How tf is it 2026 already, swear it was just 2017 and all this shit was ahead of me. I turned 31 last month and still in the same place (mentally) I said I wouldnt be going into 2025. And 2024. And 2023. Idk whether to laugh or cry fr. Life is really passing me by, and I’m letting it. Barely socialize now, think 2023 was the last time I really went out. I’m taking less pictures, I’m smoking a hell of a lot more, haircut be far apart sometimes. And bills….yeah. Still single but I like to be fr. Still Chasing this silly ass dream and it’s really kill me inside.

Once it (depression) get a hold of ya, it’s hard to shake sometimes.

My fav 9th grade English teacher passed away recently. Lady had a heart of gold, may she rest in peace. It’s been 2 years now since my grandmother passed away, and all I can think about is mortality. I pray a lot more now than I have ever in my whole life.

I’m getting older but not feeling older , and thats where I’m havin trouble fr.

I need to work on consistency.

I need a gym and routine. I kno im gaining weight but the scale keeps saying the same weight, so one of us is lying.

First off, my Grandmother passed away December 12th. 3 days before my 29th birthday. And 3 days before we all as a family was going to be together. I didn’t get to see her or say goodbye. She had no known ailments, death was natural causes. I keep havin to tell myself she passed because it doesn’t seem real. it’s was really out the blue.

That’s how my 2023 ended. Other than that? Shit same as always wit me. Still Dolo, Bills still ain’t lettin up, still be high as a bitch.

2024 I’m changing 3 things about me. Ain’t gon talk about it cause I gotta show myself