Nat

my toxic trait is i will kill myself

at least theres still listening to music while staring at the ceiling

Be a teachable individual YOU DO NOT know everything

i dream of having a regulated nervous system

fuuuuck i just realized that the future idealized version of myself cant exist without current me being the catalyst for change and doing hard things. has anybody heard about this

do you ever hang out with someone else’s family and you’re like ooooh. so this is what it’s supposed to be like

um guys, I think we need to stop waiting for ‘the right time’ and just start doing the things we want whenever because the right time’s never gonna come, and if we keep waiting it’s just gonna turn into an endless cycle

can something good and pleasant happen to me now please

i am actually getting delirious like please

im doomed by the narrative but the narrative is a bunch of conscious choices i've made in the past

art will save you, being unreasonably passionate about something niche will save you, letting past sources of joy show you the way back to yourself will save you, earnestness over composure will save you, the natural world will save you, caring for something bigger than yourself will save you, daring to be seen will save you, kindness not as a whim but a principle will save you, appreciation as a practice will save you, daring to try something new will save you, grounding will save you, love will save you, one good nights sleep will save you

If anyone needs me I’ll be dissociating