narrated illusions

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jermajesty filmed himself shirtless in the kitchen at 2am, only the refrigerator light illuminating his toned chest. he moved the camera to show you perched on the counter, wearing just his oversized t-shirt.

"caught her stealing my ice cream again," he whispered, zooming in on your mouth full of ben & jerry's. you flipped him off mid-chew. He chuckled, then panned down to where his hand rested between your thighs. "but I'm about to steal something back."

“oh my god??”

⊹ ࣪ ˖ 𝐼𝐼:

Sunlight filtered through hotel curtains as Jermajesty propped his phone against the pillow. The camera captured you sleeping peacefully, your braids spread across the white sheets. He gently traced your shoulder blade with his fingertip.

"Woke up like this," he mouthed to the camera, then leaned down to kiss your shoulder. Your eyes fluttered open and you smiled sleepily before pulling him down for a proper kiss. The video ended with his hand disappearing under the covers.

⊹ ࣪ ˖ 𝐼𝐼𝐼:

Jermajesty filmed the city lights through the car window before turning the camera on himself. "She thinks I'm taking her to dinner," he whispered, "but—" He panned to you in the passenger seat, adjusting the rearview mirror. "—we're not making it to the restaurant."

You caught him filming and rolled your eyes, but your hand drifted to his thigh. The video ended with him dropping the phone as you squeezed harder.

⊹ ࣪ ˖ 𝐼𝒱:

Jermajesty filmed your legs dangling in the pool at night, underwater lights making your skin glow. "Can't believe she talked me into skinny dipping," he narrated quietly.

You turned to look at him over your shoulder. "Who said anything about swimming?" With that, you stood up, revealing you were completely nude, and walked toward where he was filming. The phone fumbled and suddenly showed only the night sky before cutting out.

⊹ ࣪ ˖ 𝒱:

Jermajesty was filming himself in the hotel room when your hand suddenly came down from the bed, holding a condom between two fingers. He looked up and laughed, then panned the camera upward to show you looking down with a mischievous smile.

"Five minutes," you mouthed before disappearing. Jermajesty ended the video with a grin.

⊹ ࣪ ˖ 𝒱𝐼:

Streetlights flickered past as Jermajesty filmed you riding him in the backseat. Your dress was bunched around your waist as you moved, head thrown back.

"Fuck," he breathed, trying to keep the camera steady. "Don't stop."

Your hand covered his on your hip, guiding him deeper. "Wasn't planning on it," you gasped, nails digging into his shoulder.

The car hit a bump, making you both cry out. "Shit, driver definitely knows," Jermajesty laughed breathlessly.

You leaned down, kissing him deeply. "Let him watch," you murmured against his lips.

The video ended with a close-up of your intertwined fingers on the fogged-up window.

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“these bitches be peasants, just address as me as your majesty.” + “you sure that’s your nigga? ‘cause i really can’t tell. not by the way he be calling my cell.” + “and stop calling that nigga phone while we together. he busy, bitch.”

you were never a monogamous type of woman. maybe during your teen years, but as you grew older, you thought the idea of committing to just one man was essentially useless. why let one man lock you down when you could go have fun with as many as you wanted?

that’s exactly how you’ve been spending your time lately — with a phone full of various sexy and incredibly easy men who would drop everything the second you wanted something, no matter what it was that you wanted from them. you were gorgeous in the face, a 10 in your physique, and your sex game was top tier, so who wouldn’t want to run to you as soon as you called?

you’d always tell yourself not to pick favorites in your roster and just continue to use them freely without showing one more attention than the others… but after you met Jermajesty, all of that flew out of the window quicker than you initially wanted it to.

you didn’t get attached to him, nor did you drop the rest of your hoes for him, but you did start to ignore them a bit more than usual and pick Jermajesty over them. it wasn’t intentional at all, but after the first time you slept with him, you started craving him more than you’d usually crave other men on your roster, which honestly freaked you out a little because it had never happened to you before.

you didn’t want to end up catching feelings for him and you didn’t want him catching feelings for you because you knew exactly how that would go, especially since you’ve had to cut off a few of your old hoes in the past for catching feelings. Jermajesty knew what kind of woman you were when he met you, so you hoped he wasn’t the type to try and change who you were — mainly because it wouldn’t work.

things between you, Jermajesty, and your other hoes had been going smoothly lately until… well, until his weird ass ex decided that she wanted him back and completely exposed your relationship with him on her Instagram story today while also simultaneously putting you on blast, causing the blogs to be all over your asses.

it was obvious she either stalked you or had someone else stalk you for her because the photo she shared of you two with her defamation post was from two weeks ago — the first and last time you and Jermajesty went in public together. it was a photo of the two of you hand-in-hand walking into a movie theater together, your faces as visible as day with identical grins.

unfortunately, that was the moment shit started to go downhill. your phone blew up the moment you were posted on blogs holding another man’s hand, your other hoes and your friends texting you all at once to talk about the controversy happening and understand what the hell was happening.

you were struggling to reply to everybody’s overwhelming spew of messages while also plotting to get on Jermajesty’s ex for telling your business, but the moment some of the men on your roster cut you off because of the fake news, it sent you on an incredibly disrespectful rant on your Instagram live in retaliation to her lies earlier today — specifically, an hour ago.

“you too busy watchin’ where my pussy goin’ instead of gettin’ a fuckin’ hobby, you dumb ass bitch,” you scoffed as your eyebrows furrowed and you crossed your arms, glaring at your propped-up phone, “i don’t give a fuck who y’all seen me with and where you saw me with ‘em, i’m single as hell. fuck what the blogs say and fuck whatever she say, she don’t even know me like that!”

“she got all this disrespectful ass shit to say about me just because i’m fuckin’ on her ex— he is not your damn boyfriend!” you exclaimed as your face slightly scrunched up and you laughed bitterly, “shit, as far as i’m concerned, whatever problem you have is with him, not me!”

“then this ho had the nerve to try and call me ‘miss community pussy’… ooh, i swear i almost told her somethin’. bitch, i’m young and real sexy, i can have a roster if i want to, the fuck?” you scoffed lightly as your eyes briefly scanned the comments in your live and you watched the viewer count continue to skyrocket, “talkin’ all kinds of shit about my pussy, but your ex love to bury his face in my shit on a daily basis, so what’s really tea? it’s givinggg that you mad ‘cause your pussy don’t pop like mine, boo.”

“oh!— and another thing! stop fuckin’ sneakin’ pictures of me when i’m out in public, you creepy ass ho, because i can be outside with whoever the fuck i damn well please! shit, i could be with your baby daddy tomorrow night if you got one!” you exclaimed with a snort of amusement as you rested your hands on your hips, “don’t let this social media shit gas your head up and get your ass beat ‘cause i don’t play these types of games with nobody.”

“somebody just commented ‘idk sis, that whole post felt like some cockblocking shit’— because it literally was, bro, i’m tellin’ y’all! this bitch literally made almost all of my other niggas cut me off with this bullshit!” you exclaimed with a dry laugh as you slightly flailed your arms, “like, why are you so worried about me and what i do in my private time?! and why the hell are you so worried about what your ex got goin’ on and who they fuckin’ on now?! y’all, i really don’t think this weird bitch got a job or some shit ‘cause it’s gettin’ real spooky out here…”

before you could continue giving his ex a big piece of your mind that would ultimately end up with your Instagram being either taken down or restricted, you ended up getting a FaceTime from Jermajesty mid-live, which you quickly accepted and ended your live without saying anything else. the minute the call connected, Jermajesty popped up with a slight clench in his jaw and his eyes slightly darker than usual, his expression giving away his feelings of frustration.

the call was shorter than your usual FaceTimes, but the last thing Jermajesty said to you was “don’t post or say nothin’ else to her ass. i’ma be at your house in an hour.” before the call abruptly ended and left you standing in your home in deafening silence.

you were a bit amused by the angry change in his demeanor, honestly finding it sexy that his ex badmouthing you had completely thrown off his mood and made him want to defend your honor, even if the two of you weren’t together.

it didn’t make you any less frustrated though because all of the drama his ex caused over that photo made your roster drop from high to low in the short span of just two hours, only three of them — including Jermajesty — remaining by your side through the ongoing conflict.

luckily for you, that hour you spent alone and off of social media flew by quicker than you expected it to because it led to where you are now: getting up from the couch to answer the front door.

unlocking and pulling the door open, you rested your other hand on your hip as you looked up at Jermajesty, his eyes back to their soft brown the moment he looked at you yet that slight clench in his jaw still remained.

“so what took you an hour to come over here, J?” you asked, raising an eyebrow, as you stepped to the side and allowed him in, your eyes following his movements while you shut and locked the door behind him.

“had to take care of business, mama,” Jermajesty answered casually as he walked towards the living room and you followed behind him, a small grin pulling at the corners of your mouth from the term of endearment, “made some calls and got all that shit took down.”

your eyebrows almost immediately furrowed and a look of confusion crossed your face as the two of you took a seat on your couch and leaned back into the cushions, his arm instinctively wrapping around your waist to pull you closer to him while his hand splayed across your side.

“you bein’ real vague right now and you know i hate that shit,” you huffed as you instinctively leaned into his touch and turned your head to properly face him, your eyes searching his expression, “c’mon, ‘Majesty, spit it out.”

“i called my ex and made her delete all that shit she posted about us. then i made her get in touch with all them blogs that reposted her stuff and made ‘em delete it, too.” Jermajesty explained, a hint of pride in his voice, as both of your eyebrows slightly raised in pleasant surprise and you grinned widely, earning a soft chuckle from him.

“oooh, you handlin’ business like that?” you teased as your grin smoothly converted into a smirk and you playfully rested your hand against the center of his chest, “okay, big daddy, i see you.”

Jermajesty laughed and lightly shook his head, his curls gently shifting with his movement, as your smirk slightly widened and you slowly caressed his chest with your palm, the motion suggestive yet you played it off as casual.

“stop playin’ with me like i’d let somebody talk shit about you and get away with it,” Jermajesty chuckled softly as he glanced down at your hand and smirked a little before gently grabbing your wrist and bringing your hand up to his mouth to press kisses against each of your knuckles, “you rubbin’ my chest like you want somethin’, mama.”

“maybe i wanna piss your ex off some more,” you smirked, your voice shifting into a tempting tone, as you watched him kiss your knuckles before shifting your hand in his grasp, cupping his chin in your hand and resting your thumb against his cheek, “give her weird ass more reasons not to like me.”

Jermajesty grinned at the sound of your words, though you could tell that he was on the same page as you by the glint in his pretty brown eyes, and his other hand slightly tightened on your side before he pulled you onto his lap, your hands moving to rest against his shoulders while you shifted your hips to properly straddle him.

“and maybe i wanna piss your other niggas off,” Jermajesty murmured as he gripped your hips and held them securely before leaning forward and pressing kisses along your jawline, “tired of havin’ to share you anyway.”

“sounds like a personal problem to me… damn near all my other niggas cut me off over all this shit anyway,” you chuckled softly as you cradled the back of Jermajesty’s head and let out a faint hum, leaning into his kisses, “you bad for business, J.”

“mm, sounds like a personal problem to me, mama,” Jermajesty muttered against you, using your own words against you, as his thumbs rubbed small circles against your hips, “just means i get more of you to myself. and speaking of problems… i was on your live earlier before i called you.”

“you were?” you asked in amusement, your smile slightly widening, as Jermajesty hummed lowly and gently squeezed your hips in response, earning a soft snort from you, “what’d you think about my rant, boo?”

“i think,” Jermajesty deliberately paused and lowered his head into the crook of your neck as he left open-mouthed kisses against your melanated skin and used one of his hands to grip your chin and slightly tilt your head to the side, exposing more of your neck to him while his other hand splayed across your back, “it was real sexy hearin’ you tell everybody about how i ‘love to bury my face’ in that pussy.”

“oh, you got flashbacks from that, huh?” you teased, your voice suddenly softer than before, as Jermajesty smirked a little at the change in your tone and latched around a particularly sensitive part of your neck, gently sucking at it and coaxing a soft moan from you.

“somethin’ like that.” Jermajesty mumbled, softly nipping at your skin, as you inhaled sharply through your nose and slightly nudged his shoulder with your other hand, silently reminding him of your “no hickeys” rule that he was clearly breaking by biting and sucking on you.

“Jermajesty,” his name left your mouth in a breathy warning tone, trying your hardest to sound firm as if he wasn’t practically making out with a sensitive part of your neck, “no hickeys, boy. i told you that from the beginning.”

smirking, Jermajesty slowly pulled away from your neck and raised his head as he looked up at you, his eyes lingering on your lips before flickering up to meet your gaze.

“well, since everybody already thinks we together… might as well claim what’s mine,” Jermajesty taunted playfully as he let go of your chin and wrapped his hand around your neck, his thumb rubbing the faint markings on the side of your neck, “they look good on you, too. might give you some more later on.”

“i swear i’m gon’ hurt you.” you huffed softly, though a small grin crept onto your face, as Jermajesty grinned back at you and you leaned down to him, cupping his jaw in one of your hands before attaching your lips to his.

“i might like it… your threats sounds sexy.”

your back arched up off of the couch and a loud cry of bliss fell from your mouth as your orgasm rocketed through you and onto Jermajesty’s face, his hands firmly gripping your thighs to keep them pulled open while he continued hungrily lapping at your pussy. your fingers wiggled through his curls and a broken whimper fell from your lips as he ate you through your climax, helping the orgasmic shocks subside while you panted heavily underneath him.

“fuck,” you exhaled deeply, your body slowly coming down from its orgasm-induced high, as Jermajesty placed one final kiss against your clit before pulling his head back and looking up at you, a slight smirk on his face while he ran his tongue over his lips, “maybe i needa’ brag about you givin’ me head more often.”

“your other niggas gon’ be mad at you if you do,” Jermajesty smirked, slightly raising his eyebrows, as he let go of your thighs and moved up your body, hovering over you for a moment before leaning down to softly peck your lips, “thought that was somethin’ you wanted to avoid, mama?”

“they already mad now, so it’ll be alright,” you snorted softly, looking up at him, as you leaned up to him and pecked his lips twice in return before lowering your hands to the waistband of his pants, “take these off, baby.”

“take ‘em off for me since you wanna be bossy.” Jermajesty jokingly demanded, earning a soft laugh from you, as he leaned down to you again and kissed you deeply, your lips curling into a small grin against his while you returned the kiss.

as the two of you kissed, your hands worked on undressing his lower half, his hips shifting to help you out until he was completely bare just like you. easing his body on top of yours, his hips naturally slotted between your thighs and his erection pressed against your core, causing you to moan softly into the kiss while his hands returned to your thighs and gripped them to spread you further open.

Jermajesty slowly rolled his hips against your pussy once, allowing you to feel just how hard and girthy he was, and you whimpered quietly at the feeling as your hands cradled the back of his head and the two of you deepened the kiss simultaneously, both of you eager to feel each other closer than you already were.

however, before you could continue any further, the sound of a phone ringing struck through the heated silence in the room and the two of you groaned in unison before pulling away from the kiss and turning your heads towards the coffee table where both of your phones were.

“whose damn phone is that?” you huffed, a small furrow forming between your eyebrows, as your hands moved down to his forearms and you watched him slightly lean over to the coffee table to look between both of your phones — and by the look on his face, you already had your answer before he even said anything.

“it’s mine,” Jermajesty chuckled, grabbing his phone, as he leaned back into his original position and turned his phone around to show the screen, revealing an unsaved number and the ‘Answer’ or ‘Decline’ buttons underneath the digits, “guess who it is.”

“she can’t take a hint or some shit?” you scoffed, the furrow between your brows slightly deepening, as your eyes flickered between the phone and Jermajesty’s face, “block her or somethin’. she annoyin’ the fuck outta’ me.”

“nah. i know exactly what i’ma do,” Jermajesty’s lips curled up into a smirk — it wasn’t his usual smirk and that alone should’ve alerted you — and he flipped his phone around back to him as he looked at it for a moment before looking down at you, “you trust me?”

you slightly narrowed your eyes at him and searched his face, as if trying to gauge what his intentions were and where his mind was at, “not with that look on your face, J.”

“i’m not gon’ do nothin’ bad. a ‘yes’ or ‘no’ is all i need,” Jermajesty answered simply as he slightly tilted his head and trailed his free hand up to your waist, gently squeezing it before caressing it slowly, “do you trust me?”

you looked at him silently for a moment before slowly nodding your head, a small grin pulling at the corners of your mouth, “…yeah, i trust you.”

Jermajesty’s unreadable smirk turned into a full-blown mischievous smile and before you knew it, he had both of your legs thrown over his shoulders and his phone rested near your head, your eyes slightly widening once it started to connect in your head what he was about to do.

answering the call with one hand, Jermajesty purposely put the phone on speaker and slipped his other hand between your legs, his thumb momentarily teasing your clit before his hand shifted to grab ahold of his dick and guide it to your entrance.

“hello?”

“…hey, Jermajesty. um… look, i know i’m probably the last person you want to hear from right now, but i just wanted to say that i’m sorry for everything i posted today. i was wrong for that. i was just… really hoping we could talk about getting back togeth—”

as she spoke, Jermajesty’s hips steadily pushed forward until his dick was buried to the hilt, which ultimately coaxed a long high-pitched moan from you since your legs being elevated on his shoulders put him at an advantage to dig deeper inside your walls.

he smirked proudly at the sound and slightly tightened his grip on your waist as his other hand gripped one of your thighs to keep your leg steady on his shoulder and he began thrusting into you at a quick yet deep pace, the sounds of skin-slapping filling the room and most likely echoing through the phone while he continued fucking you like you owed him something.

“ohhh, fuuuuck— nnnngh— baby!” you cried out, your head falling back against the cushions, as your back tried to arch up from the couch but Jermajesty’s grip on your waist kept you pinned down, a loud desperate whine falling from your lips while you clung to his arms, “‘M-Majestyyy!”

“mhm, that’s it, mama. take that dick. keep takin’ it like a good girl f’me,” Jermajesty leaned down to you, essentially folding you in half, and he pressed kisses against your collarbone before inching his head up to rest in the crook of your neck, gliding his tongue across your skin and pulling a whimper from your vocals, “you sound so pretty when you moanin’ for me like that, baby. love the way this pussy wettin’ me up.”

you were so far gone that you forgot that the two of you were still on the phone with Jermajesty’s ex since she had went completely silent, but he didn’t, and that’s why he was fucking you like this. he wanted her to hear everything — the way you’d moan with each rock of his hips, the way you’d cry out his name when he went too deep, the sounds of your bodies repeatedly colliding and becoming even slicker, the filthy things he’d say to you while deep inside you, and so much more that would send that poor woman into cardiac arrest.

raising his head from the crook of your neck, Jermajesty let go of your thigh and wrapped his hand around your jaw instead as he tilted your head back down, “look at me, pretty girl.”

your eyes dazedly met his and you blinked rapidly through the pleasurable haze your mind was being shoved through as your hands left his arms and you cradled his face instead, a desperate attempt to ground yourself in the moment while he continued fucking you into the couch cushions as his ex-girlfriend listened.

“talk to me, mama. tell me how i’m makin’ you feel.”

“y-you—ngh!—you makin’ me f-feel soooo good, J!”

“yeah? you like when i fuck you like this, beautiful?”

“yes! ooh, fuuuuck— yes, babyyy!”

the moment you felt Jermajesty slightly shift the angle of his hips and thrust a little harder was the moment you completely shattered underneath him. you gasped loudly and your jaw went slack as your mouth hung open and your sounds grew higher in pitch and louder in volume, your noises beginning to punctuate each of his thrusts while your eyes rolled back again and your eyebrows furrowed.

“oh, i found that spot, didn’t i, mama?” Jermajesty smirked cockily, maintaining his angle, as your hands shot to his back and you gripped him tight, profusely nodding your head while your nails left crescent-shaped markings in his skin, “mhm, that’s what i thought. hold onto me, baby, i got you. know i can’t let my pretty girl down.”

your head fell back for a second time and a rough sob of pleasure left your mouth as your legs locked up on his shoulders and your knees started to graze your shoulders with each of his thrusts, earning a very high-pitched whine from you while your stomach muscles began to tighten and your walls started to flutter around his dick.

“i feel you, baby, you cummin’? hm? you cummin’ on this dick f’me?” Jermajesty cooed, smirking a little, as he watched your body slightly jerk underneath his weight and took notice of the change in your vocals, knowing he had you right where he wanted you.

“ughhh, yes!” you cried out, your voice wavering, as you quickly nodded your head and your eyes squeezed shut, your thighs beginning to tremble before your orgasm suddenly crashed down on you, “ohhhh, my fuuuuck— Jermajesty!”

as Jermajesty continued fucking you through your climax, both of you were unaware of the fact that his ex had hung up the phone before he asked you to tell him how you were feeling — but it’s not like either of you would’ve actually cared if you had known.

she should’ve known better than to call his phone while he was with you anyway.

[Spring: May 2nd, 2004. Codename: The Beginning.]

Two little ones sit face to face post wrestling match, on an ornate rug in Havenhurst's living room. One breathes heavily, face red, marked with a scowl and a wobbly lip, the other grips a wooden block marked with the letter ‘B’ triumphantly. 

The girl takes in a deep breath, tears well in her eyes, and she exhales with a cry that could wake even the sandman. At the sound of her cries, The young boy's face contorts to match her own. While testing her lung capacity, she attempts to retrieve the block one more time, only to be met with a sharp pain in her temple. The boy made quick work to remove himself from the line of fire as she,impossibly, screamed louder. She picks up her own block, ironically marked with a ‘J’, and launches it back with the same level of vitriol. 

It doesn’t connect with the tyrant in the room, no, that would be too easy. Instead, it collides with her mother’s shin, who had rushed in to see what all the fuss was about. When asked why she had turned their toys into projectiles, the poor girl, consumed by hysteria, couldn't get a response out. 

A small voice, that was not her own, cut through the air,

“She hit me!”

Before she knew it, three words without an ounce of truth to them, had landed her a sentence of fifteen minutes facing the wall.

This interaction, which may seem like ordinary toddler melodrama, marked the beginning of y/n’s longstanding beef with Jermajesty.

[Summer: July 4th, 2010. Codename: The Pop-its Incident]

The fourth of July is normally a wholesome, family oriented, event. Trademarked by barbecues, games, a dip in the pool, popsicles that will inevitably melt under the California sun, and at the end of the night, beautiful displays of pyrotechnics, some even handheld, that should not be in the vicinity of a deranged nine-year old. 

Y/n found herself exhausted. Between the outdoor activity that, no doubt brought about an early onset fatigue, and the fact that the young girl had practically stuffed herself to the gills with overdone hotdogs, a burger, and perhaps one-too-many cupcakes, by the time the sun began to set, she was nearly immobile. 

With a towel wrapped around her shoulders, and a slouch in her spine, she, tiredly, tries to settle down on a lawn chair nestled in a corner of the backyard, wanting nothing more from the day than to just watch the fireworks. Unfortunately for y/n, the boy who’s been plaguing all eight years of her life had other plans. 

She sees him approach from a distance with a smile on his face and hands hidden from view. Looking back, that itself should have been enough of a warning. Still, she brushes it off with a roll of her eyes, sitting on the edge of the chair, with her hands on her knees and feet planted firmly on the warm pavement. By the time she looks up, he looms over her something behind his back.

“ Y/n,” he addresses. She raises a very skeptical brow, waiting to see what treachery would leave his mouth next. “Are you having fun?” Jermajesty asks, shifting on his feet. She could tell something was amiss, very rarely did he willingly speak to her, and whatever he had behind him did nothing to soothe her nerves. Tired and bordering on overwhelmed, with a squint, y/n huffs, “What do you want?” 

Jermajesty feigns offense, brows furrowing as he takes a somber tone, “I can’t talk to you now?” 

She scoffs, “When do you ever just talk? What, don’t feel like terrorizing me today?” It was his turn to roll his eyes. “Terrorize is a weird way to describe a few jokes,” he says with a wave of his, now visible hand. 

Before she can start rattling off the instances where Jermajesty absolutely did terrorize her, he cuts in again, this time with a quiet mumble, “I seriously did want to check on you. Didn’t realize it was a crime.” Y/n  knows better than to trust him, she swears she does. Maybe it was the tone of his voice, or the hurt expression painted on his face, but she felt her guard lower. Her eyebrows relax, and she almost feels bad for assuming the worst. Almost.

“My bad, Jermajesty. Yes I ha–” The words all but die on her tongue when she hears a decently loud ‘POP!’ and feels a warmth near her feet. There’s only about two seconds allowed for recognition. This asshole was sending pop-its careening toward her feet. Y/n tries to scale the lawn chair, but the slits in it send her feet right back into the cross-hairs.

“Jermajesty! Stop!” She screeches, practically dancing in the small area. He in fact, did not stop. It was almost like her terror was a motivator. The pop-its came faster, and she was terrified. If she wasn’t before, y/n was definitely overwhelmed now, and tears formed before she could stop them. Of course, her torturer noticed, “Aww, is the baby gonna cry?” He mocked, showing no sign of stopping his onslaught. 

She wasn’t ‘gonna’ do anything, the tears were hot and very present. That wasn’t really y/n’s main concern though. Remember her overindulgence? It was coming back to bite her in the ass. In her defence, she didn’t foresee herself dodging mini explosives when she ate as much as she did. 

The ambush only lasted around two minutes before Jermajesty’s father snapped his head in the direction of y/n’s cry for help, “Boy! Cut that out and go sit the hell down! What’s wrong with you?” The boy’s actions came to an immediate halt, knowing Jermaine's command outweighed his current amusement.

Y/n had never been more grateful for another human being in her, relatively short, life. Jermajesty let out an annoyed sigh, but ultimately retreated. As relieved as she was, the damage was already done, nausea had already begun sweeping over the girl. Her stomach churned, and with the swiftness of a fawn, y/n stumbled toward a trashcan. Unfortunately, luck was not on her side today, she made it about three steps forward before emptying the contents of her stomach onto the pavement.

Sounds of shock, displeasure, and pity ring throughout the backyard. Embarrassment and shame wrap her up into the world's most uncomfortable blanket as she continues to heave. She was sure now. She hates this fucker. 

Janet, who y/n has considered her godsend ever since the time with the gum, jumps on the situation like a commander, “Jermaine! Go get the baking soda from the kitchen. Randy, get the poor girl a new towel please.” 

They don't move, still baffled at what just took place. The woman lets out a tired sigh, and her voice raises a few decibels, “Now! Please!” Janet then turns her attention to poor y/n, who is now reduced to dry heaving over the concrete. “Honey, I’m so sorry. You’ll be alright, okay?” 

Humiliation morphs into anger, and the disgruntled eight year old, nods absentmindedly. She isn’t really paying much attention to the reassurance though, too busy trying to get her body to understand that she can’t possibly throw her skeleton up too. All she can do in this moment is think of all the ways she could permanently remove that pest. 

While brooding, a grating sound falls on her ears. That demon is laughing. Not just a chuckle, no no, he is doubled over, in almost the same position as her, wheezing. Jermajesty smacks his older brother’s arm, who also seems to find the girl’s misfortune entertaining.

