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Hiii this isn’t a request or anything I just wanted to say ur writing is so freaking peak🥹🥹🥹🥹 ur flambae thing is so fucking good and as a transman it made me so happy bru keep up the good work EAT, DRINK, AND STAY SAFE
OH MY GOSH! Thank you so much, truly. That means absolutely so much to me, you have no idea! <3
I have always struggled with my writing and it feels great to have it appreciated by any and all of my readers.
I will be making another Dispatch post soon! I have an amazing request I am working on, but thank you again for the sweet words!
@myswanderlust || a/n: literally making this while I should be working on my finals…. we’re not gonna talk about it. I have watched too many play-throughs on dispatch to not make a fic (or multiple) about the hotties in the game. please let me know what you guys think or want in the future!
✧.*: multi character, reader is a dispatcher, established!relationship, nsfw, semi-public/public intimacy, oral fixation— both received, slight mention of size difference, riding, degrading, mentions of drug use (sonar ofc), dominate!reader & sub!reader, explicit descriptions of sexual intimacy, no use of y!n, use of female anatomy & she!her pronouns/he!him for Flambae
ROBERT
He really didn’t want to come in today; especially today. He had barely gotten any sleep the night before, spending all of his night filling out paperwork for some new Z-Team recruit.
Robert and you were close, or, as close as co-workers could be: typically passing in the hallways during your shifts at SDN, muttering hello's and side quips, watching his eyes cast on you longer than usual at times, though not entirely enough for it to be taken too much to heart— but you had never seen him look as on edge during his calls before today.
You had been watching him longer than you should’ve at the printer, seeing as he leans over the desk with his head in his hands. You pouted for him; why was he so exhausted?
You start to head over to him, your uniform shirt tucked neatly into your pencil skirt before tapping his head with the warm printed papers. His head perks up slowly, seeing you smile at him with concern.
"No sleep last night?" You ask him, head nodding to the cup of coffee near his keyboard. "How many cups are you on?"
Robert scoffs out a tired chuckle before shrugging, "Enough to kill someone with heart problems, i'm sure." His voice deep and raspy, laced with exhaustion.
You nod, "Maybe, you need something stronger to keep you awake?"
Robert eyes you slightly, his lips quirking in a little smile before his eyebrows raised with a question, "And what's that?"
You smile, "No more coffee. Follow me."
Almost instantly Robert was up, letting you drag him to the breakroom before letting you get into the fridge. Robert watches from behind, seeing you bent in as you searched for the item he assumed you were giving him.
His brain wasn't tired enough to not see you as beautiful as he always did, but his brain capacity wasn't strong enough to not get hard seeing your ass perfectly rounded in the skirt as you bend down.
He could feel his brain slipping to a place he wouldn't be able to bring himself back from for a while, not at work anyways.
Robert respectfully looks away and feels himself let out a cough to release the tension (in his pants).
You pull out from the fridge and slide a drink over to him. It was in one of your own water canisters, and Robert gives you a suspicions look, picking up the canister.
"You make this mystery liquid, miracle-from-sleep juice yourself?" He smiles, eyes never leaving your face.
You make a face before letting out a laugh, "Don't make it sound so dirty."
Robert laughs with you before taking a chug of the juice. His eyes squeeze together in shock to the unbecoming taste. It hit his brain hard, completely shocking him to his core.
He swallows, then coughs. "Holy shit. Is this gasoline?" He speaks with a chuckle.
You laugh before nodding, "If it wakes you up, then it's whatever you want it to be."
"You drink this every morning?" Robert quips, still shocked by the offsetting sweet taste of the drink. You shake your head, "Just on awful- sleep mornings." You shrug, smiling at him again.
"How can I ever thank you for it?" He smiles back, his tone changing to a more upbeat, since the energy was obviously hitting him. You shake your head, smiling before speaking, "You don't owe me a damn thing, Robert."
Robert bites his lips while thinking, though he stared down at you like he was hungry. He was quick; grabbing your hand and leading you out of the break room subtly.
“No good deed goes unpaid, pretty.” He mutters, though, you didn't speak, you couldn’t. Instead your heart sets in, letting him take you where he pleased, though for what, you were unsure.
Your questions were answered when he took you to a tiny closet, locking the compacting room before placing you against the off-colored wall of the room.
He's on his knees in no time, taking time to let you see him looking up at you with a darker glint in his eyes than you remembered.
Robert smiles before taking the skirt zipper from the side and pulling it down slowly, eyes low and never truly leaving your face. You were flustered; that was clear to him, but you didn't pulled away from him.
His lips attracted to your messy clit with haste, his arms taking your thighs into a lock while he used the energy you gave him in the drink to eat your pussy with passion.
Robert felt his brain slipping from the taste of you; his tiny groans proving his enjoyment in his time between your legs.
You could only moan out quietly, biting you lip quick after. You curse out, trying to remind yourself that you were only in a supply that was inches from the desk you sat at everyday.
Your hands rake up of hazelnut streaks, loving the feeling of his hands on you as he pleased you.
Your orgasm came to you suddenly, and you let out a louder hiccup that you liked considering your situation. Robert hummed into your heat and you could practically hear the wetness between your legs; some of it his spit, but most of it was your slick from how good he making you feel.
You felt his fingers release their tightness on your skin when he pulled away, your breaths shallow and quick from the intensity from a few moments before. Your head slides back against the wall.
Roberts head lays against your thigh as he stares up at you:
"Told ya', no good deed goes unpaid."
FLAMBAE
Chad could be such an asshole sometimes. Truly.
More than you could even understand, especially when he knew it only made your life that much harder.
Once Flambae had moved up in the ranks, he disbanded from Z-Team slightly to help other teams on the roster. Your team was now one he was frequent in, and it was absolutely against your will.
It was your job to dispatch hero's and Chad was—something. Hero felt like a strong word.
His personality made it that way.
You knew you were screwed when Robert couldn't hold in his laughter at the mention of Chad joining your team for a while. His laugh was a statement: "Good fucking luck."
And was Robert underestimating him? What a joke.
Chad was awful; to you, and your team. Though you would be lying if you said you were shocked.
You had a plan, or one you bummed off Robert, and that was to talk to Flambae one on one. Apparently if you treated him like a shitbag, he was more inclined to respect you.
What an odd quirk.
So you called him into one the conference rooms after a (horrible) shift, your arms crossed as he walked in with his smug smile to you, obvious to what this meeting was about.
Chad spits out the toothpick in his mouth, letting it fly to the corner of the quiet room. "What's all this shit about?"
You uncross your arms and pull the chair out to sit. "What the hell is your problem Flambae?" You look at him, your expression more tired than mad, especially since you knew being visibly upset with him would only punish you further somehow.
He scoffs, a cocky smile still on his face. "i don't know what you mean. I come in and I get my fucking work done."
"That's the thing. You don't get your work done. You come in and fuck my team up. You're supposed to be helping my hero's, but instead you have lacked in every stat. You're not even trying." You tell him with a deadpan expression.
Flambae smiles harder now; the cockiness of his grin making you feel the boil in your stomach from anger.
"Oh— is daddy gonna spank me for being bad? It's not my fault your team is a bunch of losers that can't keep up with me. Sounds like they—."
You cut him off, "Listen, Chad. You can either leave my group and go back to being a low-ranking villain-hero playing pretend, or you can lock the fuck in."
Flambae's expression changed quickly, eyebrows twitching in distaste from your words. "What was that, dispatcher?" He stands from his chair and makes his way closer, heat starting to form around him. He comes up very close to you, his face inches from yours as he watched your eyes, but his fall to your lips.
Your eyes don't fall from him, watching to see what he would really do, but instead he takes you by surprise.
"Maybe, I have been bad. I need to be shaped up."
So you shaped him up, riding him hard on the conference table.
He took you well, or like a whiny bitch. Depends on what you prefer.
His legs shook from the pleasure as you rode his cock thoroughly, your ass tight as you "taught him a lesson", though some would argue that this method would be a reward.
Chad was fucked out under you, his hands trying to reach to your hips and cling to his life as you fucked it away.
The blinds to the room were shut, but anyone with a brain would know what was happening in this room, and it was not a conference.
The table moved harshly as you grinded harder on his cock; he was losing himself more and more. His groans only get a pitch louder before you cover his mouth. "Shut up. Can't take it?" You ask him with a smile.
A whine falls from you. Though you hated to admit it, his cock was touching places inside of you that you loved. "Thought, you were— ah, so strong, Chad.."
His legs raise in a sudden movement, his hips now meeting yours to thrust into you deeper. You knew why, and though you knew nothing bad could come of it, a shiver went down your spine thinking of Flambae, the asshole hero, so desperate to cum deep inside you.
Your hips pin his back against the table and you leaned up, placing your hands to lay strongly against his chest. Your hips hit against his harder and faster, then slower before hearing his whines and moans turn to a louder, drawn out noise.
It was clear that no matter how hard he tried to keep it down, it wouldn't work. Even though he couldn't give less of a fuck about being quiet, it was more about how submissive he was being.
Was he embarrassed? Absolutely.
Could he go his whole life without this treatment again? Absolutely not.
You felt his cum shoot all around your clenching walls, your realease hitting you as you did. The feeling of the fill made your body feel warm, though you were laying on the man of the flame.
You both couldn't think straight as you breathe out on top of him, eyes closed and your head falls back. You finally look down at Chad, though he was already looking at you.
His eyes were angry, though his expression lacked the vigor.
You felt yourself smile smugly as you two looked at each other. He could only roll his eyes, though his hand betrayed him as it grazed on your hip.
Let's just say he got along pretty well with your team after that, and when Robert noticed, he was shocked, asking you how the hell you got him to be so cordial.
"Your advice worked. I just taught him a lesson." You tell him as you smile to yourself.
SONAR
Meeting Sonar at first wasn’t the issue.
He just seemed like your run-of-the-mill freaky.. half-bat, half-man.
First, he could only stare. His white eyes almost lighting up as he shook your tiny hand in his. It was corny, but he wanted to get in his knee and kiss your hand like a princess.
It wasn’t his style, so instead he took the Sonar approved approach.
The man made so many comments about how hot you were; how nice your rack looked in your SDN shirt and how perfect your ass flushed in your uniform bottoms.
You would be bothered by the sexual attention, but, you felt like he was hesitating with his statements.
He would stare, or be friendly with some lewd joke, and when someone, anyone called him out on it, he would quickly wave it off, making some sexual comment about you.
It made his attraction seem more surface level, which for whatever reason made him less tense.
You could see it in his eyes though, when you caught him staring. Victor wouldn’t look away. He wanted you to know that he was staring at you.
But his eyes never lowered to cast your body, not like his comments would suggested.
You sat at your desk on your computer, scrolling through some reseller website to pass the time before your hero’s came back from break.
With the same daunting feeling of eyes on you, your head turns to the left, seeing Sonar having his tie fixed by the tall and beautiful Menevola.
You watched her for a moment before looking back to Sonar. You leave a small smile to him, which would be one of your first.
You could practically see Sonar stutter on whatever breath he had, which made you chuckle lightly before looking back down to your screen again. Sonar wouldn’t hear it, but he knew he loved that sound. Was he really crushing this hard on a dispatcher that he hadn’t even spoken to?
The team never left him alone about it either, especially since Victor wasn’t being discreet anymore.
He watched today, as you walked yourself to the break room around closing time for the night. You were only cleaning out the coffee mug from that morning, but he still followed you. Why was he so scared?
He had never been so nervous around a woman before.
When Victor walked in, he saw you humming to yourself as you packed up for the night. You noticed his presence and turned your head with a smile. “Hey Sonar! Good shift today I heard.”
He let out the loudest gulp before opening his mouth to speak back. Nothing came out though. Where was that quick quip he could always use?
You smile to him before going back to your task.
Sonar shook his head before nodding calmly, “Sorry, yeah it was great. Messed up a few fuckers who were selling drugs to some middle school students.”
You nod with a chuckle. “Thats our Sonar.”
He pauses, a hiccup in his throat as he just stares at you. You put the coffee mug away before turning to him.
“See you Monday?”
Sonar smiles before nodding, but his brain couldn’t think as he turns to grab your arm quickly before you could leave completely, muttering a quick, “wait…” under his breath.
You turn to him, surprised by his suddenness.
Neither of you speak, since the look in his eyes wasn’t as hard to read. He wanted to say something, anything to you that didn’t make him seem like a scared teenage boy around the girl he liked.
Victor’s eyes drift to your lips and your eyes follow, which was enough for him to move closer. You moved with him and when your lips meet, it was definitely new.
His fur was traced in your fingers, his hands now behind you and pull you in closer. His tall figure was taller than you remembered as he pulled you close and lifted you up against him.
The fever in his body was evident; starting with the warmth that you felt just being so close, and continuing by the warm sensation of his erection slotted against your pelvis.
Victor felt the confidence surge into him almost instantaneously, the way you were pressed together felt like the best invitation he’s ever received.
His hands moved under both of your legs, slotting himself in between your thighs and holding you against the break room door.
Both of you couldn’t quite grasp how this happened, and you currently weren’t thinking to hard on where.
Victor wouldn’t admit how he loved the thrill of where you were. The fact that you were at work, in the break room, and even when most people had gone home, there was a chance. Though a small chance, someone could open the door behind you.
It was quick too when you felt him pull your bottoms off and away before undoing his belt. Your lips pulled away only for a second to look down, though you couldn’t see much.
You did feel when he finally started to level himself deep inside you.
You gasp, still trying to be as quiet as you could for any chance that someone could be near the break room door.
His thrusts were sloppy, so very needy. Victor even started to grind against your pussy, hitting your clit gently. He was so deep too.
Reality hit you, making the feeling 10x what it felt when he first put himself inside you. His pants were folded around his ankles and dress shoes. The belt making little clanks against the floor as he started to loose himself in the thrusts again.
“—Vic, so good.” You scratch at the bare feeling of his back, hiccuping moans.
His name; his actual name felt like heaven on your tongue and his brain was mush. He never thought something could feel as good as snorting some rocks, he was so wrong.
He starts to nod off only slightly from the pleasure, his ears starting to drop and his head hitting the break room door. His voice cracked, a whine coming out without his control.
You pant, loving that you could make him feel that good.
You pull his fur to pull him back to stare down at you again, and nod to him to kiss you again. You were worried you were going to get too loud as you got closer to your release.
You could tell he was close, but his grip to you never faltered. You could feel something else slipping inside him to; his groans started to sounds like growls.
Would he turn while he was inside?
You cursed yourself for the clench your pussy did when you thought of it, and Victor’s groan of encouragement proved it.
You gripped to his shoulders immediately when you felt your last breath hit as you came around his length. A higher pitched sound left your throat as you threw your head back.
His light-colored pink tip hit your g-spot once more, making the same noise tumble from you as he pulled out and came on your stomach.
Your uniform shirt was soiled on impact but you couldn’t seem to care. Not when the hybrid practically flooded your ears with beautiful sounds of his enjoyment.
You panted, his forehead falling against yours. The fur was unsurprisingly soft and your hand raked softly on his cheek hair.
The scent of sex was heavy in the break room, and you both needed to leave for the night before you were actually caught, neither of you could really move.
Sonar moves back, smiling at your tired eyes. “What?” You pant to him with a smile.
“Is there a camera in here? I’d love to see this played back.”
