active,
I need so much help, and I truly cant believe the state of my physical health right now. I truly feel that the only thing that can help me, is immense love.
My Health
Iâm doing my best to be strong, there are many layers to this life. Physically Iâm not well.
I lost a lot of rest and weight back in April, when I went to GA. Itâs been hard for me to eat. Im so sad some days. - I feel like im not living the life Iâm meant to have.
I donât know what to do, some days I feel like Iâm fighting for my life. - I feel like Iâm too sensitive for this.
I feel like i get caught up in the world of other peopleâs expectations, I wish I knew how to prioritize my needs. I felt like I did at one time. I felt like I knew everything at one time. I felt like, that was, my truth. - I feel like Iâm fighting for my life.
I donât know why I feel like my knowledge needs to be protected. Itâs a fine line between private life and what needs to be shared. I feel like I wish I was brought up with a safer sense of sharing wisdom and knowledge.
I feel like I need a friends, a trusted ally. I feel like I canât do this on my own.
I feel scared.

Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
Free to watch ⢠No registration required ⢠HD streaming
Ecuadorian Women
It took me a long time to like and accept myself as a woman of Ecuadorian descent. Mostly because of the sense of self-loathing that seemed to seep through as a result of colonization.
What I have come to know, and define for myself
Is that Ecuadorian Women are,
Warm
Healing
Loving
Intuitive
â¤ď¸ NT
Ayurveda, June 2018
Hereâs the thing, I believe in optimal health. I believe that we are meant to feel good in our bodies, experience fragrance of mind, body, spirit; feel pleasant-feel awake-feel alive.
When I was diagnosed with bi-polar I, I couldnât comprehend. To be labeled as having a mental imbalance, a disease, just didnât feel right. I remember going to the doctor after two years of feeling acutely depressed, and thinking, âWhat, this can not be.â
That year in 2013, I struggled for two years, on and off different combinations of anti-depressant medication, each one making me feel less and less like the wholesome person I used to be. But, that is the thing about mental health, you will never feel the way you âused to beâ, you will only feel the way you want to be, or the way you allow yourself to be.
It took up untilâ 2015, for me to feel good, to feel better. It was a combination of a lot of things, and Iâm not going to say it was easy. But, staying true to the fact that I knew the medications were not for me, did have its impact and in some way, lead me to what started to feel right. In the Summer of 2014, I went to an Acupuncturist for the very first time. What was different about that was 1. It was my decision, and my decision alone, 2. I had always felt sub- subconsciously more attuned to Eastern practices, albeit my western upbringing, and knew that there traces of these practicesâ in my Ecuadorian heritage that were not commonly spoke of in my family, who chose to study Western medicine. After that session, things began to shift dramatically.
To feel in alignment, is a gift, as well as a divine birth right. It is to feel oneâs purpose, and to have a creative trust to know that all things are interconnected and that we are put here for the purpose of happiness, and to make each other happy. This is our core nature and our core desire.
I felt this after my Acupuncture session, and I felt it as a continued on what began as an innate atunement to Ayurveda. I began eating differently, I began painting differently, and I began living a lifestyle of more interconnectivity that allowed everything to flow more authentically.
But in 2016, I struggled again. As the weather shifted and it began to get more cold, my constitution could not handle the shift. I became really imbalanced, and things started to fall apart. I couldnât communicate clearly, I made promisesâ I couldnât keep, and I lost sight of my goals.
What I am learning is the importance of trust, and of passing the baton. There are a lot of layers in life, and it can be a trick to think that we are meant to carry everything on our own.Â
Some of us our fortunate enough to have the tribe mentality already instilled, some of us have to learn it along the way, but all of us have it ingrained.
The beauty, and synchronisty of life is what guides me, and enables me to see my larger purpose, and what I call my dharma.Â
I do believe we each have a unique code, and mine has glimmered on many occasions. I am enigmatic and out going, I bring people together, I inspire people, and I push them to be their most authentic selves. I have a Fine Art series, titled Neriedaâs Odyssey that tells the tale of an ancient sea goddess, and depicts the divine innate healing system, an art collective/kidâs cartoon story that brings collaboration and the music making process to light, and four traditional childrenâs books in the making.
Feeling an entrepreneurial spirit, but not coming from a background of entrepreneurs is my hurdle. I can feel the magnitude of my work, and I can see in my minds eye the amount of people I want to reach, but there are still parts missing.
