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Beni is very patient with you, after all, it wouldn’t be the first time she’s tried teaching someone to teach. And unlike the Servants she’s tried teaching, you were a fresh clean slate. There isn’t much unlearning that you have to do.

However, she didn’t realize just how much teaching she’d have to do. Making sure you fully understood how cooking worked, how different seasonings or the methods in which you cook something could change the entire outcome of the dish was probably the hardest thing. You were so used to cooking the bare minimum to survive while journeying through Singularities that you were content with just an egg.

Yet Beni found it enjoyable seeing you grow. You were a very dedicated student, and seeing as how much you enjoyed eating, it was clear that you were learning fast. The more you learned how amazing food could be, the more intrigued you were by all the combinations that could be made. It was impressive how quickly you were picking things up, but Beni was honestly not too surprised considering how quickly your mind worked on the battlefield. She was really proud to see how happy you were whenever someone ate your food and enjoyed it thoroughly. Whenever you would gush at her about how happy people were about the things that you made, she would simply reassure you that this is why people really enjoy cooking. Sometimes it’s not about just learning the skills, it’s also about finding the smaller details in life that makes you happy.

There are so many things that Enkidu doesn’t realize, and surprisingly the one thing that Enkidu has consistently forgotten about is the fact that their beloved Master and significant other is always trying to get their attention, but they don’t notice at all. 

Enkidu treats you like normal. You’re just their beloved master, someone that they will always strive to protect. They have learned so much from being able to be by your side and want nothing more than to continue being by your side. 

Sometimes, it made things more difficult whenever Enkidu was especially friendly to you. Whenever you were constantly actively trying to get Enkidu’s attention, it was always when you weren’t trying to get their attention that they would focus their attention onto you, and it almost always flusters you. You were never prepared. You weren’t sure if you looked good that day, or if you were prepared for what Enkidu had to say to you. And honestly, you were always surprised by them for the sudden attention, you always feel like you were going to lose your mind with how close they were all of the sudden and how attentive they were to your every single need

Regardless to say, it always drives you insane with how attentive Enkidu is to everything except for the fact that you were interested in them. Enkidu would know all of your likes and dislikes. They memorize your lunch order and they know exactly how sweet they like your drinks. Yet they had no idea that you were interested in them romantically.

Hello, I'm not too sure when requests will be open again. I've been really busy with stuff irl so I haven't had much time to write.

Jalter

Jeanne Alter would never admit that she was in love with someone. Even more so if it was her Master of all people. Yet it was hurting her more than anything in all of her life seeing her precious Master so in love and infatuated with someone that wasn’t her. She remembers when she had thought that those glance and fond gazes her Master gave her were the same as the ones she gave to them - ones with implications of love. That was most certainly not what Jalter’s master had given her. It was just fondness, as a friend, as a Master.

They were just glad to see Jalter flourish and feel more comfortable as herself despite her origins. That was it. But for Jalter, somehow she had grown far too attached. Far more than she ever planned to. It’s painful and at times, she finds herself going overboard during missions and simulations in hopes that it would get her Master’s attention. It might not have been attention for the right reasons, but it would be attention that was focused solely on her and that’s all that mattered to her.

Jalter’s unrequited love can become very unhealthy. She gets mad on her Master’s behalf. She throws herself head first into danger on her Master’s behalf. She will do anything for her Master’s sake, regardless of how much danger she puts herself in. She knows that by doing this, she can gain her Master’s attention in some way.

But if she’s not throwing herself into trying to gain favor, she’s avoiding her Master at all cost. She’s never been in love with someone before. She doesn’t know what to do with herself. She doesn’t want to do anything that may cause her Master trouble, but she also knows herself quite well. Jalter knows that her anger can cause problems. Because of her awareness, she does her best to absolutely avoid her Master when her emotions are running at an all time high. She finds it really hard for her to stay composed and it really causes her to lose her mind. She often locks herself in her room or beats up some simulation dummies to clear her mind of the fact that she still hasn't fully come to terms with the fact that she wasn’t the one that’s standing by her Master’s side.

