We Are My Sweet Fall

Track 1 - The Root of it All

Our minds had slowly wandered So we took off all our clothes My bated breath failed to remind My confidence to stay composed And so now I've been losing sleep And etching days into my door Obsessing over nonsense To forget that I want more She felt the sorrow In my discontent I wrote the message, but never hit send Forming an ocean was not my intent I'm getting better But it never really mattered in the first place I'm no longer caught up in a world Where I lose my mind When I hear your first name It only made me sick Wide awake and wondering again Disenfranchising your sins Hung up on the thought That this might be As good as it gets The hole that I dug Seemed to quickly fill up Constant weight I felt stuck Always disembodied I saw in her face She felt home She felt safe Seeking peace in a past I was compromising I felt my smile slowly fade to a blister I tried to scream but it came out as a whisper The root of it all Depressed and inside our heads Sleeping in separate beds Just like our parents did Because we're our parents kids The half of blood state of mind Growing up left behind Half a man, undefined Lie awake every night The kind of person I don't strive to be I tried to shake it, but it married me It's a constant reminder Nothing in life comes free Breaking is masochistic mending Self inflicted healing Seeking the root of it all As we looked up at the sky I told her every star she saw Was a plane with its engine burning out I'm just a plane with its engine burning out

Track 2 - Restitution

I fell back with a sense of urgency The same lows, on a different frequency I lost touch, and felt the room scatter Subside, and opt for the latter I tried to get by balancing on fences But even indecision bears consequences I'm sorry for the way that things ended The lines get blurry when youre medicated I'm sleepless, and jaded It's my fault, I hate it Always longing for something more (It's all coming back to me now) I was tangled in her hair She was my cross to bear Pharmaceutical absolution But you can't pass the burden Blaming another person Hyper-delusional restitution I hit the gas It pulled me back The beasts of my burdens were fading fast I'll be the cul-de-sac Insomniac I'll die as a martyr, and maniac The conversation started bearing its teeth Lock, stock, and stuck to her guns She had them pointed at me She said You're not a poet, or a prophecy Just a kid in your head With those hypothesis It's easier to be hopeless Pessimistic, and broken When you've gone too far But if you stand by the path you have chosen Confident and devoted You could learn to live with the scars I'm learning to live with the scars Forever longing for something more

Track 3 - Lucid

The pain was implanted by your parents On the day that you were born You found it hard just to admit that By yourself your bones felt worn Tried to elope with peoples passion Just to soothe your heavy head But consistently lost comfort So you hid away instead You gain a little bit of something From each moment that you live But it's hard to keep a motive/emotive When your brain is double edged She said: "You're so neurotic How did it come to this? You waste your whole goddamn life Wishing that you didn't exist." We were screaming our lungs out Nervous that our past would come back And try to ruin what we have Maybe this year I'll find myself Without pushing my brain to the point Where I tear my hair out She said: "Deep down, I think you're bitter. Past that smile, you've configured A world you won't let anyone see" Take off your mask kid Who are you kidding You'll never meet the right people When you're pretending Struggle through the days That make you grind your teeth And cherish every moment That falls in between I had to draw the line I get so sick of wasting time And going through the motions With the weight that's on my mind No sweat, Its fine Sure, my wires intertwined But since my brain hasn't Short circuited just yet I'll be alright I was trying to sleep When you made me speak You never let me think You never let me sink In my head Where my brain keeps me fed On the thoughts of depression I'm feeling instead of... You I never spoke, because I knew You wouldn't listen I filled your void But all I wanted was some distance Oh! You had to know How could you miss it From head to toe I drowned in my own self affliction Oh! It's getting ludicrous I only speak when I'm lucid And falling asleep

Track 4 - Half of Blood

I hardly noticed the moments That you weren't around I'm learning the meaning of breathing When I'd rather drown Were you grinding your teeth Often thinking of me In your lows As the weakening pace of your heart rate Continued to slow? What kind of father Tells his son and daughter He doesn't care What kind of man Leaves a wife and his family So unprepared Drunk, and fallacious Said you didn't love us And closed the call You traded a life with your children For prison and alcohol Half of blood Dragged through the mud I hardly noticed the hole That they put in the ground My mother has raised me to Be who I am and I'm proud That you weren't around

Track 5 - Midwest Blues

I never felt at home inside my head The sinking feeling in my stomach Took its place instead She was wrapped up in a blanket Voicing muffled sleepless doubts While I was face down on the floorboards Trying to make sense Of myself My confidence Is wearing thin It's not enough to save me, when Every problem that I'm facing Comes from somewhere deep within It was causing the bend in my back To burden my heart The edges that frayed Were ripping apart We pieced it back together But it never felt the same She says: "It's 4pm, you're always sleeping in Why the fuck are you so selfish!?" You made this bed You've got to fix your self You'll have to beg for your pity In someone else I can't keep Indulging you It was causing the bend in my back To burden my heart The edges that frayed Were ripping apart We pieced it back together But it never felt the same So we reminisce the salad days With malice and a sense of praise Admiring the sour taste We found in broken homes I wanted what's best for you So I did what what I had to Sympathetically I terminated timelines I learned to live with demons When I put them in the limelight Cater to the countless wounds With land locked loathing Midwest blues Use your words not just your voice You have always had a choice RIP out your heart You waste of youth Hide from the sun Howl at the moon But I can't keep Indulging you

Track 6 - The Brightest Stars