brain soup

The Murderbot Diaries are a power fantasy about being aromantic and still developing extremely important dedicated emotionally intimate partnerships where you are a top priority in a person's life, equal to their other family or romantic attachments despite your own emotional difficulties. And having guns in your arms

And an autistic power fantasy about being able to watch your hyperfixation all the time, being able to code normal human behaviors and not make eye contact but still know what everyone is doing at all times. Also it contains having deep, meaningful relationships with people who respect and accommodate your behaviors without problem, such as when all the Preservationers don't look at Murderbot, accept its drones everywhere, and don't make fun of its love of Sanctuary Moon and media. They even engage it about its hyperfixation and ART watched media with it. The scene where Mensah told Murderbot she watched Sanctuary Moon because Murderbot loves it and she wanted to understand why broke me a little. They "You watched it?" was rough because no one has really tried to watch/engage with my hyperfixations before.

pride flag for nonbinary asexual aromantic individuals that just says "not gonna do all that"

and it has the dragon from the welsh flag on it

huge fan of when characters love each other and are closely bonded in an explicitly nonromantic way. however ☝️ i am very much not a huge fan of what happens when characters like this are introduced to fandom