Mash

Mash is the type to support her Master completely. Even if she is not the one that can stand by her Master’s side as their romantic partner, she will always be there as a friend. She’s there to support and to provide reassurance to both her Master and her Master’s partner as a friend.

There are times that she does feel really sad that despite all the hardships and difficulties she’s spent with her Master, they don’t feel the same. Yet it doesn’t stop her from being there for them whenever they need her. Yet she will do her best to not get in their way either. There are times that she does struggle with intervening - especially when it comes to knowing her Master’s tastes and preferences far better than anyone else.

She does try to distract herself by helping out in other duties. But it’s really hard to get alone time away from her Master considering her position and her role in Chaldea. She wants to make sure she doesn't end up being a third wheel too much, but she also knows that she has to find the right balance between her and her Master’s relationship so that the partner doesn’t end up feeling jealous or have malicious thoughts towards Mash or her Master.

Arjuna

Arjuna does not immediately respond. He hears the news, and it’s as though his entire world goes static. He can’t hear anything, it’s all white noise. But he can sense the chaos and tension that is permeating throughout all of Chaldea. 

It’s not until Mash runs by and informs him of the details that Arjuna is finally running towards the infirmary. He already knows that he will be denied entry. He knows that the chances of him being allowed inside are low, but he doesn’t care - he needs to see you for himself. He needs to determine that you’re alive and well, that you’re doing okay. 

As soon as he makes his way in, he feels like he can’t breathe. His eyes are locked on your frame, and he finds it hard for him to come to any sort of thoughts. All he can think about it is how pale you look. Your frame appeared smaller than before. Your hair was pushed haphazardly out of your way, with strands clinging onto your damp skin. Even though the room was rather cold, your body was burning and the sweat on your skin was evidence of that.

He can barely speak your name as he gets close enough to hold your hand in both of his. He’s trying so hard not to break down in front of everyone, but he also knows that he cannot leave your side. He refuses to. He’s terrified and anxious - scared that if he leaves, he may never see you again.

When he’s forced out of the infirmary so that the doctors could do their work, he struggles between sitting there and waiting patiently, or going out there to seek vengeance. If it weren’t for the fact that you had returned after you successfully reclaimed a timeline for yourself and the singularity was now sealed and closed off forever, he would’ve done it. 

While you’re recovering, he spends all his time checking in on you and telling you about all the stories about the happenings in Chaldea. His hands are always holding onto yours, and his voice is so soft and gentle, as though trying to lull you to sleep. In reality, he’s scared that he’ll disrupt the little bits of peace that he has right now. He knows that you are safe and that you are recovering, but it does scare him that you spend so much of your days sleeping. What if you close your eyes and never wake up again - it’s a really far reach for a what if, but he can’t help his fears causing him to be so paranoid. But every time you squeeze his hand in return and he sees your soft smile, he feels reassured that with time, you’ll be okay.

Gilgamesh

Gilgamesh is the first one to barge into the infirmary to see the situation for himself. He was informed almost immediately. Although, perhaps, informed was not the correct word. Gilgamesh has been monitoring your vital signs alongside Mash and Da Vinci as soon as they sent you out to check on that minute singularity. Despite his insistence on going along, you had denied him - stating that the Servants that were with you at the time of discovering it should be the ones to go with you. He regrets trusting someone besides himself to keep you safe.

His anger was - momentarily - directed towards them at first. He was frustrated and angered that he wasn’t there to help you. He should have been there. He knew for a fact that he was the best person to be by your side and protect you. It’s not as though the two of you haven’t been together since the very beginning of your journey in Chaldea. He wishes so strongly that he was there, and honestly if it weren’t for the fact that he’s been reprimanded by you countless of times to not start pointless arguments with other Servants in Chaldea. However, he does enact his ‘revenge’ in a different way by making the Servants that were there for you go through a much more extensive training regimen for them. The last thing he wants is for this mistake to happen again. 

He spends a lot of his time either pacing outside the hallway grumbling to himself about how your stubbornness led to this situation, but he also spends a lot of time just holding your hand and helping the medical staff take care of you. It’s one of the few times where he will change into clothes that are not so clunky and obnoxious and space consuming. He cares about you, and only wants the best. He was a bit clumsy when he first offered to help, but with the amount of time he’s spent watching over you, he’s gradually become better and better at taking care of you. 

