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If I’m being honest, I don’t want to do it anymore. I’m in love like I’ve never been before but now I’m always wondering if she’ll fall out of love with me like the rest. If she’ll fall for someone else just like the rest of them did. Leave me for someone else like the rest of them did. I’m just so tired. I feel like everyone I meet falls fast and then they get to know me and then they find out quickly it’s not what they wanted. You hear about couples that last for 40 plus years. I guess deep down, I know, I’ll never be good enough for anyone.

I’m always the one sitting alone in my sadness while you’re out being perfectly fine like you ignoring me isn’t tearing me apart.

I’ve been better lately. I’m not as sad as I used to be but I’m not going to lie. Let’s be honest, I never want to lie to you again. But truthfully speaking, I miss you. A lot. I really wish I could just speak to you about everything. As a friend. Like before we got involved with each other. I still check up on you every now and then. It makes me happy to see you so happy. I still pray for you and your fiancé. I wish you guys nothing but happiness. However, I do want you to know where I stand. If for some unfortunate circumstance that you and her didn’t work out. If for some reason the tables turned in an unlikely manner, I want you to know if you were to come to me. I’d let you. If you wanted to come back to me. Id take you. In a heartbeat. Regardless of all the shit that happened. No matter how long it has been. I still love you so much. You’re the one girl in my life that I would give it all up for because Isabel, you are worth the risk. Every single time. There are certain things that I adore. And those things keep me honest. Overall, I want nothing but the absolute best for you. And I pray you receive all of it.

It’s so different in Maine.