The Gods Despise Me

I wonder how it feels to be a therapist or psychiatrist in 2026 and watch the despair of young patients and realize it’s not attributed to mental illness but a rational response to the state of the capitalist hellscape world we live in

I’m not depressed because I need a higher dose of my mood stabilizer. I’m depressed because I spent years of my life working my fucking ass off to get a degree in biochemistry from one of the top universities in the world only to apply to over 100 jobs and the only one I land is one I hate every second of doing, the work is literally useless, and in spite of being there over 40 hours a week I still don’t make enough to pay rent. The food benefits I get can’t even feed a german shepherd. I’m 23 years old with a college degree asking my parents to take me grocery shopping so I don’t starve. I’m not upset because of my mental illness I’m upset because I work my ass off only to be broke and miserable

Somehow being a person does not come naturally to me

spending my twenties rotting and decaying

it is impossible to watch a movie. every night i think i want to watch a movie. no movie gets watched. because it's not possible

i got that dog in me but it's poorly socialized and i don't take it on as many walks as i should

i think i deserve financial compensation for everything. all of it. i’m not even gonna specify

i think avoiding everything is going to save me for real this time

am i allowed to say kill all trillionaires or is that too specific of a threat

sometimes being a fan of something means not wanting them to make any more of it

This is what it’s all about. Saturday night. At home. Switching between the same 4 apps on my phone. Getting scared.

(three decades into my life) sorry I wasn’t paying attention, can we start again?

there desperately needs to be a separate option to report ads for hijacking your touch screen or automatically launching your browser/app store the moment you scroll past it. "malicious" is not a strong enough word. i need the "go fuck yourself and die in a pit of boiling acid x10000" option