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I'm reading our old messages

Thinking about how I wish I could go back again

Laying on your bed with a pack of cigarettes and

I realize now what I should've said back then

When you were in pain and needed a friend

But I was afraid of letting you in

In fear that my pain would pull you in

And leave you barren like it did my spirit

I guess I'm still not over it

3 years and I still feel like I lack purpose

Try my best to convince myself it's worth it

But im nervous

Don't want anyone to see the skeletons in my closet

They're haunted

Thought I figured out how to bury them

But I just buried my love

Where's my conscious

Sobriety proved to be worth it

But now I see the path I walked

Try not to look back but

My past fucked where my presents as

Comedically I have to backtrack

To a past that

I've run from for so long

I forgot the way back

Its tragic

You lost your life so I could learn to live mine

You feigned attraction so I could learn to read time

You loved my body but not my soul

You can't let go but I have to go home

The seventh commandment is my favorite, cuz you taught me how to break it

Beauty is a beast

Karma surely creeps

7 sinners