I tend, most annoyingly, to see all the areas where I messed up, where I went wrong, and am really good at over analyzing them, and bringing them to the surface and starring at them. I am learning; how to focus on the accomplishments, on the areas of success and progress, and how to expand on them.
At 31, I feel a great need and desire to truly tune in to the inner working of my body and get a handle on it. I want to be able to communicate most authentically and truly amplify the gifts Iâve been given.
I want a deeper relationship with myself, and in turn deeper relationships with others.
For this reason, I am choosing to lean in deeper, connect with the Ayurvedic medical community, and truly make this the building blocks of my foundation.
âThe Warrior Womanâ and a tribute to Ana Tijoux
Writing More, as an Artist
Hi All,Â
Iâm am making it a point to write more. On here as a daily journal.
and on Medium.com as an editorial writerÂ
As I battle through the diagnosis of âbi-polarâ - it bewilders me to think that by not communicating or putting out my truth, my thoughts and idea could be lost.
As a Latin-American woman, it is important to me to continue to put my thoughts and ideas out there.
I have been on a journey to living a more holistic life. Through my studies of Ayurveda medicine, I have hope to be off medication in the next year, year and a half. It is quite beautiful what I am discovering on this path.
I went to see my general practitioner doctor last week, Doctor Nerieda Johnson and her report, that I am physically as healthy and strong as ever. Blood tests came back clear, cholesterol, heart rate, todo bein.
Which makes me feel calm, and confident to continue moving forward.
This last year, I feel like I have been hiding. Cocooning myself to âget betterâ before I can share my life with anyone. - This has actually caused me to feel weaker and in a way, ostracized from everybody.
What is truth is that I have a lot of light to share.
I want to be an animator. I want to form my own niche studio. I want to share my voice with the world. - I want to win awards.
For some reason in the past I have felt that hiding my gifts is wiser, then sharing them; and these are introverted behavoirs have not been getting me anywhere. I think one some level, there is some truth to it, but I also feel that connecting with people that are like-minded, is key to the expansion of my work.
I am also learning that the more I focus on movement-based work, the happier I feel.
I am praying the strength to continue to share.
Love + Light
April, 2017 New Moon Intentions
Okay here we go!
1. Connect with Publishers
2. Complete the âStory of Maiâ NT
3. Publish that book!
4. Interview on the West Coast
5. Sing Every Morning
6. Be more receptive to Growth, & Engagement
7. Grow in Abundance
8. Grow up in Love Self
9. Wake up at Sunrise
10. Trust

Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
Free to watch ⢠No registration required ⢠HD streaming
Ayurveda & a Life of Balance
Over the last three years (2014-2017) sitting with the diagnosis- of Bi-Polar disorder has been- well, pretty damn sucky. As a spiritual being in a body itâs nearly impossible to come to terms with such a diagnosis.Â
As it has been a frustrating up and down battle, that at times can feel very isolating- one thing that has come into my existance as a blessing, is the discovery of Ayuveda, and Ayuvedic Eating. This style of eating deriving from India has heavy grounding in eating seasonally, conciously, and according to your Mind & Body type. It is extremely interesting and I still have a lot to learn. Today after listening to Yoga Healer podcast with Cate Stillman (specifically the interview with Acharya Shunya), I discovered that I am Vatta (Air) mind, Kaffa (Water) body.
In this Dosha, The key to living emotionally balanced life is by building a supportive community around me. + as well as remembring to celebrate
This discovery brings me happiness, as I feel the community I have been building (NJ-GA) with my good friend Jennifer, has been something honest, real, healing, and ultimately necessary.
I also feel that I am on the right path, and that 1. I have to remember to celebrate! (+fun) and 2. eating can be the key to my emotional balance.
Standing tall in my discoveries!
Being a âGood Personâ
So often I am told, âYou are such a good personâÂ
The waiter at the diner last night continuing to check in on our table, completely enamoured by me, continuing to offer conversation, smiling, and not wanting me to leave.Â
Afterwards he came outside in the blanket of the night appearing to be on break, and told me âYou are just such a good personâ
I smiled, âThank Youâ
and left hurriedly
So often this happens, You are such a good Person.
What does this mean?Â
You see it gets to a point where I am looked at, completely starred at, pinned- and -people, they want something from me. and I just donât know what it is yet.
I donât know how to give in this way yet.
I have been gifted this. but- over the last few years feeling- completely tortured by this.
This âGood Personâ title, I want to own it.
I want to know how to get to the next step.
I want to transcend.