Y/n rises slowly, eyes shooting daggers in their direction. As intimidating as she wants to look, the evidence of her misfortune laying at her feet, and a little remaining on her lips just made the girl appear pitiful. That only garnered harder laughs from the two bozos across the yard.

 She opens her mouth, but it quickly closes as the reality sets in, she had effectively been made a fool of. Sure she could’ve expected this from Jermajesty, but seeing jaafar cackle alongside that fool really twisted the knife. Janet tells her to pay them no mind and ushers her off into the house to get cleaned up. Defeated yet again, y/n retreated with her head hung low, and tail tucked. 

This terribly embarrassing day, marked a pivotal moment, one where y/n decides she was done playing nice with Jermajesty.

[Winter: December 20th, 2015. Codename: Cancel Christmas]

Ah yes, the holly-jolly season. Hot-coca, stockings over the fireplace, and of course, incessantly violent bickering with Jermajesty. It always starts small with him. A disagreement about where candy canes should go, or who would be responsible for cleaning up the discarded tinsel. But alas, the hormones that accompany adolescence make these seemingly small problems, very big problems.

Y/n was irritable. Very, very irritable. As she developed through the years, so did her issues with her incredibly annoying counterpart. It didn’t help that her body (and brain) began to change at a speed she did not agree with. 

Curves filling out, making everything in her closet look like a poor choice, a newfound hatred for her reproductive system, acne that showed her what true stubbornness looked like, having to navigate the terrors of high school, and feelings she did not enjoy having. Since when is that vermin attractive? Y/n didn’t have an answer, and that pissed her off more.

Her irritation reaches new heights as her family heads toward the Jackson’s home. She felt in her bones that today was not going to be a good day. Y/n still hadn’t forgiven him for the shit he pulled on the fourth way back when. The only upside to her, was that she had forgiven his older brother, and was looking forward to stealing glances at him through the night.

Things were calm when she arrived. Stepping out of the car and making her way to the door, y/n thought about civility, and just how long it would last. The answer? Not very.

Jermajesty started it, he always starts it. A pointed comment about how y/n was drooling over Jaafar, while she worked on hanging the ornament she made in art class, a yearly tradition for her. His jab earns a few chuckles…and a sound that could only be described as disgust from the older of the two boys. Y/n was sure she would implode. She snapped her head in his direction with a grimace, “Shut up, no I’m not!” (She absolutely was)

Jermajesty scoffs, “Suree, what else are you gonna lie about?” He asked with a smug look gracing his features. The girl leans into her teenage rage, “I lie about liking you all the time, can’t you tell?” The boy’s face falls flat, “You think I like you? I tolerate you because my family insists on bringing you around.” 

Y/n lets out a dry laugh, “I wish they didn’t, I can’t stand you. You have got to be one of the most infuriating people on the planet, not to mention, you’re a certified idiot. I hate that we even breathe the same air, so don’t worry about having to like me, Jermajesty.”

A beat of silence passes before the insults begin flying. He calls her stupid, she calls him ugly, he hits her with a ‘pizza face’ comment, and she delivers a devastating blow about how his ‘girlfriend’ has three other boyfriends. 

In that moment, Jermajesty all but lost what little sense he did have, “You can’t talk! Didn’t the entire football team bend you over two weeks ago?” 

Poor, poor y/n, she’s yet to figure out that in a battle of who can go lower, Jermajesty will always have her beat. It was an outright lie, one that caught the attention of everyone in the room. 

“You two, ENOUGH!” Y/n’s father booms, he then shifts his gaze toward his daughter. Y/n immediately tries to save her ass, “Dad, he’s lying! I swear, I’ve never even–” she stops speaking when the older man raises his hand. “We will talk about this at home, grab your things, now.”

Begrudgingly, she follows directions, making sure to grab her charger, phone, and the ornament, All while Jermaine profusely apologizes to her father for his son’s behavior.

She throws one more glance in Jermajesty’s direction, fully expecting to see the same smirk that always rests on his face when he lands her in hot water. Instead, y/n finds something akin to remorse. Jermajesty opens his mouth, but quickly shuts it when she sticks one finger in the air. He rolls his eyes and returns the gesture with a mock smile.and leaves the home with her head held high

Attraction be damned, the long conversation she is going to be forced to endure in her family's living room snuffed out whatever she was feeling for that insolent brat. 

For the first time in fourteen years, y/n hadn’t left the Jackson estate in tears. She did, however, leave with a bit of clarity. 

Here marks the day y/n realized battling Jermajesty was always going to be a losing game.

[Fall: November 25th, 2021. Codename: Older Brothers]

It had been approximately a year and a half since y/n last saw the jacksons in person. With covid, and the lockdown put in place because of it, she hasn’t really seen much of anybody. During this time,y/n had grown into what some would describe as a walking wet dream, intentionally, of course. Body to die for, skin as clear as glass, and a charm that was hard to resist. She wasn’t naive to this either, nuh-uh, y/n knows she’s a bad bitch, and she plans to use that to her advantage.

 Jaafar has become a new point of interest. At twenty, y/n knows exactly what her type is, and he checks every last box. She had already formulated a gameplan for this year's thanksgiving dinner. Hair styled to perfection, a manicure that cost a fortune, some little black dress that showed off every asset she’d gained, three spritzes of  a very expensive perfume, and the sexiest pair of heels she could find.

When she crosses under the threshold into the home she had grown to miss, she hears a few gasps, and a devious smile forms on her face. This is good, very good. She greets the family one-by-one with a hug, making small conversation with some. Most of the attendees comment on how good she looks, shocked to see the new version of the young woman before them. She giggles, and thanks them, moving through the room with an effortless grace.

When her eyes land on her target, who is already gawking at her, her smile grows large enough to show a perfect set of pearly white teeth. Y/n has every intention of fucking Jaafar. However, in her lust driven pursuit, she forgot to account for her biggest obstacle. Jer-fucking-majesty, who seems to be making it his personal mission to deter her from her goal. Before she can get her arms wrapped around Jaafar, the nuisance before her slides in between them, disrupting the exchange of greetings. Her arms drop and frustration cascades across her face.

“Y/n, it’s been a while.” He states, looking down at her. She can’t help the way her eyes find the back of her head. “Yes, it has Jermajesty. As is to be expected when a pandemic occurs.” He chuckles, “Well, you look good. Real good.” That comment nearly short-circuts her brain. Did her arch-nemesis just compliment her? She waits for the punchline, the cruel follow-up that always comes with a statement like that from him.

When it doesn’t, and she realizes he’s serious, she steps back a bit. “I–, thank…you.” She says slow, still skeptical. He nods once, but refuses to move. Y/n grows impatient, “Excuse me, I was in the middle of greeting Jaafar.” She mumbles. Jermajesty’s brows furrow, “Everybody else got a hug, I can’t?” She folds her lips together, unsure of how to navigate this new territory. She settles on a quick side-hug. “There, now can you move?” 

He kisses his teeth, and steps to the side. He watches how the girl he spent so much time driving up a wall practically melts into his brother’s arms. He notices how far you went to get Jaafar to notice. He notices how his brother inhales deeply, how his hands slide dangerously low on y/n’s waistline, how you didn’t correct his brother’s grip, and most importantly, he can’t help but notice that all he got was a fucking side-hug. 

Why does he even care? It’s not like you mean anything to him, right. Wrong, very wrong. Jermajesty is pissed. He’s spent so much time making you look unappealing, publicly commenting on every imperfection, spreading rumors to keep everyone away, intentionally ruining dates and relationships, oh and most notably, since December of ‘15, convincing his brother that he should want nothing to do with you. All in the name of love of course, you didn’t know that. You didn’t need to know that. He made sure that the girl he’s been infatuated with since the age of four, didn’t have a clue about the strings he pulled in the background. 

Jermajesty knew what he was about to do was wrong, but in his beautifully twisted mind, it would be justified. While the girl, his girl, revels in the affection she’s receiving from his older brother, he grabs a cup resting on the dinner table. She was so blissfully unaware, cute.

The chilled champagne runs down y/n’s back, and serves as a stark reminder to never trust the man standing right behind her. She whips around so fast she nearly falls. With vitriol running through her veins, yet again, she slaps Jermajesty so hard her hand stings. His head is turned, and his hand comes up to his cheek,  “What. The. Fuck, is your problem? Huh? Do you ever stop? I mean seriously, I can’t fucking st–” He wears a smile and nods as she rants on and on about how she hates him and can’t stand him, and wishes they never met.

Jermajesty lets her go on for another minute or two before he grabs her wrist and drags her through the house and out the door. Despite her best effort, his grip is firm,she can’t do much but stumble behind him, and let the expletives fall from her lips in protest.

Once the cool air wraps around them, Jermajesty spins to face her, still holding on. He leans in close, whatever y/n had planned to say next evaporated from her mind. His eyes are dark, and his face is devoid of any amusement. It quickly registers in the young lady’s mind that Jermajesty means business. She remains silent, real intimidation settles over her as she waits for him to say something.

Jermajesty then moves his lips to her ear, “If you ever pull that shit again, I’ll show you how cruel I can really be. Stay away from Jaafar, last warning.” Y/n stood there frozen, jermajesty releases his grip on the girl, walking past her, and heading back toward the house. She was utterly baffled, and admittedly pissed because, who was he to tell her who she could and couldn’t interact with. Still,even with the cold champagne that has now ruined her dress, y/n couldn’t ignore the warmth that settled deep in her belly. As she stood there processing, she came to a conclusion.

This year's Thanksgiving marks the day that the girl, who entered a feud with humanity's biggest terror all those years ago, realizes the attraction she thought she snuffed out wasn’t dead. Just buried.

[Summer: July 25th 2026. Codename: Quit Playin’ With Me]

Admittedly, you knew what you were doing. Jermajesty hadn’t made much of a move since Thanksgiving, five fucking years ago. Yeah the fights had morphed into an aggressive sort of flirting, that began to serve more as foreplay. And sure, everytime you showed interest in another man Jermajesty had more than enough to say about it, but aside from that, you hadn’t made much progress. So, you figured he needed a little push. What better place to make that happen than at Jaafar’s birthday party?

In all honesty, you wanted to know if Jermajesty would make good on his promise. It was a fifty-fifty gamble with him though, you were either going to leave very satisfied, or teary-eyed, or both. Still, it was a risk you were more than willing to take at this point.

You waltz into the familiar backyard, body clad in a swimsuit that was essentially string, smelling good, and looking better. This time though, it wasn’t for anyone’s attention but his. You made a bee-line for Jaafar, greeting as many as you could in the process. When you reached him, a smile spread across his face. He sat there, on a pool chair, in all his glory, in nothing but a pair of swim trunks, and sunglasses. “Look at you, when’d you get so fine mama?” Though you weren’t here for him, it didn’t hurt to receive a compliment or two from Jaafar.

You cracked a grin, “Been that, baby.” He chuckled, and opened his arms up for you. The scenario felt familiar, except this time, when you leaned in, there was no Jermajesty. Jaafar wrapped his arms around you, and pulled you down into his lap with a quickness that startled you. He nuzzled his face into your neck and spoke, soft and gentle, “So, how you been? Haven’t had time to catch up since we first started filming.” 

You couldn’t help the giggle that escaped your body, “Been fine, same-old, same-old. Heard the movies doing well, hot-shot. As it should, by the way, you did amazing. Your uncle would be proud.” Jaafar gives your waist a small squeeze, “Thank you, that means a lot coming from you, y/n.” You opened your mouth to assure that it’s the truth, but before you can, a shadow is cast over you. A shiver runs down your spine, and you sit up a little straighter.

His appearance matches his brother’s, except for the sunglasses, he wants to make sure you look him in the eye. His voice is chillingly calm, as he glares down at you, “Get up.” You shift a little on Jaafar’s lap. The older brother speaks first, “She doesn’t have to move, if you don’t like it go inside, or away.” Jermajesty doesn’t spare so much as a sideways glance toward Jaafar, eyes still trained on yours with a hard stare, “You have two fucking seconds to get the fuck off his lap.”

With that, your brain finally catches up, and you stand embarrassingly fast. Jermajesty doesn’t miss a beat, and begins walking toward the entrance of the home “Bring your ass in the house, now.” You throw Jaafar an apologetic glance, and quickly trail his brother. Jermajesty moves through the house with an aura of danger surrounding him. If you weren’t so giddy, you might’ve been a little scared for what was to come.

When you reach his bedroom door, he holds it open for you, looking at you expectantly. Slowly, you walk in, stopping just inside the door, unsure of what to do next. He slips in behind you, the door shuts. You turn your head to see his hand resting on the handle. He takes a deep breath,

 “Before I do, what I’m about to do, you need to let me know if you want this as bad as I do.” He says, tone measured, controlled, just as chilling as it was before. You nod twice, and he shakes his head, “Words. Y/n. Use them.” You let out a shaky breath, “Yes, I want–”

The rest of the sentence dies on your tongue as a hand wraps around your throat, squeezing enough to make a point, but not enough to cause any harm. Your back meets the door behind you, and a gasp attempts to leave your body. Jermajesty catches your lips in a searing, possessive kiss, all teeth, and tongue with little room left to breathe. You all but melt right there, he breaks the kiss, leaving a string of spit connecting the two of you, and a pout forms on your lips.

“You just don’t listen, do you baby? Hm?” You looked up at Jermajesty, pupils blown. His hand, serving as the prettiest necklace you’ve ever owned, shifts into a firm grip under your jaw, he leans in, lips brushing your ear. The already damp spot formed on the fabric nestled between your legs starts to grow, “You just had to keep pushing. I told you what would happen, and look, you did it anyway, didn’t you?”

You try to nod, but he holds you steady, “Come on, baby. Answer me,” When you open your mouth, he shifts his hand down, squeezing once more. A garbled sound is all you manage to get out, “Mm, there you go again. Not listening,” Jermajesty shakes his head as he tuts with a wicked smile. He loosens his grip just a bit. Soft kisses begin at the back of your ear, and make their way down to a spot on your neck that pulls a soft whine from your lips. A deep chuckle leaves the man towering over you, “That’s right, pretty girl. Keep making those sweet sounds for me, yeah?”

The hand around your throat slips further down, fingers ghosting over the hardened buds beneath your swim-top. Gently, he toys with the thin fabric before his fingers move swiftly to undo the ties on your neck and back. The top falls and you stand there now, bare chested, dripping with excitement. With a deep inhale, Jermajesty begins to kiss down your sternum, cupping both breasts with his large hands. Slowly, he takes the left bud into his mouth, swirling his tongue around it, just enough to tease, while he rolls the right between his index and thumb. 

A sultry sound leaves your mouth, one that sounds like music to his ears. Jermajesty groans, and with a ‘pop’, removes himself from your chest. With his voice barely above a whisper, he makes you one more promise. “I’m gon’ show you who the fuck you belong to tonight.” The ruined bottoms do very little to hide just how badly you want that. His right hand glides down the length of your body, stopping just shy of the waistband.

Jermajesty searches your eyes for hesitancy one last time, when he doesn't find it, his fingers dip below the last barrier between the two of you. He swipes a finger up your slit, making you shudder, “So fucking wet,” he whispers, undoubtedly to himself. The pads of his fingers are rough, calloused, and add a delicious friction as his thumb finds your little bundle of nerves.

As he works it in painfully slow, steady circles, two fingers enter you, and a pornographic moan leaves your mouth, “Baby please,” you beg, as he continues to tease, pumping them slowly. He chuckles, “Oh? m’baby now? I thought I was a piece of shit you couldn’t stand.” The huff you let out tells him he has you right where he wants you. He curls his fingers and just brushes past that spongy spot, your frustrated whine rings out in the air. Jermajesty laughs softly,  “This not enough for you baby?Didn't know you were so greedy.” 

Annoyance began to seep into your bones. If he wanted to play so bad, then fine, “You’re taking too long, I can always ask Jaafar to handle this, you know?”

Jermajesty freezes, not long before he rips his hand away from your pussy, rises to his full height and grabs you by your waist. You let out a surprised squeak, wrapping your arms around his neck and legs around his torso as he hoists you up, and walks you toward the bed. He isn’t gentle as he tosses you onto it. Your body comes off of the mattress in a small bounce. Your eyes rake over the man standing above the bed, the tent in his trunks makes your eyes widen. Good, he wants you to watch. Jermajesty makes quick work of the shorts, tossing them off in some corner of his room. 

Good god, you knew he was big, but you were severely under prepared. Your best guess is roughly eight and a half inches. He’s neatly trimmed, there’s a small patch of hair at the base. The tip is a deep mauve, the shaft is a shade darker than the rest of him with a pronounced vein running all the way down, and just below rest two round heavy balls.

He wastes no time getting your bottoms off next, practically ripping the dainty little thing off of you. He tosses them, and looks back at your dripping core. Again, two of his fingers find a home deep in your pussy, only this time, Jermajesty isn’t so nice about it. He sets a brutal, unforgiving pace that has you arching your back. He leans up, “Open your mouth.” You obey, already dizzy from the pleasure. His spit hits the back of your throat, and you swallow, “That’s it,” he picks up the pace, your hand shoots out to clutch his forearm in an attempt to slow him down and quell the fire quickly spreading through your body. “Move your hand,” he murmurs, while bullying your g-spot with precision. The sounds of your sopping pussy bounce off the walls, as he pushes you closer to release. “Please, Please, Jer…Please!”

You aren’t even sure what it is that you’re asking for, he has you dazed, drunk off the feel of him, and he hasn’t even fucked you yet. A cry leaves your lips, and you grip his arm tighter, “He can’t make you beg like this, pretty girl.” Tears form in your eyes as you just about tip over the edge, “Jer— oh fuck, Maj… gonna– cum!” Again, his fingers leave your core. The sudden denial leaves you frustrated beyond belief, a wail rips from your chest.

“What the fuck–”,

Jermajesty cuts you off, flipping you over onto all fours, and pressing you into a sinful arch. “Shut the fuck up.” He teases you some more, running his tip along your slit, and tapping your clit a few times. “You wanna cum? Tell me who this shit belongs to.”you arch a little deeper, “Mm, if I say Jaafar, how hard will you fuck me?” 

That does it. In one swift movement, Jermajesty starts to fill you. The stretch stings so good, you both moan at the sensation. He gives a few shallow thrusts before his resolve snaps, and he bottoms out with a low groan. The tip of his fat dick kisses your cervix just right, it takes everything in you not to collapse. When he pulls back out, you hiss, the sensation feels addictive. He drives back into you, and begins to fuck you like a man starved. The pace he sets is punishing, you can’t do much but cry out, gripping the sheets as the same heat from before begins to pool in your belly. Jermajesty drills into that spongy spot over and over, the pleasure overwhelms you, your jolts forward involuntary. At the sight, his sweat covered brow furrows, he grips your waist with both hands, pulling you back onto him. A heavy hand cracks down on your ass twice,

“Don’t you dare fucking run. Take this shit, baby– fuck! Take. It.” Your eyes hit the back of your head, fisting the sheets so hard you were sure they’d rip, as he slams into you fervently. 

The sound of skin clapping echoes in the room, his headboard hits the wall, matching his tempo. Jermasty lets out a moan that goes straight to your core.

“Shit—, best fuckin’ pussy I’ve ever had.” As his hips continue to slam into yours, your drool covers his pillow. With your brain turned to mush, you finally give in, “It’s yours, Jermajesty— Fuck it’s yours!” You scream out. Though you can't see it, a toothy smile forms on your lover's face. While still inside you, he rolls over onto your side, “Say it again, baby, louder,” you do as he says, nearly screaming as he delivers steady, mean, strokes into your wet hole. “That’s right, this my pussy,” he says, bringing one of your legs over his hip. His hand found your clit once more, rubbing fast tight circles into the swollen nub.

As you approach ecstasy, the door slams open. Jaafar, stands there with a baffled expression.

“What the hell–”

You startle, brought out of your pleasure induced state by the sudden intrusion. Jermajesty doesn't stop his ministrations for a single second. Instead, his hand leaves your bundle of nerves and grips your jaw, making you face him. 

“Cum on this dick and show him who you belong to, baby.” He brings his hand back down to your clit, doubling down. He fucks you harder, thrusts faster than before leave your head reeling even more than it already has been. Jermajesty draws new patterns on your clit, it takes you ten seconds to realize he’s spelling out his name. A foreign sensation racks through your body, “Jer, wait– I think I’m gonna pee! Slow– Fuck…Slow down!” He spells faster, bullies that spot just a few more times, licks the shell of your ear, and whispers, “Let me have it baby, prove to me that you’re mine.” Your eyes roll back, mouth forming into a perfect ‘O’ shape, before your release cascades down your thighs, and his, onto the bed.

He hears the door click shut, his brother curses his way back up the hall. Jermasty bites back a grin, knowing he's proved his point.

He pumps into you a few more times, now chasing his own release. “Did so good. You Did. So. Fucking. Good. Pretty. Girl.” His words are accentuated by a few more deep thrusts. Your brain has turned off for the night, and with you quickly approching overstimulation, the only thing you can offer the man who is balls deep, rearranging your guts are soft, nearly pathetic whimpers.

One last thrust has him cumming with a shout of your name. His hold on you tightening, as you milk him for everything he’s got. He holds his seed deep as his body rides out the after-shocks. 

When you two finally come down, he sits you up gently. Breathing labored, and very clearly blissed out, you look at him in your daze, “That was...so fucking good, Jer,” He nods in agreement, wondering how you were still functioning. “ –I can’t help but wonder though, what made you so…possessive? You never liked me before, what changed?” Jermajesty flashed a smile and chuckled while still trying to catch his breath, “Y/n, baby. I’ve been in love with you since I clocked you in the head with that block. Pardon me if I seem 'possessive', had to prove you were mine though.” 

You weren’t sure what answer you expected, but you knew it wasn't that. Though, when you think back, you can’t help but feel that you let him slide with the shit he’s pulled through the years for that very same reason.

“Hm, well I think I love you too, Jer. I would love to dwell on it, but I’m tired, sweaty, and I think we just permanently scarred your brother.” You rambled on.

The man rolled his eyes, “We can talk in the morning, ans Jaafar’ll be fine. We can shower together, and sleep after.” You couldn’t help yourself, “How well does ‘apology pussy’ go over with your brother?” Jermajesty’s face fell flat, and you cackled like a hyena.

“You can take it," [insert pronoun] murmur(s). “You wanted this, didn’t you? Wanted me to fuck you dumb, fuck you raw. Wanted to feel me all the way here—”

“Feel me there, baby?”

You moan a broken “Yes.”

Example 2(dialogue + feeling):

“You can take it.” Her hand moves to the back of your neck, holding you down. “You wanted this, didn’t you? Wanted me to fuck you dumb, fuck you raw. Wanted to feel me all the way here—” she slaps your lower stomach, just above your mound. “Feel me there, baby?”

You moan a broken “Yes.”

That’s better than paragraphs of anatomical detail.

2. For Fluff / Comfort / Non-Sexual Intimacy

You don’t have to write happiness like a Hallmark movie. Intimacy is in small, lived-in things. Write about touch that doesn’t lead anywhere. Care that doesn’t ask for anything back.

Example: She wipes the sauce off your chin with her thumb. You laugh. She doesn’t.

That's care too.

Show comfort through routine. People show they care by doing: making coffee, fixing a shirt, holding a knee under the table.

Example: He tugs your blanket higher. You pretend you’re asleep. He knows you’re not.

He makes your coffee before you wake up. Always the right amount of sugar.

Show comfort through small actions, not speeches.

She tucks your hair behind your ear. You don’t even notice you’ve stopped crying.

Fluff isn’t about being “cute.” It’s about safety.

She leans into your touch like it’s something she’s been waiting for all week.

Keep it grounded. Readers connect when it feels real, not perfect.

3. For Angst

Don’t go for drama(do it). Go for ache. The best angst feels quiet—like something heavy sitting in the room.

Example: She says she’s fine. She’s been saying it all week. The word sounds smaller every time.

Use restraint. Don’t write every emotion—hint at what they can’t say.

Example: He stands in the doorway like he might come back in. He doesn’t.

Don’t write “sad,” write regret. That’s what actually hurts.

He almost calls your name. Almost.

Use silence. Pull back instead of over-explaining.

She says she’s fine. The cup in her hand shakes.

Focus on what’s missing. What used to be there.

The bed feels too wide now.

Let silence sit between them. Keep it grounded—real mistakes, real consequences. That’s what makes it sting.

Dividers by @/saradika-graphics

It was supposed to be dinner, nothing more than dinner, a simple, civil, carefully portioned evening where Odessa would sit across from Jaafar beneath soft lights and say the thing she had rehearsed a dozen times in the mirror, that it was better if they remained separated, better if they stopped circling each other like two wounded gods too proud to admit the war had ruined them both, better if they finally put an end to the back and forth, the almosts, the maybes, the quiet little domestic rituals that kept dragging them back to the edge of something neither of them seemed brave enough to name, and maybe, maybe, it was time to stop pretending the divorce papers were not waiting somewhere in the shadows like a prophecy neither of them had wanted to read aloud.

She had sworn this would be it.

She had sworn she would not let his eyes soften her, would not let his voice pull her into memory, would not let the fact that he knew how she took her wine, how she liked her food plated, how she always got quiet before saying something that scared her, become another reason to stay inside a marriage that had learned how to bleed quietly instead of die.

But then plans changed.

Or maybe he changed them.

Almost as if Jaafar had sensed the rug being swept from beneath his feet before Odessa ever reached for the corner, almost as if some old god had whispered in his ear that his wife was coming to bury them and he, stubborn as Orpheus turning toward the dark, had decided he would not let her walk into the underworld without singing first.

So there she sat, not in a restaurant, not at some polished table where distance could be measured by cutlery and folded napkins, but in an art classroom, of all places, with an easel set up before her like an offering, the room emptied of students and noise and ordinary life, leaving only the faint scent of paint, paper, and the hearty meal she was certain he had cooked himself, not ordered, not delegated, but prepared with those same careful hands that had once known every tender place in her life before they learned how to pack boxes and sign forms and leave.

The food sat plated beside her, warm and fragrant, arranged with a thoughtfulness that made her chest ache before she had even tasted it, and next to it stood a bottle of her favourite wine, because of course he remembered, because Jaafar had always remembered the things that made loving him complicated; he remembered the sweet red she reached for when she wanted to feel softer, the songs she played when she wanted to pretend she was not sad, the exact kind of intimacy that did not ask for forgiveness directly but placed itself in front of her like a sacrifice at Aphrodite’s altar and waited to see whether she would look away.

Sonder hummed low through the speaker, the music spilling into the empty room like smoke, all velvet and ache and late-night confession, and Odessa frowned as she looked around, her fingers tightening around the strap of her bag because the entire setup felt too deliberate to be accidental, too intimate to be innocent, too painfully Jaafar to be anything other than a trap wrapped in romance and nostalgia.

“Jaafar?” she called, her voice travelling through the room and coming back to her softer, thinner, swallowed by the walls covered in drying artwork and half-finished studies of fruit, hands, faces, bodies, all those little mortal attempts to capture something before time took it.