Your eyes widen when his words set in, you immediately looked up to the corner of the room across from you. There was indeed a camera, blinking and pointed right on the door where Sonar and you were still connected.
You look down to Sonar’s eyes. He’s only smirking, noticing the fear.
“Definitely stealing that tape.”
WATERBOY
He was too cute. Way, too cute.
Waterboy tried so hard to be helpful around the office, especially since he tried so hard to get this job.
You and your co-workers knew he was trying his best all the time. Part of you felt so stressed for him, as you could imagine that his powers could be hard to control.
When he met you, his nervous stuttering turned to permanent silence around you. He was too shy to even imagine speaking to a beauty like you.
You could tell he wanted to talk to you, but couldn’t. The sweating seemed worse than usual. He shook anytime he was near you.
Making your way around the office, you would see Z-team poking fun at him for hours, telling him to stop being a pussy and talk to you.
Though, you didn’t know it was you, they were referring too.
You sat at your desk, typing away and speaking to your team with calmness, even when Hermie could hear the civilians on the phone screaming their asses off about whatever drama they had called you for.
“It’s alright ma’am. I need you to stay calm for me. We’re getting someone over there as soon as possible.”
“You’re right sir. That sounds terrible. I’ll walk you through it until our hero’s get there.”
You were so understanding, always sweet-talking anyone on the phone, no matter how impatient and rude they were.
Herm wanted to ask you how you did it. How you took anything and turned it to kindness, instead of cowering like he always did. He felt worse now that he couldn’t, he couldn’t even speak.
When you walked into the break room one morning for a snack, Robert stifled a laugh at the sight of you.
You were confused, looking at him with furrowed brows.
“What?”
Robert covers his stuffed mouth, swallowing his food and shaking his head. “Nothing. I’ve just never seen Waterboy so nervous to come into the break room.”
You turn your head slowly, looking out of the door and seeing Waterboy staring at your direction before turning away and shuffling elsewhere. You look down and blink before looking to Robert. “I think he hates me.”
Robert spit out his drink once your statement set in.
“You’re fucking with me right? You have to be.” He speaks, laughing again.
You turn to him with an annoyed look, “What is so funny, Robbie?” Robert calmed his laughs when you use the nickname, giving you a look of daggers.
You smile at his expression. He speaks up, “You’re very obvious, especially for a woman of your caliber.”
“And that means?”
Robert shakes his head, pulling himself out of his chair and walking back to his desk. “Waterboy couldn’t hate a damn wasp, and he definitely doesn’t hate you.”
“Well he’s— been weird since we met. And he never speaks to me.” You shrug to him with defeat.
Robert chuckles. You speak up once again, “Maybe I’m too much for him. Too out ther—.”
“Colder.” He calls out, interrupting your thoughts. “Very cold. In the North Pole level cold.”
Robert walks out of the break room, leaving you with his words to think about. You know what you could do now, though Herm probably wouldn’t like it very much.
Those thoughts landed you locking yourself into the storage room where Waterboy usually visited on his breaks to recalibrate his social battery.
If he was backed into the corner, maybe you could help him feel less anxious around you.
That idea seemed good on paper, but saying out loud? Nope.
It hit you too as Waterboy yelped when he saw you in the storage room. You shushed him immediately, realizing that this situation could be taken very wrong.
“Hey—hey, it’s alright.” You tell him as you cover his mouth.
Herm practically soaks on impact, your hand feeling it as it laid on his mouth. Your eyes lock with his, never leaving his.
He blinks a bunch, maybe to see if he was dreaming and fell asleep on the job. You moved away from him, or more your hand fell off his mouth so he could respond to the question.
“Do you hate me?” You ask him
Herm let’s put a shaky breath, mouth opening to speak but nothing came out. Once he could, he shakes his head aggressively.
You quirk your eyebrows at him, raising them with confusion. “I find that hard to believe, are you sure?”
Herm was dripping now, his body slippery from his powers.
He finally speaks up, though it was quiet. “I don’t.”
You nod, pulling fully off of him before feeling that his hands and slipped behind you without either of you knowing. You gasp when he starts to pull you closer again, not wanting you to pull away.
You stare back up at him in surprise, your hands now resting on his chest. The red in his face was bright; his expression still surprised that his body spoke for him.
That wasn’t the only evident difference between the two of you now.
The massive bulge that sat on your thigh.
You looked away from him now, goosebumps forming on your skin once you realized wha you were feeling. Herm spoke up again, “ ‘m sorry! Can’t—can’t help, very hard, too hard..”
You feel yourself bite your lip, heart beating out of your chest as you both made eye contact. You feel yourself become bolder, experimentally rubbing his cock with your thigh. He whimpers at the feeling, his eyes closing immediately.
“Does that feel good, Herm?” You whisper to him, your tone light.
He can only nod, a shaky moan coming from him. Your pussy soaks against your panties from his reactions, but you wanted more; to hear him lose himself.
It was addicting.
You lower, knees hitting the floor gently as you never take your eyes off Herm. His face was so red, but somehow relaxed now.
You stop staring at his face for a moment, letting your eyes level with his length, which seemed to be uncomfortably lodged in his hero uniform.
You look back up at him, eyes begging for him to give you permission, which he does quickly. His head practically falls off his shoulders to tell you to continue.
You smile and take his cock out, the weight and size of it made you gasp audibly. You couldn’t believe how big he was.
You gulp and peer up at him before taking the huge tip in your mouth, moaning at the taste. Your eyes were addictive for Herm too, the way they continued to stare up at him with his cock in your mouth.
Any words died in his throat, even though he wanted to tell you how beautiful you looked, how much he dreamed of this moment. “Close—getting close, can’t—hold, can’t..” he mutters out, desperate thrusts starting to hit the back of your throat.
“Please— don’t, don’t stop.”
A hand comes up to the back of your head, hands clinging to anything he could when the thrusts continue.
Your eyes stayed on him, now begging for him to cum down your throat and take it for his own. Herm nods, a whine climbing up in his throat as he tumbled to his release, and when he did, the groan sounded gutted with a louder whine falling behind it.
The cum shot down your throat immediately, your lips steady against his pubic region, and with your surprise, both of his hands holding your head there. The thought of him being so desperate that he couldn’t control himself made your pussy quiver in need. Herm’s head was back and the after effects literally shook him to his core.
“Fuck— too good.. so good ‘m, can’t—so so good.” He mutters.
You smile once you fall back, mouth disconnecting from his cock, and you give it a little kiss. “Safe to say you don’t hate me anymore, huh?”
Herm gulps, “Never—, never hated you.” You nod, standing up.
“I hoped not.” Herm turns his head, shaking as he pulls you against him again with haste. You bite your lip nervously, eyes staring into his face. Herm lets a small smile hit his face.
๑: angst w/ implied happy ending, near death incident (car accident), reader forgets who the boys are:/, reader and boys aren’t together, established ex-partners, no use of y/n, she/her pronouns
a/n: IM FINALLY DONE. This took longer than it should've, I am so sorry this is late! I got the flu and finals are kicking my ass already. PLEASE enjoy! Comment some more muliti-chharcater ideas for my boys as well <3
ZAYNE:
After the accident, Zayne had been in the hospital while seeing you roll in on the gurney, head held in place by a guard under your neck. His heart had stopped suddenly, not feeling the real emotion of fear as his body froze.
He wanted to follow the doctors that rushed you into the white rooms that reeked of surgery.
But he had to remind himself that he wasn’t yours anymore, and no doctor would let him in on your surgery from the past relationship. Conflict of interest was a real bitch.
Zayne tried his best to put it out of his mind too, working all he could, but he couldn’t stop thinking about how your figure looked on the gurney. You were bloody, face full of scratches.
Once he had checked with the nurse (for the third time), they told him what room you were in, and he be left frozen in front of the room with the three digit number imbedded in the door.
He knocked, hearing voice that wasn't yours telling him that he could come in. When he opened the door, he saw a friend seated by your side. They didn't turn at fist, but when they did, the sad expression fell to a exasperated one fast.
After the break up, they were absolutely not interested in Zayne. Especially from all the pain the separation called to you.
They don't speak to him and just give him a look. They knew he'd be here, but didn't think he had the guts to show himself after the events of your last time with each other.
𖦹
The day was dark and gloomy, fitting for the conversion you and Zayne were meant to have.
His endless nights at the hospital and lack of communication left you feeling sad at first, then completely cried out. You felt a lack of love for him, mostly because his exhaustion meant he wasn't being the kindest to you when you did see him.
"I'm tired, let's talk tomorrow."
"Wasn't sure how you would feel about me working late. It's not up to me."
"Maybe I should've slept in the office."
It was tense, almost suffocating now, and you needed to speak to him.
The conversation was honest, which you gave a sense of hope for what was to come, but it was short lived. The speech he gave made you feel like you were an inconvenience, and when you asked him to elaborate, he couldn't. His words were painful.
You were together for a long time; had he always felt this way?
It took you a long while to even consider moving on from Zayne, and the process was painful. You had stopped speaking to him as well for your own sanity.
"Come on Zayne. Neither of us are really happy anymore." You would tell him after sneaking yourself past the receptionist, who would always tell you the Zayne was too busy (which was per his request after it was clear that you two would only argue in each others presence).
Zayne didn't look up from his work, the pen tapping the top of his once combed but now messy black hair. He scoffs, "I would be happier if I could get a break, ________." He tells you honestly.
You blink, "No one told you to work your head off your shoulders."
He nods, "I am talking about this."
You smile in disbelief, taken back. "Great. I'll see myself out."
Your words stung his heart, since he didn't give himself time to take it back. He meant the fighting, and he should've said it, but part of him wondered what he was even fighting for. It was obvious that the relationship was on it's last legs.
"If that's what you want." He would tell you. Of course it wasn't, but it couldn't be helped. His residence, though strong, never came from the surface or to your view.
So you walked away.
𖦹
The memory felt stronger somehow seeing you laid in the hospital bed, and hit harder when the doctor that was foreseeing your care had told your friend and Zayne that your brain was severely damaged in the accident, which could result in a coma.
After running some tests, it seemed your brain was active, and that gave you both some hope once again.
It was killed more painfully than anything else, especially when you did wake up, and couldn't remember Zayne at all. You stared at him, almost like you had seen him in passing in college some time, and couldn't quite put your finger on his name.
Your friend was remembered, as well as your parents and anyone else you had known: everyone but Zayne. He felt like it was some cosmic joke; that maybe you were still upset about the break up and wanted an excuse to not speak to him.
Nothing. You weren't acting; you did not remember him.
He tried his best to put it out of his mind, but the whole office knew what happened. The news went around quickly and they were in pain seeing him trying to lock into business as usual around work.
The nurses whispered to one another that when they had gone to him for one of their patients, his eyes looked teary, which he bit back quickly when he noticed her. The place held empathy for him, and your doctor was practically backed into a corner by Zayne to explain what happened.
"Zayne. I know you have heard about doctor-patient confidentiality."
Zayne nods, "Of course, this is to further my education in my trade Doctor." He quickly states. The doctor shakes his head with dismay before clearing his throat. "It is a rare phenomenon, but it seems her brain’s trauma from the accident has cut through certain pons, targeting and erasing memories to traumatic events."
Zayne nods, trying to understand exactly what the doctor was insinuating, but he knew it immediately. He had broken you after the fights, the pain and the separation. He was the trauma.
He racked his brain for days, trying to research situations like this, and what the doctors had done to reverse it, but there was nothing. He pondered, his mind slipping in and out of the worst place it had ever been when he thought that he had lost you forever now.
People told him for the last two years that he would regret losing you, and he didn't listen. You were a supporter of his biggest dreams to becoming the best doctor he could. You stood by him through his toughest endeavors and he had pushed you away, and didn't fight. Karma was a—
“Zayne?”
He heard your voice say his name for the first time in two years, and not like you were asking him if you pronounced it right. The pitch had serenity, like you were begging for him to come back, like something in your brain knew it was him.
He turns immediately. “______. What can I do for you?”
He tries to keep himself professional, but his eyes never leave you, searching your face for anything. Your eyes got brighter over the years, like the soul had come back ten-fold.
"I have an off-the-books question, if you don't mind?" You smile kindly, trying to not make him uncomfortable. Zayne just nods, his expression neutral at first, but slowly fading into a small smile to match yours.
You stare up at him, “My friend has been talking my ear off for the last few days about you. They said we, dated?” You ask him with a giggle.
Zayne’s heart breaks for a moment; remembering for the millionth time how you didn’t remember him even thought that smile made him think of all the times you had smiled to him before. He nods, “We have.” He sits at his desk, trying to keep his hands busy with paperwork to stop his heavily beating, and bleeding, heart.
You nod back, not speaking for a while before finally speaking up. “I wanna remember.”
Zayne felt his stomach drop, peering his eyes up at you while you looked down to him with a sad expression highlighted by your eyebrows, but a twitch to your lips, effort to trailing your face. It was hopeful; praying for him to help you.
“You’re a doctor, right? That’s what I keep hearing. I was a lucky girl.” You joke, but feel Zayne’s expression turn cold for a moment, which made your expression fall.
Zayne then smiles down at his desk, the memory of you telling him how lucky you were to have him, when he cleaned a gash you got from your usual clumsiness.
Your smile finds its way back to your face at it, and he is peering up at you again, “Alright, I’ll help you.”
He ponders, still debating his options. What would happen if you remembered him? Could you fall in love again? Did you ever stop? Or would you hate him all over again, and could he blame you?
Zayne smiles as he thinks, which catches your attention, “Hm?”
There goes the memories again.
“We may need to look into surgery, however.” He finally speaks out, lifting his glasses off his face for a minute.
You breathe inward, blinking back a worried expression. “Oh, I’m—“
“—Nott a fan of surgery. I know.” He smiles, reading you like a book again. You nod, a shake finding its way to your head.
“You must’ve really loved me.”
He nods truthfully, “I never stopped.”
XAVIER:
Xavier had gone radio-silent since the breakup. He didn’t know what to say, and you weren’t interested in talking to him.
That was until he had heard about the accident. he felt the world stop around him for a week after. He stared into the headline from the news channel for what felt like days, though it was less than ten minutes.
He walked into his apartment after a long day of wandering, though today seemed harder to cope with than usual: he had seen you everyday since you both still worked together. Xaiver locked eyes with you too many times.
He’d always mutter curses at himself when it would happen, but over the months, you stopped looking in direction. Your face would light up again after months of seeing you try to pretend like he didn’t exist.
He always hoped that meant you would look at him with a smile, telepathically telling him you weren’t upset at him anymore, that you forgave him.
But never. You got better, he got worse. He had never stopped watching you, but your eyes never locked with his anymore: you didn’t care to see him, and he couldn't really blame how you felt.
As he walked with a heavy heart to his resting space, he saw you chatting up with the custodian for the apartment complex. The man looked keenly at you as you waved a goodbye and headed out on an evening adventure. Xavier could only roll his eyes.
After hours of trying to find something, anything to distract the thoughts of texting you, begging you to listen to his desperate pleas or embarrassment, he stared blankly at his ceiling before leaving his bedroom. He turned the tv on in the living room and walked to the kitchen with dragging feet.
He hated himself. Why did he give up on you? All he had to do was tell you the truth.
꩜
“Why can’t you ever just tell me the truth, Xavier?” You would ask him while he drove on the road, his eyes focusing on the road, hands gripping tightly to the wheel as means for his displeasure.
