Lourde$$

We are all broken, that’s how the light gets in.

I knew I did from that first moment we met. It was… Not love at first sight exactly, but - familiarity. Like: oh, hello, it’s you. It’s going to be you.

My life is nothing but room for you,’ I said. ‘It could never be filled by anyone but you.

I’m not sure what I’ll do, but— well, I want to go places and see people. I want my mind to grow. I want to live where things happen on a big scale.

you might never understand my ways of you showing you love. Since I never really told you I love you. But I’ve expressed it into ways words could’ve never showed. I loved you when I woke you up from bed because you were having a nightmare. I loved you when I made us breakfast at 3am in the morning just because we were too lazy to go out. I loved you even when I took the bottle of vodka from you just to stop you from talking about how you wanted to marry me in your sleep. I loved you even in your darkest days when you wanted nothing but to fall asleep in my arms. I loved you so damn much when you were putting your favorite song in the car and dancing your worries away. I loved you so much when you told me your lame jokes and i called you an idiot. I loved you so much that I no longer thought the sea was what kept me alive. but you did. You were oceans and every damn sea and I couldn’t do anything about it , but fall inlove with you every single day. - you were oceans and every damn sea.

i am afraid that if i open myself i will not stop pouring. (why do i fear becoming a river. what mountain gave me such shame.)

I know. I’m very hard to talk to. I realize that.