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you are the language i speak everyday the article that i add to my day you are the adjective i need beside my name and the sane thing to keep me at bay

you are the conjunction i place between me and you you are the interjection i never expected that had my heart beat in surprise between me and you, i am is not a thing because in a team where I am yours and you are mine, we always say we are

at midnight, you say “don’t ever leave me, please” and i swore, i would never but it occurred to me did you ever tell me the reason? the reason to stay, to never go away

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i never feel like this i’m used to emptiness in my heart and in my arms you’re not what i’m used to you keep me guessing with things that you do i hope that they’re true ‘cause i’m never gonna heal my past if i run every time it starts so i need to know, if i’m in this alone

come on baby, say it first i need to hear you, say those words if I’m all that you desire, i promise there’ll be fire i need to hear you, say it first come on baby do your worst i know you’ll take me higher so come on darling if you love me, say it first

i know you’re right for me but I’m waiting for everything in your world to align with my world i think of you while i sleep i dream of what we could be if we grow together unfold

this song speaks a lot to me. all the words align with what i wanted to tell him. i mean, he does keep me guessing with the things that he do; the amount of care that he gives, the safety of his hugs, the warmth of his kiss on my forehead, what do all of these mean? i hope it’s love that you’re showing me. the affection, the care, the loyalty, the trust, the honesty, the intimacy, i know you love me. but i need to know. i need to hear it from you. am i in this alone? say it first. everything will turn out just fine if you tell me. if you just find it in yourself to realize that i’m waiting, constantly waiting for your next move. waiting for your world to align with mine already seems like a million light years. 

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everyone has their own love story. one that comes easy, one that goes through all sorts of bumps, and one that seems to be like a puzzle, waiting to be solved. my type of love story? well, mine’s the puzzle-like one, with all the twists and turns and without a cheat code. i don’t know how it all started. the sneaking around, the hiding. it just became our brand, our trademark, our game. it’s ironic how we’ve become so honest with each other, so open to each other, but still, we both know we’re still hiding something. i get it. you like me, i like you. but that’s it. and did i mention, we have this bond, this kind of relationship that feels like forever but the question still lingers? what are we? what are we if not two teenagers in love? this lingering question is what keeps me up at night. one that keeps haunting me, one that keeps coming back to me. 

whatarewe.jpg

everyone has their own love story. one that comes easy, one that goes through all sorts of bumps, and one that seems to be like a puzzle, waiting to be solved. my type of love story? well, mine’s the puzzle-like one, with all the twists and turns and without a cheat code. i don’t know how it all started. the sneaking around, the hiding. it just became our brand, our trademark, our game. it’s ironic how we’ve become so honest with each other, so open to each other, but still, we both know we’re still hiding something. i get it. you like me, i like you. but that’s it. and did i mention, we have this bond, this kind of relationship that feels like forever but the question still lingers? what are we? what are we if not two teenagers in love? this lingering question is what keeps me up at night. one that keeps haunting me, one that keeps coming back to me. 

sayitfirst.mp4

i never feel like this i’m used to emptiness in my heart and in my arms you’re not what i’m used to you keep me guessing with things that you do i hope that they’re true ‘cause i’m never gonna heal my past if i run every time it starts so i need to know, if i’m in this alone

come on baby, say it first i need to hear you, say those words if I’m all that you desire, i promise there’ll be fire i need to hear you, say it first come on baby do your worst i know you’ll take me higher so come on darling if you love me, say it first

i know you’re right for me but I’m waiting for everything in your world to align with my world i think of you while i sleep i dream of what we could be if we grow together unfold

this song speaks a lot to me. all the words align with what i wanted to tell him. i mean, he does keep me guessing with the things that he do; the amount of care that he gives, the safety of his hugs, the warmth of his kiss on my forehead, what do all of these mean? i hope it’s love that you’re showing me. the affection, the care, the loyalty, the trust, the honesty, the intimacy, i know you love me. but i need to know. i need to hear it from you. am i in this alone? say it first. everything will turn out just fine if you tell me. if you just find it in yourself to realize that i’m waiting, constantly waiting for your next move. waiting for your world to align with mine already seems like a million light years. 

at midnight, you say “don’t ever leave me, please” and i swore, i would never but it occurred to me did you ever tell me the reason? the reason to stay, to never go away

you are the language i speak everyday the article that i add to my day you are the adjective i need beside my name and the sane thing to keep me at bay

you are the conjunction i place between me and you you are the interjection i never expected that had my heart beat in surprise between me and you, i am is not a thing because in a team where I am yours and you are mine, we always say we are

Dear Nagini, 

    From the first day of school, I knew I you would be a part of my life. Not because you wore eyeglasses that remind me of another person. Not because you were behind my seat. It’s because I felt it. Uh, this is the first letter I’ve ever written for somebody so it’s kind of awkward. I really don’t know what to say. 

     You might cringe a bit but, I don’t care. I watched you recite in class. I watched you laugh. I watched you control the class. I’ve never looked straight into your eyes. Until one day, we became friends. We were just laughing at random puns and jokes. I knew I had a crush on you. I’m pretty sure you don’t. Anyways, I don’t know if I’ll ever have the courage to give this letter out to you. Nevertheless, I hope someday you’ll know this feeling. Because sometimes, you make school less stressful. Oh, and Christmas break is coming! Rest well. 

     Merry Christmas! Enjoy your holidays! 

Yours Truly