No answer.

Her frown deepened as she picked up her phone, thumb already moving toward his name, irritation rising with unease in the pit of her stomach, because if this man had lured her into some dramatic, half-lit, emotionally manipulative performance and then had the audacity to be late to it, she was going to skin him alive like Apollo punishing Marsyas and leave his pretty confidence hanging somewhere as a warning.

But just as she was about to press call, the door at the back of the classroom opened.

Jaafar stepped out.

Not in the clothes she had expected, not in one of those clean, expensive shirts that made him look like trouble with a stylist, not in the calm armour he usually wore whenever he knew a serious conversation was coming, but in a linen robe tied loosely at his waist, the fabric soft and pale against his skin, his feet bare, his curls slightly mussed, and a sheepish smile sitting on his mouth as if he knew exactly how absurd he looked and had decided to let the absurdity disarm her before the rest of him tried to.

Odessa stared at him.

For a moment, genuinely, she had no words.

Jaafar lifted one hand in a small, almost boyish gesture, the kind of humble little wave that did not belong on a man who had once stood in her kitchen with the confidence of Hades claiming a queen and the mouth of Hermes after stealing cattle from Apollo.

“Before you say anything,” he said, that sheepish smile widening just enough to become dangerous, “I can explain.”

Odessa’s eyes moved slowly from his robe to the easel, from the meal to the wine, from the speaker playing Sonder to his bare feet on the art room floor, and then finally back to his face, where he stood looking too beautiful, too nervous, too pleased with himself, and entirely too capable of ruining every speech she had spent the day preparing.

“You better,” she said, though her voice came out quieter than she wanted, because the sight of him like this — ridiculous, vulnerable, staged and yet strangely sincere — had already reached for something in her she had planned to keep locked.

Jaafar’s smile softened.

And Odessa hated that too.

Because she had come there ready to end something.

But Jaafar, damn him, had set the room up like a man preparing to paint over ruin with his own hands.

Jaafar’s sheepish smile flickered, not disappearing, not exactly, but softening into something Odessa had not seen on his face in a long time, something stripped of swagger before he even untied the robe, something that made the linen hanging from his shoulders feel less like theatre and more like surrender, and for one awful, aching second she realised that whatever game she had expected him to play, whatever slick-mouthed, arrogant, beautifully infuriating performance she had prepared herself to resist, this was not quite that.

“I figured,” he began, rubbing a hand over the back of his neck as his eyes moved from the easel to Odessa and then away again, as though looking at her directly made the confession harder, “one of our biggest issues, one of the reasons we’re… separated, is because you can’t see me.”

Odessa’s brows pulled together, but she said nothing, because there was something in his voice that stopped her, something quieter than flirtation and heavier than guilt, something that seemed to step into the room before him and lay itself at her feet like an offering to some old, merciless goddess.

“And maybe that’s on me too,” he continued, his mouth curving with no real humour this time, “because I don’t always know how to make myself visible to you without dressing it up as a joke, or confidence, or me acting like I’m fine when I’m not, and I know I got a slick mouth, Odessa, I know I can talk my way around a room and make everybody think I’m untouchable, but that don’t mean you’ve been seeing me.”

Her grip tightened around her phone.

Jaafar noticed.

Of course he did.

He always noticed the small things, the hand tightening, the breath catching, the way her eyes gave her away before her pride could shut the door, and maybe that was what made this worse, because Odessa had spent months believing she was the only one left standing naked in the ruins of them, only to find him here, barefoot in an art classroom, robe loose around his body, wine and dinner and Sonder arranged like incense at the temple of a marriage they had not yet buried.

“So I figured,” he said, stepping farther into the room, his voice low enough that the music nearly swallowed the edges of it, “if we’re going to fix things, if we’re even going to be honest enough to find out whether there’s something here worth saving, then I want you to see me.”

Odessa swallowed.

“Jaafar…”

“No,” he said gently, lifting one hand, not to silence her exactly, but to ask for just a little more courage from both of them. “Let me get it out before I lose my nerve, because contrary to what you like to think, I do lose it sometimes.”

That almost pulled a laugh from her.

Almost.

But then his fingers went to the knot of the robe, and the room changed.

Not crudely.

Not cheaply.

Not in the way her body might have expected after the kitchen, after his hands at her waist, after the kiss that had almost made her forget every sensible reason they were still separated.

This was different.

This was Jaafar standing before her not as the man who knew how to make her breath catch, not as Jalen’s father with the dangerous mouth and dangerous memory, not as the husband who still had a key to a house he no longer technically lived in, but as a man asking to be studied without armour, without performance, without the pretty tricks that had once made Odessa fall so fast she did not realise she was already in the underworld until the pomegranate seeds were sweet on her tongue.

“I’m gonna sit nude,” he said, and though the words could have been arrogant from any other version of him, tonight they came out careful, almost reverent, like he was offering himself not to Aphrodite’s vanity but to Psyche’s lamp, to the terrifying intimacy of being looked at while having nowhere left to hide. “And you’re gonna show me how you perceive me.”

Odessa stared at him, her pulse climbing into her throat.

The easel stood between them like an altar.

The blank canvas waited, pale and unforgiving, ready to receive whatever truth her hands were brave enough to tell.

“You want me to draw you?” she asked, because it was the simplest part of what he had said and therefore the only part she could safely touch.

“I want you to look at me,” he corrected softly, his eyes finally lifting to hers, steady now, darker than the room around them. “Really look at me, not the version you’re mad at, not the version you miss, not Jalen’s daddy, not the man who pissed you off, not the man you think already knows he can get you back if he smiles the right way.”

Odessa’s lips parted.

His mouth tilted faintly.

“There he is,” he murmured, almost to himself. “That’s the one you hate the most.”

“The arrogant one?” she asked, though her voice had lost some of its bite.

“The one who knows you still love him.”

The room went still.

Even Sonder seemed to hum lower.

Odessa looked away first, furious with herself for it, furious with him for saying it so plainly, furious that the sentence had crossed the space between them and found something in her that did not even try to deny it.

Jaafar did not press.

That was the thing that nearly undid her.

He did not smile like he had won, did not step closer, did not turn the moment into another one of his little victories; he simply stood there, robe still tied, eyes on her with a patience that felt older than both of them, like Orpheus had finally learned not to turn too soon, like Hades had opened his hand and waited to see whether Persephone would choose the fruit on her own.

“While you draw,” he said, quieter now, “we talk.”

Odessa let out a slow breath through her nose.

“About what?”

“Everything.”

“That’s broad.”

“It needs to be.”

“Jaafar.”

“Just you and me,” he said, and there it was, the plea beneath the confidence, the ache beneath the charm, the man beneath the myth. “No Jalen, no Malcolm, no family dinner, no school runs, no pretending the only reason we keep finding our way back to each other is because we share a child.”

Her eyes returned to his.

Jaafar’s jaw worked once, like the next words cost more than he wanted them to.

“No excuses,” he said. “No audience. No escape routes. Just us.”

Odessa’s chest felt too tight.

She glanced at the canvas again, at the charcoal set neatly beside the easel, at the meal still warming in its covered dish, at the wine he had remembered because of course he had, because loving Jaafar had always been impossible partly because he was careless in the places that hurt and devastatingly careful in the places that made leaving feel cruel.

“You think this fixes things?” she asked.

“No,” he said immediately.

That surprised her.

His eyes softened.

“I think this starts something honest.”

Odessa hated how much she wanted to believe him.

Jaafar looked down then, fingers brushing the robe’s tie again, not undoing it yet, not until she agreed, and that restraint, that quiet asking, lodged somewhere deep in her.

“I don’t want you to paint me pretty,” he said. “I don’t want you to flatter me. I don’t want you to draw the version of me everybody else sees, because everybody else gets the easy version, Odessa, everybody else gets the smile, the name, the stage, the bloodline, the charm, the parts that don’t ask anything from them.”

His gaze lifted.

“I want to know what you see when you look at me now.”

The words settled into her like dusk.

Odessa thought of him in her kitchen with his hands around hers, of him kissing Jalen’s forehead, of him saying he wanted his woman back with the kind of certainty that made her want to scream and soften at the same time; she thought of all the nights she had told herself separation was peace when really it had been winter, thought of Demeter grieving under grey skies, thought of Persephone pretending the underworld was only a prison when some part of her had made a kingdom there too.

“And what if you don’t like what I see?” she asked.

Jaafar’s smile was small, sad, and unbearably beautiful.

“Then at least I’ll finally know where I stand.”

For a moment, Odessa could not speak.

Then, slowly, she placed her phone facedown on the table.

Jaafar watched the movement like it meant something.

It did.

She hated that it did.

“You sit,” she said, nodding toward the stool positioned beneath the warm overhead light, her voice steadier than her heartbeat. “You talk. I draw.”

His mouth curved then, not into a grin, not yet, but into the beginning of one, that familiar confidence trying to return because it had never known how to stay gone for long.

“Yes, ma’am.”

Odessa pointed a finger at him.

“And if you make one slick comment about me studying your body—”

“You mean the body that gave you Jalen?”

“Jaafar.”

He lifted both hands, the sheepish smile returning as he backed toward the stool. “I’m done.”

“You are never done.”

“No,” he said, eyes warm on hers as his fingers finally loosened the tie of the robe, “but I can behave.”

Odessa picked up the charcoal, her mouth dry, her pulse disobedient, her whole body aware of the fact that this man had somehow turned a conversation about divorce into an art study, a confession, and a battlefield all at once.

“You better.”

Jaafar sat beneath the light, his robe slipping from his shoulders with the quiet gravity of a curtain rising before an audience of one, and Odessa forced herself to look not as a wife, not as a lover, not as a woman who had once known exactly how his skin felt beneath her hands, but as an artist, as a witness, as the only person in the room he had trusted enough to ask for the truth.

And still, when her charcoal touched the canvas, her first line trembled.

Odessa sighed as she let her bag slip from her shoulder, the leather landing softly beside her chair with a sound that felt far too final in the quiet room, and for a moment she simply stood there, caught between the woman who had walked in prepared to end a marriage and the woman now lowering herself slowly onto the stool behind an easel, charcoal and paint waiting in front of her like instruments of confession.

She watched Jaafar reach for the tie of the robe, watched his fingers hesitate for half a breath before he let the linen fall open, and the moment the fabric slipped from his shoulders, Odessa turned her gaze away too quickly for it to look casual, her breath catching in a way that irritated her because she had not given it permission to betray her.

Jesus.

How long had it been?

A year?

Two?

No, that was a lie, and she knew it before the thought even finished forming, because there had been moments, foolish moments, weak moments, lonely moments when grief had worn his voice and memory had smelled like his cologne, when Odessa had needed him more than she wanted to admit and had let herself be found in the ruins of their almost-endings; moments she had folded away afterward with trembling hands and called mistakes because calling them anything else would have required more courage than she had been willing to spend.

Still, this was different.

This was not the dim mercy of old habit or the desperation of two people reaching for each other because the night was too quiet and the ache too familiar; this was Jaafar deliberately placing himself beneath the light with nothing to hide behind, offering himself to her gaze like some mortal man dragged before Aphrodite’s altar and asking not to be desired, but to be understood.

Odessa sat at the easel, her back straight, her mouth pressed into a line too controlled to be honest, and reached for the shade of red before she reached for anything softer, because if Jaafar wanted to know how she saw him, then he could not expect pastels and mercy, could not expect the clean gold of Apollo or the gentle blue of an untroubled sea, not when loving him had always felt like pomegranate seeds crushed between her teeth, like a wound dressed in velvet, like the kind of red that belonged equally to devotion, anger, hunger, and war.

“Talk to me, baby,” Jaafar whispered, and the desperation in his voice was so bare, so unvarnished, so unlike the slick-mouthed confidence he usually carried around like a crown, that Odessa’s fingers tightened around the brush before she could stop them, the red paint gathering thick and wet at the bristles like pomegranate juice, like blood beneath a blade, like the first honest colour in a room where they had both spent too long pretending grief could be made polite.

His brown eyes met hers from beneath the soft classroom light, darker than usual, stripped of performance, and for once he did not look like the man who knew how to talk his way into her smile, or the man who could stand in her kitchen and make arrogance sound like devotion, or even the man who had given her Jalen and left her with a son who wore his face like a divine insult; he looked like someone waiting at the edge of his own judgment, like Orpheus standing in the mouth of the underworld with his hands empty and his voice trembling, knowing one wrong note, one wrong breath, one wrong turn could cost him the only woman he had ever been fool enough to lose.

Odessa looked at him over the rim of the easel, her throat tight, her body still far too aware of him despite all the hurt sitting between them, because there he was, offering himself to be seen, asking for truth as though truth were not the sharpest thing she owned, as though she had not spent the last year filing it down behind her teeth just so she could speak to him about packed lunches and school shoes and bedtime without bleeding all over the floor.

“What do you want me to say, Jaafar?” she asked, and her voice came out quieter than she intended, not weak, not broken, but careful in the way a woman sounded when she knew one honest sentence could bring the whole temple down.

Jaafar swallowed, his shoulders lifting with a breath that did not seem to satisfy him, and the linen robe lay discarded near his feet like the last piece of armour he had been willing to remove, leaving him seated before her not as a husband, not as an ex, not as the father of her child, but as a man asking to be drawn by the very hands he had once taught to shake.

“Tell me how I hurt you,” he said, and the words came rougher now, his gaze never leaving hers even though she could see what it cost him to hold it. “Tell me you hate me, tell me you can’t stand me, tell me you wish I’d never walked into your life with my pretty words and my ego and all my damn promises, but just…”

His voice cracked there, barely, the smallest fracture, but Odessa heard it as surely as if Zeus had split the sky open above them.

“Don’t stay quiet.”

The room seemed to still around them, the Sonder playing low through the speaker suddenly sounding distant, almost underwater, as though they had slipped beneath the surface of the life they showed everyone else and arrived somewhere older, darker, more sacred, some hidden chamber beneath Olympus where gods went when they were tired of being worshipped and needed, finally, to be wounded like mortals.

Odessa stared at him.

Not at his body, though it sat there beneath the light like another truth she refused to indulge, not at the careful arrangement of food and wine and paint and canvas he had set out like offerings to a goddess he had angered, but at his face, at the man beneath the beauty, beneath the name, beneath the confidence, beneath every version of himself he had used to distract her from the simple fact that he had been hurting too.

And that made her angry.

Angrier than she wanted to be.

Because it would have been easier if he were cruel.

It would have been easier if he sat there defensive, if he argued, if he smirked, if he gave her something sharp enough to swing at, but this version of him, this quiet, desperate, open-palmed Jaafar, made her feel like Psyche lifting the lamp over Cupid’s sleeping face and realising love was not some abstract punishment sent by Aphrodite, but a living thing with lashes, breath, scars, and the terrible power to look back.

“You want me to talk?” she asked, dipping the brush into the red again, too hard, watching the paint smear thick across the palette. “Fine.”

Jaafar did not move.

Odessa dragged the first stroke across the canvas, red cutting through the white with a violence that made her inhale through her nose, and the line was not clean, not pretty, not flattering, but it was honest, angry and alive and slanted across the blank space like the beginning of a wound.

“You hurt me because you made me feel stupid for loving you,” she said, and the words came before she could soften them, before she could dress them up in maturity or co-parenting language or all the respectable little lies women used when they were trying not to sound devastated. “Not because you didn’t love me, because that would have been simpler, that would have been clean, that would have been something I could bury, but because you did love me, Jaafar, and somehow you still made me feel alone inside it.”

His jaw tightened, but he stayed silent, exactly as she had asked without asking, and that made something inside her twist harder.

“You were there,” she continued, her brush moving again, the red deepening, spreading, finding the rough shape of his shoulders before she had even decided to draw them. “You were physically there, you came home, you held Jalen, you kissed my forehead, you bought the wine, you remembered the little things, and everybody probably thought I was lucky because look at him, look at Jaafar, look how soft he is with his son, look how he knows his wife, look how beautiful that family is.”

She laughed once, but there was no humour in it, only something brittle and old.

“But you were gone in all the ways that made me feel crazy for asking for more.”

Jaafar’s eyes lowered for the first time.

Odessa saw it and hated the satisfaction that came with landing the blow, hated that hurting him did not heal her, hated that the red on the canvas looked too much like all the words she had swallowed.

“You made me feel like I was standing in a room with a ghost who still knew how to touch me,” she said, her voice trembling now despite her best efforts, “and do you know how cruel that is, to have a man’s body beside you and still feel like you’re reaching for smoke, to have him look at you like he wants you and still not know whether he actually sees you?”

Jaafar closed his eyes briefly, and when he opened them, they were wet enough to make Odessa’s chest ache in a way she resented immediately.

“I saw you,” he whispered.

“No,” she said, sharper than before, the brush pausing midair. “You saw what I could carry.”

That silenced him.

Completely.

Odessa’s hand shook once before she steadied it against the easel, the red brush hovering over the unfinished shape of him, and she realised then, with a cold sort of clarity, that this was the part she had avoided saying for months, the part even her own reflection had not been trusted with, because it was one thing to say a marriage failed, one thing to say two people drifted, one thing to say life and pressure and pride got in the way, but it was another thing entirely to look at the man you still loved and tell him exactly where he had laid his weight until your back began to bend.

“You saw that I could mother Jalen,” she said, slower now, quieter, each word placed down like an offering and an accusation at the same time. “You saw that I could keep the house warm, keep the schedules straight, keep the dinners going, keep myself pretty, keep myself patient, keep myself from embarrassing you with too much need, too much anger, too much hurt.”

Jaafar’s lips parted, but he did not interrupt.

“You saw that I could survive you pulling away,” she whispered. “So you let me.”

The words struck the room like a bowl dropped onto stone.

For a moment, there was only music, only breath, only the ugly red blooming across the canvas between them, only Jaafar sitting beneath the light as if he had asked for a portrait and been given a mirror polished by the gods themselves.

Odessa looked down at her palette because looking at him had become too difficult.

“I don’t hate you,” she said, and somehow that sounded sadder than if she had. “That’s the problem.”

Jaafar’s breath left him unevenly.

“I wanted to,” she admitted, her laugh breaking softly at the edges. “God, I wanted to, because hate would have been easier than sitting across from you three nights a week watching you make Jalen laugh, watching you wash dishes in my kitchen, watching you look at me like you still had every right to miss me, while I had to act like my whole body didn’t remember you.”

His eyes lifted to hers again, and the heat that passed between them was immediate, unwanted, familiar, threaded through with so much ache that it could not be separated from grief.

Odessa saw him hear that part.

Saw him feel it.

Saw the man in him respond before the wounded husband could hide it.

“Don’t,” she warned softly, though she did not know whether she was warning him or herself.

Jaafar’s mouth closed.

His hands flexed once against his thighs.

“I’m listening,” he said, voice rough.

That nearly undid her more than anything else.

Because she believed him.

Damn him, in that moment, beneath that light, with red paint on her brush and the truth sitting open between them like a sacrifice at Athena’s feet, she believed him.

Odessa turned back to the canvas, her next stroke slower, softer, red giving way to a darker shade near the place where his chest would be, because despite everything, despite the anger, despite the loneliness, despite the divorce papers waiting somewhere like a curse with her name on it, she could not paint him as only damage.

That was the cruel thing.

Jaafar had hurt her, yes.

But he had also loved her.

He had also held their son like a prayer.

He had also shown up.

Not always correctly, not always fully, not always in the ways she had needed, but enough to make leaving feel like cutting through living flesh instead of dead rope.

“You want to know how I see you?” she asked, her eyes fixed on the canvas.

Jaafar’s voice was quiet. “Yes.”

“I see you in pieces.”

He inhaled.

Odessa did not look back.

“I see the man who made me feel chosen and the man who made me feel abandoned wearing the same face, and I don’t know what to do with that.”

She sighed as she shut her eyes, the brush hovering uselessly over the canvas while the red on its bristles began to gather too heavily at the tip, trembling there like a drop of blood that had not yet decided whether to fall, and for a moment Odessa looked less like a woman painting her husband and more like some weary priestess standing before an altar she no longer knew how to pray at, caught between confession and mercy, between the hurt she had already handed him and the truth that would not let her make him the only villain in a story they had both helped fracture.

“But it wasn’t your fault,” she said at last, her voice quieter now, no longer sharp enough to draw blood, only tired enough to show where she had been cut. “Not all of it, anyway. We were both… weird.”

Jaafar’s brows drew together, not in offence, not even confusion exactly, but in the careful concentration of a man trying not to miss a single word, his body still beneath the light, his hands resting against his thighs, his mouth parted slightly as though he wanted to respond and had finally learned that love, real love, sometimes meant letting silence do its work before ego rushed in with a mop and ruined the crime scene.

“How so?” he asked.

Odessa laughed softly, but there was no humour in it, only a little disbelief at the size of the thing she was trying to explain with such an ugly, childish word as weird, when really what she meant was that they had been two people standing inside the same burning temple, both pretending the smoke was weather because admitting there was a fire would have meant admitting one of them had to reach for the other first.

She opened her eyes and looked at him again, really looked, not at the warm brown of his skin beneath the classroom light, not at the shape of his shoulders or the bare vulnerability of him sitting there stripped of every easy disguise, but at his face, at the softness around his eyes, at the tension in his jaw, at the man who had asked her to see him and was now learning what it cost to be visible.

“We were weird because we both wanted to be understood without having to explain,” she said, dragging the brush slowly across the canvas, the red softening into a shadow near where his chest would be, no longer a wound now, not exactly, but something closer to heat beneath skin. “I wanted you to know I was drowning without me saying I was drowning, and you wanted me to know you were trying without you saying you were scared, and somehow we both stood there waiting for the other person to become a prophet.”

Jaafar swallowed, and she saw it move down his throat.

Odessa looked back to the canvas before the sight could soften her too much.

“I kept thinking, if he loves me, he should know,” she continued, her voice lowering under the weight of honesty. “He should know when I’m tired. He should know when I’m lonely. He should know when I’m angry but too exhausted to fight. He should know that when I say I’m fine, sometimes I mean I’m one bad moment away from falling apart in the bathroom with the water running so Jalen doesn’t hear me.”

Jaafar’s eyes closed briefly.

“Odessa…”

“No,” she said, not harshly, but firmly enough that his eyes opened again. “Let me say it.”

He nodded once.

She took another breath.

“And you…” She paused, searching for the right colour, the right word, the right place on the canvas to put the kind of pain that had not come from cruelty but from misunderstanding dressed in pride. “You kept thinking if you provided enough, if you showed up enough, if you were calm enough, if you didn’t add your fear to mine, then that was love.”

Jaafar’s gaze dropped to the floor.

Odessa watched him for half a second, then dipped her brush into a darker shade.

“But I didn’t need you calm all the time,” she said. “Sometimes I needed you messy with me. Sometimes I needed you to sit in the ugly part and say, ‘I don’t know what I’m doing either,’ instead of acting like you had everything handled just because your voice stayed steady.”

His jaw flexed.

“I thought I was helping.”

“I know,” she whispered, and somehow that made it hurt more, because knowing his intentions had been tender did not erase the ache of their impact. “That’s the part that made it so hard to be mad at you.”

The music hummed around them, slow and aching, Sonder’s voice filling the room like incense in a ruined shrine, and Odessa felt suddenly aware of the wine sitting unopened beside her, the food growing cooler with every confession, the easel between them becoming less like an art assignment and more like a battlefield map where every stroke exposed a place they had once lost each other.

She added another line to the canvas, this one gentler, curving near the outline of his shoulder.

“We were weird because I wanted you to chase me, but I punished you when you got too close,” she admitted, and the shame of it warmed her cheeks before she could hide it. “I’d pull away because I was hurt, then get mad when you respected the distance, because in my head I was thinking, no, don’t respect it, fight for me, notice that I’m only leaving because I want to know if you’ll come after me.”

Jaafar’s eyes lifted to hers, something pained and familiar moving through them.

“And I did the same thing,” he said quietly.

Odessa stilled.

He breathed out, his voice roughening. “I’d go quiet hoping you’d ask what was wrong, then get in my feelings when you didn’t, like I wasn’t the one sitting there acting like a closed door.”

Her mouth softened despite herself.

“Exactly.”

Jaafar’s laugh came out low and humourless, a broken little thing that did not belong to his usual confidence. “We were stupid.”

“We were scared,” Odessa corrected, and her voice softened around the word because there, finally, was the truth beneath all the other truths, the root buried under the ash. “Stupid too, maybe, but mostly scared.”

He looked at her then, and Odessa could feel the shift, that old invisible pull between them tightening again, only this time it was not desire alone, not the slick warmth of his mouth or the memory of his hands, but something more fragile, something that had survived beneath all the wreckage like a green shoot pushing up through cracked marble.

“Scared of what?” he asked.

Odessa’s brush moved once, slowly.

Then stopped.

She stared at the canvas, at the rough red beginning of him, at the shape emerging under her hand like a truth she had been carrying longer than she knew, and when she spoke, her voice was almost a whisper.

“That if we admitted how much we needed each other, the other person would have too much power.”

Jaafar went very still.

Odessa smiled faintly, sadly.

“And God forbid either of us be the first one on our knees, right?”

The words landed between them with a soft, brutal accuracy.

For a moment, Jaafar said nothing, his gaze fixed on her as though she had finally turned Psyche’s lamp toward both of them at once and revealed not monsters, not gods, not heroes, but two terrified lovers with ash on their hands and pride where prayer should have been.

Then he leaned forward slightly, his elbows resting on his knees, every bit of staged vulnerability becoming real beneath the weight of what they were saying.

“I was scared you’d look at me and realise I wasn’t enough,” he said.

Odessa’s breath caught.

Jaafar’s mouth twisted faintly, not a smile, not quite pain either, something caught between the two.

“I know how that sounds.”

“No,” she said softly. “You don’t.”

His eyes searched hers.

Odessa set the brush down, because suddenly painting felt like hiding, and she had spent too long hiding behind movement, behind motherhood, behind dinner plates and school bags and the excuse of their son sleeping in another room.

“You think I wasn’t scared of the same thing?” she asked. “You think I didn’t look at you sometimes and wonder when you were going to wake up and realise loving me had gotten too heavy?”

Jaafar looked wounded by the very idea.

“That never happened.”

“I know that now,” she said, though her voice trembled enough to betray how much she had not known it then. “But fear doesn’t wait for proof, Jaafar. It just starts writing stories in the dark and calling them warnings.”

He looked down, breathing through it.

Odessa picked the brush up again, not because she wanted to hide this time, but because the confession had opened something in her hand, had given shape to something she could not carry in words alone, and when she touched the canvas again, the red did not slash; it curved, it shaded, it softened into the outline of a man she had loved, feared, blamed, missed, and never truly stopped seeing.

“We were weird because we kept testing each other,” she said. “Little tests. Quiet tests. Cruel tests we pretended weren’t tests.”

Jaafar nodded slowly, his expression tightening with recognition.

“I’d wait to see if you’d call.”

“And I’d wait to see if you’d come over.”

“I’d act like I was fine.”

“And I’d act like I believed you.”

“I’d leave before I asked to stay.”

Odessa looked up at him.

“And I’d let you.”

