𝙽☆𝚗𝚒𝚕𝚕𝚊𝚙𝚒𝚎

Nana's diary #1,

I got a tetanus shot today because I sliced my palm on a rusty staircase, most embarrassing interaction with a doctor I ever had💔

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I'm gonna be be brave and post this because I'm pretty sure this person won't ever touch tumblr let alone heard of it. ㅤㅤㅤㅤ ❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:･°❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:･°🐝⋆.ೃ࿔*:･°❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:･°❀

So July of 2025, I met this boy whom I'll call "bee" on a spelling bee contest and we got pretty close, I honestly thought we'd just be those friends that see eachother in hallways and wave or just silently pass.

That was the case until February 2026 when we started greeting eachother when we meet and texting more often. We seemed close and started getting shipped by people at our school, it also doesn't help that we have the same circle of friends. Usually when we got shipped he'd say "nahh" and I'd deny any insinuation that we were together.

April came around and I went on this youth program which he just so happened to also be involved in. I noticed he always wanted to be around me, even asked me to accompany him to buy gum when everyone was already on the bus. By this point I already suspected he might've been interested in me but I didn't want to jump the gun by saying anything so I ignored any comments he said and any dating allegations by our friends in the program.

June 2nd, he confessed to me over text. He had told me about a girl he liked and asked me to help him confess, he was being pretty obvious that this "girl" is actually me, saying things like "her face looks like yours" or "she has a personality & vibe like you" but I just kept acting oblivious until he confessed.

The next day when I went to school I ran into Bee who was in my class. Almost everyone I ran into that knew both him and I already know, my friend who was Bee's classmate said that I didn't exactly reject him and I was kind of upset that he thought me being friendly to him all this time meant I liked him. After school during practice my friend called me over and asked on Bee's behalf if I liked him which I firmly denied, I talked about how he confessed to me and my other friend that Bee had called him to tell him that he'd confessed to me. He also stated that this morning Bee was in my class because he wanted to see me (Bee's a year younger and his class is in a different block) .

Yesterday (12th June), after school when I was sitting at the bus stop, a boy who rides the same bus as me yelled my name and when I turned around I saw him sitting with Bee and a group of boys, I was so embarrassed. I didn't want anything to do with Bee by that point but what was I supposed to do? Ignore him? Block him? After school Bee texted and apologised for the embarrassing moment, he admitted that the boy was being extra. Bee also asked if I should joined choral speaking but I just gave him a dry response and turned my phone off.

I don't hate Bee but I just wish he'd stop trying to always be around me. My teacher sent a text telling us to write down our names if we were interested for this year's spelling bee contest and for a long time no one replied, but the moment I wrote my name, Bee instantly wrote down his. I was also pretty annoyed that Bee wanted to join choral speaking because he literally has handball training and I know he only wanted to join so he could be near me. Afterschool time during choral training was the only time I could be with my friend circle without Bee but he just had to be there too.

I was pissed at him during one of our program trips because he hadn't charged the iPad we were supposed to use for editing and we had gotten into an argument. During training one of my friend who was his classmate told me that he had called me "childish" and cute. For some reason that pissed me off because 1, I'm insecure about my personality and 2, did he think I was flirting with him??

I'm also so annoyed and done with school because before everything it was peaceful. I'd got to school, get work, go home and repeat. But very recently my friend pulled me aside and asked if I like "F" because she had overheard a few girls talking about me and his when they passed. Now this is ridiculous because anytime "F" sees me(even for a few seconds) he'd shout my name and salute(it's an inside joke with the boys in my old class). So if any allegations were to be made it should've been about "F" having a crush on me, not the other way around🥹.

I don't know anymore, I just wish Bee hadn't caught feelings for me and he'd just leave me alone. There's so much more little situations that ticked me off but I don't think they're that important to get the point across.

-Truthfully,

First tumblr thingy ever, no idea how this works but I'm just gonna write about my first youth program trip because I miss it.

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Sometimes when I'm laying in bed I think about 24th April, the trip was long and rainy, the bus was cold and spacious. Sometimes it was quiet and then my friend would pass candies around and we'd sing white girl songs(beauty and a beat & the one that got away was my fav).

I especially loved the rest stops because it felt cool to be so far away from home with friends. An older gentleman even asked if we were a sports team because of our school uniforms.

Around 8PM my friend, F, prank called my friend "A" and I remember how fun it was, almost everyone was laughing and giggling. "H" had texted "A" pretending to be a kid from another school and was testing "A"s loyalty to "AH". Now I said almost everyone was having a good time because "AH" was crying because he lost his ID and his dad had yelled at him. (I found his ID and had given it to my teacher earlier). ٭☆

This might be just another trip away from home to some of my friends but as someone who is barely allowed to leave the house this whole program felt magical, I know I'll think about this day few years down the road and wish I could re-live it xx.