lullaby

I really loved the Aras & Teoman scenes in this episode. When Teoman fell to the ground, Aras rushed to help him even though he was his enemy. And Teoman warned him about the people who were attacking him.

They’re drawn to each other without even knowing that they’re brothers. I can’t help thinking about how invincible they would be if they only knew. Although, considering how utterly alone they both are, maybe they would still lose in the end. But at least they would have each other to lean on and share the sorrow of defeat.

Özlem: Boy, stop living as though you owe someone an apology. Stop sacrificing yourself.

I really loved Özlem’s words here. Since Aras couldn’t even find his own brother, he has become so focused on finding him because he feels he owes him an "apology." His very existence seems to revolve around a purpose: finding his brother, because he still remembers him as someone who needs to be protected.

Teoman: You said once that sometimes you don’t forget a feeling. What did you mean by that? Deniz: What? Teoman: When we went out for dinner the other day, you said that even if you don’t remember what happened, you don’t forget how it felt. What did you mean by that? Deniz: Are you trying to have a conversation with me? Teoman: If I hurt someone and forgot about it, could I still remember the feeling? Deniz: You’ve hurt so many people that it’s only natural you don’t remember. Don’t dwell on it. Just forget about it. Teoman: So I’m a monster, huh? I must have hurt them. Even if I don’t remember, I must have. Deniz: Who? Who are you talking about? Teoman: No one. I got the answer I came for. Thanks, mermaid. I guess we’re even now.

Deniz verbally provokes Teoman, as she always does, using the platform of conflict to force him into a conversation. It is a mask, a mask that conceals her true feelings, especially her sense of "curiosity." But this time, the other side does not play along. He allows his vulnerability to show through his words and actions.

Because Deniz is an empathetic person, she understands Teoman’s emotional state. Still, she does not yet have the courage to take off her mask of provocation. Speaking in another language still feels difficult for her. But her gaze softens. Curiosity settles into her pupils.

Deniz: Where are your demons? Teoman: They’re waiting for the right time.

She is inviting the "devil" Teoman again onto the stage, the familiar territory, after all. But the person in front of her once again refuses to show that side of himself.

Deniz is still afraid of the idea of finding a Teoman she can actually understand. She might even be trying to say something like, "Go back to who you really are. Don’t stand in front of me looking this vulnerable, or I might start feeling sorry for you."