“I wanted you to see me,” Odessa sighed, her voice thinning around the confession as she reached for the white paint and squeezed it directly into the red, watching the colour soften beneath her brush, watching all that raw, angry crimson turn into something gentler, something bruised and tender and almost pink, as if even the wound on the palette had decided it was tired of bleeding and wanted, for once, to be touched without being opened again.

Jaafar’s eyes stayed on her.

Not on her hand.

Not on the canvas.

On her.

And Odessa hated that, hated it because this was what she had asked for and what she had resented him for not giving, hated that now, when she finally had his full attention laid across her like sunlight from Apollo’s chariot, she wanted to look away, wanted to hide beneath sarcasm or anger or the careful movements of her brush, because being seen, really seen, was terrifying when you had spent so long convincing yourself that invisibility was safer.

“I wanted you to see me without me having to fall apart first,” she said, dragging the softened red across the canvas in a slow, careful stroke, the colour catching beside the harsher marks she had already made, gentling them without erasing them, because maybe that was the truth of him too, maybe Jaafar was not one shade, not all wound and not all warmth, but some impossible mixture of both, some man made of damage and devotion, pride and tenderness, absence and arrival. “I wanted you to look at me and know when I was tired. I wanted you to notice when I was quiet, not peaceful. I wanted you to hear the difference between me saying ‘I’m fine’ because I was fine and me saying it because if I said anything else, I was going to start crying and never stop.”

Jaafar swallowed, his throat working around whatever apology he had learned, wisely, not to rush into the room before she finished bleeding the truth out of herself.

Odessa mixed more white into the red, slower this time, pressing the brush in circular motions until the colour changed beneath her hand, and the motion felt almost too symbolic to bear, like Hera herself had leaned over her shoulder and laughed at the mortal woman trying to make sense of marriage with paint, as though love had ever been clean enough to shade properly.

“I know I made it hard,” she admitted, her eyes fixed on the palette because looking at him would have made the words too real. “I know I acted like I didn’t need anything. I know I got sharp when I was hurt and cold when I wanted to be held, and I know I expected you to understand a language I never actually taught you.”

Jaafar’s breath left him softly.

“Odessa…”

“No, let me finish,” she said, though there was no anger in it now, only exhaustion, only that deep, aching honesty that came when two people had finally stopped performing strength for each other and started admitting where the armour pinched. “Because I did that too. I did. I wanted you to read my mind and then punished you when you couldn’t, and maybe that wasn’t fair, but God, Jaafar, sometimes it felt like if I had to explain every place I was hurting, then it meant you hadn’t been looking.”

The brush touched the canvas again.

This time, the stroke was lighter, almost hesitant, catching the outline of his face, softening the red shadow beneath the cheekbone she knew too well, the same cheekbone Jalen had inherited, the same face that had haunted her son’s smile and made it impossible to ever fully hate the man sitting before her.

“I wanted to be chosen after the baby,” she whispered.

Jaafar went still.

Odessa felt it without looking.

The whole room seemed to tighten around that sentence, the music lowering into something ghostlike, the wine standing untouched beside the meal he had prepared, the canvas between them becoming less a portrait and more a battlefield where every colour had started naming casualties.

“I know you loved Jalen,” she continued, her voice roughening at the edges. “I never questioned that. Not once. You were beautiful with him, Jaafar. You still are. Sometimes it made me angry how beautiful you were with him, because everyone could see that part. Everyone could see Daddy. Everyone could see you holding him, rocking him, making him laugh, showing up with Starbursts and promises and that soft voice you use when he’s sleepy.”

Her hand trembled slightly, and the brush left a small uneven mark near the edge of the canvas.

She did not fix it.

“But I wanted you to look at me too,” she said. “Not just as his mother. Not just as the woman who could handle things. Not just as the person keeping the whole world from falling apart around him. I wanted you to look at me like I was still Odessa.”

Jaafar’s eyes shone, but he stayed silent.

Good, she thought, though the thought held no cruelty now.

Good.

Let him sit with it.

Let him know what it had felt like to become Demeter and Persephone at the same time, mother and missing woman, earth and underworld, life-giver and ghost, expected to bloom while half of herself remained unseen in the dark.

“I wanted to feel like you still wanted me when I wasn’t easy,” she said, dipping the brush again, dragging pale red into the hollow of the canvas’s unfinished chest. “When I wasn’t pretty and rested and laughing. When I was exhausted. When I was resentful. When I was touched out and lonely at the same time. When I was standing in the kitchen with spit-up on my shirt and my hair undone and I couldn’t remember the last time someone looked at me like I was a woman instead of a function.”

Jaafar looked down then.

Just for a second.

But Odessa saw it.

Saw the pain cross his face like a shadow over Olympus.

“I did want you,” he said quietly.

Her chest tightened.

“I know,” she whispered. “But wanting me in silence didn’t help me.”

The words broke something open between them.

Not violently.

Not loudly.

Just enough that the air changed, enough that Jaafar’s shoulders dipped as if the truth had finally found a place to land inside him, heavy and deserved.

Odessa exhaled, then mixed the paint again, red and white folding into each other until neither colour remained untouched by the other.

“I think that’s why I got so angry,” she said. “Because I could feel you loving me, but I couldn’t always see it. And then I started wondering if maybe I was imagining it, if maybe I was just making a myth out of scraps because I needed the story to be bigger than what it was.”

She finally looked up at him.

Jaafar’s eyes were already waiting.

“And I hated myself for that,” she said softly. “For still believing in us when I was so tired of being disappointed.”

His lips parted, but nothing came out at first, and for once Odessa did not mind the silence, because it was not empty; it was full of him listening, full of him receiving, full of the man who had brought her here and asked her to see him now being forced, finally, to see her.

“I see you now,” he said.

Odessa’s mouth twisted faintly, not quite a smile.

“Now is easy.”

“No,” he said, and his voice was still low, but firmer now, threaded with something rawer than charm. “Now is late. That don’t make it easy.”

That made her hand pause.

Jaafar leaned forward slightly, still careful, still not reaching for her, though she could see the effort in his restraint.

“I should’ve seen you sooner,” he said. “I should’ve asked better questions. I should’ve come closer when you got quiet instead of convincing myself you needed space. I should’ve known that sometimes you saying ‘leave me alone’ meant ‘please don’t make me ask you to stay.’”

Odessa’s throat tightened.

“And I know that ain’t fair to put all on me,” he continued, his eyes locked on hers, “but I’m not trying to be fair right now. I’m trying to be honest. I missed things I should’ve caught. I loved you, but I loved you lazy sometimes.”

Her breath caught at that.

Lazy.

Not absent.

Not false.

Lazy.

The word sat there with a brutal kind of accuracy, stripped of excuse and drama, and Odessa hated how much relief came with hearing him say it, hated how badly some part of her had needed him to name the thing correctly.

Jaafar’s jaw flexed.

“I thought because my love was real, you’d feel safe in it,” he said. “I didn’t understand that real love still gotta move. Still gotta speak. Still gotta get up and cross the room.”

Odessa blinked fast, turning back to the canvas before the tears could gather enough courage to fall.

The colour on her brush looked softer now.

Almost forgiving.

Not forgiveness itself.

Not yet.

But the colour of something considering it.

“Keep talking like that and you’re gonna ruin my concentration,” she muttered.

Jaafar’s mouth curved, small and careful.

“Don’t.”

“I ain’t say nothing.”

“You breathed smug.”

“I breathed relieved.”

That pulled the faintest laugh from her, unwilling and quiet, and Jaafar looked at her as if that tiny sound had been handed down by Aphrodite herself, a little mercy wrapped in music.

Odessa shook her head, dipping her brush again.

“You’re still annoying.”

“I’m still yours too,” he said softly.

Her hand stopped.

The room stopped with it.

Jaafar held her gaze, and there it was again, that confidence, not loud, not slick, not dressed in the old arrogance that used to make her roll her eyes and forget her own name, but something steadier, something that had survived being humbled and still refused to lie down.

Odessa’s chest rose slowly.

“You don’t get to decide that.”

“I know.”

“But you said it anyway.”

“I did.”

“Why?”

Jaafar’s eyes softened.

“Because I wanted you to see me too.”

Odessa’s brows furrowed as she cocked her head to the side, putting the paintbrush down with a carefulness that made the small wooden handle sound louder than it should have against the tray, and for the first time since he had stepped out in that ridiculous linen robe with his sheepish smile and his grand little wounded-man plan, she looked at him not as the subject of her painting, not as the father of her son, not even as the husband she had come prepared to discuss divorcing, but as a man sitting beneath a classroom light asking for a truth she had not realised she owed him too.

“Tell me how I didn’t see you.”

Jaafar’s eyes moved from the brush to her face, and something in his expression shifted, not toward accusation, not even toward relief, but toward the raw uncertainty of someone who had wanted to be asked and was still unprepared for the violence of answering, because there were some wounds a person carried so long they became part of the posture, part of the smile, part of the way they entered rooms pretending nothing hurt.

He breathed out slowly, his hands resting loosely against his thighs, his shoulders lowered, his body still offered to her gaze though the conversation had made him feel more naked than the robe ever could have.

“You saw what everybody sees first,” he said quietly.

Odessa did not move.

Jaafar’s mouth twisted a little, not quite a smile, not quite bitterness, something sitting between the two like wine gone warm on an altar.

“You saw the name. You saw the face. You saw the Jackson of it all, the charm, the music, the confidence, the way people looked at me before I even opened my mouth. You saw the man who knew how to walk into a room and make it feel like he meant to be there, and I let you see that because it was easier than showing you the rest.”

Odessa’s throat tightened, but she stayed silent, because she knew what he meant before he even reached the centre of it; she had loved his confidence once, had been drawn to it like mortals drawn toward Apollo’s golden light, never thinking that light could blind as easily as it could warm.

Jaafar looked down at his hands.

“But you didn’t always see how much of that was performance,” he said, his voice lower now. “You didn’t see how much I was trying not to look scared.”

Her lips parted slightly.

He lifted his eyes back to hers.

“You thought I was calm because I knew what I was doing,” he continued. “Half the time I was calm because if I let myself feel everything at once, I didn’t know if I’d be able to stand in it. I became a father and a husband and a man everybody expected to carry legacy like it was light work, and I didn’t know how to tell you that sometimes I felt like Atlas with the sky on his back, except if I bent even a little, everybody would notice.”

Odessa swallowed.

The room seemed to quiet around him, the music still playing, the food still cooling, the wine still unopened, but all of it had faded behind the sound of his voice, behind the strange ache of hearing Jaafar Jackson speak without the shield of his slick mouth.

“You saw me providing,” he said. “You saw me showing up. You saw me with Jalen, and you saw that I loved him, and I know you never doubted that, but you didn’t always see that sometimes I was terrified of failing him.”

His jaw flexed once.

“Terrified,” he repeated, softer, as if the word embarrassed him. “I’d hold him when he was tiny and he’d look at me with my whole face, and all I could think was, what if I mess him up? What if I give him the worst parts of me? What if one day he looks at me and sees through everything the way you do and decides I wasn’t enough?”

Odessa’s eyes softened before she could stop them.

Jaafar saw it, but he did not use it.

He did not grin.

He did not turn it into an opening.

He simply sat there, naked in every way that mattered, and kept going.

“You didn’t see me because I made it hard,” he admitted. “I know that. I kept giving you the version of me I thought you needed, the steady version, the charming version, the one who could make you laugh before you got too close to what was really going on with me.”

His eyes flickered toward the canvas.

“And then when you painted me that way in your head, when you treated me like nothing touched me too deeply, I resented you for believing the lie I was working overtime to sell.”

That struck her.

Odessa leaned back slightly, as if the sentence had reached across the room and pressed a hand to the centre of her chest.

Jaafar’s laugh came out quiet and humourless.

“Crazy, right?”

“No,” she whispered.

His gaze snapped back to hers.

Odessa’s face had shifted, not defensive now, not guarded, but listening, really listening, and maybe that was why Jaafar’s voice roughened when he spoke again.

“You didn’t see how lonely I was in our marriage sometimes,” he said. “And I know how that sounds after everything you just told me, because you were lonely too, and I should have seen that, but I was lonely beside you, Odessa.”

Her breath caught.

He closed his eyes briefly, as though he hated the admission the second it left him, but he did not take it back.

“I’d be right there next to you and still feel like you were somewhere I couldn’t get to,” he said. “Like you had this whole world inside you that I only got invited into when something was wrong, and even then, I had to guess where the door was.”

Odessa looked down at her hands.

Jaafar’s voice softened.

“You’d go quiet, and I’d panic, but I didn’t know how to tell you I was panicking, so I’d act casual. I’d ask if you were good, and you’d say you were fine, and I knew you weren’t, but I also knew if I pushed wrong, you’d shut down harder, so I’d back off and convince myself I was respecting you.”

He paused.

“But sometimes I wasn’t respecting you. I was protecting myself from being rejected by my own wife.”

Odessa’s eyes lifted slowly.

His were already waiting.

There was no anger there.

That made it worse.

There was only truth, and truth, Odessa was discovering, had a far more merciless hand than rage.

“You didn’t see that every time you pulled away from me, I took it personal,” he said. “Even when I knew better. Even when I knew you were tired, or hurt, or overwhelmed. I’d tell myself, she doesn’t want me near her, she doesn’t need me, she only wants me here because of Jalen, and instead of saying that, instead of giving you the chance to tell me I was wrong, I got proud.”

Odessa exhaled unsteadily.

Jaafar nodded, as if he had expected that part to land.

“I got real proud,” he said. “Ugly proud. Quiet proud. The kind of proud that don’t yell, don’t slam doors, don’t look like anything from the outside, but it will sit beside the person it loves most and starve before it asks for a plate.”

The image made something in her ache.

Because she knew that pride.

She had married that pride.

She had matched that pride.

Their marriage had been full of it, two starving people sitting at opposite ends of a table they kept setting for everyone but themselves.

“I wanted you to choose me too,” Jaafar said, and his voice dipped into something younger, something almost ashamed. “Not as Jalen’s father. Not because I was already there. Not because it was easier to keep the family together. I wanted you to look at me and want me, and when you didn’t say it, I started acting like I didn’t need to hear it.”

Odessa’s eyes burned.

“You never said that,” she whispered.

“I know.”

“You acted like you already knew.”

“I know,” he said again, and this time the words sounded like penance. “That’s what I’m trying to tell you. I acted like I knew because I didn’t want to ask and find out I was wrong.”

For a moment, neither of them spoke.

The canvas sat between them, red and softened pink and unfinished lines, an image of him beginning to emerge in fragments, exactly as she had said she saw him, and Odessa wondered whether that was what marriage had been for them too — two people painting each other with shaking hands, using colours they had never learned how to mix.

Jaafar leaned forward slightly, elbows on his knees now, the classroom light catching the tension in his shoulders, the vulnerability in his face.

“You didn’t see me because you were hurting,” he said, not accusingly, but gently, as if he had only just found the grace to understand it. “And when you’re hurt, Odessa, you look for evidence.”

Her brows furrowed.

He nodded.

“You do. You start building a case. Every late answer, every tired tone, every time I didn’t notice fast enough, every time I tried to fix what you wanted me to sit with, every time I gave you space when you wanted me to cross the room. You put it all on the table like proof that I didn’t love you right.”

Odessa’s lips parted, and for a second she looked ready to argue.

Then she stopped.

Because he was not wrong.

Jaafar’s voice lowered.

“And maybe I didn’t love you right all the time,” he said. “But you stopped seeing the parts where I was trying.”

Her face shifted.

His did too.

Pain, recognition, regret — all of it passing between them like Hermes carrying messages neither of them wanted delivered.

“You didn’t see that sometimes I came over for family dinner because it was the only time all week I felt like I could breathe,” he admitted. “You thought I was just being consistent for Jalen, and I was, I swear I was, but I was also coming because I missed my house.”

Odessa looked at him sharply.

He held her gaze.

“I know it’s your house now,” he said. “I know. But when I walk in and smell your cooking, and Jalen comes running, and you’re there pretending you’re not glad to see me, for a few hours I get to remember what it felt like before we started turning love into a test neither of us could pass.”

Odessa blinked fast.

Jaafar’s mouth softened.

“You didn’t see that leaving every night hurt,” he said. “You didn’t see me sit in the car. You didn’t see me tell myself to drive off. You didn’t see me wanting to come back up and knock and say, ‘Can I stay?’ like a fool.”

Her breath trembled.

“I would’ve said no,” she whispered, though there was no conviction in it.

“I know,” he said, and one corner of his mouth lifted sadly. “That’s why I didn’t ask.”

The honesty sat heavy.

It would have been easier if he had lied.

Odessa looked at the canvas again because looking at him was becoming unbearable.

“And Malcolm?” she asked, voice quieter. “Was that about you feeling unseen too?”

Jaafar’s eyes darkened, but not with the same jealousy from before, not with the sharp possessiveness that had filled her kitchen and ruined her plans; this was quieter, rawer, more honest.

“Malcolm was about me realising I had let you believe I was okay standing outside my own life,” he said. “And maybe I deserved that. Maybe I stood outside too long and expected you to keep a space warm for me. But when Jalen said that man’s name, all I could think was, she’s about to let somebody else sit where I was too proud to ask to stay.”

Odessa closed her eyes.

Jaafar’s voice came softer.

“And I know you’re not a place, before you say it. I know you’re not a chair at a table or a spot in a bed or something I can claim because I miss it.”

Her eyes opened again.

He was watching her with a faint, wounded smile.

“But I am a man, Odessa. And I love you. So yeah, I felt it. I felt it like somebody had put a blade under my ribs and twisted slow.”

She pressed her lips together.

“And you came in with Starbursts and wine.”

“I came in with Starbursts and wine,” he agreed. “Because I’m still me.”

A laugh almost escaped her, but it broke halfway into something softer.

Jaafar saw that too.

His face gentled.

“You didn’t see how much I wanted you back because I kept dressing it up,” he said. “I dressed it up as family dinner. As helping with dishes. As showing up for school runs. As making Jalen happy. As flirting just enough that you could roll your eyes and not have to answer me.”

Odessa’s hand drifted toward the paintbrush but did not pick it up yet.

“And tonight?” she asked.

“Tonight I got tired of dressing it up.”

Her eyes lifted.

Jaafar’s gaze did not waver.

“I want my wife,” he said simply. “Not because I’m jealous. Not because I’m scared another man might want you. Not because Jalen deserves both parents in one house, even though he does. I want you because I love you, because I miss you, because when I picture my life ten years from now, twenty years from now, when I’m old and not as pretty—”

Odessa gave him a look.

He paused.

“Fine,” he corrected, the faintest glimmer of his usual confidence returning through the ache. “Still pretty, just seasoned.”

Despite everything, Odessa huffed a laugh.

Jaafar’s mouth curved, but he did not let the joke carry him away from the truth.

“When I picture my life, you’re there,” he said. “You’ve always been there. Even when we were separated, even when I was mad, even when I told myself maybe this was just what we were now, you were still the person I wanted to come home to.”

Odessa’s chest rose and fell slowly.

“And you didn’t think I needed to hear that?”

“I was scared if I said it, you’d tell me I was too late.”

The silence that followed was not empty.

It was full of every almost they had survived.

Every night he had not knocked.

Every time she had not called.

Every family dinner pretending to be casual while grief sat with them and helped set the table.

Odessa reached for the paintbrush again, but her fingers hovered over it for a moment before she finally picked it up.

“What else?” she asked quietly.

Jaafar looked at her.

She dipped the brush into the softened red, the colour no longer angry enough to be blood, no longer pale enough to be forgiveness, but something in between.

“What else didn’t I see?”

Jaafar’s expression shifted, and when he answered, his voice was barely above the music.

“That I needed you too.”

Odessa froze.

His eyes shone, but he did not look away.

“I needed you,” he said again. “And I hated that I did, because needing someone makes you feel like they can ruin you on purpose even when they never would.”

Odessa’s breath caught sharply, because those were almost the exact words she had said without saying them, the fear beneath everything, the power of needing, the terror of being first on your knees.

Jaafar smiled faintly, sadly.

“Yeah,” he murmured. “See? Two peas in a pod.”

The phrase hit her with such tenderness that she nearly had to look away.

But she did not.

Not this time.

She looked at him — really looked at him — sitting beneath the light, stripped down to skin and honesty, no slick mouth to save him, no son in the room to soften the tension, no Malcolm to distract from the truth, no dinner table to hide behind.

And for the first time in a long time, Odessa saw not the man who had failed to see her, not only the man who had hurt her, not only the husband who had left too much unsaid.

She saw the boyishish fear beneath the beautiful man.

The loneliness beneath the confidence.

The prayer beneath the pride.

The ache behind the swagger.

She saw Jaafar.

She bit her lip and shook her head, not in refusal, not even in disbelief, but in that weary, trembling way a woman did when the truth had finally found the nerve to sit beside her and would no longer be ignored, and with a sigh that seemed to drag itself up from somewhere beneath her ribs, Odessa reached for the wine and took a long, unapologetic swig straight from the glass, letting the taste bloom across her tongue, rich and familiar and warm enough to steady her hands before it ever reached her blood.

Jaafar watched her.

He did not speak.

For once, mercifully, beautifully, dangerously, he did not speak.

His mouth, that slick, ruinous mouth that had talked her into laughter, arguments, forgiveness, and their son, stayed closed as Odessa set the glass down with a soft clink and reached for the hem of her shirt, her fingers curling into the fabric while her heart beat so hard she could feel it in her wrists, in her throat, in the tender hollow behind her ears.

If he wanted to be seen, then so would she.

Not admired.

Not desired.

Not worshipped like Aphrodite rising from the seafoam, all golden light and easy beauty, untouched by fear, untouched by motherhood, untouched by the strange grief of becoming both woman and vessel, wife and stranger, lover and ghost inside her own marriage.

Seen.

Properly.

Mercilessly.

Tenderly.

So she pulled the shirt over her head.

The fabric whispered upward, carrying with it the faint scent of her perfume, the warmth of her skin, the last easy layer of distance she had been hiding beneath since she stepped into the room, and she let it fall to the floor beside her bag without ceremony, without folding it, without pretending this was neat when nothing about them had ever been neat.

Jaafar’s breath changed.

Barely.

A small, quiet break in the rhythm of him, but Odessa heard it, and because she heard it, because she knew him too well not to, she lifted her eyes to his with a warning already forming behind them.

“Don’t.”

His jaw flexed.

“I didn’t say anything.”

“You were about to.”

His gaze stayed on her face with effort, with discipline, with the kind of restraint that looked almost painful on him.

“I wasn’t.”

“Liar.”

That almost made his mouth twitch, but he swallowed it back, and something about that, something about Jaafar choosing silence when desire had always been another language he spoke too fluently, made Odessa’s chest ache in a way she had not prepared for.

Slowly, she reached for the next layer.

Then the next.

Each piece fell away from her like old skin, like armour undone one fastening at a time, like some mortal woman stepping out of the role everyone had given her and standing at last before the gods with nothing left to prove except that she had survived being loved badly and beautifully by the same man.

And Jaafar, who had come here to be looked at, sat beneath the classroom light and learned what it meant to look without taking.

He watched her shed the carefulness.

Watched her shed the wife who had come prepared to speak of divorce with her chin high and her pulse hidden.

Watched her shed the mother who packed Jalen’s lunches, remembered appointments, kissed fevers, folded tiny shirts, and still somehow managed to put herself back together before anyone could ask whether she was tired.

Watched her shed the woman who had stood in kitchens, bedrooms, hallways, and court-adjacent silences pretending she had not been waiting for him to ask the right question.

By the time Odessa stood bare before him, stripped down past clothing, past pride, past performance, past every pretty little defence she had used to make her hurt respectable, she did not feel like Aphrodite.

She felt like Psyche with the lamp trembling in her hand.

She felt like Persephone at the threshold, no longer pretending the underworld had only ever been a prison.

She felt like a woman who had spent too long being touched and not enough time being understood.

Jaafar’s eyes shone.

Not with hunger alone, though that was there, because he was still Jaafar, still the man whose gaze had weight and heat and memory, still the man whose confidence had once curled around her like smoke until she forgot how to leave the room; but beneath it, deeper than it, was something quieter, something close to grief, something that made his face soften as if he were not looking at a body he had once known, but at all the years he had failed to honour it properly.

“You said you wanted me to see you,” she whispered, her voice steadier than she felt, though her hand still hovered above the palette as if the brush had suddenly become too heavy to lift, as if the colour she needed did not exist in any tube of paint but somewhere inside her chest, somewhere raw and red and aching.

Jaafar nodded slowly, still silent, his eyes never leaving hers.

And that was what undid her most.

Not the way he looked at her body, not the tension sitting beneath his restraint, not even the memory of every moment where his hands had once known her better than language, but the silence, the way he let her speak without reaching for control, the way he sat there stripped down to skin and fear and love, letting her decide what truth would enter the room next.

“So…” Odessa breathed, her eyes shining as she looked at him properly, taking in the line of his shoulders, the vulnerability in his mouth, the softness he had always hidden beneath charm, the boy inside the man, the husband inside the ex, the father inside the lover, the godlike confidence and the mortal fear stitched together in one impossible body. “I see you.”

Jaafar’s throat worked.

“And you’ve never been more beautiful,” she whispered, the words leaving her before pride could dress them down into something safer, something smaller, something less capable of changing the air between them.

His face shifted then, not into a smile, not yet, but into something stunned and wounded and almost boyish, as if Apollo himself had been praised not for his light but for the shadow he had survived carrying.

“I see the man I love,” Odessa continued, and the confession trembled, but it did not break. “I see the one with the slick-ass mouth, the one who always thinks he can talk his way out of trouble and somehow talks himself deeper into it, the one who makes me so mad I forget I’m supposed to be mature, the one who knows exactly how to look at me when he wants me to soften, and I hate that it still works sometimes.”

A breath of laughter escaped him, fragile and disbelieving, but his eyes were wet now.

Odessa’s were too.

“I see the man who hurt me,” she said, softer, because love could not be honest if it skipped the blood. “And I see the man who is trying to understand how. I see the father who kisses our son like he’s a prayer. I see the husband who left too many things unsaid. I see the boy who got scared and called it pride. I see the man who wanted to be needed but was too afraid to ask.”

Jaafar lowered his head, one hand lifting briefly to his mouth, and Odessa knew him well enough to know he was trying to keep himself together.

She looked down at the palette then, at the red she had softened with white, at the colour no longer angry enough to be a wound and not yet gentle enough to be forgiveness, and she dipped her brush into it with a shaky hand.

“I see you, Jaafar,” she whispered again, touching the canvas, dragging the colour into the shape of him with more tenderness than she had meant to allow. “And I love you.”

The room went still.

Not empty still.

Full still.

The kind of still that came after a storm when the gods had finally stopped arguing and even the sea held its breath to see what would survive.

“I love you, Jaafar,” she said again, because the first time had not killed her, because saying it did not make her weak, because maybe the cruelest lie she had told herself was that love lost power when spoken aloud. “I love you angry. I love you hurt. I love you even when I wish I didn’t. I love you even when I’m standing here trying to prove I can live without you.”