Words cannot begin to capture the anger and eagerness that Asclepius is experiencing all at the same time. He’s infuriated that you went through an entire day's worth of missions and didn’t bring it up to him, yet at the same time he wonders if your injury is anything new. His desire to learn more and eagerness to see if there was something new and undiscovered almost overshadows his fear that he might lose you - almost.

He reacts quickly, immediately barking out demands to anyone nearby to set up a room while he gets you to rest on the floor. He lays you down gingerly and starts searching for any visible injuries. And while some Servants may disagree with Asclepius’ methods, they all know that you are in good hands as he goes over every expanse of your skin to make sure there are no open injuries. He finally finds the injury located on your upper right arm. It’s a tiny, barely visible injection site - most likely from some sort of insect or a small machine. Likely, it’s poison. He doesn’t know how you ended up getting poisoned, especially since he had been by your side the entire time during your most recent mission since he had only came along as back up.

He knows that it’s risky to move you, especially since the poison has been circulating for a while and god knows what kind of effects it will have, but you have to get to the medical rooms as soon as you can in order to make sure that he has the correct tools to extract the poison if possible. At times like these, he’s grateful that you have a strong immunity to poison, but at the same time he was intrigued, what kind of poison did the enemies use to render you so weak and fatigued? Your vitals were still stable, but your breathing was weak and shallow.

He ends up forcing everyone out of the infirmary in order to ensure that he could focus on your condition without any distractions. He did ask Mash to stay behind - but she wasn’t allowed inside the room, only outside - and only for him to ask her to grab more supplies if needed. He worked in absolute silence while treating you, and it worried Mash since the glint in his eyes showed that he was more curious about what kind of poison it was rather than your recovery. Although when it comes to poison, analyzing the poison and crafting an antidote for it - so perhaps it checks out.

I’m okay! I haven’t been writing as much as I wanted to due to a lot of personal life stuff that came up. I tried writing a lot while I was gone, but I was unsatisfied with everything that I was making so I just kind of took a break from writing headcanons for FGO. I just never felt satisfied or happy. But I’m doing better now and am hoping to slowly get back into the groove of writing again. I don’t know if I’ll ever open the request box since I’m not writing daily, but we’ll see! - mod Jenn

Arjuna really doesn’t handle praises or actions of love very well. You would think he does considering how he goes out of his way to make your life better, but perhaps it’s because he is so caught up in atoning for things that he has done wrong or trying to better himself that he forgets that he’s allowed to experience happiness while in the moment.

Yet despite his awkwardness when receiving your affections, there is no doubt that deep in his heart he is on cloud nine. He loves how much attention you give him. He loves how you’re always thinking of him and how you’ve internalized every single detail about him. It flusters him and makes him strive to do even better as both your Servant and your significant other.

It’s known by everyone in Chaldea that if Arjuna is doing exceptionally well in a simulation or training, that usually means that he’s been spoiled and pampered to the point where he wants to do his absolute best for you. There are moments where he gets way too enthusiastic and ends up going a tad bit overboard, but it’s endearing to watch (for you) and amusing for the others. It’s especially fun for certain Servants to see Arjuna acting as though he isn’t affected by your actions when in reality that’s all that’s running through his mind - you.

When Arjuna first started sharing his favorite foods that he missed having, he’ll be honest with you, he didn’t expect you to go out of your way to learn it. Now, he should have known when you first asked that you were up to something to pamper him yet again. He should have known, yet how could he suspect you of anything when you had asked him so innocently and so casually. It was so casually brought into the conversation that he had no idea that you were going to use the knowledge of his favorite foods and activities to surprise him. You were always doing so much for him and always working so hard on making him feel like he is loved and wanted and he just wants to do everything in his power to make you happy in return.

