Beautifully Broken

Distance is for those brave enough to appreciate a good thing when they see it, even if they don’t get to see it enough.

He tells me he loves me and the back of my mind screams “run run run run run run run” because I know he is too good to stay. No one would look at me and see a place to move in to, but I keep my feet planted. His eyes are cool, like walking into an air conditioned place after the ground has burned your feet and I cannot make myself leave. So I stick to my guns and drop my armor and let myself fall. I feel the rollercoaster plunge of my heart and I know that his hands are the safety net at the bottom. For the first time in months, I can breathe with my whole chest. I can feel every beat of my heart even though it’s not for me. I don’t know Morse code well but I’m sure my heart is pitter pattering out his name over and over and over. I always expect myself to hit the bottom but I’ve discovered that falling for him is endless. The back of my mind eventually stops screaming to run and instead whispers ‘stay.’ And I think it’s about time I started listening to myself