“I am honest with you. You just don’t wanna hear it.” He would say with a tone, which forced you to bite your tongue.
The car went quiet; your expression, though hard to read, also wasn’t. He knew you were upset, and he wanted to blame everything on the text that rang through is phone from an unknown recipient.
He wasn’t cheating, but he was lying. The text made no sense and his reaction to pull back his phone almost instantly didn’t save him.
Though you believed he wasn’t cheating, you just wanted to understand what he was hiding, which only integrated with the argument you were having with him now.
You look out of his car passenger side window, pandering why the fight you were having felt so familiar. That was until he had come to a stop and put the car in park.
You turned to him and uncrossed your arms, only to see that he was staring into the dashboard before locking eyes with you. “I wanna talk. This is—“
“—driving you crazy. I get it. We fight about this almost daily, Xavier.” You expressively would cut him off; you voice starting to sound less empathetic as the months continued with no change, or promise any hope.
He pauses, his expression turning colder, “What?”
“It never changes. You hide things, lie, we fight. Repeating over and over.” You let your thumbs grip to the lining of your shirt, trying to find some sadness in your voice, but nothing came to the surface.
He pauses, but a light anger flashing in his eyes before the car moves forward harshly as he goes to leave. You grab his arm with fear, which stops him completely.
There was fear laced in your expression, which caused his to widen from what he had done to terrify you.
You looked at him, his expression sad when he realized.
You blink before moving yourself quickly, grabbing your things and getting out of the car. You would slam the door of his car and turn your body to walk away.
It was uncharacteristically unlike you, but somehow, Xavier knew it was just another fight, or at least, he thought.
He’d call out to you, begging for you to “just get in the car”.
You couldn’t bare it anymore as you turned around, telling him that a friend would get you. You wanted to go home, and you told him to do the same.
When he did get home, he never heard from you. You kept your distance until in afternoon, a box of things were in front of him apartment door.
Then, you both tried to pretend it didn’t happen, along with trying to forget that you even knew each other at all.
꩜
Xavier blinked at the headline, reading it over and over:
“YOUNG GIRL INVOLVED IN HIT AND RUN.”
In full speed, he called anyone he knew that had ties to you. Following their social medias, messaging them quickly. He needed to know what he could do, but no one would answer him immediately.
That was until the day you cane home from the hospital. He has heard the racket coming from the lobby to the elevator as he started to check his mailbox.
Xavier’s heart stopped upon seeing you, rolling into the complex in a wheelchair that was being pushed by a friend.
You had a fragile look on your face, and though you looked in pain, so hurt, you still looked nothing but beautiful to him.
He was jealous of your friend, wishing that he was taking care of you instead of them; getting you up for your checkups, appointments, helping you into your wheelchair.
Xavier practically dropped his mail trying to get to the elevator in time, but to no avail.
No biggie, he could tackle the next one.
When he steps inside, he rekindles his last week. The pain, how he couldn’t get himself out of bed enough to eat or move at all, thinking of all the pain you were in.
With little to no information, he didn’t even know how bad the crash was, if you were even alive.
His reconciliation made him realize one thing: he had to see you, and he hoped every night that you were alive.
He needed to apologize for not fighting harder for you, for not telling you the truth the whole time.
One he got to your floor, he saw your friend getting ready to shut the door to the apartment before he had used the small of his hand to keep it open.
Your friend turned suddenly at the noise and saw him. “Xavier?”
He smiles to them, “Hey. Good to see you. I just—“
He stops, trying to breathe once he sees the back of your head in the wheelchair. “—I just wanted to make sure she was okay.”
Your friend nods, “I.. don’t think it’s a good time.”
Xaiver nods, “I get it, she’s probably mad at me. I don’t blame her I just wanted to make sure—“
“—it’s not that, Xavier.” They interrupted.
“Who is it?” You finally say behind her. Your friend and Xavier turn their heads to your voice. He finally sees your full face and smiles. Your friend only breathes out before letting Xavier into the apartment.
You see the man and give him a small smile. He smiles back, grateful to see that you didn’t hate him, or at least not that much.
“It’s good to see you. I wanted to make sure you were alright.” He speaks to you, to which you smile and nod before turning your attention to your friend with a confused expression.
They speak up, “This is Xavier. Remember?”
Your lips separate as if to say something, but nothing comes as you shake your head. You eye Xavier again, who seems to have been drained of any energy.
He then looks confused, turning his attention back to your friend. “Does she— not remember me?” He breathes.
Your friend feels their heart break for a moment. “She doesn’t remember anyone really. The doctor said it could be permanent.”
Permanent. Permanent. “Permanent?”
The word repeated in his head multiple times before he had spoken into existence. He shook his head before feeling the ground beneath him start to crumble.
“I—uh.. I need to go.” He speaks before nodding to your friend and heading to his apartment.
What could he do now? Especially if you didn’t remember him. Xavier wished had asked more questions: how much did you remember? Of who?
Were the memories still there, but instead of him it was a black shadowing figure? He didn’t understand, but he knew he had fucked up. More than just before when he watched you walk away, he should’ve done more.
Told you the truth, told you that you were the only person for him.
With a few months dripped off the time, you were walking again and Xavier saw you working again. Even if you couldn’t remember him, he remembered you. He still got to see your beautiful smile, hear your laugh. Even if it wasn’t directed to him, he couldn’t help but be grateful that you were alive.
You had noticed the staring, the way his eyes didn’t hide that he was stealing glances at you, and you decided to do something about it.
After a mission one afternoon, Xavier would come back into the workspace, wiping blood from him face before sitting himself in his desk.
His back arches as he closes his eyes and leans back in his chair to relive himself. You had made you way to him, which he was unaware of until you had cleared your throat.
Xavier shot up and looked to you with haste, the item in his hand dropping embarrassingly. He hadn't imagined he would see you so close, especially since he hadn’t spoken to you since long before the incident at this point.
“Xavier, right?” You smile to him. God, did he miss that smile.
“Mhm.” He says with a small smile back.
You nod and lean near his desk. “I’ve heard around the place that before the accident, we dated, but broke it off?”
Xavier felt his heartbeat collide with his ribs. Where were you going with this? And why was he enticed? Was it because he had been thinking (regretting) everything over the last few torturing months?
Xavier’s throat felt dry, so he only nodded.
You chuckle at his nervous demeanor and nod back slowly. “Is it wrong of me to ask why?”
Xavier found himself chuckling back, his head falling to his hand. “Because I’m a moron.” He says truthfully.
You take a minute to reflect, trying to see if you could guess what the issue was.
“Manipulative?” You ask.
Xavier answers immediately. “Absolutely not.”
Your eyes don’t leave him now. “Cheated?”
Xavier shakes his head, “Never.”
“Then what?” You give up on the guesses.
Xavier breathes through his nose. “I just, couldn’t tell you the truth about my past, my family and the life I had growing up. It meant— means a lot to you. I just.. didn’t wanna talk about it. I didn’t want you to be scared.
You nod, “Did you ever tell me you were ashamed of it?”
Xavier looks up at you now, “I didn’t. It wasn’t until it was too late that I realized you were the best woman I would ever get.” He admits.
“Too late?” You ask him with a smile.
Xavier eyes you harder now, “You don’t remember me. I can’t ever fix it.”
You shake your head, a smile still trailing the features of your face. “I’m not dead.” You speak with suggestion.
Xavier copies your expression with a squint in his eyes, “No. You aren’t.”
“Guess it’s not too late.”
RAFAYEL:
Was he having a nightmare? He was almost sure he had been as he lies in bed.
He had heard the rumors, that you had been diagnosed with cognitive decay, that you didn’t remember your parents, your friends. There was a 99% chance that you didn’t remember him either, and he couldn’t face you.
He couldn’t imagine the look in your face, the confusion. Part of Rafayel wanted you to hate him rather than not remember him at all. It made him selfish, but that was his biggest issue.
That was the reason the two of you broke up too.
He couldn’t stop his selfish ways in the relationship: what he wanted, when he wanted it and why he didn’t want to do whatever it was.
You would beg to see him, but he’d be too busy painting a piece and didn’t want to move from his spot. You wanted to go to dinner, but he wasn’t feeling Mediterranean tonight. That’s okay, let’s do—
“I’m not all that hungry.” He’d say, but you were.
You felt alone in the relationship at some point, and you told him, but it was another hit and miss. You had finally cried out your tears, it was obvious he didn’t love you. At least not as much as you did him.
The top of it all was when it took him a week to contact you after.
꩜
“Raf, I wanna—“
“Hold that thought, I just thought of the perfect piece.” He’d interrupted and head to his painting wall.
You could only scoff. He knew you wanted to have a serious conversation. That, whatever it was, was extremely important to you; but yet again, why were you here at wits end with him now?
“I wanna break up, Raf.”
He stops in his tracks and turns to you slowly. It was obvious he didn't expect that response, or that phrase whatsoever. “What was that?”
“I don’t want to be with you anymore.” You speak quietly, but keeping your stand.
He pauses longer this time, feeling his heart rate increase slightly. Rafayel could only blink, looking down quickly with a scoff. He was about to ask again what that meant, but the anger inside of him was clear. He could long shake his head.
“If that’s what you want.”
You shake your head, eyes turning sad. “It’s not what I want, but—“
“—It’s clearly what you want.”
You stop yourself, then feel yourself fall back into the tiresome state of your relationship. “I’ll never be enough for you.”
He blinks at you with confusion, ready to tell you that you were being ridiculous, that all he's ever wanted was you and he would never feel complete without you, but he couldn't speak, especisally as you kept going.
"You will always want this excitement in your life, with your art and your ventures. I can't always be exciting to you, Raf."
Rafayel opens his mouth to speak, but sees you looking away from him, grabbing your bag and heading out of his apartment. His biggest weakness was that he didn’t stop you.
He was being petty, selfish like always, but now the anger in his eyes was another action he had convinced himself was normal.
You had walked out on him, given up on the relationship. Why should he feel bad? He thinks,
So why did he feel so bad? And why didn’t he run after you?
꩜
That nightmare played on and on in his head for weeks, thought it wasn’t fiction, or a scary dream. It was real: it was the last day he saw you.
Rafayel had tried to visit you, but the moment he would be in front of your door, he would stop and turn himself back around.
A year after the breakup and he was still the same passive asshole that let the love of his life walk out of it. Rafayel finally understood why you broke up with him; so many regrets laced in his brain when he thought of the days you spent the time in his presence.
How you’d try to make conversion but it would futile. He would be short with you until you gave up.
If he didn't feel like it, he wouldn’t do it. He was a spoiled brat.
That was until another attempt came, and his hand came up to the door, going to knock.
Even then, he had stopped himself, debating the outcome. Would you remember, and hate him, shutting him out once again? Or would you not remember, which meant nothing even mattered?
Either way felt like a loss.
So Rafayel would shake his head, turning away. Though something was different this time, and you would open the door to see the man starting to walk away.
In all honesty, you weren’t paying any attention to him and turned to your door to lock it. It felt like slow motion to him; you looked beautiful, dressed in a nice outfit like you were going to meet friends or go on a date.
You weren’t, right?
Rafayel had a hard time not staring, but when you turned to make eye contact. He hadn’t seen your eyes in a little more than a year, but it felt like eons.
“Oh, hello.” You would smile to him, not completely aware of what was happening.
Rafayel felt his stomach drop now. There was no way you remembered him, not with the smile on your features as you stared right at him. Your casual demeanor and relaxed figure. He had prepared himself for the awkward moment he would see you again, but he wasn’t getting that.
“_______.” He would speak your name into existence.
You nod, “Yeah, and you’re?”
There it was. The pain of situation finally settling in front of his feet. You didn’t remember him, and his face couldn’t hide its disappointment. He responds anyways, "Rafayel."
You had watched as his face fell and felt the ting of misfortune. “Oh, you.. must’ve known me before the..”
You had stopped, in case the mention of the accident upset him. He only nods, “Yeah, you were..” Everything to me, was what he wanted to say, but stopped himself.
Could he really confess to a version of you that didn’t know he existed?
“We were dating.” You finally say to him, nodding with understanding to his silence. You could feel the room shake as he held his breath.
The room was filled with tension. What could be said, or done for either of you now?
That was until Rafayel looked down to you, a smile tracing your expressions. He was confused, but couldn’t decide if he should ask.
Your eyes peer up into his, “Something tells me I used to call you Raf. Would I be right?”
His lips part slightly, almost in disbelief. Did you really not remember him? Or was it a lucky guess? His expression made you giggle in return, which made his heart pulsate. That giggle was once and still always the best sound.
“You did. I loved it.”
SYLUS
He just couldn’t commit to you, at least not the way you really wanted. It seemed easy for him to come around and act like your protective man, the best partner a girl could ask for.
Sylus never regretted anything more in his life, especially when the worst hit and you finally realized you were postponing the inevitable. Now it had been months, and he couldn’t stop thinking about you.
He always wished he was around you, and missed the warm of your embrace to his cold skin.
He wouldn’t leave his bed, his brain taking him to places he couldn’t leave: a man who could sweep you off your feet, and truly commit to you.
Sylus knew it wasn’t an impossible concept. Men swooned for you; before him, during him and he knew it would happen after. Was it crazy that he prayed you’d be loyal to his non-existent commitment to you?
Of course it was, how could he ever punish you for what you did? You were a beauty, deserving of a man that could give you the world and more. So why couldn’t he sleep at night? Why couldn’t he—
His thoughts were interrupted by Mephisto, which was not uncommon.
And speaking of him, Mephisto didn’t make it any easier. The whole process, Sylus felt mocked by his companion. Mephisto loved you, and didn’t hesitate to keep Sylus posted on his own grief of your presence.
Sylus turns to his crow, squinting as Mephisto kept his expression the same, but he stared deep into the red irises that were Sylus'.
“What?” Is all he told the crow, a growl hidden behind his words as he mourned the loss of you near him, but only in a sudden twist, his heart would feel heavy. His eyes blinking open as his cold skin had—goosebumps?
Something didn’t feel right, and the way it felt was worrisome.
Sylus debated, wanting to appear near you. He almost always knew where you were, and he checked up on you often, though he’d never admit it.
Fuck it all. If Mephisto gave him this look, he had to know, right?
So he went, “just to make sure.” He’d tell himself, after the millionth time of checking on you when he knew he shouldn’t be.
But this time felt real. There was an eerie feeling deep inside of him, especially when he got closer and closer to your presence.
That was until his breathing was at a stand still. When he saw your limp body bloody and bruised as the car responsible pulled out and away quickly. The scene was chaotic, people trying to get you out of the destroyed vehicle while others called the police.
He ran quickly to aid, pushing others away gently and telling them all that he knew you personally.
He felt the adrenaline take control of the emotions completely as he quickly pulled you from the car, holding you close like this was all a dream inside a nightmare and was the only time he could touch you again.
꩜
Why couldn’t he just ask you to be his? To put the bow on the present so that you didn’t have to explain that you were seeing someone but not with him, after a year.
It was tiresome, and your heart felt like it was at a crossroads. You loved Sylus, but could you take anymore of his excuses about why you two shouldn’t really be together.
Breaking up with him was a thought that barely traced your thoughts, but now it seemed like the only option.
So that’s exactly what you could tell him.
But would he ever listen? Sorta. He did listen thoughtfully; though his face remained emotionless. “You want to end what?”