He truly appreciates you and loves you, and while he knows that he tends to get so flustered that he denies that you’re doing things he likes - especially in public - he does try to reciprocate everything that you’ve given to him back to you. He’s awkward about it, but you know he means well. He’ll ask Mash about your favorite foods, he’ll even consult Emiya or Tamamo Cat for cooking advice to make it, but every time he’ll hand it to you, he’ll make some excuse about how he made too much. Or maybe he heard that you liked this kind of stuff in passing when the others were making it, but he’ll never admit that he was the one that made it.

Sometimes, it drives Melt insane whenever you completely dismiss her harsh remarks or cruel suggestions and actually takes it to heart. A part of her finds it rather amusing, another part of her finds it extremely concerning that you’ll be doing something that could potentially get you and others into trouble.

In the beginning, she thought that her Master was just extremely slow and didn’t understand what was going on, but as time went on, Melt came to realize that maybe - just maybe - you’ve been taking her literally this entire time. This realization hits her pretty hard and suddenly all of your strange actions after her comments were making a lot of sense.

For example, the time she mentioned that maybe it’ll be easier to get dragon claws if they didn’t kill the dragon and just chopped off their feet instead. “Who knows, they’ll probably grow their feet back and we can just keep farming the same one.” That was her off-hand comment, and she remembers how panicked the other Servants accompanying them were when you had asked how hard it would be to capture and keep a dragon alive. Thankfully they talked you out of it, and honestly, that would explain why so many of the Servants were actively trying to keep her away from Master.

Melt finds it amusing, and did want to see how far you would take her words literally, but her amusement cuts into panic and regret after seeing the consequences. She had recommended a strategy. It was a risky one, but she also knew that with the Servants currently accompanying you, you would be fine. Or at least, you were supposed to be if it weren’t for some arrogant comment she made as she got overconfident in the success of her plan. You took her literally again - Melt knew you would have if you heard her, and she didn’t take into account that you were close enough to.

It won't be for a while! I don't have a set day to reopen requests. It's been hard for me to find time to write, and my consistency isn't as great as it was back then.

Arjuna

Arjuna is rather perceptive of your emotions, but it drives him insane that you won’t talk to him about it right away. He wants nothing more than to be there for you and to help you talk through your emotions instead of hiding it all away. But he knows your personality, and he knows how you had a habit of pretending that you were okay when you really aren’t.

He’ll play along to a certain extent. He’ll help you on whatever tasks you’re currently doing, but he’ll do his best to make sure to take the brunt of it. He didn’t want you to burn out from overworking yourself. Yet he could see the sign, he could see how you continue to force yourself to work harder, to pick up more tasks, and to be there for every single meeting and briefing despite the fact that you didn’t really know what was going on.

It’s when he sees the dark circles beneath your eyes and the way your attention span is near zero that he finally takes matters into his own hands to intervene. He’s adamant and extremely stubborn towards your continual burn out. He knows that you won’t talk about it unless he pries it out of you, so prying it out of you is what he’ll do. Arjuna sits next to you in your bed, his hand gently holding yours as he speaks to you in the calmest and most reassuring voice possible. He just wants to know what’s going on in your mind, and why it’s causing you so much grief that you aren’t able to actually focus on anything.

It breaks his heart when he finally sees your walls crumble down and your emotions are fully out in the open for him to realize and for you to acknowledge. His heart sinks and he knows for a fact that there is something really really wrong if it took you this long until you finally acknowledged your current emotional situation.

He gently takes you into his arms and holds you as close as he can to comfort you. Arjuna awkwardly pats your back, and pulls you onto his lap. His touch is gentle and the warmth from him lulls you to be so comfortable that your guard drops completely. You end up spilling out everything that you’ve been bottling up, though your words are cut off every now and then whenever your tears choke you up. But Arjuna is patient and understanding as he waits for you to calm down enough for you to formulate your thoughts properly. The entire time though, he promises to himself and to you that he’ll try to make sure you don’t reach this breaking point ever again.

Karna

Karna is very perceptive of your emotions and he’s also quick to pull you aside to talk about them. He does everything in his power to make sure that you don’t actually burn yourself out or overwork yourself in order to distract yourself. After all, Karna sees the dark circles and the swollen and red eyelids you’ve been sporting - and it hurts his heart seeing you like that.

