Self Discovery

I don't know what this is

I know better but I don't do better

Trapped in a loop of constant distraction

Watching time fly by

Doing nothing productive

I wonder what will become of me

Is this what mediocrity is?

My brain seized by the screens

Unable to unglue my face from it

I know I'm feeding a monster

That will bite me in the future

But I don't know how to stop it

Let alone conquer it

Nights I spent regretting how I spent my days

Wishing I've done something I would be proud of

Instead I lay there

Wondering if is this really all I could be?

A zombie

Walking through life half alive

Desensitized by the digital overload

Wondering if I would ever come alive?

I'm letting this rot my true self

My potential left degrading

Self sabotage

It's like I'm killing the light inside me

I don't mean to

But it's got a hold of me

A temporary high

And I don't know to break it

Can't resist the temptation

I need to escape my mind

From my self built prison

I'm losing my light

I'm drowning in my treason

Can't even look me in the mirror

How can I live with myself

When I'm betraying my heart

By subscribing to this chronic addiction

Unable to actualize

The reason for my existence

Every single time you do something good, you’ve made a decision to make the world a little brighter.

I don't know what this is

I know better but I don't do better

Trapped in a loop of constant distraction

Watching time fly by

Doing nothing productive

I wonder what will become of me

Is this what mediocrity is?

My brain seized by the screens

Unable to unglue my face from it

I know I'm feeding a monster

That will bite me in the future

But I don't know how to stop it

Let alone conquer it

Nights I spent regretting how I spent my days

Wishing I've done something I would be proud of

Instead I lay there

Wondering if is this really all I could be?

A zombie

Walking through life half alive

Desensitized by the digital overload

Wondering if I would ever come alive?

I'm letting this rot my true self

My potential left degrading

Self sabotage

It's like I'm killing the light inside me

I don't mean to

But it's got a hold of me

A temporary high

And I don't know to break it

Can't resist the temptation

I need to escape my mind

From my self built prison

I'm losing my light

I'm drowning in my treason

Can't even look me in the mirror

How can I live with myself

When I'm betraying my heart

By subscribing to this chronic addiction

Unable to actualize

The reason for my existence

We have a tendency to think that we have a separate self that is born at one moment and must die at another, and that is permanent during the time we are alive. As long as we have this wrong view, we will suffer; we will create suffering for those around us, and we will cause harm to other species and to our precious planet.

We are not limited to our physical body, even when we are alive.  We inter-are with our ancestors, our descendants, and the whole cosmos. We don’t have a separate self, we are never really born, and we never really die. We are interconnected with all life, and we are always in transformation.

Can you see how you are continued in your parents, in your brothers and sisters, in your teachers and friends? Can you see the continuation body of your parents and loved ones? We don’t need to get old or die in order to see our continuation body. We don’t need to wait for the complete disintegration of this body in order to begin to see our continuation body, just as a cloud doesn’t need to have been entirely transformed into rain in order to see her continuation body. Can you see your rain, your river, your ocean?

Each one of us should train ourselves to see our continuation body in the present moment. If we can see our continuation body while we’re still alive, we’ll know how to cultivate it to ensure a beautiful continuation in the future. This is the true joy of living. Then, when the time comes for the dissolution of our physical body, we will be able to release it easily.

- Thich Nhat Hanh, in ”The Art of Living”.

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- Dreaming in Wonderland -

by Pedro Gabriel