Now you felt stupid, and his words didn’t make sense. “Whatever this is.” You pointed between your two figures, and Sylus let out an amused laugh.
“Though, you can’t seem to find the words of ‘whatever this is’.” He throws some quotes around your paraphrased words.
His expression was losing its demeanor, though you wouldn’t be able to completely place how he felt.
“You know what I mean Sy. It’s obvious that this isn’t going anywhere for us.” You would tell him, though calmly as you started to head to your bag.
Sylus was quick to make his way over to you and grab your bag from you with a small smile, a huff also making its way through; “Come on, this again? I’ve told you—“
“—You are trying to protect me from the dangers of us together.” You would interpret, mocking the same over used notion he used when you brought this up.
Sylus only smiles again, this time with transparency that he was impressed. “You’ve memorized my statement perfectly. That’s sweet.”
“Not as sweet Sy, considering I have brought this up a million times.” You grumble, grabbing your bag from him. “I’m serious Sy. If you can’t commit, it’s over.”
You walked off, unexpectedly not being stopped by another one of his lazy attempts to keep you happy. He tried, but you continued to leave. Something shoveled deep inside of you muttered to yourself that a relationship built on solid ground would not start like this, where you were begging for commitment. So the question remained:
Why didn’t he just commit?
꩜
You were unconscious, unaware and at times, Sylus couldn’t tell if you were alive, which terrified him.
Never did he think he would lose you like this.
When the paramedics arrived, he didn’t leave your side; not in the truck, not at the hospital. He swore he wouldn’t until you were awake and personally told him to leave.
So Sylus stayed, every day and night for a week until you woke up. He smiled when your eyes drifted from the doctor to him, to where he noticed you made the same nervous expression you did when you two first met.
You were nervous, and it was adorable to him. When the doctor left the room, he would sit next to you. Finally able to look into your eyes again after months.
It was relieving that you were alive. He couldn’t be more grateful, though he knew you were strong. He gripped your hand tightly, a tear almost falling before he realized your hand was limp against his hold.
He eyes you with confusion, and when you clarify, he was sure he had fallen asleep and woke up in a nightmare.
“Who are you?”
Who was who? Who was he?
What were you confused about? There was nothing to be confused about.
You knew him, you were just confused after being asleep for so long, right?
‘Of course that’s why.’ He’d tell himself
"No, that’s not why", the doctor would tell him shortly after they ran a PET scan, and you seemed to have congestive decay, or in short, loss of memory.
They weren’t sure it would ever come back, so what the hell could Sylus do now?
He had turned from the doctor to look at you, which made the two of you lock eyes almost immediately. You had already been looking at him, like you couldn’t take your eyes off him.
Sylus was left puzzled by the look, but nonetheless hopefully delusional that you did, would or could remember him at some point.
It was shot in the dark, but he kept out hope.
You were kept at the hospital for further tests, and short exercises to expand the brain to help you remember before the accident.
It wasn’t easy for you, but it made it easier that Sylus was helping. He was patient, and never made you feel like you were a burden for needing his help.
You feel bad, since it was obvious that he meant something to you in your past life, or pre-accident, but it never stopped his kindness.
Your brain wanted to remember him, desperately.
Sylus always caught you staring at him, his heart always beating harder whenever you would, since you never looked away when he caught you.
“What is it?” He asked you finally, looking up from shuffling the cards with splotches of paint in random places to ask what you saw. You would just smile and look down to your legs and waist that were covered in a not-so-soft blanket from the hospital.
You wondered if he was comfortable in the awful chair that he sat on the side of your bed, and if he wasn't, he didn’t show it.
“I understand why I liked you.” You tell him, stopping your random thoughts.
Sylus scoffs and looks away, “Would you mind telling me? It always confused me.”
You only smile bashfully, “You’re handsome, and you are always taking care of me.” You looked bashfully at him, and his face was sorta awe-struck.
Sylus smiled lightly, but it was quickly faltered.
You notice and your expression falls too, “What?”
He just frowns, shaking his head. “I wasn’t all that great. I couldn’t give you everything you wanted.”
You frown back, “What did I want that you couldn’t give?”
“We weren’t together. Just acted like it, and you wanted more. Commitment. I should’ve—“ he stops, feeling himself choke up— “I just regret not being with you these last few months.” Sylus wasn’t looking at you now; how could he? He was so embarrassed hearing his own reasons, which were only laziness, or was it fear that you truly wouldn’t like being in a relationship with him. He never even gave it thought. Why couldn’t he just—
“—Maybe, that’s something we can still figure out now.” You interrupted his thoughts. Right at the baseline before they started to make him hyperventilate.
He looks back into your face, “What?”
“I don’t remember anything, but maybe you could help me.” You say casually, “And maybe— my memory will come back.”
Sylus shakes his head in disbelief. “What’re you saying?”
“I’m saying, help me understand where you’re coming from, and maybe that’ll help me remember you.
Sylus pauses before trying to speak again, ever vessel on his body shocked by your words. You wanted to remember him? Or your life before? What could happen if you did remember him?
It didn’t matter. He truly owed you everything now, and there was any chance of getting you back so he could do the right thing, he would do it.
So that’s exactly what he did.
"Any chance to be near your again would be the end of my nightmare."
CALEB
It had been weeks? Months? Nope, a year, though it didn’t feel like it to Caleb. How the hell could it have been a year since you left him, and why the hell was he still thinking about it?
He had been with two girls since you broke things off, and nothing stopped his brain from wondering what you were doing, with who and where?
Were you also with someone else? Had you been with anyone else since him? Were they better than him?
Does it fucking matter? His brain would constantly ask.
It doesn’t, it doesn’t, it does.
It really mattered to him, because why couldn’t he just accept what happened? Was it cause it wasn’t his fault, and it was yours?
That was the easiest way to cope with what he had done. He was cold for months, and you dealt with it constantly. He would pass you off; your love, what he would called your “constant nagging” but it was you, trying your best to make sure he was being safe, and that he knew you loved him.
It would keep him up at night, those thoughts of why he let himself slip so far into his own world that he didn’t invite you in it.
Caleb was a mess for months, but hid it all behind being only upset for a few weeks before posting about with someone else, which you saw and stopped the trial run of ‘staying friends after the breakup’.
Once you had completely went no contact, he was a force to be reckoned with.
You didn’t fold at the whims either, never letting your emotions of missing him make you reach back out. He thought it wouldn’t last long, that you would come back. But you didn’t, and though he knew why you were upset, he ignored it.
You wouldn’t fold, and neither would he. He was too petty.
No one could fill his void though. Every hookup, every date, it always went back to his comfort with you.
He also knew that you would hate the man he had become, which kept him further strayed away.
Caleb had stayed friends with some of your friends though, and that’s how he found out about the accident, how you were in the hospital.
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What had happened to make your sweet boyfriend grow so cold?
You weren’t an advocate for whatever new-term bullshit people came with: situationshios, love-bombing, micro-cheating? What the hell is that? It’s all cheating.
But you were using technological advice to try to understand what the hell was going on with your boyfriend, and unfortunately all the answers ended up the same:
“Break-up with him.”
“Don’t waste your time with someone who doesn’t appreciate you.”
Subconsciously, your brain knew that already. You knew it wasn’t worth the crying you did at night when you’d think of how much he had changed, and not for the better.
Breaking up with someone you loved so dearly felt like a massive overreaction, but was it the right one? You were tired of how insecure you started to get when it got quiet in a room that used to be buzzing with laughter between the two of you.
You laid on your stomach in his bedroom, working on your paper for college, turning your face to Caleb. He had the same pouty, bored expression and he watched the show on his tv.
“Caleb.”
“Hm?”
“Can we talk?”
His eyes peer slightly down now, looking at yours. “Yeah baby?”
You smile, leaning up to sit normally. Why were you anxious? Cause you’ve never called him out before? Asked about his behavior?
“Is everything alright? It just seems like, you know, you aren’t yourself.” You felt like you were poking at him, but you didn’t mean to.
Caleb eyes you with furrowed eyebrows, “What do you mean?”
You feel yourself heat up slightly, now starting to go slower with your phrasing. “Well, you’ve been so quiet, lately. I just wanted to make sure you were feeling alright..”
“I’m fine, _______.”
You lean up closer, “Are you sure?”
“Yes.”
It was short, passive aggressive and it made your heart hurt so badly. You shook your head, grabbing your bag and putting your laptop in it before going to leave.
Caleb watches, not understanding what the issue was. He was tired, being lazy with his responsibilities and responses. Why were you asking and making a big deal?
“What? What did I say?”
You shake your head, “I’m just leaving, Caleb. This is ridiculous.”
He gets up now, “I’m just tired.”
“You’re always tired. Every time I’m here, whenever we’re out. You’re always acting like this: it’s exhausting.”
“You keep saying that, but I don’t understand.” Caleb says, his voice raising slightly with yours. “We are not the same because I’m not jumping your ass with excitement?”
You turn to him with a taken-back expression. “There is a major difference with you since we first got together. You always seem like you’d rather be alone.”
His back turns, mumbling a, “Maybe I do.” , not anticipating that you’d hear it since he wasn’t facing you anymore. Your heart cascading down with speed, but you nod.
“Alright then.” You finally speak back, just as quiet, now leaving his apartment. It wasn’t so easy at first. His guilt flying around him before going after you.
You just continue to walk to your car and he followed, yelling after you that he didn’t mean it, that it was a spur of the moment statement with no validity.
You don’t speak back and when you arrive to your car and go to open the car door, he closes it again. Caleb still, even after everything, not looking into your eyes.
You scoff, “Let go, I don’t want to be here.”
“If you get in the car, you’re telling me you want this to end.” He says with a serious expression, “You told me that we never leave during a fight.”
Your tears were apparent now, though you played strong.
“You wanna be alone, Caleb? You can be that.”
You push open the door, causing his arm to fly back. You get in and drive off, painfully and now aware that maybe those videos of advice were right. Maybe you were too quick to judge people with similar experiences.
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He panicked, the pain in his heart of not being there for you hitting an all time high. He told your friend to keep him updated, but the updates eventually stopped once you were told that your memory had displaced entirely.
You didn’t remember the friend, you didn’t remember much of anyone. The doctor had recommended that you should go back to your previous schedule to see if the normalcy would trace back your memory. Your first option was your job, pre-accident.
You would go for a few weeks, and not much was there. The same tedious tasks were brain numbing, instead of inducing.
You continued it anyways, not really seeing the harm in working for now, at least for the money. Your place was a public palace: people traveling all the time.
So would it be any shock that Caleb would also be there? Or was it a bad twist of fate in his end?
Who was he kidding? You wouldn’t recognize him or have time to rekindle. Rekindle what exactly anyways? You had no recollection of him.
Which he had to remind himself of when he saw you at your job, or at least not what he remembered your job being. Your face was neutral as you cleaned off the top of a sand-alone surface, but he knew it was you.
The way his hand tremored with his drink when he locked eyes with your figure. You still looked beautiful, though that wasn't much of a surprise to him. He knew seeing you again would hurt him; the less he knew the better.
Also because he wanted to reach out, but couldn't. He needed to stay respectful, and he felt wrong going after you when you were venerable. You didn't remember anyone or anything from the life you had before the incident.
So why was he walking toward you, his legs just moving without knowing, and why was he now standing straight and ready to speak your name before seeing your head peak up at him?
You had sensed someone close and you reached to your ear to pull out the blaring music from it. "Sorry, sir. What can I help you with?" You ask him before moving behind the counter and putting the plastic in your pocket.
When he tries to speak to you, his words were stuck in his throat.
Why was this so hard now? How was he even able to walk up to you? Though your reaction was exactly what he thought it would be; you didn't remember him, so you called him "sir".
Was that the part that hurt more? That you didn't remember; that you couldn't feel the same way he could about the break-up because of the accident.
Caleb shook his head, smiling lightly at you before the glow of his eyes made you blink back a little before he turned to walk away with a quick, "Nothing, sorry to bother you."
"Wait."
Caleb stops in his tracks, though he was completely turned from you at this point. He turns his head slightly, then he slowly turned back all the way. He wanted to let you speak, but his heart was racing faster.
"Caleb?" You breathe, now locking eyes with him.
He blinks back, trying to understand how you remembered him, but nothing came to his head. "How--"
"I don't know." Is all you can mutter. After weeks, months of not being able to go back to your normal life because of the memory loss, how could you just remember now? Because you saw him? Heard him speak?
This was impossible. You worked at the same place, listened to the same music and slept in the same bed everyday since the accident and nothing brought you back until you saw Caleb again, but even then, you were way ahead of yourself.
You knew his name, but nothing else could really come to mind. His face scratched an itch you didn't know you even had.
Caleb comes closer, trying to almost see what was happening in your head, but nonetheless, nothing. Your eyes did drift to him, and in a quick second, Caleb feels the urge to hug you, beg you to remember everything, but he doesn't. Instead he just speaks out,
"I'm sorry for ever letting you walk out of my life." His eyes don't leave yours, his statement holding too much weight, but before your brain could even try to wrap around his words, you spoke,
"Why did you let me?"
Caleb feels himself twitch at your words, not even really having a response. What could he say? That he was immature, and was being selfish by guarding his feelings from the relationship because he felt like he couldn't be the man you deserved, and it made him resent the relationship all together?
It wasn't your fault, it was his since he wasn't man enough to tell you.
His angsty quiet made you speak again, "Caleb."
He looks up, his eyes big and pouty, not knowing or being able to predict what you were going to say. The anxiousness ate at him, but he still moved without thinking, grabbing you from behind the counter and pulling you into him.
Your shoulder was suddenly wet and warm with his watery eyes, though he couldn't even tell you why he was crying. Relived you were alive after the accident, or maybe because his name still sounded the best when being rolled over your tongue and out of your stunning lips.
Either way, he didn't let you go, and you didn't push him off. You couldn't speak but something deep into your body gripped on his back too, tighter than he was even holding you.
The way you both yearned for the touch you were deprived of, it meant more unknowingly.
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The poll has picked Gojo as the victim of my new angst story!! I’m excited to start!
But for all my girls that wanted LADS, I’m gonna write a multi character one shot of the amnesia angst au for all the lads boys! Sound fair? I really hope so. I think they all are great for that sad shit.
For my Carlos girls that didn’t win, I hope you can check out, if you haven’t, my other works for Carlos! I love that man and he’s all over my page!
(I read all comments, tumblr doesn’t let me respond :/))
𝜗ৎ warnings: branding, unsafe sex, bratty!dom Sylus, pathetic! reader, crazy amounts of hickey’s, dumbification, creampies, use of sharpie (slightly), use of AFAB anatomy, use of she/her pronouns
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You had no idea why Sylus was acting this way.
It started a few days ago, where you were assigned with Xavier on a Wanderer mission. He had called a few times, but you weren’t by your phone(too busy fighting off these creatures).
When you finally were able to make it call him back, he told you he couldn’t talk, “too busy.”
Then, when you had met up with Xavier to get some work done on research. You had missed a call, and called him back when you were at the office. He smiles to the phone, but frowns when he sees the white hair sitting behind you.
He furrows his brows and tells you to call him when you’re home.
But when you do, he’s radio silent.
When you eventually got to see him after a while, his behavior was nothing short of sassy with you. You frowned after multiple attempts to speak to him; asking him about his week, how he was feeling, but he gave you nothing.