His eyes lifted to hers.

“And I hate that too,” she admitted, laughing through the tears gathering at her lashes. “I hate that loving you still feels like standing in front of the underworld with pomegranate on my tongue, pretending I don’t remember choosing the fruit.”

Jaafar’s breath shuddered.

For once, he had no slick response.

No clever mouth.

No arrogance ready to save him.

He only sat there beneath the classroom light, beautiful and bare and utterly undone, while Odessa painted him in softened red, trying to capture the impossible truth of a man who had been both wound and balm, both Hades and home, both the reason she had run and the place some foolish, faithful part of her had never stopped trying to return to.

Jaafar stood at that moment, slowly, carefully, as if one sudden movement might frighten the confession back inside her chest, his eyes fixed on her through those lowered lashes, brown and wet and impossibly soft beneath the classroom light, and Odessa watched him rise to his full height with her breath caught somewhere between her throat and her heart, watched the man she had just painted in red and ache unfold from the stool like some god stepping down from marble, no longer hiding behind robe, humour, legacy, or that slick mouth she had cursed and loved in equal measure.

He came toward her with a quietness that made the room feel smaller, made the space between them feel sacred rather than empty, and when he stopped in front of her, towering over her at six-two to her five-eight, Odessa had to tilt her chin to meet his eyes, had to stand there with the brush still trembling in her hand and all her bravery scattered around her feet like discarded petals at Aphrodite’s altar.

For once, Jaafar did not smile like he had won.

He did not tease.

He did not say some smug, beautiful, infuriating thing that would have made her roll her eyes and pretend her pulse was not tripping over itself.

He only looked at her, really looked at her, as if every word she had just spoken had gone into him and rearranged something behind his ribs, as if her love had not made him proud but humbled him, as if being seen by her had stripped him down more completely than any robe ever could.

Then his hand lifted.

Slowly.

Carefully.

His fingers found her cheek with the kind of tenderness that almost hurt, his palm warm against her skin, his thumb brushing beneath her eye as though he could feel the tears she had refused to let fall, and Odessa’s eyelids fluttered despite herself, her whole body remembering him before her pride could decide whether remembering was allowed.

“Say it again,” he whispered, his voice low and unsteady, roughened by want but softened by something deeper than hunger. “Please.”

Odessa’s lips parted.

And God, there he was — the man with the confidence, the man with the nerve, the man who had once talked her right out of her good sense and into a love so consuming it had left them with a child who wore his face like proof — asking her, not taking, not assuming, not standing before her like Hades with a claim and a crown, but like Orpheus with his hands empty and his heart in his throat, begging for the song one more time.

“I love you,” she breathed.

Jaafar’s eyes closed for half a second, as if the words had struck him somewhere mortal.

Then he bent his head and kissed her.

Not with the arrogance she had expected from him, not with the easy victory of a man who knew he had been wanted all along, but with a reverence that made Odessa’s chest ache, his mouth meeting hers like a prayer finally answered after too many seasons of drought, his other hand coming up to cup her face fully as though he needed to hold her still not because she might run, but because he might fall apart if he did not have something sacred beneath his hands.

Odessa rose into it before she could think better of herself, her fingers curling against his chest, paintbrush forgotten, breath forgotten, every careful speech about separation and distance and divorce dissolving beneath the press of his mouth, because this kiss did not feel like an ending or even a beginning, not exactly, but like the first honest thing after a long war, like Persephone stepping out of winter with pomegranate still on her tongue, not innocent, not untouched, but choosing to bloom anyway.

Jaafar kissed her like he had heard every hurt and still wanted the woman who carried them.

Odessa kissed him back like she had spent too long pretending love was something she could survive by refusing to name.

Odessa made a soft, helpless sound against his mouth when Jaafar deepened the kiss, the kind of sound that seemed to leave her before pride could catch it, before sense could grab it by the wrist and drag it back down, and Jaafar answered it with a low breath of his own, one hand still cradling her cheek while the other slid firmly to her waist, pulling her into him like he had been starving quietly for this exact closeness and had finally, finally stopped pretending hunger was discipline.

The kiss changed then, not losing tenderness so much as letting heat rise beneath it, slow and inevitable as Helios dragging the sun over the edge of the world, his mouth moving over hers with the kind of confidence that made her remember exactly how dangerous he had always been when he stopped talking and let his body finish the sentence.

Odessa’s fingers clutched at him, first at his shoulders, then his chest, then anywhere she could hold because the room had begun to tilt around them, the easel forgotten, the canvas half-painted and bleeding red behind her, the confession still hanging in the air like incense offered to Aphrodite herself.

Somewhere beside them, the wineglass tipped.

It slipped from the small table with a delicate, fatal sound, hit the floor, and shattered.

Red wine spilled across the tiles like a second painting, dark and dramatic and entirely ignored.

Neither of them cared.

Neither of them gave a single damn.

Not Odessa, whose breath caught when Jaafar’s mouth left hers only long enough to drag one warm, reverent kiss along the corner of her jaw, and not Jaafar, whose arms tightened around her as though the crash had only reminded him how badly he needed both hands on her.

“Jaafar,” she gasped, startled and breathless, but whatever warning had been meant to follow never made it out.

Because he lifted her.

All five feet eight of her.

Like it was nothing.

Like she was weightless, though Odessa knew she was not, like he had been waiting years to remind her that he could still carry her when she forgot how to stand, and her thighs wrapped around his hips on instinct, immediate and familiar, locking around him with a remembered ease that made both of them go still for half a heartbeat.

His eyes lifted to hers.

There it was.

The old fire.

The old ache.

The thing that had made Jalen possible and made forgetting impossible.

Odessa’s lips parted, but Jaafar only looked at her, breathing hard, his hands firm beneath her as if she were something sacred and dangerous and entirely his to hold only because she had allowed it.

“You good?” he whispered, voice rough, checking her even through the heat of it, even with his mouth swollen from hers and his composure hanging by a thread.

Odessa stared down at him, at the man she had loved, hated, missed, painted, forgiven too early and too late and not at all, and something soft and reckless moved through her chest like Persephone reaching for the fruit again with open eyes.

“Yes,” she breathed.

That was all he needed.

Jaafar turned with her in his arms, carrying her across the art room while the music kept playing low through the speaker, Sonder wrapping itself around the quiet like velvet, the broken wineglass glittering behind them like some abandoned warning from the gods.

The couch sat against the wall beneath a row of unfinished student sketches, all charcoal faces and half-shaded hands, but Odessa barely saw it before Jaafar lowered them both down, careful despite the urgency, controlled despite the way his breathing had turned uneven.

She sank into the cushions with him over her, and for one suspended second they only looked at each other.

No Jalen.

No Malcolm.

No divorce papers.

No separation.

No carefully rehearsed speech waiting at the back of her throat.

Just them.

Jaafar and Odessa.

Two people who had spent too long circling the ruins of their own love like it was Troy after the fire, pretending there was nothing left worth saving while their hands kept reaching through the smoke.

Jaafar brushed his thumb over her cheek.

“I love you,” he said, not slick, not smug, not performing, just raw enough that it entered her like a vow.

Odessa’s eyes shone.

“I know,” she whispered.

His mouth curved faintly. “You gon’ say it back?”

Even now.

Even here.

That mouth.

That wicked, impossible mouth.

Odessa laughed breathlessly and pulled him down by the back of his neck.

“I love you, Jaafar.”

His eyes closed like the words hurt in the best way.

Then his mouth found hers again, and the room slipped away around them — the easel, the wine, the unfinished painting, the plans she had come to make, the ending she had meant to give them — all of it fading beneath the warmth of his body, the weight of his hands, the soft ruin of her own surrender.

And somewhere between the music and the red paint drying on the canvas, between broken glass and breathless laughter, between old hurt and the first fragile shape of forgiveness, Odessa stopped trying to leave the underworld.

For tonight, she chose the pomegranate.

Jaafar did not think he was insane for this.

Desperate, maybe. Reckless, perhaps. A man driven half-mad by patience, certainly. But insane? No. There was nothing insane about going to retrieve what had always, in some quiet and ancient part of him, belonged to him; nothing deranged about finally reaching for the woman he had spent years orbiting like some punished god circling the same forbidden star, condemned to watch her glow from a distance while lesser men warmed their hands at her fire.

Because he had been patient.

He had been kind.

He had been more gracious than he was naturally inclined to be, if he was being honest, and Venus Taraji Hamilton had worked his last nerve — not the first, not the second, not even the frayed little string of restraint he kept tied around his pride for her sake, but the very last one.

And the worst part was that she knew what she was doing.

She knew exactly what she was doing when she announced her engagement at that family dinner, the one where the Jacksons and the Hamiltons sat together under warm lights and polished silver, mingling like two old bloodlines in some mythic hall, laughing over wine and legacy as if they had not all spent years pretending they could not see the storm gathering between him and Venus. She knew what she was doing when she let another man place a ring on her finger and then offered the news up like a blessing, like a toast, like it was not a blade laid carefully at Jaafar’s throat.

And he had not even been there.

That was what nearly made him laugh, though there was nothing funny about it.

He had been away filming, swallowed whole by the tedious, sacred, gratifying work of becoming his uncle — of bending his body, his voice, his spirit toward a man the world had already turned into myth — when his mother called to tell him the “good” news. The word had come through the phone bright and harmless, dressed in congratulations, but Jaafar had heard it for what it was.

A warning bell.

A prophecy.

A door closing somewhere it never should have been opened for anyone else.

The woman at the front desk, bless her heart, had been so visibly starstruck at the sight of him that she forgot the shape of her own job, her eyes widening, her smile trembling at the edges as though Hermes himself had stepped down from Olympus and asked for a room key. She was too dazzled to follow procedure, too flustered to question why a man who was not listed under Venus Hamilton’s reservation was asking for access to her floor, and though Jaafar made a quiet mental note to raise that with Venus once they left the hotel together — because no, they would not be booking here again, not if any pretty face with a famous name could charm his way past security — he still gave the woman a soft, devastating grin, thanked her like a gentleman, and made his way toward the elevators with the calm certainty of a man walking into a temple he believed had been built for him.

He rolled his neck as the elevator doors closed, the soft gold light catching along his jaw while he pressed the button for the penthouse suite — because of course Venus would be in the penthouse, of course she would spare no expense when it came to her own comfort, her own privacy, her own little palace in the sky; and yes, he assumed she had paid for it herself, because Venus Taraji Hamilton did not let men buy her luxury when she could purchase divinity with her own black card, and Jaafar’s assumptions about her were rarely wrong.

By the time the elevator climbed to the top floor, he had already loosened his shoulders, already swallowed the last bitter mouthful of restraint sitting beneath his tongue, already made peace with the fact that whatever happened next would happen because Venus had forced his hand — or at least, that was the lie he fed himself as the doors parted with a quiet chime.

The corridor beyond was hushed and expensive, all muted carpet, low lighting, and the kind of silence that belonged to people who paid not to be disturbed. Jaafar stepped out just as a room service attendant approached her door, tray balanced carefully in hand, knuckles lifted and ready to knock.

“I got it,” Jaafar said smoothly.

The man paused, recognition flickering across his face, quick as lightning over the Aegean, and Jaafar only smiled — that easy, devastating smile that had opened doors long before he ever touched a handle — before slipping two crisp hundred-dollar bills into the man’s hand with a murmured, “Keep the change.”

It was enough. Of course it was enough.

The attendant blinked down at the money, then back up at him, already retreating with a polite nod, and Jaafar waited only until he disappeared around the bend of the corridor before he turned toward Venus’s door, slid the keycard from his pocket, and let himself inside like a man entering a room he had already claimed in every version of the future that mattered.

The suite was quiet when he entered, too quiet, the kind of expensive silence that did not feel empty so much as carefully arranged, curated by money and taste and the kind of woman who had learned very early that peace was something you could purchase if you knew which floor to book and which people to keep outside the door.

Venus had left pieces of herself everywhere.

Not mess, never mess, because Venus did not do mess unless it was emotional and even then she had the nerve to make it look intentional, but evidence; a white satin heel tipped lazily near the chaise, a pearl earring abandoned on the marble console, a bridal shower sash folded over the back of a chair as if the words printed across it had offended her and she had stripped them from her body the moment she crossed the threshold. There were flowers everywhere, blush roses and white peonies spilling from glass vases like offerings left at the altar of some beloved, cruel goddess, and along the far table sat champagne, untouched cake, little gift bags tied with silk ribbon, and enough pale, pretty bridal nonsense to make his jaw tighten.

Bride-to-be.

The phrase seemed to glare at him from every corner.

Jaafar shut the door behind him with a quiet click, the sound small but final, and for a moment he simply stood there with the room service tray in his hands, taking in the ridiculous theatre of it all; Venus in white, Venus with flowers, Venus celebrated, Venus wrapped up and handed toward another man as though she were not the same woman who had once laid beneath him until dawn with her fingers twisted in his hair and his name broken soft against her mouth.

He exhaled through his nose, slow and humourless.

“Playing house,” he murmured under his breath, setting the tray down on the dining table, his eyes drifting toward the half-open bedroom door. “You really lost your mind.”

A sound came from deeper in the suite then — the low rush of running water, maybe the bathtub, maybe the shower, and beneath it, faint but unmistakable, the soft hum of Venus’s voice carrying through the room like smoke from an oracle’s bowl. She was singing to herself, absentmindedly, some old song he had heard her play in the car years ago, back when he was still young enough for her to laugh at him without consequence and old enough to know he hated every man who made her smile.

For one second, one dangerous, merciful second, the sound softened him.

It brought him back to summers in too-large houses where their parents drank wine on patios and Venus wandered barefoot through kitchens, hair piled on top of her head, skin glowing in the heat, calling him baby Jackson when she wanted to irritate him and Jaafar when she wanted something. It brought him back to being sixteen and furious at his own age, watching her leave parties with men who had full beards and real cars and the audacity to place hands at the small of her back. It brought him back to twenty-four, when she had stopped laughing long enough to look at him properly, and the whole world had tilted on its axis like Olympus itself had leaned down to see what they would do.

Then he saw the ring box on the dresser.

Not the ring itself — no, that was probably still on her finger, where she insisted on wearing her lie — but the velvet box it had come in, open and waiting, black against all that bridal white like a funeral flower.

Whatever softness had risen in him went cold.

He crossed the room slowly, every step measured, his body held with the kind of restraint that was not peace but the last wall before ruin. He touched nothing at first. He only looked. At the flowers. At the sash. At the programme from the shower with her name printed in elegant script beside the name of a man Jaafar had never liked, not because the man was cruel or foolish or unworthy in some obvious way, but because he had committed the unforgivable sin of arriving late to a story and acting like he had written the beginning.

That was what sickened him.

The arrogance of it.

To meet Venus in the middle of her life and think a ring gave him claim to what Jaafar had known since boyhood.

The bathroom door opened.

Venus stepped out wrapped in a white robe, steam curling behind her like mist from some sacred spring, her hair pinned up loosely, tendrils escaping around her face, her skin bare and luminous from the heat. For half a breath she did not see him. She was looking down, twisting a lotion cap back into place, comfortable in the privacy she had paid for.

Then she lifted her head.

And stopped.

The air changed so violently it felt like a god had entered the room and taken offence.

Venus’s hand tightened around the bottle. Her eyes moved over him once — the open collar, the tension in his shoulders, the calm, terrible set of his face — and then, slowly, to the door behind him.

“Jaafar.”

His name did not sound like surprise.

It sounded like warning.

He smiled, but there was no joy in it. “Venus.”

She blinked once, as if giving herself time to decide which version of herself would answer him: the friend, the almost-lover, the bride-to-be, the woman who had spent years stepping over the same burning line and acting shocked when her feet blistered.

“What are you doing in my room?”

“Our room, for tonight,” he said lightly, glancing around. “Apparently. Since security downstairs is decorative.”

Her mouth parted, disbelief cutting through her composure. “You bribed your way into my room?”

“I tipped a room service attendant.”

“You got a keycard.”

“I smiled.”

“Jaafar.”

There it was again, sharper now, but he only tilted his head, watching her the way he always had, like there were languages written beneath her skin and he had spent his life learning how to read them.

“You should be more careful where you stay,” he said. “Front desk nearly fainted. Didn’t ask for a thing. You could’ve had anybody walking in here.”

Her brows lifted. “But I got you.”

Something flickered across his face.

A wound, quickly dressed.

“Yes,” he said, voice lower. “You got me.”

Venus looked away first, which would have pleased him once, back when every crack in her composure felt like victory, but now it only made something bitter twist inside him. She moved toward the dresser, setting the lotion down with deliberate care, as if the ordinary motion could restore order to a room already splitting open around them.

“You need to leave.”

“Do I?”

“Yes.”

“Say it like you mean it.”

Her shoulders tensed.

The room went still.

Jaafar took one step closer, not enough to crowd her, not enough to touch, only enough to make the distance between them honest. He watched the line of her throat shift when she swallowed, watched her fingers curl once at her side before she remembered herself and smoothed them out.

“Say it,” he repeated softly. “Tell me to leave, Venus, and I’ll go.”

She turned on him then, eyes bright with anger, but anger had always suited her too well, had always made her look like Athena before war — beautiful, armed, impossible to reason with because she had already decided she was right.

“You don’t get to do this,” she said.

A small laugh left him, quiet and stunned. “I don’t get to do this?”

“No.” She pointed toward the door. “You don’t get to show up here, today of all days, and act like I owe you some performance.”

“Today of all days,” he repeated, tasting the words like poison. “Your bridal shower.”

Her jaw tightened.

“Congratulations, by the way.”

“Don’t.”

“No, really.” His eyes dropped to her left hand, to the diamond sitting there with all the smug confidence of a thief in a palace. “Beautiful ring.”

Venus tucked her hand slightly into the sleeve of her robe.

The movement was small.

It still ruined him.

“Don’t hide it now,” Jaafar said, his voice dipping, something harsher bleeding through. “You wore it all afternoon.”

Her eyes flashed. “You weren’t even there.”

“No,” he said. “I heard.”

“Then why are you here?”

“Because I heard.”

For a moment neither of them spoke.

Beyond the glass doors, the city glittered beneath them, distant and indifferent, all those lights burning like the scattered remains of some fallen constellation. Venus stood in the middle of the suite in white, damp from steam, furious and beautiful and guarded to the bone, and Jaafar thought, not for the first time, that the Greeks would have started a war over less. Men had crossed seas for faces like hers. Men had burned kingdoms for women who looked at them with less history than Venus had in one raised brow.

He had waited years.

He had swallowed years.

And she stood there wearing another man’s promise like he had never touched the truth of her.

“You announced it at dinner,” he said finally. “With both our families there.”

Her lips pressed together.

“I wasn’t there.”

“You were filming.”

“I was working.”

“I know.”

“No, you don’t.” He stepped closer again, then stopped himself, his hands flexing once at his sides. “You don’t know, because if you knew, if you had any idea what it felt like to get that call from my mother, to hear her tell me you were engaged like she was telling me the weather, like she wasn’t handing me a blade wrapped in ribbon—”

“Jaafar,” she said, quieter now.

“No.” His voice cut through the room, not loud, but final. “No, you don’t get to soften me right now. You don’t get to say my name like that and make me remember I love you before I finish being angry.”

Venus went still.

There it was.

Not implied. Not dressed up in teasing, jealousy, old friendship, bad timing, childhood history, or whatever else she liked to use as fabric to cover the naked thing between them.

Love.

Plain as a wound.

Her eyes searched his face, and for one brief, devastating second she looked afraid.

Then she looked away.

And that, somehow, was worse.

Jaafar laughed again, but this time it was almost broken. “Look at you.”

“Stop.”

“No, look at you.” He gestured toward her, toward the robe, the flowers, the ring, the whole immaculate crime scene of her denial. “You’ll stand in front of a hundred people in white and smile until your face hurts, but you can’t look me in the eye when I tell you the truth.”

Her voice sharpened again because softness had gotten too close. “The truth according to you?”

“The truth according to both of us.”

“There is no both of us.”

He stared at her.

The silence that followed was cruel.

Then Jaafar nodded slowly, once, as if she had finally said something so absurd it brought him clarity.

“No both of us,” he echoed.

Venus’s throat moved.

He looked at her mouth, then back to her eyes.

“So I imagined it?”

She said nothing.

“The way you used to wait for me at parties even when you pretended you weren’t?” he asked. “The way you’d touch my arm and then act like you forgot your hand was there? The way you couldn’t stand any woman near me, but had the nerve to call me childish when I noticed?” His voice dropped. “That night? I imagined that too?”

Her face changed.

Not much.

But enough.

“Don’t bring that up.”

“There she is.”

“Jaafar.”

“No, there she is,” he said, almost tenderly now, and that tenderness felt more dangerous than the anger. “That’s the woman I came to see. Not the bride. Not the designer. Not whatever perfect little statue you’ve been posing as all afternoon. You.”

Venus wrapped her arms around herself, the robe pulling tighter, and for the first time since she had stepped out of the bathroom, she looked less like a goddess carved from marble and more like a woman cornered by her own heart.

“You have no right,” she said, but it came out softer than she wanted.

“I know.”

“You waited years.”

“I know.”

“You said nothing.”

“I said everything except the words.”

“That isn’t enough.”

“No,” he agreed, eyes burning. “It wasn’t. And I hate myself for that. I hate that I let you make me your secret without even asking. I hate that I stayed close enough to bleed and called it friendship because I was scared if I asked for more, you’d shut the door completely.”

Her lips parted.

He shook his head, almost smiling at the irony of it, at the humiliation of his own honesty.

“But I’m not twenty-four anymore, Venus. And you don’t get to keep talking to me like I’m some boy with a crush you can outgrow on my behalf.”

Her eyes flashed again, wounded this time. “I never said that.”

“You never had to.”

That landed.

He watched it land, watched her absorb it, watched the pride on her face tremble under the weight of everything she had refused to name. Outside, the city kept glowing. Inside, the room felt ancient, fated, like every choice they had ever avoided had finally risen from the floor and stood between them.

Venus turned away, one hand lifting to her forehead.

“I’m getting married,” she said.

“I know.”

“You keep saying that like it means nothing.”

“No,” Jaafar said quietly. “I’m saying it because it means everything.”

She looked back at him.

His voice lowered.

“That’s why I’m here.”

For a while, she only stared at him, and he let her. He let the truth sit there. He let the ring shine. He let the flowers wilt in their vases. He let every ghost of every almost between them crowd into the room and bear witness.

Then Venus whispered, “Why today?”

His face hardened, not with anger this time, but hurt.

“Because today they celebrated you leaving me.”

Her expression cracked.

Just barely.

But he saw it.

He always saw her.

“Jaafar…”

“Don’t marry him,” he said.

The words left him cleanly.

No poetry. No metaphor. No myth.

Just the thing itself.

Venus looked like he had reached into her chest and closed his hand around something living.

“You can’t ask me that.”

“I’m not asking.”

Her eyes narrowed, instinctively bristling.

He corrected himself, softer but no less firm.

“I’m telling you the truth before you ruin all three of us.”

“All three?”

“You. Him.” His eyes held hers. “Me.”

Her breath shook once, barely audible.

“He loves me,” she said.

Jaafar nodded. “I’m sure he does.”

“He’s good to me.”

“I hope he is.”

“He’s stable.”

“I hate him already.”

Despite herself, something almost like a laugh broke through her anger, tiny and disbelieving, and the sound struck him straight in the chest because there she was again, his Venus, the girl who used to laugh at him across dinner tables, the woman who had never once understood how dangerous her joy was in his hands.

He smiled faintly, but it faded too fast.

“He can be good,” Jaafar said. “He can be stable. He can love you properly, on paper. I’m not saying he’s a bad man.”

“Then what are you saying?”

“I’m saying you don’t love him like you love me.”

The room went silent.

Venus did not deny it.

That was the first confession. Not spoken, but there, heavy and bright as the diamond on her hand.

Jaafar’s gaze dropped to it again.

“Take it off,” he said.

Her eyes widened. “Excuse me?”

“Take it off.”

“No.”

His jaw flexed.

“Then tell me you love him.”

She stared at him.

“Tell me,” he said, stepping closer, “and I’ll leave.”

Her mouth opened.

Nothing came out.

Jaafar watched her fight herself, watched pride wrestle with truth, watched fear lay its pretty hands over her throat. He should have felt victorious. Some small, ugly part of him did. But most of him only felt tired. Tired of the game. Tired of being a shadow at the edge of her life while other men stood in daylight beside her.

Venus looked down at her ring.

For one moment, her thumb brushed over it.

Jaafar stopped breathing.

Then she whispered, “You shouldn’t have come here.”

His voice was almost gentle. “But you’re glad I did.”

Her eyes lifted.

The space between them seemed to collapse without either of them moving.

“Tell me to leave,” he said again, quieter now.

Venus swallowed.

Her eyes shone, furious and helpless and hungry with five years of silence.

“Leave,” she said.

But it was weak.

A word without a spine.

Jaafar tilted his head. “Like you mean it.”

She said nothing.

“Venus.”

That did it.

The sound of her name in his mouth, low and broken and reverent, seemed to pull something loose from her. She crossed the last of the distance first, not gracefully, not carefully, but like a woman stepping off the edge of a cliff she had spent years pretending was only a balcony.

Her hands hit his chest.

For one second, it could have been a push.

Then her fingers curled in his shirt.

Jaafar looked down at them, then back at her, his face changing in slow, devastating recognition.

“Don’t,” she whispered.

He did not touch her yet.

“Don’t what?”

“Don’t look at me like that.”

“Like what?”

“Like you already know.”

His voice softened.

“I do know.”

Venus’s breath caught.

And when he finally lifted his hand, he did it slowly, giving her every second in the world to stop him, to step back, to choose the door, the ring, the life waiting for her with polished shoes and sensible promises. But she did not move. She only stood there, trembling with anger or want or grief, and let his knuckles brush the side of her face.

The touch was barely anything.

It still ruined the room.

Her eyes closed.

Jaafar’s thumb grazed her cheek, and his voice came like a prayer dragged through smoke.

“You don’t get to marry him with my name still sitting in your throat.”

Venus opened her eyes.

Then she kissed him.

Or he kissed her.

Later, neither of them would be able to say who moved first, only that the distance between them finally gave up pretending it had ever been real. One moment they were standing in the middle of a room full of bridal flowers and lies, and the next Venus had both hands in his shirt and Jaafar had one arm around her waist, pulling her to him with a sound low enough to shame thunder, kissing her like he had spent years starving politely at a table where she kept passing him empty plates.

It was not gentle at first.

It was not sweet.

It was punishment and relief, accusation and apology, the breaking of a drought, the return of a tide, the kind of kiss that made Venus stumble back against the dresser and sent one of the little perfume bottles rolling onto its side. Jaafar caught the edge of the furniture with one hand, caging her without trapping her, his other hand still at her waist, still careful despite the storm in him.

He pulled back first, breathing hard, his forehead nearly touching hers.

“Tell me to stop,” he said.

Venus’s eyes were dark, unfocused, her mouth parted, her fingers still holding him like she hated him for being solid.

She looked at him.

At the door.

At the ring.

