Natascia .D.

I love saying “no worries” instead of “it’s okay,” like do not spend a single millisecond of your finite mortal existence letting anxiety over this situation consume you. I have already erased the incident from the timeline. It is gone. You are safe now.

my body knows something that i don’t and i can’t get her to talk to me

having a best friend who meets your level of freak is unmatched. you present them with the most unhinged, deeply buried thought from the depths of your psyche and instead of blinking blankly they just go "oh absolutely"—and I think that mutual brain rot like that is the highest form of intimacy actually.

at war with myseIf because I know I can do better.

that awkward moment where you’re talking to distant relative and they ask about your hobbies and you’re like “oh, you know, i read a lot and i like to write!” and they’re like “oh what do you write? sci-fi?” and then suddenly all the 10k wips of ABO mpreg heat fics and several 5k whumps of kpop idols going through it and too many reader-inserts of jason todd ALL flash through your mind before you timidly relent to saying: ‘oh, you know, like, fantasy.’

people really do say fuck you in different ways, just pay attention

guys, if i do kill myself and never published any books or anything please copy all my best tumblr posts and arrange them into a deeply moving stream of consciousness narrative and submit it to the new yorker on my behalf. i feel like i can count on you. don't let my life and posting have been in vain

they should invent one lifetime for living and another for reading