You poke at him, wanting a response, and he gives you nothing.
He grips your hand from poking his side again and looks at you with his eyes narrowed.
It took a moment but, he went back to normal for a moment.
The afternoon was cozy, as he had went back to speaking normally, but it was starting to bite at you what was wrong to begin with.
You tried to beat around it, get an answer out of him, but to no avail; he wouldn’t bite.
"What's wrong Sy?” You’d ask him, practically begging him to speak to you. He would only pout, but finally sighing to respond.
“Missed you, that’s all.” He smiles small, with his eyes closed. You nod, “Im right here..”
He smiles, “Mhm.. you are.”
His hands starts to trail to your thighs, then inner thighs. Feeling up all of your skin and leaving imaginary marks on your skin that were imprinted in his brain.
You feel yourself let go of your breath, a small gasp falling from your lips. You look to his taller figure, “Sy?”
He doesn’t speak back, but leans in to smell your neck, breathing into the skin before muttering: “No more talking. Understood?”
You only nod, begging with your eyes for him to do what he wanted. His left eye lights up upon your consent, and smiles before getting on top of you.
He leans in against to talk, “You took your sweet time getting back to me. Maybe, I should remind you who you belong to.”
Your eyes open slightly as the moan falls from your lips. “Sy.. what—“
“—I said no talking. Did I not?”
Your mouth closes slowly, “Yes, you did.” You’d whisper out. He nods and pays more attention to your body, sliding down and leaving kisses as he does.
He moves from your body and you pant, looking up at him.
Sylus smirks for a moment before moving to the desk in his room. He grabs his sharpie, turning back and taking the cap off with his teeth. “You belong to me. You know that, don’t you?”
You nod, and he moves his head, “—Speak up.”
“Yes Sy.” Is all you can say. And he smiles again, walking closer and touching your abdomen. Right at the bottom of it, he took the sharpie and wrote. The ink felt weird against your skin, and from where you laid, you couldn’t see exactly what he wrote, but his name was on there.
“Mmh.. you look so pretty with my name on you.” He tells you.
He traces the now capped pen all over your body, before stopping it at the bay of your clit. You breathing hitches, and your body shakes once before relaxing again.
“Oh— seems like ‘she’ knows who you belong to.. doesn’t ‘she’?” Sylus speaks again, “Wish she was as good as you.”
You nod, “I’m good, Sy— I promise.”
“Yeah, we’ll see about that. Won’t we?”
After taking off any clothes you had left on your body, he kissed at your neck, leaving heavy marks littered around your pulse points, collar bones and chest above your bosoms.
You couldn’t handle the attention of how he attacked you with the affection, but his words created wetness leaking from your pussy.
You grip to his hair, pulling at the light roots as his lips created more blemishes. You moan as he slithers his cock deep inside your pussy with ease.
You couldn’t speak, not with how he ruled that over you when it started, but he wasn’t speaking much either. Just marking you with all his might.
It continued for hours, his marks starting to come more from the sharpie than his might now that he couldn’t mark anything more on your body while fucking you. On the inside of one of your thighs, it was how many times you had cum hard around his cock, his mouth or fingers.
In the other, was his cum count, who was not two loads deep inside of you so far. He smiled down at your marked body, fighting the urge inside of him to ruin you completely for him.
Especially with the image in his mind of you walking into work the next day and letting Xavier see what Sylus had done to you. He would do anything to see that.
After so long, your eyes threaten to fall from the pleasure he put you through. You were fucked dumber than you thought was possible.
You reach up to his shoulders, trying to claw them, but failing incredibly with the lack of strength he gave you from your activities. “Sy—lus.” You whisper out as he fucks his cum into you for the—peaking down to your thigh— fifth time tonight, your pussy twitching and clenching, but your body not being able to move.
Sylus pulls out, and the cum falls out immediately. “Mh.” Is all he can mutter in his own exhaustion, and he peak all over your bruises, but they were all made with his undying admiration of you.
He peaks to the marks in your thighs, seeing the line come across four lines in two sets of them, making this your thirteenth time.
He looks down to your, biting his lips as he scoops his cum with a finger and tries to pool it back into you.
“What did we learn today, kitten?” He speaks up, his voice low with a rasp.
You breathe hard, eyes barely opening to look at him. “M-mh I— belong..”
He smiles down at you, and takes a hand and grips under your chin to keep you looking at him, “I fucked you dumb, didn’t I, pretty girl?”
You only nod, pouting and showing how swollen your lips were. “I.. belong to— you. Only you, Sy.”
ꜰᴇᴀᴛ: Sheva Almoar & Jill Valentine W/ Carlos Olivera & Chris Redfield ᭪ ʀᴇꜱɪᴅᴇɴᴛ ᴇᴠɪʟ
۶ৎ warnings: voyerism, f/f/f, then f/f/f/m/m, Chris and Carlos being pervs, mentions of fingering, scissoring and cunnlingus, shooting blanks, can be whatever Jill you want (re3 or re5), use of AFAB anatomy, use of she/her pronouns.
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The sleepover was planned so casually that it made you feel out of order.
Jill and Sheva were your best friends; some of the most kind and supportive women you’ve ever met. It made you happy to have a friendship with these women.
They were always close, and when you came into the mix (courtesy of Chris), they were immediately perched on becoming close with you.
They love the vibe you put out; sweet and smart.
Jill was more resilient to the “sleepover”, knowing she had work the next day, but Sheva insisted that she’d be okay, also while insisting that it would’ve at her apartment, where Jill also deadpanned.
‘It also wasn’t “that” type of sleepover’, she would say. No crazy dares, no drinking.
But it didn’t end up that way, which was Jill’s reason to be suspicious in the first place.
When you arrived to the Jill’s apartment, Sheva and her turn to the direction of the door, fleeing towards you with hugs.
“Hey gorgeous!” Sheva speaks, her cute pajamas in a purple-lavender color, hair in a mini bun. You smile at her and hug back. “Thank you for inviting me!”
She hits your shoulder gently, “Of course. It’s not any fun without you. Right, Jill?”
Jill smiles; in her sweatshirt and panties, hair out. She still rolls her eyes playfully, “Ah— I’m chopped liver, huh?”
You and Sheva both giggle with her before Sheva smiles back at you and taking a swig of her beer. She taps your shoulder with a full mouth before swallowing and speaking, “Carlos and Chris are gonna be here soon!”
Your smile drops at the statement, your eyes slightly wider and eyebrows furrow for a quick minute. “Huh? Why?” You try to hide your rising panic.
Jill only smiles at Sheva with a knowing look, “Mhm, because we know they have the hots for you, and you for them.” Sheva nods in agreement, taking another swig.
You roll your eyes, “No, I don’t.” You put your bag down on the couch and sit there. Jill and Sheva walk themselves over and sit to where you’re seated between them.
They look at each other, “Do you really not want them to come? We will uninvited them.” Sheva speaks, her accent started to sound more present with these words too, and she hands you a cold beer.
You smile at her and take the beer. “I mean, I don’t wanna inconvenience them but what about a girls night?” You pass off to her, smiling hopefully. Sheva looks at Jill, then at you: “I wouldn’t dream of saying no to that.” She smiles.
Apparently that phrasing comes with its own connotation.
You smile and gently put your head in her shoulder as Sheva hugs into you. “Jill, text them yeah?”
Jill nods, scooting to be closer to the two of you and cuddle up after sending the text to Chris’ phone that ‘We are gonna spend some much needed girl-time together tonight.’
Chris however, wouldn’t see this text.
He didn’t even hear his phone go off as he drove down the road with Carlos in his passenger seat. Call him whatever you want, but he wasn’t a text & driver by any means.
Chris turns his attention to Carlos at a stop light, seeing the man trying to mask his anxious demeanor, but failing miserably when his leg bounced over and over.
He smiles, raising his eyebrows, “What’s got you worked up, cool guy?”
Carlos turns to look at him when the light goes green again. “I don’t know what you mean. I’m all good.”
Chris just smiles back, “If this about _____, you can cool it. We’re just hanging tonight. I’m not gonna make any moves if you like her.”
Carlos looks at him, trying to see if he was bullshitting then shrugs, “Are you hoping I’ll say the same?”
Chris rolls his eyes with a chuckle, “Nah, I know you don’t want my pity points, and that you like the competition.” Carlos smiles back at him, “You’d be right about that, Redfiled.”
When they pulled up the apartment complex, Chris gets out with his offering of beer and Carlos and him walk to the door of the apartment. Neither of them hear much beyond the door, though Chris thought they might hear a movie playing or something.
He knocks the apartment door, stays quiet and then knocks again a few moments later. “Why the hell—“
A giggle makes it through the thin door, to which Carlos and Chris both freeze a moment: it sounded far, like from a bedroom.
Carlos goes to open the door and Carlos stops him, “What are you doing?” Carlos just looks at him with a confused face, “What?”
“You can’t just walk in.” Chris looks at him like he’s insane, or dumb; like the answer was obvious.
Carlos roll his eyes, “I’ve been in this apartment a million times. I have a damn key.” He tried to knob and the door was unlocked as well, much to Chris and Carlos’ surprise.
They walk through the door without much care, though Chris was still staggering behind, hesitant to being in a woman’s space without prior consent.
Carlos closes the door behind them, looking to the living room and seeing messy blankets thrown together and some on the floor, empty beer bottles and a couple unfinished; snacks that were untouched. He looks confused at the scene before hearing the giggle again, coming from the bedroom.
Chris feels more intrusive now, “Maybe we should g—“
A moan muffles its way out, not coming from Sheva or Jill, before a sentence comes through, “Are you imagining Chris or Carlos now?”
That sounded like Jill speaking, which Carlos and Chris could both attest to. They both shivered at the implications of the sentence. What the hell was going on in there?
The question rang though both the men’s brains, but Chris was less curious than Carlos, who was inching to the bedroom door that looked to be cracked.
Chris panicked internally, having a thought to go with him, but also to pull him back and leave. He felt like a perv.
Carlos felt his eyes widen at the scene as he watched: Sheva and Jill on either side of you, only in their panties. You were laid bare as both of their fingers played with your soaked heat, but their eyes never left your face.
Your eyes rolled back, moans filtering out into the silent space as Jill and Sheva exchanged giggles to your reactions.
You smile, Jill’s fingers trailing your hole as Sheva’s experienced hand flicked at your clit. Jill’s head came down, capturing your peaked nipple in her mouth. She giggles around it, sucking harder when your back arches.
Sheva speaks up, “Who I am when you’re thinking about them? Chris or Carlos? Who’s Jill?”
You bite your lip to hold back a laugh, “I-i don’t know Shev..” you pout to her. Sheva doesn’t seem to like that answer and starts to flick harder, and Jill starts to curl her fingers upon the sight.
You moan a little louder, gasping as your body tries to move, but to no avail.
Carlos feels himself become harder than he had been before, or at least he thought. He grips the base of his cock through his jeans, turning to Chris. “You hear this?”
Chris gulps, “Yes, but they don’t know we’re here. I feel off about this.”
Carlos smiles at him, “They’re talking about us. Kinda seems like they wish we were.” Chris rolls his eyes and walks closer to where Carlos was.
His eyes darkened as soon as he saw you the way Carlos had. You looked closer to cumming now, eyes rolling back, sentences turning to babbles from your brain turning to mush from the pleasure.
Jill had leaned over your face, eyes immediately following before closing as she kissed you, the moans flooding her mouth.
This went on for so long: or at least longer than Carlos and Chris anticipated standing there for.
Their legs ached, their cocks so hungry for attention as you and the other other girls moved around bed: Sheva riding your face as Jill ate your pussy, Sheva scissoring you slowly as she ate out Jill.
They couldn’t believe they had subconsciously agreed to just watch. Carlos couldn’t come to terms with it, but he liked the idea of watching you like this.
Chris shakes his head, “We have to leave before they realize we’re here, Carlos. We’ve been here for an hour now.” Carlos doesn’t respond immediately, his mind wrapped around the thoughts of your noises coming from what he was making you feel instead of Jill and Sheva.
“Mhm.. I know. She looks so good—“ he stops himself, rubbing his eyes with his thumb and index finger. “You’re right.. we need to—“
“Carlos..” The soft whimper lets out. stopping them bit in their tracks.
“Chris..” comes a second later. They both melt, looking back at the room, but they were met with three pairs of eyes at the door, looking at them through the little crack in the bedroom door.
Sheva makes a face, then bites her lip: “They are such pervs. Huh, _____?”
You nod, eyes dark and staring deep into the men’s eyes. They keep their eyes on you the longest before then looking at Jill.
“We told you guys not to come.” She rolls her eyes, her head falling to the side, which makes her hair move as well.
Carlos shakes his head slightly, believing he might have been asleep this whole time. “No— we didn’t hear anything about that.”
Sheva giggles before turing to Jill, “You texted them, right?”
Jill nods, “Mhm, 100%. Guess you caught us in the act, huh?” She smiles to them. They both can’t say much, still feeling slightly surreal in the moment.
You still lay close to the two girls, cuddled into the Jill’s side, Sheva close behind. Carlos speaks up, his eyes having a hard time leaving you:
“We can leave— we should’ve. I’m sorry.” He nods apologetically. Sheva shakes her head, “That’s not necessary.”
Carlos turns back to the girls, “Wh—“
“How long have you been here? I noticed you about 10 minutes ago. Something tells me you were here longer than that.” Jill interrupts.
Carlos nods, “Around an hour.” Chris looks at him with a straight face, trying not to scold him for his nonsense idea of staying and watching:
Sheva laughs, “So you heard? That kills two birds with one stone.” You hit her arm, “Shush.” You smile, sitting up.
You were still bare, breasts on display for the men who awkwardly but respectfully looked away. You roll your eyes, “Don’t look so chivalrous now.”
Chris looks back, “We are sorry. We shouldn’t have watched.” You only shrug, standing slowly. “You could make it up to us, I suppose.”
They look to each other, though taller than you and the other girls, they felt somewhat powerless. Sheva and Jill stand behind you, grabbing both of the men and dragging them to their spot on the bed.
When they fall back, their hands fly up submissively. “What.. are—“
You lean closer, “No speaking. Either of you, unless we ask you a question.”
Carlos goes to speak again, but Jill takes some soft slaps to his face, which keeps him silent. You speak up now, “Since you two wanna perv on us, we’ll use you instead of the straps.”
They both feel nerves, especially Chris. But his face only reveals that he was absolutely into the idea. Carlos nods, a smile tracing his lips. “Sounds—“
*Slap*
“No talking, Olivera.” You tell him, rubbing the part you slapped. His eyes widened at you, but his smile didn’t falter, “Yes ma’am.”
They giggle and nod, starting to crawl and straddle the two men. You straddle the middle of them, bitting your lip. They looked happy to be involved, but they didn’t get it.
This wasn’t a reward, which they would soon find out when you all rode the men for hours, almost at a point where they shot blanks deep inside the three of you.
It was too much, definitely a punishment: Carlos was turned to a sweaty mess after the hour passed. He could barely keep up.
His eyes had rolled more times than you could count. Chris did he best to keep his mouth shut, but was whimpering, begging the women for breaks that were never given.
After the two men let out strangled breaths and grunts, almost pained, you stopped. Mostly because you three had cum too much, starting to become too sensitive to continue.
