Nostalgic For Disaster

we fell in love because of our differences,

this feeling when you're lying alone at night crying eyes out fighting your brain telling you to off yourself or relapsing and literally noone knows and also noone is here it's just you and your fucking head and you literally don't know what to do but don't want to tell someone how u feel bcs it feels like you're complaining when u shouldn't or bcs maybe others have it worse so u just suffer alone not knowing what to do and hating yourself

“Having anxiety and depression is like being scared and tired at the same time. It’s the fear of failure, coupled with no urge to be productive. It’s wanting friends but hating socializing. It’s wanting to be alone but not wanting to be lonely. It’s feeling everything at once, yet being paralyzingly numb.”

No one can understand, how f*cked up I really am.