Karna knows how much you enjoy physical touch and how much it helps you calm down. It makes a big difference in pulling you away from those thoughts. He can hear your heartbeat and the rapid pace it was setting for itself as you had worked yourself up due to your concerns. He knows that you were in a dark place and needed some sort of light, a pillar of some sort to support you. He knew this, and he was going to do everything in his power to make sure that you knew that he was there for you.

His touch was always the best way to ground you. It kept you calm and reassured, and he could tell from the way your breathing was slowly stabilizing and calming down that it was helping. The entire time he’s holding you in his arms, he’s softly whispering reassurances to let you know that everything is okay. He won’t pry into the exact details that have caused you to fall apart, but he does continue to hold onto you until the tears finally subsided and you’re no longer trembling in his arms.

The original Cu Chulainn was always the one that spent time with their master. After all, Cu Alter refused to deal with them when they got too into analyzing their history that led to the creation of Cu Alter. It drove Cu Alter insane how much their master idolised them, despite his origins.

But Cu was different. He was more than willing to entertain you with tales of their accomplishments, or stories about his childhood that were not completely documented. He wasn’t one to constantly regale others about himself, yet he loved the way his master’s eyes would light up. He loved the way they remembered every single detail about him and his other variants.

There were often times that their stories of him surprised him and the others too. They had no idea that the world perceived them in such a way, and the stories they hear always made them wonder how the story had gotten twisted and changed to that extent, yet none of them can deny how fascinating it is to hear about themselves from how the future was seeing them.

Lancelot is confused when he first comes to realize what is going on with his relationship with you. In the beginning, he had always assumed that his intense feelings of loyalty and dedication to your happiness were just caused by his regrets towards his King. Yet as he got to spend more time with you and get to know you better. He came to realize that that wasn't actually the case.

He didn't realize that he had a crush on you until he happened to come across seeing you losing your temper at some of the more rambunctious Servants. There was a suffocating feeling in his chest as he found himself wondering how terrifying it would be if he was on the receiving end. It was something he never wanted to deal with personally, yet at the same time, he wanted nothing more than to be there for you if you needed someone to talk to. He had reached out to you a few hours after, just to make sure if you were okay. And he was surprised when he had caught you in the cooling down stage after losing your temper earlier. You were clearly embarrassed, and quite frankly, it seemed as though you did not want Lancelot to see you like this. It was that very moment when he came to realize that his feelings towards you were not platonic at all.

He could not forget that faint flush on your face. He doesn't know if it was due to embarrassment or from the fact that you had just finished getting mad at someone. Whatever it was the cause of, he knew that he would have liked to see it again. In his eyes, you looked so precious and beautiful, but he certainly could not say that to you.

As much as he wanted to show how much he cared for you, he knew he couldn't actually do it. Not when it meant that it would change the relationship between the two of you would change. He was far too comfortable with what the two of you currently have to actually try to do anything about it. While he will crush on you from afar, or attempt to at least, his love language is far too loud for him to be subtle about it.

Lancelot goes out of his way to do anything and everything that will make your life easier. Whether it be picking up food for you before you go off on a Rayshift, or bringing you extra supplies that you’ve been searching for - he does it all. In his eyes, he’s simply doing his best for you. He knows about the burden that you carry and would want nothing more than to help alleviate some of that weight off of your shoulder.

So, I’m not.. completely back yet. The entirety of 2021 has been a really rough year for me and I’m slowly trying to get myself back together in general). I’ve been writing bits and pieces whenever I’m in the right mindset, so content will be sparse and random. But I hope you guys enjoy what I have so far! - mod Jenn Asclepius

He never expected you to be able to cook. He knew that you were, in general, a very average person - a jack of all trades if you must. There was nothing that you were particularly amazing at, and nothing that you were lacking in either. But he did know that of all the skills you’ve acquired, cooking would not be considered your strong suit. So when you had first asked him what kinds of food he was interested in, his curiosity was immediately piqued, but so was his concern.