When you Jill and Sheva laid, you three would lay between the two men, all bunched together and cuddled. You breathe heavily, “We need them more often for us..” spoke Sheva. Jill nods, smiling at the two of you.
You nod, breathing a heavy laugh, turning to Sheva and Jill:
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Working this much was killing you. You had no time to do what you wanted anymore, which was starting to create more stress.
It seems hopeless too; you never could come home and do anything other than try to sleep. Your apartment was a mess: Clothes were everywhere and you needed a major reset, but that wouldn’t be for a while.
Zayne was a good friend.. and doctor.
Always so cheerful, in his own way. Always making you take care of yourself, now more than ever. When you and him spent anytime together, you cherished it which how busy your schedules were and how opposite they could be.
He wanted to be help you with the reset, knowing you needed the money right now, and asked if he could help clean up. You were resistant at first, scared he’d judge the mess, but he insisted.
Zayne was at your apartment while you worked at your job. He knew he could be doing more productive things for you, but he wasn’t needed at the hospital, so he would be there when you got home to make you meal that wasn’t fast food.
It was domestic. He had put on some nice music in the back, wiped down the kitchen, cleaned up the bathroom. Swept and mopped any floors. He felt like he was doing you a massive favor that he would never do for anyone else.
It didn’t feel like a drag, either. Zayne wanted to see the big smile on your face when you saw how clean it was in here. One less thing on your ‘to-do list’!
The man chatted to himself to keep busy too; a mental list of what could be done. He tried to make himself even more useful: laundry, dishes and maybe even-
Zayne stopped his thoughts almost instantly when he lifted your laundry basket, seeing the first article of clothing that would lay on the top: black lace panties. His eyes couldn’t leave them, thinking of the times he had imagined sliding these same panties down your legs before he dug deep into you.
It was a little thought that came up when he saw them under your pajama pants when you bent over once.
His cock twitched desperately, but he tried to ignore the burning desire that boiled in the pit of his stomach. He decided to take the basket to the laundry room and start it without another perverted thought, though it was impossible now.
Zane had a thought to take them for a moment, but quickly and internally scolded himself. He was your friend and you trusted him. He couldn’t.
He stared at the panties for a more while longer than he should’ve considering his previous inner dialogue.
Nonetheless, he separated the clothes until they were placed neatly into the washer and started it, leaving out your panties, trying to not feel the shame he felt when he dropped them into his sweatpants pocket.
Zayne feels so nasty: dirty for taking them without you knowing, gross for wanting to smell them until your smell disappears.
He just wanted you so much, he’d reason with himself.
As he made his way back to your bedroom, the guilt crept up again. He couldn’t take it any longer, needing to get rid of them. He reached into his pocket and pulled the panties out, about to take the back to the laundry room before looking at them one last time. Maybe…
He debated himself in his head again before lifting the fabric, smelling your scent that lingered faintly on the lacy material. “So..fucking good.” He choked out to the quiet ambience that surrounded him.
Zayne’s cock hardened immediately, his hand dripping to palm himself through the sweats. The guilt should’ve came forward again, but he couldn’t feel it past his obsessive desire.
He could almost hear your voice as he did it. The way he could hear your smile in your voice when you spoke, or when you would make your little noises when he was around you.
He kept breathing in, his restraint hitting too hard to pull back. He kept hearing you; it was all wrapped in his head.
Though it really wasn’t.
“Zayne?” You call out again.
He still doesn’t turn, infatuated with you, or much more your scent, but apparently not seeing you when you were right in front of him.
You giggle and walk behind him, hugging around him gently. Instead of anything else, he just gasped quickly and froze. He was tense now: What the hell?
How long had you been there?
Did you know what he was doing?
He was fucked. How could he hide your panties from you?
“I missed you Zay. How was your day off?” You speak, your cheek smashed into his back.
He just cleared his throat, keeping his composure once again. “Oh- it was good. How was uh, work?”
You smile, “It was work. I’m glad you’re here. The apartment looks—“ You grab his bicep, hoping to turn him to you, but when you do, he quickly hides a hand from you behind his back.
Your eyebrows perk up, a smile starting to form. “What’s that?”
Zayne only stares in front of him. Since he was taller, that made him look over you, his eyes never meeting yours. You study his face: no visual evidence was seen, but his ears were red at the tips.
The lack of eye contact only filled you with more suspicion. “Zayne.” You speak with a warning tone.
You practically pull and push on his arm to get whatever it was into your field of vision. When you are finally able to see it, your smile fades for a moment, your mouth hanging ajar for a moment.
Zayne feels the guilt that he was scared of to begin with. He just needed you so badly, it got too hard to bare. But what if that scared you? Grossed you out?
Less than a moment goes by, and suddenly your smiling down at your panties in his hand, gripped tightly as you look up to see his eyes never leaving yours, then down to your mouth, waiting for you to tell him he was a sick freak.
All you could do was bite your lip and pull the bigger man to be up against you by his cotton shirt. Your lips connect for a moment, and you pull back. Zayne’s expression was hard to read, but he seemed to be confused.
“Why do you have these?” You whisper into his lips, and pull back slightly when Zayne tries to kiss you again. He practically whines in his throat from how much you were teasing him now, but he was in for it.
“Can’t I just show you instead?” He whispers to you.
It didn’t take long after his words for you to be on your back, thighs pressed tightly together while your ankles leant the rest of the leg weight on his shoulder.
You were laid nude, beautiful face stared up into his. His hands made sure to touch every vessel of your skin, touching any part of your skin more than once to show his appreciation.
Your breath was held, but when you finally released, it came out as a little whimper. You had thought about him too, spending nights olaying with yourself, wishing it was Zayne in his doctors’ coat, helping you ‘relax’.
When his hands came in contact with your chest, it didn’t stop for a long time. His hands were all over your tits, grabbing and holding their weight with conviction.
“Please... God, I’ve wanted you.”
You smile up at him. “Too bad. You’ve been such a bad boy.” You whisper, but loud enough for him to hear.
Zayne lets his head fall back, “I’m sorry. I’ll be good… please” he begged. His cock was painfully hard, resting in the back-side of your thigh. You only bite you lip with a smile,
“Prove it.”
Zayne’s eyes practically teared up. How could he prove it to you? That he was sorry for loving the smell of you so much he perved on you?
You were right. He knew it.
“How?”
You eye down his naked chest, “However you want. You just can’t fuck me..”
Zayne pouts lightly at this news, but doesn’t push it.
He eyes down your naked thighs, looking past them to your soaked pussy on display for him. Fuck.
You needed him too; you were just being prideful.
Zayne wanted to sink his cock deep inside, letting it stretch you to fit him, and only him, but he was in trouble. He respected that.
He knew he should be grateful. Extremely grateful considering the alternative to this outcome.
His eyes travel back up to your thighs, noting how good they looked when pressed tightly together like that.
His hands started to touch them softly, gripping the skin that coated the muscle of your thighs. You whimpered again, his hands still close to your pussy.
Zayne looked up to eye you from the sounds you made, “You like that?” He pants, starting to breathe heavier.
You nod, starting to move yourself closer to him. He slightly spreads the gap between your thighs and plants his heavy, warm cock inside the gap.
You let out a sharp sigh at the feeling; it felt taboo like this. You knew where he wanted to be, but it wasn’t there. After so many thoughts of fucking you normally, this felt different, but in the weirdest and best way.
“Zayne..” you speak, eyes planted at his cock that was between your pretty thighs.
He looks up, his eyes gleaming at the view of you.
With his cock between your thighs, right on top of your clit, he took an experimental thrust into the heated skin. Zayne’s body shook harder than he thought he ever would. His eyes rolled back hard, his grip to your hips so rough that you could feel his body heat soak into you.
“Haa— fuck..” he whispers.
You started to tighten your thighs subconsciously. His hard cock rubbing your bundle of nerves so perfectly, you could barely keep your thoughts.
Zayne could only start mumbling incoherently; panting out words of how desperate he really was.
“I’ve wanted this for so long.. making you feel so good like this.”
“Wish I was deep— ngh, inside you right now.”
“You’re.. so beautiful like this. Better than my dreams.”
“Only mine— promise?”
Your pussy clenched around nothing hard from his ministrations and words. It felt too good, you could almost pass out.
It made you feel sensitive, especially since he wasn’t even inside you. You hand slides up his arm, gripping to his strong arm. The hand grips harder to your thigh, then moves up to the cavern to get a better hold as he felt his sanity slipping when he started to get closer.
His desperation was endearing, making your feel more for him than you thought was possible. You take the panties that lay beside you, shoving them deep into Zayne’s mouth.
He bites down, moaning around the cloth. Your taste lingered on his tongue as his eyes roll back uncontrollably. His thrusts started to increase. Zayne’s glasses fall to his nose from it, body moving faster than he knew he could control.
Not before long, your pussy clenches again. This time to cum hard. You scratch at his shoulder, back and head arching up as you came down from its peak.
When you finally relax, Zayne’s eyes light up at the sight of you cumming. He couldn’t speak to how beautiful you looked, but the look in eyes said enough to you. His thrusts had stopped due to possibly overstimulating you, which you couldn’t help but feel was sweet.
Quickly, you had turned the tables, leaving Zayne to be sitting under you as you sat on his lap. You only turned slightly before moving your messy thighs to squeeze around his cock like before. He couldn’t speak, only to whimper under you, a quick breath coming out choked.
Zayne wasted no time wrapping around you: big arms taking hold tightly around your midsection, head falling to your shoulder to meet the thrust of your thighs.
His muffled noises were loud, barely covered by the skin of your back and shoulder. “Fuck— going to..”
“Cum, I know you wanna.” You speak to him quietly, but he could hear it all.
Zayne could only groan out, not hiding how needy he was for you. His bigger hand comes up to your right bosom, gripping it tightly to ground himself as his release coats your thighs.
You had watched it all; seeing the white liquid stick to your skin and drip down too. You breathe out hard yourself, feeling overwhelmed by how watching him cum and how it turned you on again quickly.
You turn to him, a new smile trailing your expression. Zayne couldn’t tell what it was, but it made his heart rate increase.
“You’ve been very good for me.” Is all you can say to him, which makes his breathing stop for a moment as he licks his lips, still coming down. “My apartment looks great now too.”
Zayne’s eyes watch closely, chest still rising and falling.
۶ৎ warnings: mentions of insecurities about body, massages, body worship, mirror sex, slow & sensual sex, love-making, sweet themes, possessive themes, adoration, use of AFAB anatomy, use of she/her pronouns
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Sometimes, you didn't feel right. You could look into the mirror and point out any blemish that shouldn't be there, any ridge that others wouldn't have in that one spot.
It drove you crazy to be so self critical, but it drove Leon even crazier.
He never understood how you could look at yourself and not see anything other than beauty. You don't tell him much about it, worried you'll set him off to feel forced to tell you how beautiful you were.
He'd still tell you anyways, and though you made little gestures that you were appreciative of it, you also would turn away and have the look of doubt that trailed those pretty features.
Leon would frown, trying to find new things to point out every single day to tell you how beautiful you were to him. Even when he ran out of things to say, he would just reaffirm. A day wouldn't go by without Leon's words of praise, and he was never tired of it.
He was sadder now especially since you had been a little harder on yourself lately with things out of your control that could circle around to the other insecurities from before.
Leon knew he wanted to help, but he also was worried he wouldn't. He just knew he didn't want you to feel like this anymore.
He had asked if you had any plans for the upcoming weekend; no work, no planned events. When you told him you were free, he practically lit up.
You felt appreciation for the plans he wanted to make with you. He would always plan little dates here and there, and the smile he made would make it worth telling him you could.
When the weekend came up, you expected to have a fancy dinner, or even a movie night since it was so close to Halloween, but you were surprised when Leon would cover your eyes gently with his hands and lead you into your shared bedroom.
When his hands come down, they hold at your shoulders. The bed had towels laid across in a folded and fancy matter. There was a little table next the bed with three bottles of oils and lotions.
You turn to look at him. "What is all this?"
Leon only smiles down at you, "I'm giving you a massage."
You only continue staring at him, a small smile forming. "What's the occasion?"
Leon only chuckles, "I don't know if I'd call your stress an occasion, but you need one." He slowly starts to press into your upper arms with more force, and you head falls back with a sigh of relief.
"No more talking. On the bed." Leon speaks with a whisper. He notices you start to relax from his hands.
You start to feel a surge of anxiety from taking off your clothes in front to Leon, but if you were being honest, he was the only one you felt comfortable around at this point.
He notices your hesitation and hooks his fingers underneath your shirt. "May I?"
You turn your head, but not enough to see him. "Mhm." Is all you mutter back.
Leon starts with your shirt and bra, then lowers you pants before leaving you in your panties.
You giggle when he lowers himself to your legs and lifts you up bridal style. He smiles back before putting you on the bed and lowering a towel on your core, that was covered by your panties.
The massage starts off kind, forgiving and slow. Leon's bigger hands covering your body and rubbing the sore muscles of your legs and thighs.
It was comfortable; his hand left metaphorical hand-prints on your skin. The way he touched you made you feel like it was for an audience, but also just to prove how much you belonged to him.
His hands made you feel relaxed, but as his hands traveled higher on your thighs, you started to feel a new feeling deeply rooted inside you.
Your eyes flutter shut, trying to keep your brain from deepening in of the gutter.
Leon had looked up at your face ever so often to see if you were enjoying yourself; making sure it didn't hurt or that you weren't uncomfortable.
Now when he looked up, all he could see was your eyebrows starting to furrow, mouth slightly agape, but with noises that never made their way out. He knew that face.
He looks down to his hand with confusion laced on his expression. His hand were only a few inches away from the sensitive spot between your thighs.
Leon couldn't hold back the smile that made it easily to his lips. He knew you were pent up; maybe the lack of sleep, all the heavy work on the late nights.
He chuckles his hands coming up to cup your cheek. The action made your eyes open slowly again, staring straight at your boyfriend.
He smiles down at you now, trying to capture the look on your face once again of complete need. "I just need you to say it."
You only stare up at him, would not coming out immediately. You felt some block in your throat, but soon enough your eyes never left his before speaking:
"Please."
His actions were quick, his strength was an obvious component. He had practically swiped the towel off of you, his hands swiftly making there way to hook the sides of your panties before taking them off just as quick.
You pant, grabbing at the back of his neck and pulling him down instantaneously to kiss you. Leon's hand slide to lightly touch your core, and without surprise, you were soaked.
Leon's lips come off your own before biting at the sensitive spots of your neck.
The foreplay was short-coming; Leon was too pent up from not having you this last week, and he wasted no time pulling you on top of him.
The new position was taking you for a loop though; your back against his chest, legs still straddling his now naked lap and the back of your face and head bumping into his face and shoulder.
You turn to him, eyes trying to not make contact with the mirror that happened to be placed in front of you in the bedroom. It was a mirror you looked into everyday when you got ready, but now, you felt the self conscious thoughts creeping in when you stared too hard.
Leon noticed and his hand crept up to your chin, moving your head to be straight and look in front of you into the mirror. He kisses down the section of you neck that is closest to his lips and speaks, "Look away and I'll stop it all. Consider this your warning."
You gasp when his hand comes down to not-so-gently grip you inner-thigh and his breath rests on your ear with his statement. Leon was a soft man, always doing anything he could to place that pretty smile on your face.
When he called the shots, it felt new. And not in a particularly bad way.