Then back at him.

And instead of answering, she reached down with a trembling hand, slid the diamond from her finger, and placed it on the dresser beside them.

The sound it made against the marble was small.

Tiny.

Almost delicate.

But to Jaafar, it might as well have been the fall of Troy.

The sound of that ring touching marble should have sobered him.

It should have reminded him that this was not some flirtation tucked beneath a dinner table, not some old private joke passed between them in a crowded room, not another almost they could dress up in denial and leave behind before sunrise. It should have reminded him that there was a man somewhere in the world who believed Venus Taraji Hamilton was his fiancée, that there were mothers planning flowers and aunties saving dates and a whole wedding slowly assembling itself around a lie beautiful enough to pass for a blessing.

But all Jaafar felt, watching that diamond sit cold and useless on the dresser, was satisfaction.

Not relief.

Not surprise.

Satisfaction.

Because the ring was pretty, yes. Expensive, certainly. Tasteful in the way Venus’s things were always tasteful, all quiet wealth and polished restraint, a stone chosen by a man who had clearly studied her enough to know what would look good on her hand.

Cute.

That was the word that came to him, cruel and dismissive and almost amused.

The ring was cute. The engagement was cute. The idea of Venus walking down an aisle toward that man, smiling beneath flowers, letting him take her hand like he had ever once held the storm of her properly, was cute in the way children playing at kingdoms was cute; elaborate, earnest, and entirely dependent on everyone pretending the crown was real.

Because it would never be him.

That man could give her vows, houses, honeymoons, clean promises wrapped in white linen and family approval, but he would never have what Jaafar had. He would never know what it was to be twenty-four and finally have Venus look at him like she had run out of excuses. He would never know her laughter turning breathless in the dark, her pride slipping, her voice losing all its sharp edges around his name. He would never know the unbearable intimacy of being wanted by a woman who had spent years insisting she knew better.

He could marry her.

He could not touch the myth.

Jaafar looked from the ring back to her, and whatever Venus saw on his face made her breath catch.

“There,” he said softly.

Venus’s eyes narrowed, but it was a fragile thing now, anger trying to stand upright on trembling legs. “Don’t look so pleased with yourself.”

His mouth curved.

That was the problem with him, she thought distantly — one of many, really, but the most dangerous one in that moment — Jaafar had always been beautiful, always, even when he was too young and too eager and too irritatingly sure of feelings she refused to take seriously, but adulthood had given his beauty weight. It had put command in his shoulders, arrogance in his stillness, a slow, devastating patience in the way he watched her as though he had never needed to chase because history itself had already handed him the ending.

He stepped closer, and the room seemed to shrink around him.

“I’m not pleased,” he said, though the lie sat shamelessly on his tongue.

“You look pleased.”

“I look right.”

Her lips parted.

He smiled then, not sweetly, not kindly, but with the kind of confidence that had ruined her once before, the kind that did not ask permission to exist because it had never doubted its own welcome.

“Don’t confuse the two.”

Venus should have slapped him.

She truly should have.

There were several sensible, dignified things she could have done. She could have snatched the ring back up, put it on her finger, and ordered him out. She could have reminded him of her fiancé, her family, the bridal shower downstairs, the months of planning, the life waiting for her beyond this suite. She could have told him that whatever had happened between them years ago had been a lapse in judgment, a fever, a moment of weakness caused by champagne and nostalgia and the dangerous mistake of looking too long at a boy who had become a man while she wasn’t paying attention.

But then Jaafar lifted his hand and touched the belt of her robe.

Not pulling.

Not untying.

Just touching.

Two fingers against white silk, gentle enough to be respectful, bold enough to be obscene.

Her whole body remembered him before her mind could gather itself.

That was what made him so dangerous.

He did not have to rush. He did not have to beg. He did not have to perform hunger like men who were afraid a woman might forget they wanted her if they stopped proving it for more than ten seconds. Jaafar was worse. Jaafar stood in front of her with that unbearable calm, that dark-eyed certainty, that mouth still damp from kissing her, and looked at her like he had already seen the future and she was late to it.

“Still want me to leave?” he asked.

Venus swallowed.

His gaze dropped to the movement of her throat, and the corner of his mouth lifted, barely.

“Careful,” he murmured. “You’ve never been good at lying to me up close.”

“I’ve lied to you plenty.”

“No.” His fingers slid from the belt of her robe to her wrist, circling gently, thumb pressing once against her pulse like he was checking whether the truth was still alive beneath her skin. “You’ve performed for me plenty. There’s a difference.”

Her pulse jumped under his thumb.

He felt it.

Of course he felt it.

His smile deepened.

“See?”

The arrogance of him should have offended her into sanity.

Instead, it dragged her back five years.

Back to that first night, when the air between them had finally split open after too much wine, too much laughing, too many years of him looking at her as if age was a locked door and he had simply been waiting for the key to appear. He had not fumbled then either. That was what embarrassed her most when she let herself remember it. He had not been nervous in the way she expected him to be, had not treated her like some impossible older woman granting him mercy. He had looked at her like he had been preparing for that moment his whole life and had no intention of wasting it pretending he was surprised.

That was why she had let him in the first time.

Not because he was pretty, though God help her, he was.

Not because he was a Jackson.

Not because he was younger and flattering and hungry for her attention.

Because Jaafar had stepped into his want like a throne.

Because he looked at her like choosing him was not a risk, but a correction.

Because when she had whispered, “You’re too young for me,” he had only smiled, slow and wicked and impossibly calm, and said, “Then stop wanting me like I’m not.”

And now, years later, standing in her bridal suite with her ring abandoned beside them, he looked exactly the same.

Worse, actually.

Older. Sharper. More certain.

A grown man who had outlived her excuses.

“Jaafar,” she warned, but her voice betrayed her by softening around the middle.

His thumb brushed over her wrist again.

“There it is.”

“What?”

“My name,” he said, eyes lowering to her mouth. “The way you say it when you forget you’re pretending.”

Venus’s breath left her in a thin, irritated laugh. “You are so full of yourself.”

“Yes.”

No hesitation.

No shame.

Just yes, smooth as oil over marble.

Her eyes flashed. “That wasn’t a compliment.”

“I didn’t take it as one.”

He moved then, not suddenly, not roughly, but with such surety that Venus found herself backing into the dresser before she had decided to move at all. His hand came to the marble beside her hip, caging her in only because she let herself be caged, his body close enough for heat, not pressure, his cologne and skin and rain-dark confidence filling her lungs until the room no longer smelled like roses and expensive soap, but like him.

Like trouble with a pulse.

Like the last honest thing left in the suite.

“You think that man downstairs doesn’t have an ego?” he asked quietly.

Venus lifted her chin. “He’s not downstairs.”

“Good.”

Her brows rose.

Jaafar smiled. “I don’t feel like being polite.”

“You were never polite.”

“I was very polite.” His eyes held hers, dark and amused. “Painfully polite. Saintly, even.”

She almost laughed, but she caught it too late, and he saw the corner of her mouth betray her.

His face changed at once.

Softened, but not weakened.

That was another thing she hated. How quickly he could find the girl in her. How he could strip away the designer, the fiancée, the woman with the immaculate public image, and uncover the Venus who used to sit barefoot on kitchen counters during family parties, eating fruit from a bowl and telling him to stop staring before she started charging him rent for the view.

“You remember,” he said.

“Remember what?”

“Me being polite.”

“I remember you being annoying.”

“You liked it.”

“I tolerated it.”

“You watched for me when I walked into rooms.”

Her smile vanished.

He leaned in a little, voice dropping, warm and low.

“You still do.”

Venus looked away.

He touched her chin, lightly, turning her face back to him with the kind of gentleness that somehow felt more commanding than force ever could.

Then he said, in Spanish, soft enough that it seemed meant for her skin more than her ears, “Mírame, mi Venus.”

Look at me, my Venus.

Her lashes fluttered.

That did something to her. He saw it. He had known it would.

Not because the words were complicated, not because he had dressed them in poetry, but because he said them like possession and worship were the same language when it came to her. Like her name belonged in his mouth with an accent of inheritance. Like he had not come to steal her from another man so much as retrieve her from a bad translation.

“No me mientas, preciosa,” he murmured.

Don’t lie to me, beautiful.

Her hands went to his chest, and again, for one breath, it could have been a push.

It was not.

Her fingers spread over him instead, feeling the steady, infuriating confidence of his body beneath his shirt, the calm rhythm of a man who should have been trembling but wasn’t, because Jaafar had never been afraid of wanting her. He had only been afraid of losing access to her. There was a difference.

“You think you can just come in here,” she whispered, “say a few things in Spanish, smile at me like that, and I’m supposed to forget I have a whole life outside this room?”

“No.”

His answer came too quickly.

Too confidently.

Her eyes searched his.

“No?” she challenged.

“No,” he said again, dipping his head until his mouth was near her ear. “I think you already forgot. I’m just the first person honest enough to say it.”

Her breath broke.

He kissed the space just below her ear, not enough to undo her, just enough to remind her that he knew exactly where to begin. Venus’s fingers tightened in his shirt, and Jaafar smiled against her skin because there it was again, the old truth rising between them like Aphrodite from seafoam, beautiful and shameless and impossible to drown.

“You’re engaged,” he murmured, his lips brushing her jaw.

“Yes,” she said, but the word came out thin.

“To a good man.”

“Yes.”

“With a good ring.”

Her eyes closed.

“A beautiful wedding coming.”

“Jaafar—”

“A cute little future,” he said, and this time the arrogance sharpened, turned golden and cruel at the edges. “Very cute, Venus.”

She opened her eyes.

He lifted his head and looked at her fully.

“But don’t stand here and insult me by pretending it holds a candle to this.”

The room went silent.

Every flower, every gift bag, every delicate bridal ribbon seemed suddenly ridiculous.

Venus stared at him, and Jaafar stared back with no apology at all, his face close to hers, his hand steady at her waist, his whole body speaking in the language of a man who had already compared himself to the competition and found the competition wanting.

“You’re unbelievable,” she said.

“I know.”

“I’m serious.”

“So am I.”

“You think one night means more than a proposal?”

Jaafar’s expression shifted.

The smugness did not leave him, not entirely, but something older moved beneath it, something wounded and devoted and frightening in its certainty.

“No,” he said. “I think our one night meant more than his whole proposal.”

Venus’s lips parted.

“And that’s why you’ve been running from it for five years.”

The words hit her so cleanly she had no defence ready.

He watched her absorb them, watched anger flare and fade behind her eyes, watched the truth settle where pride could not immediately reach it. His hand slid from her waist to the small of her back, and still he did not pull her in. Still he waited.

That made it worse.

He was giving her the dignity of choosing her own ruin.

“Tell me I’m wrong,” he said.

She inhaled.

“Tell me,” he repeated, quieter. “Tell me you don’t remember how it felt to stop fighting me.”

Venus’s eyes glistened, furious with him, with herself, with the ring sitting beside her like a witness.

“You don’t get to make this romantic.”

His smile was faint. “Baby, I didn’t have to make anything.”

Her face tightened.

He lowered his voice.

“You did that when you took the ring off.”

For a moment, Venus looked as if she might break.

Then she kissed him again, and this time there was nothing accidental about it.

She reached for him with both hands, pulling him down to her like she was tired of losing arguments to her own body, tired of being noble, tired of being sensible, tired of standing in rooms full of flowers while pretending she was not haunted by a man who had learned too young how to want her and too well how to wait.

Jaafar caught her immediately.

Of course he did.

One arm closed around her waist, the other bracing against the dresser as her back met marble and her mouth opened beneath his, and the sound he made was low, pleased, almost victorious — not surprised, never surprised, because in Jaafar’s mind this had always been where they were going. Every engagement party, every avoided conversation, every man she put between them, every year she spent calling him younger like it was a spell strong enough to keep him out; all of it had only been a delay.

Not a denial.

Never a denial.

He kissed her like he wanted her to understand that.

Like he wanted the memory of him to bruise every future she tried to build without him.

When his hands found her waist again, he lifted her easily onto the edge of the dresser, and Venus gasped against his mouth, one hand flying to his shoulder while the other knocked into the perfume bottle behind her. It clinked against the marble, sharp and delicate, but neither of them looked at it.

Jaafar did pull back then, only enough to see her.

And that was almost worse than the kissing.

Because he looked at her with his lips slightly swollen, his shirt gripped in her fists, his eyes dark and alive with the kind of masculine satisfaction that made Venus want to curse him and kiss him harder in the same breath. He looked beautiful and unbearable, like Apollo with a grudge, like a prince arriving late to a wedding he had every intention of interrupting.

“What?” she snapped, because his silence was too much.

He smiled.

“You’re mad.”

“I am.”

“No.” His thumb brushed her lower lip, slow and possessive. “You’re mad because you missed me.”

Her stomach turned over.

He leaned closer.

“And you’re mad because I know exactly how much.”

Venus shook her head, but there was no conviction left in it. “You’re so arrogant.”

“I had to be,” he said. “You gave me nothing else.”

That quieted her.

His face softened, just slightly.

“I had to believe this meant something,” he said, his voice lowering into something almost tender. “Even when you acted like it didn’t. Even when you put that ring on. Even when you smiled for everybody today like you weren’t sitting there lying through your teeth.”

Venus’s throat worked.

“Jaafar…”

He kissed her once, slower now, less punishment than proof.

Then he rested his forehead against hers.

“Do you know what I thought when my mother told me?” he asked.

She did not answer.

His hand slid up her back, holding her with maddening steadiness.

“I thought, she’s really going to make me come get her.”

Venus huffed out a laugh, broken and disbelieving, even as her eyes shone. “You are insane.”

“No,” he said, smiling against her mouth. “Desperate, maybe.”

Her hand rose to his face before she could stop herself, fingers grazing his jaw, and the touch stole some of the triumph from him. For a second, the ego, the confidence, the controlled arrogance all thinned, and beneath it was the boy who had loved her too early, the man who had waited too long, the friend who had stood beside her life while slowly starving on what she refused to give him.

Then he turned his face and kissed her palm.

Soft.

Devastating.

“Pero no estoy loco,” he murmured. “No por ti.”

But I’m not crazy. Not for you.

Venus closed her eyes.

And Jaafar, seeing the surrender move through her before she could name it, smiled like a man watching the gates of Troy open from the inside.

“Does he even know how you like it?” he murmured against her skin, his mouth moving slowly over the slope of her shoulder, not quite kissing, not quite sparing her either, his lips ghosting over the small pale scar she had carried since childhood — a thin, stubborn little mark from the summer she had fallen off the monkey bars and scared everyone half to death, including him, though he had been too young then to understand why seeing her hurt had made something violent and helpless twist inside his chest.

His thumb brushed beneath it now, reverent and possessive all at once, as though he remembered not only the scar but the girl who had earned it: Venus at twelve, furious with tears in her eyes because everyone kept fussing over her, swatting hands away while pretending she was not shaken; Venus at sixteen, rolling her eyes when he asked if it still hurt; Venus at twenty-eight, arching beneath his mouth like she had finally stopped pretending she did not know exactly what he had grown into.

Jaafar smiled against her shoulder, slow and arrogant, because that was the thing her fiancé would never understand.

He could learn her schedule, her favourite flowers, the cut of her gowns, the polite version of her smile.

But Jaafar knew the scar, he knew Venus, better than anyone would.

“Hard from the back while you watch.” Venus shuddered as he pressed another kiss against her shoulder, a hand weaving around her waist as he drew her back into him

“I’m telling you right now, Venus,” he murmured, his voice low against her skin, all velvet and warning, the kind of calm that came before gods split seas and men burned cities for women they had no intention of losing. “There ain’t no way in hell you were walking down that aisle with me still alive.”

Venus went still beneath him.

Not because the words shocked her — no, some part of her had known, had always known, that Jaafar’s patience had limits, that beneath all his charm and careful restraint was a man arrogant enough to believe fate itself had made a mistake by giving her another man’s ring — but because hearing him say it out loud made the whole room feel smaller, hotter, more dangerous, as if every flower from her bridal shower had suddenly become funeral lilies.

He lifted his head just enough to look at her, his mouth close to her shoulder, his eyes dark with five years of swallowed want and wounded pride.

“You really thought I was gonna sit there?” he asked, almost amused now, and somehow that was worse. “In a suit? Smiling? Watching him take your hand like I don’t know what it feels like when you stop fighting me?”

Her breath caught.

Jaafar’s thumb brushed over the old scar on her shoulder, gentle in a way that did not soften the possession in his voice.

“Baby, please,” he said, the faintest smile touching his mouth. “I would’ve objected before the preacher got his mouth open.”

“So this what you gon’ do for me,” he whispered, his voice low and steady against her throat as his fingers found the silk ties of her robe, tugging once, slow enough to make her breathing change, deliberate enough to make it clear he was not rushing a thing.

Venus’s hands tightened against his shoulders.

“Jaafar—”

“No,” he murmured, kissing beneath her jaw, the word warm against her skin, almost gentle, though nothing about him felt soft right then; not the set of his mouth, not the weight of his hands, not the impossible certainty in his voice as the silk loosened beneath his fingers. “You done talked enough. You done lied enough too.”

Her breath caught, and he smiled like he heard it, like even that belonged to him.

“You gon’ call downstairs,” he continued, dragging his mouth to the side of her neck, “and switch the card on this room to mine, because I’m not having another man pay for the place where I remind you who you belong to.”

Venus’s eyes fluttered shut.

“And after that,” he said, voice deepening, lazy and lethal with confidence, “you gon’ book five more days.”

Her eyes opened then, sharp despite the way her body leaned into him. “Five?”

“Five,” he said, without hesitation, as though he had already decided it somewhere between the elevator and her door, as though the number had been handed down from Olympus itself. “Maybe six if you keep looking at me like that.”

“You’re unbelievable.”

“I know.”

He kissed her again, slower this time, letting the arrogance of that answer sink into her skin.

“Then you gon’ take that pretty little ring,” he murmured, glancing toward the diamond sitting abandoned on the dresser, “put it back in its box, and give it back to that man when you get home.”

Venus stilled.

Jaafar lifted his head, his eyes finding hers, dark and calm and far too sure of himself for a man who had just walked into her bridal suite and started rearranging her entire life with his mouth on her neck.

“And you gon’ be kind when you do it,” he said. “Because he ain’t do nothing wrong except think he could marry a woman who was never really his.”

Her lips parted, but no words came.

His thumb brushed her cheek, almost tender.

“After that,” he said, softer now, but somehow more devastating, “we gon’ change the invites.”

Venus stared at him.

The city glittered behind him, all gold and glass and distant little stars, but Jaafar looked brighter than all of it, beautiful with audacity, wearing his confidence like a crown he had no intention of taking off.

“You lost your mind,” she whispered.

He smiled.

“No, baby,” he said, dipping his head until his mouth hovered over hers. “I found my wife.”

Her breath broke.

Jaafar kissed the corner of her mouth, then the other, slow enough to be cruel and patient enough to be obscene, as if he had all the time in the world now that the ring was off her finger, as if the bridal suite, the flowers, the wedding plans, the man waiting somewhere with her future in his hands — all of it had become little more than theatre dressing around the only truth that had ever mattered.

“Because you and me?” he whispered, his mouth hovering against hers, his voice low and velvet-dark, heavy with the kind of confidence that did not ask to be believed because it had already crowned itself king. “We finna get married instead.”

Venus stared at him.

For one suspended second, the whole room seemed to hold its breath: the city burning gold beyond the glass, the white roses and peonies spilling from their vases like offerings at Aphrodite’s altar, the closed velvet ring box sitting on the dresser like a dead prophecy, and Jaafar standing between her knees with his hands on her waist and certainty all over his face, looking at her as if Zeus himself had leaned down from Olympus and told him, Go get what is yours.

Then Venus laughed, but it was not amusement that broke out of her, not really; it was disbelief, panic, fury, longing, and all the years she had tried to keep stacked neatly inside her chest finally rattling loose.

“You are out of your damn mind.”

Jaafar smiled, slow and devastating, his lashes low, his mouth still too close to hers. “No,” he said, and the word came out soft, almost gentle, which somehow made it worse. “I’m done letting you act like you don’t know what this is.”

“This?” she echoed, breath catching despite the sharpness she tried to force into her voice.

“This,” he said, and pulled her closer with one sure hand at the small of her back, not rough, not careless, but with the calm authority of a man who had waited so long that waiting had become a second skin and now, finally, he was stepping out of it. “You and me. All these years. All this back and forth, all this timing our lives wrong on purpose, all this pretending we just kept missing each other by accident.”

Venus’s expression shifted.

There it was.

The little fracture.

The tiny betrayal of the face before pride could cover it.

Because that was the part neither of them had ever wanted to say out loud: whenever Venus was single, Jaafar had someone, some beautiful girl with bright eyes and a soft hand tucked through his arm, some woman smiling too widely in photographs as if she had not sensed the ghost standing between them; and whenever Jaafar was finally alone, Venus had someone, some polished man in tailored suits, some collector or architect or financier with the right watch, the right manners, the right age, the right everything except the one thing that mattered.

He was not Jaafar.

And they had done that dance for years.

Round and round, like two foolish mortals cursed by some bored Greek god, always reaching for each other only after placing somebody else in the way, always pretending jealousy was coincidence, always pretending the timing was tragic when the truth was far uglier.

They had both been cowards.

Venus swallowed, her hand tightening in the front of his shirt. “Don’t do that.”

“Do what?”

“Act like you weren’t part of it.”

Jaafar’s mouth stilled against her skin.

For the first time all night, something like guilt moved behind his eyes, but it did not weaken him; if anything, it made him more dangerous, because even his guilt came wrapped in confidence, wrapped in the quiet arrogance of a man who believed that everything he had done, even the mistakes, had still been orbiting her.

“You think I didn’t know?” Venus asked, her voice low now, shaking not with fear but with all the old hurt she had taught herself to wear elegantly. “You think I didn’t see you? Every time I was finally alone, there you were with somebody else. Some girl smiling at you like she had won something. Some girl wearing your jacket. Some girl touching your chest in pictures like she had permission to touch what I—”

She stopped herself.

Jaafar’s eyes darkened.

“What you what?” he asked softly.

Venus looked away.

He touched her chin and brought her face back to him, his fingers gentle, his gaze not gentle at all.

“No,” he murmured. “Finish it.”

“Don’t.”

“Mírame, Venus.” Look at me, Venus.

The Spanish left his mouth like heat over marble, intimate and inherited, not performed but pulled from somewhere deep in him, from blood and memory and the side of his family that had taught him affection could sound like command when spoken softly enough.

Venus’s lashes fluttered.

Jaafar saw it, of course.

He saw everything.

That had always been the problem with him.

He noticed too much, remembered too much, knew too much; he knew the scar on her shoulder from the monkey bars, knew the perfume she wore when she wanted to feel untouchable, knew the way she went quiet when she was hurt, knew that she laughed louder around people she did not trust and softer around people she did, knew that she hated being rushed in the morning, knew that she kept handwritten notes in a box like little relics from a private temple, knew that she could design gowns fit for goddesses and still sleep in old T-shirts when no one was watching.

Her fiancé knew Venus Hamilton.

Jaafar knew Venus.

That was the difference.

“No me mientas, preciosa,” he whispered, thumb brushing along her jaw. Don’t lie to me, beautiful.

Venus exhaled shakily, her fingers curling tighter in his shirt. “No me mandes.” Don’t order me around.

His smile came slow, pleased, wicked at the edges.

“Then stop obeying.”

Her eyes flashed, and for a second the woman he had known all his life came back in full force: sharp, proud, radiant, impossible, Athena with lip gloss and a temper, ready for war even with her robe loose at her shoulders and her ring abandoned behind her.

“You are so arrogant,” she whispered.

“Yes.”

No shame.

No hesitation.

Just yes.

Venus let out a disbelieving breath, but it trembled too much to be a laugh. “You’re not even going to deny it?”

“Why would I deny what you like about me?”

The sentence landed between them like a match dropped in oil.

Her mouth parted.

Jaafar tilted his head, watching her with that infuriating calm, that unbearable certainty, that grown-man confidence that had ruined her the first time because, God help her, he had not come to her like a boy begging for a chance, had not stumbled over his want, had not treated her like some older woman he was lucky to touch.

No.

At twenty-four, Jaafar had stood in front of her like a young Apollo already aware of his own beauty, already certain the sun would rise because he told it to, and when Venus had whispered, “You’re too young for me,” trying desperately to place four years between them like a locked gate, he had only smiled, stepped closer, and said, “Then stop wanting me like I’m not.”

And that was why she had let him in the first time.

Not because he was famous.

Not because he was beautiful, though he was beautiful in a way that felt almost offensive, all dark eyes and long limbs and mouth made for trouble.

Not because he was younger and wanted her with the devotion of a man who had turned longing into religion.

But because Jaafar had never made his desire feel uncertain.

He had looked at her like choosing him was not a scandal, not a mistake, not a lapse in judgment, but a correction the universe had taken too long to make.

And now he was looking at her that same way again.

Only worse.

Older.

Sharper.

More assured.

A man who had grown into every dangerous promise his younger self had made.

“You think one night means more than a proposal?” Venus asked, but the question came out too soft, too wounded, too much like she already knew the answer and hated him for making her ask it.

Jaafar’s hand slid from her waist to her back, firm and warm through the loosened silk. “No,” he said. “I think our one night meant more than his whole engagement.”

Venus went still.

“And that’s why you’ve been running from it for five years.”

The words hit her cleanly.

There was no mercy in them, but there was truth, and truth had always been more dangerous between them than touch.

“You don’t know that,” she whispered.

Jaafar smiled faintly.

“Yes, I do.”

“You don’t.”

“Venus.” He leaned closer, his mouth near her ear now, his breath warm enough to make her close her eyes against her will. “If he had touched anything in you that could make you forget me, I wouldn’t be standing here.”

Her breath broke.

There it was, the ego.

Not loud, not childish, not desperate.

Worse.

Certain.

Jaafar looked at her fiancé’s ring and saw something pretty. Expensive. Tasteful. Cute, even. He could admit that much. The man had chosen well. But the ring did not frighten him, the proposal did not humble him, the wedding did not make him feel beaten, because in Jaafar’s mind, all of it was surface — lace over a wound, flowers over a grave, a polished altar built on ground that had always belonged to him.

Her fiancé could give her a diamond.

Jaafar had given her a memory she could not survive.

Her fiancé could put her name on invitations.

Jaafar had his name sitting in her throat.

Her fiancé could stand at the end of an aisle.

Jaafar was the reason she would tremble before she took the first step.

“That ring is cute,” he murmured, glancing toward the velvet box.

Venus blinked, offended despite everything. “Cute?”

“Very cute.”

“You are such an ass.”

“But it ain’t me.”

Her lips parted, and Jaafar’s smile deepened because he felt it — the pulse jump beneath her skin, the old truth rising between them like Aphrodite from seafoam, naked and beautiful and impossible to drown.

“He can put a ring on you,” Jaafar said, his voice low and slow, every word deliberate. “He can stand in front of everybody and promise you stability, houses, children, Sunday brunch, whatever pretty little life he thinks he’s offering.”

Venus swallowed.

