A Fell Opossum

I'm glad I left belf fandom at last. There's nothing for me there anymore obviously, the blood elves are dead, but instead of moving on I still consider deleting my fics at least once per day lol. I probably won't but their very existence feels like a splinter, reminding me of my failure, of how I may have been responsible for destroying the ships I wrote for lmfao. Why even keep them up? The hits to kudos ratio is abysmal across the board which means people opened the fic, read some, and said "nah this sucks". And the comments are very kind but in that context I can't help but wonder if they aren't born out of pity... which is fine but if so I'd rather just delete to make space for something people want to read instead which is R*mbric. I permanently deleted most of my WoW fic WIPs from Ellipsus at least. Like... There's already the staple HalAethas fics out there so idk why I bothered? And I made a new ship tag, I wrote the first smut for another ship, I made a whole game in Twine for my friend's birthday and no one else cared about any of it hdfghjk idk!!! I feel stupid and like laughing stock I guess. Like I tried hard while everyone was laughing at me. I should probably just delete the fics nobody is reading but... I won't for as long as my one friend still wants to read them I guess. But she left the fandom first so idk.