You only nod to him, your eyes now open and examining the display before Leon was able to lift you up with ease, and sit you back to take his length. His sighs of pleasure are hitting your shoulder, which makes the stretch feel less like pain.
His actions were slow, but deep. You felt ever deep thrust and the veins that traced up your walls with his slow drilling movements. Your hand came up to his dirty blonde hair, pulling at the roots. He only groans, and those turn to short audible pants.
Leon hooks his hand up to your face, his fingers sprawled out on your features as you continue to make eye contact with yourself in the reflective surface.
"Leo-n." You hiccup through a moan; the broken expression making you start to lose yourself. He notices your eyes start to roll back, which prompted him to slow down.
You share a broken moan with one another as he starts to come to a stop, his restraint slipping to prove a point to you, but he needed to stay vigilant.
You pout into the mirror, since Leon's eyes never come off of you when you would see him through it.
His eyes are dark, masking the beautiful blue they usually had. They made the notation that he was not going to continue as long as your eyes didn't stay on your figure.
You nod; your whimpers begging him to continue. Pleading with need.
He smiles sadistically before laying his index and middle finger on your clit that was only a few millimeters from your entrance that was plugged up with him inside.
Leon's hands never left your body for a moment. Your mid-section was taken up by touches. Some were intention, some left you wanting to be in his skin. His hands were on your hips, then bosoms, sometimes even holding at your neck. He needed you to know you belonged to him and him to you.
Your back arches against him, but your eyes stays glued on the scene.
Watching the two of you gave a new feeling to the sex you have had with him since the two of you started dating. It was almost pornographic. You loved feeling like you were going to lose your mind, and that's where you were with him now.
Leon swings your arm around his shoulder and leans down to place your hard and perked nipple into his mouth, sucking it with need as he moaned into your chest. His other hand groped the other, then twisted the nub with his thumb and index finger.
"Mhm, now you can see how gorgeous you look when I fuck you like this. So pretty, right?" He asks, but more to himself. He knew you couldn't speak with his close you were.
Your eyes did trace down your body, and for the first time in a long time, you felt good about how you looked. Leon looked at you everyday, he was in love with how you appeared to him. Your full body was on display and you loved watching it.
You started to realize, "Why should I feel any different?"
You smile before biting you lip, the orgasm was starting to rip through your stomach at an alarming rate. You hadn't felt it hit so hard, so quickly, before.
You hand grabbed to his bare bicep, his thrusts not stopping nor slowing down.
"Leon, cumming.." Is all you can mutter to him in time before his own thoughts break.
He had pulled out just in time; lifting you up off of his cock. His action left trails of cum sputtering so far up that it hit your sternum and dripped down your abdomen.
You both breathe heavily through your orgasmic state. Your eyes peer up to the mirror again, letting a small smile trace your features from the after-glow.
Leon had already been looking at you through it, now his mouth attached to kissing up your arms and shoulders as he adored the look on your face.
Leon rests his head on your shoulder, "You finally done being mean to my girlfriend?"
You snort, turning to him. "What happens if I say no?"
He shrugs, and smiles up at you. Leon starts to kiss at your neck. "We'll do this again and again until you say yes."
You look away, pretending to wager the options,
"Yeah, no. I don't think I'm done being mean to her.
I got carried away again... this was supposed to be a stupid dumb drabble based on @yummyrevivalfluid 's YouTuber Senku post. but then I couldn't stop, and then I wanted to get some of my other senku ideas out of the way, and then it just spiraled into this long, semi-serious fic.... so yeah, enjoy!
cws: slow burn, strangers to partners to lovers, friends to lovers, mutual pining, nerds in love, social media stuff, reader is a flirt, eventual relationship, senku is lowk OOC, he's also down bad (#needthat), kinda cringe ngl...
nsfw cws: first times, emotional sex, switch dynamics, fingering, handjob, wrap it before you tap it (they do not...), hair pulling (giving), very implied voice kink,pillow talk, lmk if I missed anything major!
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When you first stumbled across Mecha Senku, it was because your college chemistry professor couldn’t explain ionic bonding properly even if their life depended on it. And honestly? That would’ve been fine. You weren’t failing or falling behind on anything. You were the kind of person who took the time to color-code your notes. With pretty pastel highlighters and calligraphy titles like your professor wasn't speaking at 60mph.
You visibly got annoyed when someone asked a question that had already been answered. Five minutes ago. Word for word. And you weren’t subtle about it either. The eye twitches. The sigh. In fact, you studied chapters ahead for fun! Call it being a try-hard, but it was just how you functioned. So when something didn’t click? When you didn’t understand something?
You spiraled. Productively, of course.
So here you are. 1:34AM. Snuggled up in your bed, lights off, blackout curtains drawn, and laptop open at full brightness as you scrolled YouTube, bleary-eyed and annoyed. The only light in the room is the faint blue glow of YouTube’s homepage and your will to academically succeed (read: suffer).
You typed “bond angles” into the search bar. Hit enter, and scrolled. Then a thumbnail caught your eye.
“Predicting Bond Angles – (VSEPR Theory but not boring)” Channel: Mecha Senku Runtime: 5:28
And then you heard it.
That voice. you practically drooled at your screen. It was soft and deep, yet raspy, like he talked too much—which he did—or didn’t care if he wore out his throat explaining the same concept fifteen times. And when he rambled? Oh god. When he got caught up on a tangent about orbital hybridization—when his voice cracked just slightly because his brain was going faster than his mouth?
Yeah, you were soaked.
Kidding.
...Maybe.
You pulled your blanket tighter around your shoulders like that would protect you. Like you weren’t voluntarily listening to this man monologue about VSEPR models like it was foreplay.
You tried to focus on the science. Really, you did. He even had good diagrams—clean visuals, clear examples, actual accuracy. It was kind of annoying how helpful it was, actually. Like, did he have to sound hot while also being smart?
You watched the entire thing.
Then another.
Then another.
Before you knew it, you were five videos deep. At 2:11AM.
Your poor, old, worn-down laptop was probably overheating from the sheer amount of your spiraling. You didn’t even care.
And then… there was that video.
A short one. Barely three minutes.
“Iodine Clock Reaction – Visual Chemistry in Real Time”
You clicked on it like you were possessed.
It was simple—two clear liquids, a few drops of starch, and a timer. You knew the experiment already. You’d seen it done a dozen times in lab. You’d even done it yourself. But somehow, when he did it, it was a cinematic masterpiece.
The camera was angled just right—focused tight on his gloved hands, the faint clink of glass, the gentle pour of the liquid. His voice low, casual, like he was walking you through a magic trick instead of an actual chemical reaction.
And then—the clamps.
He adjusted the glassware with the same energy you imagined he’d use to unbutton his lab coat (which you have no idea why your thoughts immediately ran there)—methodical, focused, and totally unaware of the damage he was doing to your sanity. Forearms flexing, veins shifting, wrist angled just slightly—You blinked. Rewound ten seconds. Then watched it again.
Something dark and sinister bloomed in your chest. Something carnal. Unholy. You buried half your face in your pillow and made a sound that can only be described as a blowdryer on max output immediately followed by a deep, guttural moan. Like your soul was trying to evacuate your body in protest—but got stuck halfway out, sobbing.
You didn’t even know you had a thing for forearms.
Yet here you are. You were a mess. A high-functioning, academically driven, chemically confused mess, replaying a three-minute video about reaction rates like it was an award winning movie. Like it wasn’t educational.
“This is fine. I’m still learning.” You whispered to yourself
You weren’t.
At least, not about chemistry.
Extra notes about mecha senku!
Certified yapper; it gets so bad he just add timestamps to when he gets back on topic
Always says that stupid little catchphrase— “this is exhilarating, get excited” he can’t help himself, its like second nature
While editing his experiment videos, he add little text boxes that say “*item* acquired” ( like in the anime)
That comes in handy later
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At first, it was a side project. Something to kill time between lectures, experiments, and tutoring sessions with students who couldn’t tell a mole from a molecule if their GPA depended on it. He kept the uploads short. Clean. No face, no fluff. Just experiments and explanations—combustion, osmosis, acid-base reactions. The basic building blocks of chemistry and physics, broken down in that signature tone of his: concise, confident, and just slightly condescending.
Naturally, people loved it.
Especially college students. Especially the ones who’d seen too many dead-eyed professors stumble through half-baked PowerPoints that they repurposed over the past 5 decades and somehow still made them boring.
He didn’t need gimmicks. Just science.
And, apparently, his voice.
The comments were... something. He ignored them, mostly. Or at least, tried to.
But even he had limits.
@lo1itado11: FLASH US!!!
@freakwy: ong WE all cracking
Username: i will combust and it won’t be a controlled reaction.
Anotherusername: i can literally get off to his voice rn bro omg…
He sighed, deeply. Then dragged a hand through his loosely tied-up hair, fingers threading through strands that refused to stay neat. He didn’t even bother hiding the twitch in his left eye.
Degenerates. All of them.
Still, every new upload got thousands of views in under an hour. Every deep dive request was more unhinged than the last. And while he could ignore the thirst comments, he couldn’t deny the numbers.
His channel was growing. Fast. And if someone asked him to demonstrate a specific experiment?
Well.
He was a scientist.
And who was he to deny a request in the name of scientific curiosity?
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Now, Senku wasn’t exactly an avid social media user.
Sure, he had all the apps downloaded—after relentless badgering from Gen and Ryusui, who had both made it their mission to pressure him into being “normal” for once.
Senku used Instagram occasionally, mostly to lurk. To like Taiju’s blurry gym selfies. To comment “inaccurate” under Chrome’s chaotic science photo dumps—half of which somehow included a blurry photo of him.
Nothing on his own feed, though. His personal account was private, untouched, maxed out at like 26 followers—half of which were probably bots, and one was definitely just Ryusui’s alt.
However, he was used to getting notifications on his side account. His real one. The one that mattered.
@/mecha.senku.
So when he got a ping from TikTok, he didn’t think much of it. Just a red-and-white flash in the corner of his screen as he walked past a group of undergrads in the quad, huddled around a phone, laughing. Loudly.
Then it happened again. Another ping. Then another.
People tagging him in the same comment section. Spamming him.
Weird.
It wasn’t until after his lecture, holed up in the farthest corner of the campus library, headphones in, laptop open, coffee cooling rapidly at his elbow, half-forgotten.
The notification trail led to a single video.
At first glance, it was just a cake.
A badly decorated one at that—a war crime in the form of buttercream—uneven icing, no symmetry, and piped text that looked like it was written mid-seizure. He could’ve done better blindfolded. He was about to swipe away.
Until he saw the video thumbnail again.
He squinted. Froze. Looked closer.
It was you.
Holding a handful of what looked like paper-taped sticks. Your fingers curled delicately around them, like you’d spent time choosing each one. The video hadn’t even started yet and it was already climbing in views, the likes ticking like a metronome. The top comment had nearly eighty thousand likes.
@/semioli: “I KNEW YOU’D PUT HIM FIRST OMFG”
Senku blinked. Then, almost reluctantly, pressed play.
“Okay, so this is my ‘Hear Me Out’ cake,” you said with a breathless little laugh, voice rich with amusement and just the right touch of self-deprecation. “Please don’t judge…”
You laughed nervously at the camera, your voice familiar in the way ambient noise becomes addictive. He knew you—kind of. You were popular, at least on campus. Friendly with everyone. Smart. You asked questions in class that weren’t dumb, which was rare. People actually listened when you talked.
But he never—not once—imagined you listened to him.
Until the moment your fingers—painted nails and all—planted the first stick dead center into the cake. His channel logo. Bright. Unmistakable. Front and center.
Senku sat still. Very still. His breath caught somewhere in the back of his throat.
“I don’t know what it is about him,” you went on, eyes wide and glittering like you couldn’t believe what you were admitting, “but I feel a carnal type of desire whenever I hear his voice.”
Silence.
Real, gut-wrenching silence.
Senku just stared at the screen. One brow lifted. Lips parted slightly. Blinking. Nothing.
“…What.”
It wasn’t like he hadn’t heard shit like that before. He had. The comments under his videos were riddled with deranged confessionals and late-night voice-induced breakdowns. He’d seen them. Sighed at them. Maybe rolled his eyes on occasion.
But something about hearing you say that—out loud—while staring directly into the camera, shoving his logo into a cake like it was the most natural thing in the world…Now he’s reading the rest of the comments, most of which you had liked.
“his voice scratches my brain in just the right spot i can’t explain it.”
“if he ever does a face reveal it’s over for all of us.”
“whoever he is irl i hope he’s single bc i’m mentally married to him already.”
“i can’t even watch his videos in public anymore istg.”
A laugh, airy and sharp, passed out through his nose.
It was barely even a sound, just air. His head tilted back slowly against the chair, bones creaking lazily. One hand reached up, dragging through his hair—half-loose from the shitty tie job he’d done earlier. He didn’t even realize he was smirking. Eyes narrowed. Lashes lowered. Something wicked curled across his face, subtle but steeped in ego.
So.
You were into him.
And you didn’t even know that he sat two rows behind you in lecture. That the guy scribbling thermodynamic equations while you twirled your pen and tapped your knee was the same voice that apparently haunted your dreams.
Interesting.
Very, very interesting.
Senku closed the tab. Then reopened it not even ten seconds later, still somehow thinking his sleep deprivation was finally catching up to him. Big mistake.
You were still there—smiling at the camera, laughing like you hadn’t just shoved a stick into a cake bearing his logo and said you felt a “carnal desire” whenever you heard his voice.
He stared at the screen like it personally offended him. It didn’t. Not really. The offense was fake—just a weak cover for something worse, something much more humiliating.
You were attractive. That much had always been obvious.
He had eyes, didn’t he?
He wasn’t blind. He noticed things. Like the way you always had some elaborate doodle in the margins of your notebook that changed depending on your current hyperfixation. Like how you spoke with your hands, too fast sometimes, expressive. Like how your voice always had a bit of a lilt when you were excited about something, like you were trying not to talk over yourself. Like how you liked sitting near the window in lecture, even if it made it harder to see the board.
He noticed everything.
Which was the problem.
Because now he couldn’t stop noticing.
Your face. Your voice. Your laugh.
And the worst part?
You were smart.
Not smart like “gets good grades.” That wasn’t hard. No—smart like engaged. Curious. Your own brand of chaotic genius that showed up in how you argued with professors and picked at theories like they were complex puzzles meant for your hands alone.
You were confident. Passionate. Sharp.
You were…
Fuck.
He sat back in his chair and rubbed his face with both hands, groaning.
He didn’t do this. He didn’t get… distracted. He didn’t get flustered. Romance wasn’t even on the table. It was too messy. Too emotional. Too inefficient. He had research. He had goals. The last thing he needed was—
Another notification.
He glanced over. More tags. More people replying to your video.
More people joking, “@mecha.senku bro SAY SOMETHING!!! WE KNOW YOU SEE THIS.”
He hovered. His cursor blinking over the comment section.
He shouldn’t. There was no reason to. There was no benefit. No scientific purpose. No—He cracked his knuckles once. Took a slow breath. And typed.
@mecha.senku: Just a hear me out huh?
He pressed enter, then shut the laptop.
And immediately regretted everything.
Because within 30 seconds, the comment had over 2 thousand likes. The reply threads birthing entire romance novels in real time.
“OH MY GOD HE COMMENTED OH MY GOD OH MY—”
“HE KNOWS. HE FUCKING KNOWS.