He didn’t know what to expect. Would there be a fire alarm going off later in the day? Would you end up attempting to force feed him some sort of concoction that was nothing similar to anything edible in the world? Or would you somehow do some half-baked effort at his favorite dish? It was a strange predicament of his, where he was both excited and extremely terrified of what was to come from your cooking abilities.

Yet he was pleasantly surprised when he saw the various dishes from his childhood spread out before him. While they weren’t anything fancy, he could tell from the table before him that you had put all your effort into this. There were some bandaids on your hands, and while you had tried to hide it behind your back, Asclepius was always alert about how you were treating your body. He couldn’t help but shake his head and let out a soft sigh - not one of exasperation, but fondness.

He didn’t quite have the words to express that he was pleasantly surprised by your gift to him, and he simply took a seat at the dining table and began to sample each dish. Each one was familiar and spread warmth throughout his body. He doesn’t recall the last time he had any of these dishes, and honestly, he’s amazed that you were able to recreate it with such accuracy despite the fact that you’ve never even gone outside of your own hometown before the whole Chaldea thing happened.

He does ask you how you managed to cook all of this on your own, and he could tell from the way you chuckled and took a step back that you clearly did get some help. You didn’t reveal who, and Asclepius doesn’t pry any further. He was simply content with the knowledge that you did all of this for him. Of course, while he is enjoying his meal now, he does plan on double checking your hands later to make sure you applied the correct ointment to prevent any scarring from the cuts and potential oil splashes.

Okita Alter

There was nothing that Okita Alter wouldn’t eat. It was almost terrifying how much she was willing to consume. When you had first asked the original Okita, even she had a difficult time pinpointing what her Alter form enjoyed as food. Every time Okita had seen Alter in the cafeteria, Alter was eating or trying something new. There was no such thing as consistency. ChaCha and Nobbu would tell you the same thing, both of them vaguely confused about the reality upon being asked the question. How was it possible for Okita Alter to eat so much and yet not have a set favorite?

This doesn’t deter you at all though. If Okita Alter doesn’t have anything that she likes particularly over the other, at the very least you can just make her everything that you know she’s enjoyed, and at the moment, it’s Japanese cuisine.

You’ve seen how Okita Alter would eat more whenever there was any type of Japanese food offered at the dining table, and you had no qualms with making more for her as a gift of gratitude for all her help in the most recent Guda Guda shenanigans - even if her sword did cause some problems for you guys. You just wanted to show your appreciation towards her for always working so hard to protect you at all times.

It was difficult trying to cook her for her without her finding out. It was supposed to be a surprise, yet with how frequently Okita Alter entered the cafeteria and oftentimes the kitchen looking for a snack, it was hard to hide what you were doing. In the end, you had to go find a private kitchen that Director Goredolf used just so she wouldn’t find out. In return, you did have to share some of the food with him.

When the day finally came for you to share your cooking with Okita Alter, you were more than relieved that you had cooked enough for 5 people. After all, the Guda Guda family was always lingering about each other, and this time was no exception. Both Okitas and Nobunaga and ChaCha were all in the same room having their afternoon tea. Everyone but Alter knew what was coming and when Alter saw the food all neatly packed into bento boxes being carried in by you and Ryoma, she was stunned into silence. She had no idea that all of this was for her and from you, and she stammered her thanks before digging in.

Hello! I’ve missed you guys too. I’m so sorry that I’ve gone missing for so long. I recently lost my mother due to cancer, and it’s been really hard for me to write anything at all. 

I’m doing okay! I don’t know if I ever mentioned that I got a new job recently, but I’ve been busy adjusting to this new change in routine. It’s such a big difference from my previous occupation, I’ve been having a bit of difficulty in trying to balance my time. 

I’m still writing in between work and maintaining other stuff, but it has gotten a little harder trying to maintain the blog! I can no longer guarantee how frequently Ill update, but I’ll continue to do my best so that the blog doesn’t just drop off the face of tumblr.

Hello!! I am doing well!

Just really busy recently trying to balance work and other stuff haha. It's a bit harder than I had thought it would be to actually balance video games (multiple of them), and balancing writing. I didn't get as much requests and first done as I would have wanted to, but I'm pretty happy with what I wrote this year!