“But he can’t stand in a room where he ain’t even present and make you forget how to breathe.”

Her eyes shone.

“Jaafar…”

“No me corras más,” he whispered against her cheek. Don’t run from me anymore.

She closed her eyes.

He kissed the side of her face, just beneath her temple, so tenderly it nearly hurt more than the arrogance.

“No me corras más, mi Venus.” Don’t run from me anymore, my Venus.

Venus made a small, wounded sound, and his hand tightened at her waist, not to trap her, never that, but to hold her steady beneath the weight of what they were finally saying.

“You were my problem,” she whispered, the words slipping out in Spanish before she could dress them in English and make them safer. “Siempre fuiste mi problema.” You were always my problem.

Jaafar went still.

For the first time, the godlike certainty flickered.

Only for a heartbeat.

But Venus saw it.

She saw the boy beneath the man, the child who had watched her fall from monkey bars and cried after everyone else stopped fussing, the teenager who had scowled every time she brought someone older to a family party, the twenty-four-year-old who had kissed her like he had been waiting his whole life to prove he was no longer too young, the man standing before her now, beautiful and arrogant and wounded by every year she had refused to choose him.

So she said it again.

“Siempre.” Always.

His eyes darkened, but not with victory this time.

With ache.

“Venus…”

She shook her head, her voice trembling now, Spanish and English tangling together because one language was no longer enough to hold everything bleeding out of her. “Every time I tried to be smart, every time I tried to be good, every time I chose the man who made sense, the man who was there at the right time, the man who didn’t come with all this history, all this mess, all this—”

“Love,” Jaafar said.

The word cut through her.

She stared at him.

He stepped closer, until there was barely anything between them but breath and silk and five years of cowardice.

“Say it.”

Her eyes filled. “No.”

“Dilo.” Say it.

“No me mandes,” she whispered again, but weaker this time. Don’t order me around.

Jaafar smiled, soft and devastating.

“Then stop wanting to obey.”

Venus kissed him like she was furious that he knew her, furious that he could stand there wrapped in arrogance and tenderness and be right, furious that the whole world had made sense an hour ago and now every safe thing she had built was turning to ash in his hands.

Jaafar caught her immediately.

Of course he did.

He caught her like he had always known she would come to him eventually, like every year, every lover, every jealous performance, every photograph with the wrong person, every almost, every silence, every family dinner where they sat too close and said too little had only been the long road back to this room.

His mouth moved against hers with slow command, heat and restraint braided together, his hands firm at her waist, his body close but not careless, his confidence so complete it became its own kind of seduction.

He did not touch her like he was lucky.

He touched her like he had been chosen.

That was what ruined her.

Jaafar pulled back only enough to look at her, his mouth slightly swollen, his eyes dark, his expression beautiful in its shameless satisfaction.

“You’re mad,” he murmured.

“I am,” Venus breathed.

“No,” he said, thumb brushing her lower lip. “You’re mad because you missed me.”

Her face tightened.

He smiled.

“And you’re mad because I know exactly how much.”

“You are impossible.”

“I know.”

“You think you can just walk in here, speak Spanish, kiss me, tell me I’m marrying the wrong man, and I’m supposed to fall apart?”

Jaafar’s gaze moved over her slowly, from her loosened robe to her wet eyes to the ring box behind her, and when he looked back at her face, the arrogance in him glowed like Helios dragging the sun across the sky.

“No,” he said. “I think you already fell apart when you took the ring off.”

Venus’s breath caught.

He leaned in, his lips brushing the old scar on her shoulder, the one he knew before any man had thought to study her, the one her fiancé had probably seen but never understood.

“Does he even know how you like it?” he murmured against her skin, the question low enough to be wicked, tender enough to be cruel.

Venus’s eyes closed.

Jaafar kissed just above the scar, not quite on it, as if he were worshipping the memory as much as the woman. “Does he know this?” he asked. “Does he know you cried when you fell off those monkey bars, then yelled at everybody for acting like you cried?”

A breathless laugh slipped from her, broken and unwilling.

His mouth curved against her shoulder.

“Does he know you hate being called delicate, but you keep every fragile thing anybody ever gives you?” He kissed her again, slower. “Does he know you get quiet when you want something too much?”

“Jaafar…”

“Does he know you?” he asked, lifting his head, eyes locking onto hers. “Or does he just know how pretty you look behaving?”

That one hurt.

She looked away, but his hand found her cheek and brought her back.

“No,” he whispered. “Don’t hide now. Not after all this.”

Her eyes shone.

“I was scared.”

His face changed.

The arrogance softened, but did not disappear; it became protective, almost reverent, like Ares lowering his sword not because the war was over, but because the woman in front of him mattered more than victory.

“I know.”

“No, you don’t.”

“Yes, I do.” His thumb brushed under her eye. “You were scared because I wasn’t supposed to be it.”

Venus stared at him.

“I was supposed to grow out of you,” he said quietly. “You were supposed to laugh about my little crush until it became harmless. Then I got grown, and you got quiet.”

Her lips parted.

“And after that night?” His voice dropped, rich and low. “You couldn’t call me young anymore. Not honestly.”

Venus looked at him, and the shame of it, the truth of it, moved through her like heat.

Because he was right.

After that night, the four years between them had stopped feeling like a reason and started feeling like an excuse.

“You think very highly of yourself,” she whispered.

Jaafar smiled.

“Only because you taught me.”

“I did not.”

“You did,” he said, mouth brushing hers. “That first night? The way you looked at me after?” He shook his head slowly, almost amused. “Baby, I been unbearable ever since.”

A laugh broke from her, wet and helpless, and Jaafar grinned like the sound belonged to him too.

Then his expression softened again.

“Five years,” he murmured. “Five years of sitting beside you at dinners, watching you laugh, watching you touch my arm like you forgot what your hands do to me. Five years of you calling me your friend like it didn’t disrespect both of us.”

A tear slipped before Venus could stop it.

Jaafar caught it with his thumb.

“No llores, preciosa.” Don’t cry, beautiful.

Venus gave him a shaky, wounded smile. “You don’t get to make me cry and then tell me not to.”

“I know.”

“You’re cruel.”

“Only when you make me beg in silence.”

That undid something in her.

Not the kiss.

Not the Spanish.

Not the arrogance.

That.

The confession buried beneath the confidence.

Venus lifted her hand to his face, fingers tracing his jaw, and for one rare second Jaafar went still beneath her touch, all his ego quieting just enough for her to see the devotion underneath it.

“I did love you,” she whispered.

His jaw flexed.

“Don’t say it in past tense.”

Her breath trembled.

“Jaafar…”

“No.” His voice was soft, but absolute. “Don’t give me a grave when I came here for a future.”

Venus closed her eyes.

The room blurred around her: flowers, silk, glass, gold, the ring box, the city, the life she had built because it was safe enough to survive.

Then she opened her eyes and looked at him.

Really looked at him.

The boy she had known.

The man she had wanted.

The god she had tried to make mortal by calling him young.

“Te amo, Jaafar,” she whispered. I love you, Jaafar.

Jaafar stopped breathing.

Venus’s hand trembled against his face, but she did not look away.

“Todavía te amo.” I still love you.

For a moment, all the arrogance left him.

Not because it had been defeated, but because the thing beneath it — the thing he had armored for years with charm and ego and other women and pretty smiles in photographs — had finally been touched directly.

He looked almost stunned.

Almost young.

Almost like the boy who had loved her before he knew what to do with love that big.

Then his hand slid to the back of her neck, and when his confidence returned, it came back quieter, deeper, more dangerous, like Poseidon pulling the tide back before swallowing the shore.

“Say it again,” he whispered.

Venus’s eyes fluttered.

“Te amo.”

His thumb brushed her pulse.

“Again.”

“Te amo.”

Jaafar kissed her then like the words had given him back his own name, like Troy had burned, Olympus had opened, Aphrodite had laughed, and every wrong turn they had ever taken had finally led them to the only room where the truth was waiting.

And somewhere behind them, inside its velvet box, the ring sat closed and silent.

Cute.

Pretty.

Finished.

He picked her up with ease, as if all the years between them had only been training his body for this exact moment, one arm locked beneath her while the other swept across the counter with quiet arrogance, swiping the velvet ring box into his hand before tossing it farther down the marble as if it were nothing more than an inconvenience, some pretty little trinket left behind by a man who had mistaken proximity for possession.

Venus watched him with a shaky breath caught behind her teeth, watched the way his shoulders moved, the way his jaw flexed, the way he handled her with that infuriating confidence, as though carrying her was not effort but instinct, as though he had been waiting since boyhood to hold her without apology.

“Jaafar,” she whispered, but it came out too soft to be a warning.

He only looked at her.

That was all.

Just looked at her with those dark, devastating eyes, his mouth still touched by her, his face beautiful with victory and restraint, like some young god come down from Olympus with no intention of returning empty-handed.

Then, without looking away, he lifted her foot and pressed it against his chest.

The gesture should have been ridiculous.

It should have broken the tension.

Instead, Venus felt her breath leave her altogether.

Jaafar’s hand curled around her ankle, warm and steady, his thumb brushing once over the delicate bone there before he lowered his mouth to the ball of her foot, kissing her slowly, reverently, as if even that part of her deserved ceremony. His lips moved upward, over the arch, to her ankle, then higher, each kiss unhurried and deliberate, climbing her like a prayer spoken against skin, like he had all the time in the world to remind her that he did not worship gently when he had been denied for too long.

Venus let out a breathy sigh and shut her eyes, her head tipping back as heat moved through her in slow, golden waves, warm as Helios dragging morning over the sea.

Jaafar smiled against her skin.

Of course he did.

He heard everything — every unsteady breath, every swallowed sound, every little betrayal her body offered before her pride could stop it.

“Still think I don’t know you?” he murmured, his voice low, amused, unbearably sure of itself.

Venus’s lashes fluttered, but she did not open her eyes.

His mouth moved higher, his hand firm beneath her calf, the other steadying her with such control that she hated how safe she felt in his arrogance.

“Answer me, Venus.”

She swallowed.

“Eres insoportable,” she whispered. You’re unbearable.

Jaafar’s smile deepened against her.

“Y todavía me amas.” And you still love me.

Her breath caught, and when his lips brushed the inside of her knee, slow and warm and devastating, Venus’s fingers tightened in his shirt as if she needed something to anchor her before the last of her common sense slipped beneath the tide.

“Sí,” she breathed, barely audible, the word breaking out of her like surrender. “Todavía te amo.” Yes. I still love you.

Jaafar lifted his head then, eyes dark and triumphant, the kind of triumph that did not need to shout because it had already won.

“I know,” he said softly.

And God, that was the worst part.

He did.

She watched as he brought her knee to his shoulder, tossing the other over the other shoulder too. He looked up to watch her, his brown eyes meeting her own as he hiked up her robe and latched his lips onto her slit. 

He hadn’t tasted her in years, he realised, five years to be specific, one thousand eight hundred and twenty-five days ( not that he was counting, of course). He’d spent half of a decade wanting this, dreaming of the day they’d reconcile, and now that they were here, together, where they should’ve been all along, he didn’t think he’d be able to let it go again.

She bit her lip to stop her loud moans, grinding her hips against his face as he sucked on her clit, pulling it back before releasing and blowing cool air and watching with wonder as her mound twitched. He moved down to her pussy, running the tip of his tongue on the edges of her lower lips. He watched as she curled her toes when he spat on her lips and flattened his tongue to lick it up once more.  

He remembered it all, he remembered what she liked and how she liked it, he remembered how to curl his tongue when he ate it, he remembered how hard to suck and how much to curl his fingers the way she liked, the same way that made her writhe that one night burned into his brain more than he wanted to admit, more than it should’ve been; but fuck why wouldn’t it be? He kept her up all night, years of desire melding together into that one moment as her sighs and moans became his favourite symphony.

Just as the pressure began to build up, she tried to write away from him, the polished wood of the grand piano she was hoisted on making her movements smoother as she whined, but he just tightened his grip around her waist, pulling her back to where he wanted her. “Deja de estar jodiendo conmigo, Venus.”

Stop fuckin’ playing with me, Venus

And then he returned, adding two fingers and eating at the same time. Just like that, her mouth flew open with a moan, spurring Jaafar on, her hand tangling in his curls as he curled them to the right, an action he knew would make her lose the shred of sense she claimed to have.

With every moan, her chest rose, and the robe came looser and looser, the cool air caressing her skin, cooling her down and yet still she felt hot, like she wasn’t getting enough air in her lungs. He was making the Venus Taraji Hamilton succumb to him, the same Venus that claimed to have it all together, the one who was as strict as a ruler growing up, was here, with him. Her moans grew louder as she felt a pit form in her stomach, it wasn’t long until she released with a loud cry, succumbing to an orgasm so intense the corners of her vision whitnened, as she fought her consciousness. Like a beggar, he feasted at all he gave her, lapping her juices up as he groaned to himself. 

He lifted his lips, pressing a kiss to her lips, ensuring she tasted herself on his lips. Then he pulled her closer to him as he unblocked his belt with his left hand , the right tugging the robe away from her body. She cared for Kenan, she truly did, and that was perhaps the cruelest part of it all, because there was no easy hatred to hide behind, no convenient flaw she could point to and say, There, that is why this was never enough. He was kind to her, attentive when his life allowed it, successful in the steady, impressive way men like him were expected to be, and yet no matter how many times they had found their way into each other’s arms, no matter how familiar his touch became or how earnestly he tried to make her feel chosen, it had never compared to this.

Granted, they had both been busy. Venus had been drowning in fabric swatches, tailoring appointments, and sleepless nights designing Jaafar’s looks for the premiere of his movie, while Kenan had been consumed by boardrooms, acquisitions, and the endless machinery of his companies; their love, if she could call it that, had learned to exist in scheduled windows, between flights, after meetings, beneath the polite exhaustion of two people with too much to do and too little fire left to burn.

But with Jaafar, nothing felt scheduled.

Nothing felt polite.

Nothing felt like something she could fold neatly into the margins of her life and return to later.

This was consuming, unreasonable, almost mythic in its intensity, like some reckless offering laid at the feet of Aphrodite and set aflame before either of them could think better of it. Truly, Venus felt crazy — crazy for wanting this with him, crazy for wanting the very man she had spent years trying to outrun, crazy for craving him with a hunger so deep it frightened her, for wanting him to consume her whole again and again until the world outside the suite blurred into nothing, until the ring, the wedding, Kenan, and every sensible choice she had ever made became distant and weightless, until she could barely tell where Jaafar ended and where she began.

She felt the head of his dick nudging her entrance. While she was embarrassingly drenched she didn’t seem to care, not as her eyes met his, not as he took her hand and intertwined their fingers and became one, not even as her walls stretched around the familiar yet overwhelming stretc of him. 

“For better or for worse,” she whispered, the words trembling somewhere between a promise and a surrender as she gazed into his brown eyes, her fingers lifting to brush the loose hair away from his face with a tenderness that made the whole room feel quieter.

Jaafar stilled beneath her touch.

There was something unbearably intimate about it — not the heat, not the want, not even the wreckage of the ring sitting somewhere behind them — but this, Venus looking at him as if she had finally stopped running long enough to recognize the man who had been waiting for her all along.

Her thumb skimmed his temple, soft and reverent.

“For better or for worse,” she repeated, quieter this time, like she was testing the weight of forever in her mouth and realizing, with a terrifying kind of peace, that it sounded like him.

Jaafar’s eyes searched hers, the heat in them quieting for just a moment, softening into something more dangerous than desire, something old and aching and almost boyish beneath all that confidence.

He turned his face into her palm, pressing a kiss there, slow and deliberate, before his hand came up to cover hers.

“Para bien o para mal, en esta vida y en todas las que vengan después,” he whispered. 

“For better or for worse, in this life and the ones after it.” 

…

By the time Venus Taraji Hamilton was twenty-four, she had already mastered the delicate art of pretending not to notice when Jaafar Jackson looked at her. It was not that he was subtle, because God help him, he was not; he had the nerve to believe silence could hide devotion when devotion had already made a home in his eyes, when every glance he gave her lingered too long, burned too warm, settled too low in her chest to be mistaken for anything innocent. But Venus had grown skilled at turning away before the moment could become a confession, at laughing when he became too serious, at calling him young whenever the air between them grew too thick to breathe through.

Young. That was the word she kept like a little shield tucked against her ribs. Four years younger. Family friend. Baby Jackson, when she wanted to irritate him. Jaafar, when she forgot herself. He was twenty then, tall already, beautiful already, dangerous in the unfinished way young gods must have been before Olympus gave them thrones — all dark curls, long lashes, quiet confidence, and that strange, steady way of watching the world as though he expected it to open for him eventually. Venus should have known then that time was not going to save her.

They had ended up in the pet shop because of rain. That was what she would remember years later, though she could never decide if the rain had been coincidence or conspiracy, some private orchestration from the gods, as if Zeus had cracked open the sky just to push them beneath the same little awning on a quiet afternoon when neither of them had intended to be alone together. Their families had gone ahead to lunch, their mothers distracted, their fathers talking too loudly about old friends and business, and Venus had stepped away to avoid the chaos, ducking into the first open shop on the corner with Jaafar right behind her like a shadow with a heartbeat.

The bell above the door chimed when they entered, and inside, the world softened. The pet shop smelled faintly of cedar chips, clean water, birdseed, and rain-soaked pavement carried in on their shoes. Parakeets chattered near the window, bright as stolen jewels; sleepy puppies pressed their noses against glass pens; and a fat orange cat watched from a carpeted tower with the offended dignity of Hera herself. Everything inside felt warm and gold and strange, a tiny ark hidden from the storm outside, humming with life.

Venus shook rain from the ends of her hair, frowning at the dampness on her sleeves. “You didn’t have to follow me,” she said, though they both knew that if she had truly wanted him gone, she would have said so long before the bell above the door stopped ringing. Jaafar only leaned against the doorframe for half a second, pushing wet curls from his forehead, looking entirely too pleased with himself for someone who had just been caught trailing her through bad weather. “I didn’t follow you,” he said. “It was raining.” Venus gave him a look, and he smiled, and that smile was already a problem.

Not fully grown yet, not as lethal as it would become later, but enough to make her look away, enough to irritate her because she knew exactly what it would become once age finished carving patience into his face. Jaafar at twenty did not yet have all the weight he would carry as a man, but he had the promise of it, the early shape of confidence, the beginning of that infuriating certainty that one day, if he waited long enough, she would run out of excuses.

“You are so annoying,” she muttered, moving deeper into the shop, pretending to be interested in a display of tiny ceramic bowls painted with paw prints. Jaafar followed at an unhurried pace, hands in his pockets, watching her with the kind of calm that made her want to throw something soft at his head. There was no rush in him. That was the truly dangerous part. Even then, even young, even with all that longing sitting visibly beneath his skin, he had never behaved like a man afraid of losing the race. He behaved like someone who believed the race had already been won.

The aquarium section glowed blue in the back of the shop, and Venus saw it first. Against the far wall, beneath soft white lamps, glass tanks shimmered with small flashes of moving colour: goldfish, bettas, little silver schools of minnows flickering like coins tossed into sacred water. But in the largest tank, set slightly apart from the rest, two koi moved slowly through the water with a grace that made the whole shop feel suddenly hushed. One was white with patches of deep red across its back, bright as pomegranate seeds spilled over snow, and the other was black, orange, and gold, its scales catching light like pieces of Helios’s chariot broken across a river.

They circled each other. Not chasing, not fleeing, but turning in the same slow rhythm, one passing beneath the other, then beside it, then around again, their bodies folding through the water like silk ribbons pulled by an invisible hand. Venus stepped closer despite herself, and Jaafar came to stand beside her. For once, neither of them spoke. The rain tapped against the front windows, the parakeets quieted, somewhere in the shop a dog whined softly in its sleep, and there, before the koi tank, time seemed to lose its shape.

“They’re beautiful,” Venus whispered. Jaafar looked at the koi for a moment, then at her. “Yeah,” he said, quietly enough that she knew, without needing to ask, that he was not only talking about the fish. She turned toward him, ready to scold him, ready to call him young, ready to tuck the moment safely back into the box she kept for impossible things, but he was already watching her, and there was nothing boyish in his eyes. That was what stole the words from her.

At twenty, Jaafar should have looked at her with hunger, with impatience, with the clumsy intensity of youth. Instead, he looked at her as though he recognized her from somewhere older than memory, somewhere before language, before family dinners and age gaps and all the careful little rules people built around desire. He looked at her the way Orpheus must have looked back toward the underworld, not because he doubted what he loved was following, but because love itself had become unbearable without proof.

Behind them, a soft voice said, “They always know.” Venus startled slightly and turned. An elderly Japanese woman stood near the end of the aisle, small and neat in a navy cardigan, silver hair pinned back, a name tag clipped to her chest. Her eyes were kind, amused, and far too knowing, the way old women in stories always seemed to be, as though age had given them access to secrets the young kept embarrassing themselves trying to hide.

Jaafar straightened, polite at once, but the woman only smiled and stepped closer to the tank. “Koi are good to look at,” she said. “They teach patience. In Japan, koi are symbols of perseverance, strength, and good fortune. They swim against the current. They endure. Some stories say that when a koi is brave enough to climb the waterfall, the gods turn it into a dragon.”

“A reward for not giving up?” Jaafar asked, his eyes moving back to the fish, interest sharpening his face. Venus laughed softly before she could stop herself. “That sounds like something you would like.” He glanced at her, and there it was again, that little flash of arrogance she found so irritating because it suited him too well. “I have a high opinion of being right,” he said.

The old woman smiled like she had seen this exact argument a thousand years before in a thousand different forms. “Two koi together can also mean harmony,” she said. “Balance. A love that must keep moving, even when the water is difficult.” Venus’s smile faded a little. Jaafar went still beside her. The koi circled again, one pale, one dark, touching only for a second as they passed, then separating, then finding the same rhythm once more.

The woman lifted one finger, pointing gently toward the red-and-white koi. “That one always waits,” she said. “The black one goes ahead, then turns. The white one follows, then waits. They keep losing each other for one moment, but they do not panic. They know where the other will be.”

Something moved through Venus then, so quiet and sharp she almost missed it. They know where the other will be. Jaafar did not say anything, and that was worse. If he had joked, if he had smiled too widely, if he had made some arrogant little comment, Venus could have rolled her eyes and dismissed the whole thing, but he was silent beside her, his shoulder barely brushing hers, his attention fixed on the two koi as if the woman had reached into the water and pulled up some hidden truth he had not yet earned the right to say.

“There is another story,” the woman continued. “Not koi. A red thread. Many people mix the meanings now, but the old idea is that two people who are meant for each other are tied by an invisible red thread. It may stretch. It may tangle. It may take years.” Her eyes softened. “But it does not break.”

Venus’s heart gave one foolish, humiliating beat. She laughed because she had to. “That sounds dangerous.” The old woman looked at her with gentle amusement. “Only if you fight it.” Jaafar finally looked at Venus, and she felt it before she met his eyes. The thread. It was ridiculous. There was no thread, no bright red string looped around his thumb and her finger, no visible proof that the universe had tied them together behind their backs while they were busy pretending family history and four years could protect them.

And yet, standing there beneath the blue aquarium light, with rain blurring the windows and two koi circling like fate had given itself scales, Venus could almost feel it — something fine and red and impossible, a line drawn from him to her, not tight enough to trap, not loose enough to ignore.

Jaafar lifted his hand, and for one breath she thought he might touch her. He did not. He only reached toward the glass, placing two fingers lightly against it as the gold-and-black koi swam past. “Does it hurt?” he asked quietly. The old woman looked at him. “What?” Jaafar kept his eyes on the fish. “The thread. If it stretches.”

Venus turned to him, something in her chest going painfully soft. The question was too young and too old at the same time, too bare for a boy who had spent most of the afternoon smirking at her like confidence was armour. He did not look at Venus when he asked it, but she knew, somehow, that the question belonged to her. The old woman studied him for a moment, then said, “Only when one person keeps walking away and the other stands still.”

Venus forgot how to breathe. Jaafar’s hand dropped from the glass. Outside, thunder rolled faintly across the sky, low and distant, like Zeus had overheard enough and was warning them not to make him repeat himself. Venus cleared her throat, forcing a smile that felt too thin. “Well,” she said, “that’s dramatic for a pet shop.” The old woman laughed gently. “Love is dramatic everywhere.”

The two koi had begun circling more tightly now, one turning around the other in a slow, endless shape, like an infinity symbol drawn in water. “They look like they’re dancing,” Venus said, because it was safer than saying what she was thinking. Jaafar watched the fish, his face suddenly quiet and reverent, less like a young man sheltering from rain and more like Apollo standing at the edge of a prophecy he had not yet learned how to survive. “They keep missing,” he said.

“Only by a little,” Venus murmured. “They come back around.” Jaafar looked at her then. “Yes,” he said quietly. “They do.” Venus should have said something clever. She should have called him annoying again, reminded him that he was twenty, that she was twenty-four, that whatever lived under his skin when he looked at her was not something she could entertain without feeling like she had betrayed common sense itself. But the words did not come.

The old woman eventually returned with a tiny paper cup of fish food and handed it to Venus. “Here,” she said. “You feed them.” Venus took it carefully, then glanced at Jaafar. “Why me?” He shrugged, smiling faintly. “Maybe they like you.” She rolled her eyes. “Everything likes me.” His smile widened. “There’s that ego.” “Learned from you.” His expression shifted, amused and soft all at once. “I’m younger. How you learning from me?”

She froze. He knew it instantly. The forbidden thing had slipped between them again, dressed as a joke and yet not a joke at all. Younger. There it was. Her shield. Her excuse. Her little gate. Jaafar’s smile faded by inches. “You always mean it when you say that,” he said, and there was no accusation in his voice, which somehow made it worse.

Venus looked down into the cup, guilt sitting sharp beneath her ribs. “I didn’t mean—” “Yes, you did.” The words were quiet. Steady. Too honest. Then, before the moment could split open completely, he nodded toward the tank. “Feed them before they start judging us.”

Venus turned back to the koi and sprinkled a few flakes over the water. They rose at once, mouths opening softly, bodies brushing the surface, colour flashing beneath the blue light. Jaafar came to stand beside her again — not too close, just close enough — and for a while, they watched the koi eat in silence.

The black-and-gold koi moved first, then the red-and-white one followed, close enough that their fins brushed. A strange little hush moved through Venus as she watched them, and before she could stop herself, she imagined the invisible red thread the old woman had described. Stretching. Tangling. Crossing years. Looping around other lovers, other cities, other rooms, other mistakes. Never breaking.

When she looked down, her smallest finger was close to his hand. Not touching.

Almost.

Jaafar noticed.

Of course he noticed.

His gaze dropped to the narrow space between their hands, to the delicate almost of it, her smallest finger resting close enough to his that the air itself seemed to tremble there. Venus could have moved away. She should have moved away. She could have tucked her hand behind her back, reached for the paper cup again, made some sharp little comment to cut the moment down before it grew teeth.

But she did not.

For one dangerous second, their hands hovered side by side over the edge of the tank stand, his little finger near hers, the space between them so small it felt indecent; then Jaafar moved, barely, just enough for his pinky to brush hers. The touch was so light it could have been an accident, except Jaafar Jackson had never accidentally wanted her a day in his life.

Venus’s breath caught.

He did not look at her.

She did not look at him.

They stood there like that, hands almost touching, koi circling, rain falling, and Venus thought with sudden terror that maybe the gods did not always announce destiny with thunderbolts. Maybe fate arrived quietly. Maybe it smelled like aquarium water and cedar chips. Maybe it wore damp curls and a too-calm expression. Maybe your soulmate did not arrive with some grand, flaming sign from Olympus; maybe he simply stood beside you long enough for your body to recognize him before your mind could object.

“Venus,” Jaafar said softly.

She closed her eyes for half a second. “What?”

“When I’m older,” he said, stubborn as a prayer, “you gon’ stop saying that.”

Her eyes opened.

The shield rose in her immediately, familiar and automatic. He was twenty. She was twenty-four. That was supposed to mean something. That was supposed to protect her from the way he looked at her, from the quiet certainty in his voice, from the awful little truth sitting between them like the red thread itself had tightened around their fingers.

“Jaafar,” she warned.

But he only turned to her fully, his gaze steady, his voice low enough to belong only to her. “What you mean is you need a reason to act like you don’t feel this too.”

Venus went still.

The koi moved beneath them, red and gold and black and white, circling, circling, circling, two little gods trapped in glass and still somehow freer than she felt. She looked down and realized their pinkies were still touching. Barely. Almost nothing. Enough to ruin the air.

“You don’t know what I feel,” she said, but it came out too quietly to be convincing.

Jaafar’s gaze dropped to their hands, then lifted back to her face. “Yes, I do.”

The confidence should have made her furious. Instead, it made her afraid, because there was no cruelty in it, no demand, no childish arrogance dressed up as romance. Just certainty. Warm and calm and devastating. The kind of certainty that did not need to raise its voice because it believed time itself would eventually testify on its behalf.

Venus pulled her hand away.

Jaafar let her.

That was almost worse.

He did not chase. He did not grab. He did not make a scene. He only nodded once, as if this too was part of the pattern, as if she was the koi swimming ahead and he already knew she would circle back.

“You’re impossible,” she whispered.

His smile returned, softer this time, touched with something that made him look younger and older all at once. “You keep saying that.”

Before Venus could answer, the old woman passed behind them again and glanced once more at the tank, her expression warm with that unsettling wisdom old women in stories always seemed to possess. “They like you two,” she said.

Venus gave a weak laugh. “You think so?”

“Yes,” the woman replied. “They can tell when people are tied.”

Venus’s body went still.

Jaafar’s eyes moved to her face, but she kept hers on the water because looking at him right then felt too much like confession.

“By the red thread?” he asked.

The woman shrugged lightly, as if fate was not something to be proven, only recognized. “Maybe. Maybe by water. Maybe by something older.”

Venus tried to smile. “Older than what?”

The woman looked at them both, then at the koi moving below the blue light. “Than the reasons people make to stay apart.”

The words settled over them like a blessing and a warning.

Venus looked back at the tank.

This time, the koi were side by side.

No circling. No missing. No thin ribbon of blue between them. Just moving together through the water, slow and certain, two bodies following the same invisible current as though they had been doing it long before anyone thought to name it love.

For once, Jaafar said nothing.

He did not need to.

The rain softened outside, and soon their families would begin wondering where they had gone. The world would return with its noise, its rules, its ages, its careful little categories. Someone would call Venus’s phone. Someone would ask why Jaafar had disappeared too. Lunch would resume, parents would laugh, old friends would hug, and Venus would have to step back into a life where pretending was easier than admitting that something in her had shifted in the blue glow of a koi tank.

But for that one suspended moment, she let herself stand beside him.

She let herself feel the brush of his sleeve against hers. She let herself imagine the red thread. She let herself imagine two koi swimming through difficult water, separated by turns, tangled by timing, always circling, always returning, always finding the same current again.

And though she would not say it then, though she would spend years swallowing the truth until it grew teeth inside her, some quiet part of Venus knew.

Not hoped.

Not wondered.

Knew.

Jaafar Jackson was going to be the hardest thing she ever tried to outrun.

And one day, when she was tired enough, honest enough, brave enough, she would stop swimming against him and call it fate.

By the time you reached home, your pulse was already racing. He said nothing as he led you upstairs.

Once inside the bedroom, he quietly shut the door. You barely made it two steps before his hand caught your wrist. Firm, certain.

The pull turned you toward him. Michael said nothing at first. He only looked at you. And whatever restraint he'd been holding onto all evening was gone.

"What was his name?" The question was low, controlled. Your brows drew together. "What?"

"The man you spent half the evening smiling at." His fingers tightened slightly around your wrist.  "What is his name?" Realization bloomed. And before you could answer, Michael stepped closer. Close enough to heat roll off him. "You seemed very interested in whatever he had to say."

His hand slid to your waist, fingers spreading possessively over your side. Your breath hitched, and Michael noticed. His gaze dropped briefly to your mouth before lifting back to your eyes.

"Tell me." His thumb pressed into your waist. "Was I supposed to enjoy watching that?" The quiet jealousy in his voice sent heat rushing through you.

"Michael, I was just being polite." A humorless smile touched his lips. "Were you?"

His hand moved higher, settling at the back of your neck, his fingers threading lightly into your hair. Not rough, but possessive enough to make your pulse jump.

"Because from where I was standing," he murmured, pulling you closer until there was no space left between you, "it looked like he had your full attention."

His forehead brushed yours. "And all night, I've been thinking about reminding you exactly who you belong to." The words sent heat through your body.

His gaze dropped to your lips. "Tell me I'm wrong," he whispered, his mouth brushing yours with every word. "Tell me you didn't notice what you were doing to me."

You opened your mouth to answer.

But before you could, Michael kissed you. Deeply, possessively. The force of it stole your breath instantly.

His hand tightened in your hair while the other held your waist firmly against him, leaving no space between your bodies. The kiss was hungry, claiming, full of all the tension he'd buried behind silence for hours. Heat rushed through you so fast your knees nearly gave out. When he finally pulled back, both of you were breathing hard.

Michael’s dark gaze lingered on your flushed face, taking in your parted lips and dazed expression. "God, you look so beautiful like this."

His fingers slid slowly along the back of your neck before his lips brushed softly against your cheek, then lower to your jaw.

"You made me spend all night wondering how quickly I could make you forget he ever had your attention," he whispered against your ear. He bit the spot right below your ear lightly, then kissed it. A sound of pleasure escaped your lips.

And a shiver ran through you. Michael noticed instantly. A quiet hum of approval vibrated against your skin as his mouth moved to your neck, leaving slow, deliberate kisses that made your breath catch.

“That's right,” he murmured. “Let me hear it.” You reached for him instinctively, clutching at his shirt.

He kissed lower, lingering just long enough to leave marks.

His hand tightened at the small of your back as he lifted his head to meet your gaze. "Look at me."

The quiet command made your breath catch. Before you could respond, his mouth claimed yours again - harder this time, hungrier.

His hand slid into your hair, tilting your head exactly how he wanted as he guided you backward. You barely realized he was moving you until the backs of your legs hit the edge of the bed. A startled gasp escaped you.

Michael swallowed the sound with a low groan, deepening the kiss. "Careful," he murmured roughly. His hand pressed more firmly at your back. And when your knees finally gave out, you sank onto the mattress.

Michael followed instantly, one hand braced beside your head while the other stayed firm at your waist, holding you exactly where he wanted you.

For a moment, he simply hovered over you. Breathing hard.

His dark gaze moved slowly over your flushed face, your parted lips, the hickeys already blooming along your neck. "So pretty all marked up for me." A rush of heat flooded your face. "But it's not enough." 

His hand slid slowly down your side as he lowered himself over you, his lips trailing soft kisses down your throat, over your collarbone, lower and lower until they reached the bare skin of your stomach. The touch made your breath hitch. His fingers hooked beneath the hem of your shirt, lifting it slowly as his mouth followed the newly exposed skin. Each kiss was slow, soft. Like he was taking his time memorizing every inch of you. When his lips reached the spot just below your bra, he finally pulled the shirt over your head and tossed it aside.

For a moment, he simply looked at you. His dark gaze lingered over your body with quiet hunger. Then his mouth found your chest. The first kisses were soft. Almost teasing. Gentle brushes of his lips that made your pulse race with anticipation. But then they deepened. Lingering longer. Pressing harder. Until warmth bloomed across your skin and you knew he was leaving marks there too.

A quiet sound escaped your lips. Michael paused. "Tell me you love me." The words were low. Not a command, a need. As if after everything he'd felt tonight, he needed to hear it. His mouth returned to your skin, trailing another lingering kiss as he waited.

"I love you," you breathed, your voice shaky. He went still. Then slowly lifted his head. His eyes locked onto yours. "You love who?" The question sent your heart racing. He rose over you, one hand lifting to cradle your jaw. His fingers tightened just enough to keep your attention fixed on him.

"And look at me with those pretty eyes when you say it." Your breath caught. The intensity in his gaze made your pulse pound. "I love you, Michael." For a moment, he simply stared at you. And something in his expression softened. The tension that had been simmering in him all evening finally eased, replaced by something deeper. Something almost vulnerable. His thumb brushed gently across your cheek. A quiet exhale left him, almost like relief. Then he leaned down until his lips barely brushed yours.

"I love you more, Y/N." The whisper was soft. And then he kissed you on the lips again. Slowly this time. Deeply. Like he was trying to say everything he didn't know how to put into words.

His hand reached your chest, kissing you as he squeezed it possessively. Then his hand slowly slid down, all the way from your boobs to the top of your jeans. Without breaking eye contact, he unfastened them, impatience creeping into the motion as he slipped his hand beneath the fabric. Your breathing gets heavier as his fingers find your entrance through your drenched panties, slowly feeling it out. "So wet for me already?"

Your body went still for a moment, breath catching as the closeness of him overwhelmed you. It wasn’t just what he was doing in your pants - it was the way he was looking at you, his eyes full of love and lust for you. Hungry for you and only you. "Michael…" you whispered in need for more, your hands instinctively finding his wrists - not to stop him, but to anchor yourself. "You want more? So greedy." he says teasingly.

His long fingers started to rub you through your panties. Massaging your clit slowly, using enough pressure to make you hitch. Soft moans escaped against his lips, and Michael pulled back just enough to watch your face. His gaze traced every detail - the way your lashes fluttered, the way your lips parted, the way your breathing grew uneven beneath his touch. He looked almost fascinated by it, like he was savoring the sight of how easily he could undo you. He wanted to know how good he was making you feel as his hand slid under your panties, touching your clit directly now. He watched your reactions closely.

You can't help but moan softly and shutter under his touch. A quiet chuckle escaped him while looking at you with that dazed, lustful look. "That's right." he murmured, his index and middle finger moving in circles. "I bet he couldn't make you look like this even if he tried."

His two fingers started to move dangerously close to your entrance. "All that talking he did, all that trying to get your attention…" His voice dropped lower, his fingers slowing almost teasingly. "And still, this is who you’re getting off to tonight."

"Michael-" the protest barely left your lips before your words turned into a sharp gasp as he slid his two fingers inside you. He pushed them all the way in, to the deep sweet spot. Your whole body jolted, your fingers instinctively tightening around his wrist as your head tipped back for a second. Heat rushed to your face instantly, embarrassment and pleasure tangling together as the sound that escaped you was far louder than you meant it to be.

"What is it?" he asked softly, almost sweetly. "Too much for you?" The sympathy in his tone was obviously fake - teasing, amused, and somehow even more overwhelming because of how gently he said it.

Before you could force out a response, his fingers inside you started to move.

In and out.

Slowly at first, but still applying pressure in all the right places. You felt so weak under his touch, like you were melting into it.

His fingers gradually picked up speed. "And how about this?" His fingers slid deeper inside you, your walls desperately clenching around his long fingers as they filled you. The pleasure began to build deep within your body.

"Don't stop," you whimpered breathlessly.

Michael could feel the way you clenched around him, the tremble running through your body, how completely lost you were in the pleasure. Everything coming from you was real, raw, and he loved seeing this side of you.

The friction inside you was becoming too much. You could feel your breaking point getting closer.

"Michael, I-"

He noticed every sign your body gave him, every small indication that your orgasm was approaching.

"No. Don’t come until I say so, okay, honey?" He spoke in a soft, sweet voice just inches from your face.

Then he kissed your forehead gently as he sped up his pace again, making it even harder for you to hold on—to obey him.

And he knew exactly what he was doing. He loved watching you struggle beneath the pleasure. Your moans grew louder, your breathing uneven as he worked his fingers inside you without mercy.

"Michael, I can't… I can't hold it," you finally breathed out.

"Just be a good girl and hold it for me, okay?" Again, that soft voice. The contrast between his tone and what he was doing made you clench even harder.

"But I really can't anymore, I-"

Before you could finish, he interrupted. "You can. You’re my sweet girl, right? So just listen to me."

His other hand rested against your lower stomach, applying light pressure that only intensified the pleasure.

Your body felt completely out of control, but you still tried your best, not wanting to disappoint him.

But it was too much. You couldn't do it anymore. Your orgasm was dangerously close. Your hand wrapped around his wrist, trying weakly to slow him down.

He noticed immediately - in your moans, in the way your grip tightened, in the trembling that had taken over your body.

You were about to come. He couldn't let that happen. So he slowed his movements, his lips still pressed to your forehead. "Shh, shh. Not yet, my angel. I told you to wait, didn't I?" he whispered against your skin, sending shivers down your spine.

Your hips moved subconsciously against his fingers, your body craving more.

"I'm sorry, I couldn't hold it-"

He interrupted you again, pressing his thumb gently to your lips before sliding it downward.

"Shh, baby. It's okay. I know it's hard, angel. But you have to listen to me, understand?"

His other hand gripped your waist, squeezing firmly. You nodded, unable to look away from him, from the intense eye fucking situation you had going on now.

He leaned closer to your ear. "Good," he whispered. Then he leaned back, his hands moving to your jeans and slowly pulling them off.

After that, he positioned himself between your thighs, his hands gripping your hips as he pulled you closer to him.

"Let me see." His gaze dropped to where your panties still clung to you. The damp fabric stuck to your skin, outlining every detail and making your breath hitch under the intensity of his stare.

"So wet," he murmured to himself, his voice low with satisfaction.

His eyes lingered there for a moment before lifting back to your face. "Were you this wet when you were talking to him earlier, hm?" He waited for your answer, his expression dark and expectant.

"No…" At your response, Michael looked at you in a way that said everything without needing words. His gaze alone made it clear - only he could make you feel this good. And deep down, you knew he was right. Nothing compared to the way he touched you, the way he made you feel.

"Thought so," he said quietly. His eyes dropped back between your legs, drawn once again to the damp fabric.

Then he leaned closer. His lips brushed against your inner thigh, pressing soft, delicate kisses against your skin. At first, they were light - almost teasing.

But slowly they grew deeper, firmer, more deliberate. He was marking you again.

The closeness of his mouth, the heat of his breath, the way he stayed just near enough without giving you what you wanted most - it made patience nearly impossible.

Then he moved even closer to your panties. His nose hovered just above the soaked fabric, his breath warm against you.

Still not touching. Not yet.

Your hips shifted forward instinctively, desperate for more. A slow smile spread across his lips against your skin. He knew exactly what he was doing. He knew exactly what he was making you feel.

"So impatient," he murmured, his smile widening as his fingers tightened slightly against your hips. "You really need my touch that badly?"

"I need you so bad, Michael. Please." The desperation in your voice made something dark flicker in his expression.

Without another word, his lips caught the thin fabric between his teeth, slowly tugging your panties down while keeping eye contact with you. The motion was deliberate, torturously slow, as though he wanted to savor every second of your anticipation.

When the fabric finally slipped away, his eyes lingered to the wet mess of a pussy. The hunger in his gaze made heat rush through your entire body. "Look at you," he said softly almost in awe, "so pretty and wet for me."

Then he leaned in, kissing your clit. The first kiss was featherlight, barely there, just enough to make your breath hitch. Then another. And another. Each one lingered longer than the last, his mouth teasing you with maddening precision. You trembled beneath him.

He glanced up, watching your face carefully, studying every reaction - the way your lips parted, the way your chest rose and fell faster, the way your body instinctively tried to move closer.

Satisfied, he let his tongue drag slowly upward, the warmth of it sending a sharp shiver through you. A helpless moan escaped your lips. Michael's eyes darkened. He repeated the motion, slower this time, deliberate enough to make every nerve ending light up.

Then his attention narrowed to only your clit, his focus sharpening as he became more precise, more intentional, every movement designed to draw another sound from you. Your fingers tangled in his hair near the nape of his neck. Your hips rolled forward instinctively.

A quiet chuckle vibrated against your skin. "Go on," he murmured. "If you need it that badly, take what you want."

He held still, his tongue waiting, forcing you to move against him. The desperation burning through you made your body obey before your mind could think. You moved your hips against his tongue carefully at first, then faster, chasing the friction, the pressure, the relief he was letting you earn.

Michael watched with dark satisfaction, his grip tightening. Seeing you so undone, so willing, pushed him past restraint. A low groan escaped him.

Before you could adjust, his hands locked firmly against your hips, holding you still. "Enough."

And then he took control again. The sudden intensity stole the breath from your lungs. His mouth moved with renewed purpose, no longer teasing, no longer patient.

The pressure built rapidly, wave after wave crashing through you until your body was trembling uncontrollably. He puts his fingers inside you again, the added sensation making your entire body tense. You were so close. "Michael-" your voice broke. "Please... can I-" His only answer was a low murmur against your skin. "No." The single word sent a shudder through you. "Hold it for me."

His voice was soft, almost affectionate, but his grip made it clear he expected obedience. And somehow, that only made the ache burning inside you even worse.

You clenched hard, every muscle straining to obey, while Michael looked up at you with quiet amusement. "That's it," he whispered. "Show me how good you can be."

This went on for another moment, until you couldn't take it anymore. Only one movement away from your release, your fingers tightened in his hair.

That was his signal to stop. "Not yet, sweetheart."

He pressed a few more soft kisses against your skin before lifting his head and turning toward you. Then he shifted, his crotch now close to your face.

"Come here," he murmured. "I want to show you what you do to me." Slowly, he unbuckled his belt and pushed his pants down. Even through the fabric of his underwear, the outline of his erection was impossible to miss.

Huge. Your breath caught. He hooked his fingers into the waistband and pulled it down, revealing his hard, throbbing dick springing free right in front of you.

"See that?" Your eyes lingered on him, filled with hunger. "That's all you, baby." His hand moved to your chin, tilting your face up slightly. "Open that mouth for me." The tip brushed softly against your lips. "C'mon," he said, his voice low and coaxing. "Taste it."

You obeyed immediately, parting your lips and taking him into your mouth. Slowly at first. His breathing hitched. "Look up at me." You lifted your eyes to his, and the moment your gaze locked with his, a dark smile spread across his face. "Good girl."

His hand moved to your hair, gently patting your head before threading his fingers through it. Encouraged by his praise, you pushed yourself further, taking him deeper and using your throat. A moan escaped him. "Fuck..."

His grip tightened slightly. "You’re doing so well, angel." His hand stayed resting on your head, guiding your movements as you bobbed slowly. Each time his tip brushed the back of your throat, his entire body reacted - the sharp intake of breath, the tension in his muscles, the way his eyes fluttered for a second. You loved watching him lose control. "That's it, my love," he breathed shakily. "Just a little more."

You took him deeper again, and this time his restraint slipped. His hand pressed more firmly against the back of your head, holding you there for a moment. A rough moan tore from his throat. "Such a good girl," he groaned, his voice uneven. "Taking me so well." Then, just as your lungs began to burn, he released his hold and let you pull back.

“Breathe,” he murmured, his thumb brushing gently across your cheek as he watched you catch your breath.

He tapped your cheek lightly with his palm, a smirk playing on his lips. "So slutty for me."

Then he positioned himself between your legs, his heavy length resting against your pussy. A shaky breath escaped your lips. "You want this?" he asked, his eyes locked onto yours.

"Yes," you breathed. "Please. I need it inside me." His own breath caught sharply at your words.

"What am I supposed to do with you?" he murmured, lightly dragging himself against you before giving a teasing slap against your pussy.

"I'll make you come around my cock until you can't take it anymore."

The promise was whispered right against your ear, his voice low and dangerous as he slowly teased your entrance with the tip.

And then, finally, he pushed inside.

His eyes never left your face as he eased himself in, watching every reaction.

A loud moan escaped you. "That's right, baby," he murmured. "Let it out. Let me hear you."

He kept going until he was fully seated inside you, filling you completely.

The stretch made your entire body tense.

He was so big, forcing you to adjust to every inch, leaving you breathless as he buried himself deep inside. Your hips shifted instinctively as you tried to get used to the feeling. "God, Michael-" you moaned.

He started to move slowly, drawing back before thrusting deep again.

Each movement sent a shiver through your body. He felt incredible inside you, every thrust finding exactly the right places, filling you in a way that made your mind go blank.

His breathing grew heavier above you.

"Fuck, baby," he groaned, his voice rough and uneven. "You're so tight."

He pulled back again, slower this time, making sure you felt every inch before pushing all the way in once more.

The motion made your body shake beneath him.

"Just remember this moment the next time you see him, alright?" he said, his voice low and firm, making sure you wouldn’t forget exactly who you belonged to.

"Michael…" you moaned, breathless. At the sound of his name, Michael slowed his movements, his dark eyes locking onto yours.

"Say that again." The demand in his voice sent a shiver through your entire body.

"M-Michael-"

The second his name fell from your lips, he snapped his hips forward harder, faster, forcing a broken cry from your throat.

Your moans spilled uncontrollably into the air. Michael leaned down and kissed you. It was messy and desperate, your lips crashing together as both of your moans melted into the kiss. His mouth swallowed every sound you made, his breathing rough against your skin. Then he pulled back just enough for his lips to brush your ear.

"Say it again," he whispered, his voice possessive and dark. "Whose woman are you? Who do you belong to?" His thrusts stayed relentless, each one driving the words deeper into you.

"I belong to you, Michael," you gasped. He groaned softly, his grip tightening against your hips. "Michael who?" he demanded, his voice rougher now. "Jackson," you moaned, barely able to form the words through your shaking breaths. "Michael Jackson."

A satisfied sound escaped him. "That's right." He kissed the side of your neck, his lips lingering there before he spoke again. "You're mine. Every single bit of you." His voice dropped lower, sending heat through your entire body. "Don't ever forget that." The intensity of his words, combined with the way he moved inside you, sent another wave of pleasure crashing through you.

Your body tightened helplessly around him. You were dangerously close again.

"Michael," you whimpered, your voice trembling. "I’m gonna come if you don’t stop-" He cut you off immediately.

"That’s okay, honey." One of his hands slid down to press firmly against your lower stomach, intensifying every thrust. "You can come on my cock." His lips brushed your forehead, impossibly tender compared to the rough pace he was setting.

"Come for me, pretty girl." That was all it took. Your body gave in completely. The orgasm tore through you all at once, powerful and overwhelming, making your back arch as your walls clenched and pulsed around him. A broken cry escaped your lips as wave after wave rushed through your body.

Michael groaned deeply at the feeling, his head dropping to your shoulder. "Fuck…" His hand stayed on your stomach, rubbing slow circles as your body shook beneath him, only intensifying the pleasure.

He could feel every pulse around him, every involuntary tremor, the way your body gripped him so tightly it made his own breathing turn ragged.

"That’s it, baby," he groaned against your skin. "You’re coming so well on my cock."

And before your body had the chance to recover, before the trembling had even fully stopped, he started moving again. Slow at first. Making sure you felt every inch. As if he fully intended to make you fall apart all over again.

This time, he lowered his face to your neck, kissing it again as he continued thrusting into you.

"Michael, wait, I-" you gasped, every sensation hitting you intensely, your body still oversensitive from your last orgasm.

"Shh," he murmured against your skin.

"Just take it for me, okay?"

His lips moved slowly along your neck, leaving more marks behind. Each kiss only intensified the pleasure. And his pace never slowed.

Your nails dug into his back as he drove into you, hard and relentless, his mouth still working against your skin.

The overwhelming intensity built quickly. Too quickly. You could feel yourself getting close again.

Before you could even warn him, your body gave out. Pleasure crashed through you all at once. Another orgasm tore through you, stealing the breath from your lungs and leaving your mind completely blank.

You were left dazed beneath him, trembling from the aftershocks. A light tap against your cheek pulled you back. Your eyes fluttered open to find Michael watching you.

"You okay, angel?" he asked softly, his hand brushing over your lower stomach.

"Yes," you managed to breathe out. "I'm okay-"

A light slap landed right above your pussy, making you jolt.

"So dirty," he murmured, his voice low and amused. "Coming so much from my cock."

Then his hand moved to your hair, brushing it gently back from your face. He leaned down to kiss you. The kiss was softer this time, almost reassuring. When he pulled back, his forehead rested briefly against yours.

"You can hold out more for me, right, baby?" His voice was quiet, coaxing. And as he spoke, his hips began to move again, slowly. Making sure you felt every inch.

Both your breath and moans were shaky now. Each thrust sending you into a different dimension as he speeds up a bit. Your legs now both trembling from the intense pleasure.

"How does my cock make you feel, hm? Tell me." His voice was low and teasing as every thrust hit exactly where it made your body tremble.

"I-it feels so good," you moaned breathlessly.

A slow smile spread across Michael’s face. He bit lightly at his lower lip, his head tilting as he looked down at you with dark, hungry eyes.

"You’re so dirty right now," he murmured. "Drooling everywhere, can't even talk properly."

His thumb brushed softly across your cheek. "Just a whining mess for me."

Then he kissed you. Hard. His thrusts grew deeper, harder, making your body jolt beneath him.

The overwhelming pleasure brought tears to your eyes. Michael noticed immediately. "Shh, angel, it's okay."

He broke the kiss just long enough to press a soft kiss to your forehead.

"I know," he murmured gently. "I know, baby."

His hand brushed through your cheeky, wiping your tears, his touch impossibly tender compared to the relentless pace of his hips.

"You're taking it so well for me." Another orgasm was building fast, tightening through your body. Michael noticed the way your breathing hitched, the way your body clenched around him.

"Just hold on a little longer, my love."

His own release was approaching too.

You could feel it in the way his thrusts became needier, less controlled, his grip tightening against your skin.

"C'mon," he breathed, his voice rough now. "Come for me again."

That was all it took. Pleasure crashed through you all at once. Your body arched beneath him as another powerful wave overtook you, stealing every coherent thought from your mind.

And almost instantly, Michael followed.

A deep groan escaped him as the tension finally snapped.

For a moment, neither of you moved.

The pleasure was euphoric. It left you both breathless, trembling, completely undone. Michael stayed close, his forehead resting against yours as he struggled to steady his breathing.

His hand slid gently through your hair again, his touch soft now.

"That's it," he murmured quietly, pressing one last lingering kiss to your lips.

"Good girl."