“NAH??? THE MAN HIMSELF??? NO WAY”
“@y/n GIRL U NEED TO WAKE UP RN”
Every five seconds, your phone buzzes.
Buzz.
Buzz.
BuzzBuzzBuzz.
It starts slow—innocent. A like here. A tag there. Then, as if the universe pulled a lever, it turns into an avalanche. Your screen lights up like it’s trying to melt in your hand. TikTok. Twitter. Instagram. Even people from your group project in history are texting you like girl what the actual fuck did you DO?
You’re sitting cross-legged on your bed, charger barely keeping up, blanket wrapped around your shoulders like it can protect you from the moment. Your face is hot. Your jaw is slack. Your soul? Practically nonexistent.
You stare at the screen in disbelief.
Right there, in the comments, bolded like the laws of physics decided to write you a personalized romance book:
@/mecha.senku: just a hear me out huh
You blinked once. Then twice. Rubbed your eyes. Because—no. No way.
There’s absolutely no way that the literal voice of your academic downfall and emotional spiral just casually acknowledged the fact that you want to climb him like a fucking molecular structure.
Your mouth opens. Nothing comes out. You double-tap your phone by accident. Scroll. Scroll again. Scroll back. It's still there. You suck in a breath like it's going to help. It doesn't.
Your room spins a little—not in a dizzy way, more like the fabric of reality is reconfiguring around your phone screen. Like you’ve accidentally made a deal with a god and now the god is texting you back. Casually. In lowercase.
Your body chooses to react the only way it knows how—by laughing. Not normal laughing. That kind of panicked, unhinged, screeching laugh that sounds like it’s being wrung out of you like a wet rag. A noise clawing its way up your throat as you slowly tip sideways, dramatic as hell, into the mattress.
“Wow,” you say out loud to your empty room, chest rising and falling, heart jackhammering somewhere behind your ribs. “No way. This is such a crazy-ass dream…” Your voice cracks at the end. You sound borderline delirious.
But the comment is still there. Pinned by the original creator. Which is you.
You just close your eyes. Face-down into your pillow.
Your dignity? Gone.
Your supposed crush? Apparently omniscient.
Your life? Ruined. Maybe. Probably.
But your phone’s still vibrating under your thigh like it’s trying to combust.
And yeah. You’re never going to be normal about this again.
⋆.⌬ ˚𒉭 ⋆
It’s a few days later when you finally have biochem again.
Your professor had sent out an email at the end of last class—something about paying attention to the partner list for the next lab. You hadn’t even looked. Too busy hyperventilating over the Mecha Senku situation. Too busy swiping through your phone at 1 a.m., rereading that comment like it might suddenly disappear, or—worse—turn into something more incriminating.
You didn’t sleep much. Or at all. You just kinda laid there, vibrating at a frequency only dogs could decipher, while mentally reviewing every second of that video and every stupid thing you’d ever said about his voice.
So when your professor calls out your name and tells you to head to the back bench to meet your assigned partner, you’re still in a daze. You adjust your lab coat, swipe lip balm on with hands that are definitely not still shaking, and make your way to the station with the dull dread of someone walking to their own execution.
And then you see him.
Senku Ishigami.
Hair pulled into that slightly messy half-up style he always wears. Safety goggles already on, sleeves rolled up, already gloved. He doesn’t look up at first—he’s swabbing the inside of a petri dish with a level of focus you reserve only for exams and existential dissociations. Then he glances at you, just a quick flick of the eyes.
“Hey,” he says, voice low, casual. A little rough around the edges, like he just got over a cold or hadn’t talked to anyone in hours.
Your spine locks. You blink. Hard.
“Hi,” you manage, but it comes out thinner than you mean it to—stretched at the edges, fraying like an old thread. “You’re… my partner?”
He glances at the roster sheet clipped to the bench as if just now confirming something he already knew. “Looks like it.” There’s the faintest twitch at the corner of his mouth—barely a smirk, more like a thought trying to become one. “Hope you’re decent with a microscope.”
You nod. Too fast. Too eager. Like your neck forgot how to move naturally. You try to smile like this is fine. Like this is normal. Like this isn’t currently short-circuiting every neuron in your academic-functioning brain.
You’ve never really spoken to Senku Ishigami before. Not really. Maybe a passing nod in the hallway. A blink-and-you-miss-it smile between lecture shifts. A polite “excuse me” when your bags bumped in the lab supply room once. But that was it. That was the whole sum of your direct interactions.
Everything else was observation. Safe distance admiration. Seeing him carry entire study groups with nothing but a half-dry marker and that ever-focused look in his eye. Taking note of how he argued with professors—calm, surgical, relentless—and somehow still walked out of every debate not only correct, but respected.
You admired him from afar. Kinda academically. Kinda not. (mostly not.)
But you’re a girl dedicated to her degree. A girl with goals, with caffeine basically in your bloodstream and deadlines stitched into the fabric of your week. You don’t get distracted. Not by things like this. Not by people like him. Or at least you didn’t. Until now.
Because working with him shouldn’t be this bad. Shouldn’t feel like the center of gravity shifted slightly under your feet, like the air got thinner and thicker all at once.
Except he rolls his sleeves up higher. Forearms peaking out. The lean muscle dusted in faint freckles, veins running like undercurrents
And then—God. The way he adjusts the microscope. Methodical. Controlled. His fingers moving like he’s done this a thousand times and still treats the equipment like it’s breakable—which it is, so you have no idea why him treating it as such is doing something to you—it all starts to blur together in your head.
You blink again. Swallow hard. And then you start to think back.
His voice.
That same voice. The cadence is exact. Steady and sharp with a rasp that scrapes along your spine in the worst/best way. A quiet breathless ramble as he explains the agar base—like the information is too much to simply stay in his head, like he forgets other people are listening. That subtle catch on certain consonants. That dry, low huff of amusement when your glove doesn’t go on right and you curse under your breath.
And then his hands.
Long fingers. Familiar motions. The way he handles the petri dish with practiced ease, adjusts the swabs like he’s composing something. You know those hands. You’ve seen them before. Over and over. In reaction videos. In slow motion clips, 0.25x speed. In the YouTube comments people timestamp for “scientific purposes.”
You freeze.
Fully. Completely paralyzed in real time like someone hit pause on your central nervous system. The classroom noise goes muffled. Muted. The hum of fluorescent lights above you turns sharp and migraine inducing bright. Your pulse is in your mouth now—behind your eyes, in your fingertips.
Because you’re looking at him. Really looking.
And it hits you like a truck doing 90 in a 60.
That’s him.
That’s him.
Your biochem lab partner. Senku Ishigami.
Is Mecha Senku. The, Mecha Senku.
And he knows. Oh, he knows.
He’s not even looking at you right now, but you swear—swear—there’s the faintest curve at the edge of his mouth. A smirk barely there, as he slides a sample onto the tray like he didn’t just casually detonate your grasp on reality.
“Oh my god,” you breathe. Not loud. But not quiet, either.
He doesn’t say anything. Doesn’t react. Doesn’t so much as flinch. But you feel it. The moment it registers. The moment he knows that you know. Because the corner of his mouth twitches higher. Just a little. Just enough to catch onto. And then—still not looking at you, still pretending to be invested in his perfectly aligned swab placement, voice smooth and clinical like this is just another lab session—he says,
“Something wrong?”
You want to bang your head on the table.
Instead, you choke, swallow whatever dignity you had left, and squeak out,
“No. Nope. All good. Just… thinking.”
He hums, low and amused, like he already knows what you’re thinking about.
You're going to die here. Right next to your science tutor YouTuber crush who is also your real-life lab partner crush—for completely unrelated reasons—who has definitely, 1000% seen the video where you said hearing his voice makes you feel like your guts are being spiritually rearranged.
God.
You are so unbelievably, irreparably screwed.
⋆.⌬ ˚𒉭 ⋆
It doesn’t happen right away.
In fact, it almost doesn’t happen at all.
Because after the Mecha Senku revelation, after the comment, after the lab, after the video—you basically short-circuit. You try to act normal in the days that follow. You show up to class. Try to pretend like it’s no big deal that your anonymous science tutor crush is also your lab partner who is also your mutual…acquaintence? Friend? You didn't know which term you fell under in this situation. You tell yourself it’s fine. It’s not weird. You’re being mature about this.
And then he likes one of your posts. One of your older ones. A video from 3 months ago where you’re ranting about a series that you were into at the time while getting ready for the day. It was a stupid, pointless video. One which he had no reason to like. But he did.
That’s when you panic.
Not in public. But you lie in bed again at 2AM, staring at your screen like it might suddenly catch on fire. He’s watching your content. On purpose. He’s scrolling. Deep enough to find something from weeks ago, which means he’s either curious, bored, or—God forbid—interested.
You stop posting for three days.
Not out of pride. Not even out of posting strategy. Just fear. Raw, buzzing fear that anything you say or do will somehow make this whole situation worse. You delete a draft. Then another. Then six more. Your camera roll becomes a graveyard of half-filmed attempts at being funny or cute or sweet or not on the verge of a breakdown. But nothing feels right.
And meanwhile, Senku is being maddeningly normal.
He shows up to lab on time. Speaks when necessary. Makes the occasional snide remark when a burner malfunctions or a pH test fails. He doesn’t bring up the video. Doesn’t mention the TikTok. Doesn’t acknowledge the fact that you both know that this is like some weird fucked up romcom scenario that immediately got put on Tubi for its low budget. He just acts like… himself. Detached, sharp-tongued, observant, and unbothered. You, on the other hand, are barely holding it together every time he passes you a report sheet.
The dam doesn’t break until two weeks later.
You’re walking out of lecture, halfway through stuffing your notes into your bag with a granola bar half-eaten in your mouth when you hear someone fall into step beside you. Quietly synced with your rhythm, like they’d been waiting for the right second to align.
You glance over.
Senku.
Of course it’s Senku. His sweater sleeves rolled up to his elbows. Satchel strap slung lazy across his chest, and a half drunk energy drink swished in his hand. His expression is unreadable, somewhere between tired and calculating, but the fact that he’s here, walking beside you unprompted, is enough to make you question every single one of your life choices.
You’re not sure if you should say something first. Or if you should pretend not to notice the way your posture stiffens whenever he's in your general vicinity. You take another glance at him through your peripheral vision.
He still has that same unreadable expression on his face—bored, maybe. Or focused. Or just better at masking than you are. He doesn’t say anything right away, and you’re half-preparing yourself for some comment about glycolysis pathways or the upcoming quiz that you’ve been dreading over.
But then he exhales through his nose and says, “I’ve been thinking.”
Which is a terrifying sentence coming from someone who does more thinking in one day than most people do in an entire semester.
Your gaze doesn’t stray but you raise an eyebrow. “About…?”
He pauses for a beat. A way too long beat. Long enough to make your stomach drop. Then, casually: “A collab.”
You blink. “What?”
“A video,” he clarifies, like this is something completely normal that happens all the time. “A joint one. On your account. Or mine, doesn't matter to me. Mutually beneficial, wider audience reach, strategic engagement—pick whatever reason you want.”
You stop walking. He doesn’t.
“Wait,” you say, catching up. “You mean, like… a TikTok?”
He shrugs. “Sure. That’s your area. Whatever gets views. I figure if everyone is already suspecting something, I might as well do a face reveal while I’m at it.”
Silence. Pure, deafening silence. You can’t even think of what to say. Your mouth opens. Closes. Opens again.
Because it’s not just the words—it’s the way he says them. Like it’s no big deal. Like the internet hasn’t been begging for a glimpse of his face since his third viral video. Like he hasn’t been a literal science cryptid for the past three years and now he’s just… casually deciding to unmask like it’s just something to check off on his bucket list.
“Why now?” you ask, finally. Your voice sounds weird in your own throat.
Senku lifts a shoulder, a faint smirk tugging at the corners of his mouth like he’s trying to suppress it.
“Felt like the right time,” he says, glancing at you out of the corner of his eye. “Besides, you’ve already done the hard part.”
You blink. “The hard part?”
He hums, nodding once. “Making me realize it’s not that deep.”
You blink again, brain buffering like it just hit a patch of missing code. “Wait… what?”
He shrugs again, like it’s nothing. Like this isn’t the culmination of literal years of silence and mystery and curated anonymity. “People’ve been asking for a face reveal since the beginning. I always told myself it wasn’t worth it. Kept saying it didn’t matter, that it’d just mess things up. But then you…” He pauses, and there’s this barely-there curve at the corner of his mouth. Not a smile—something quieter. More dangerous. “You made it feel kind of… harmless.”
Your pulse stutters. Your stomach flips. You don’t even have time to brace for what’s next.
“I mean, it’s not every day someone from your school logs online just to say she practically gets off to—”
You don’t let him finish. You physically can’t. Your hands are already flying up, face buried before your brain fully catches up, a sound of absolute mortification ripping out of your throat.
“Oh my God,” you groan, fingers pressing into your temples like you can massage the memory out of existence. “Please don’t say it like that. This is already, embarrassing enough as it is, The whole video was like a public humiliation ritual”
He lets out a chuckle at that. Way too satisfied with your reaction. Like he predicted it. When you don’t continue further he decides to speak up again.
“Think about it,” he says before splitting off toward his next class. “You pick the trend. I’ll show up.”
And just like that, he’s gone.
⋆.⌬ ˚𒉭 ⋆
You kind of forget about the whole thing.
Not on purpose, of course. It’s just that coursework piles up, assignments stack on top of quizzes that stack on top of projects, and somewhere between stressing over due dates and wanting to evaporate from existence after another surprise pop lab, the entire conversation with Senku slips to the back burner. Not in a “never doing that” way, but more like… “I will emotionally process this after midterms or death, whichever comes first.” kind of way.
There’s just never a good moment to circle back and be like, “Hey… remember that video idea you volunteered for? Wanna hang out and pretend we’re not both chronically online and know what we’re doing?”
Yeah, no. No way.
But then the first break in your schedule opens up—a blessed, random Sunday with no looming assignments due at 11:59, no labs, no back-to-back lectures sucking the soul from your body—and before you can talk yourself out of it, you’re typing a text.
It’s short, simple, and only took you about seven drafts before you finally sent it.
hey, i got a day off and i saw this new exhibit at the museum. thought it’d be nice.
You follow it up fast, like too fast:
for the collab that is!
Smooth. Very smooth.
He replies six minutes later.
sure. what day?
That’s it. That’s the whole text. Dry. Short. And so to the point it makes you start to question if he even wants to go, but you’ll take your chances. You send him the info—location, hours, all that—and hope for the best. Hope you don’t show up alone. Hope you don’t sit around pretending not to be stood up for a date that isn’t a date but still kind of feels like one.
But of course, who would Senku Ishigami be if not maddeningly consistent? If not a man ruthlessly punctual, stubbornly dependable, and irritatingly true to his word?
He’s already there when you arrive.
Not just there— but early. Waiting outside like it’s the most natural thing in the world, casually leaned against a concrete planter with one hand in his pocket and the other scrolling aimlessly on his phone. He’s not dressed up, exactly, but there’s something about his fit that feels intentional. Dark gray-beige slacks. Cream button-up shirt, top button undone. Black cardigan layered over it. Loose tie slung around his neck—totally optional, probably just for the aesthetic. Hair half-up in that signature man-bun style, the front strands framing his face.
You stop short a few paces away, your brain stalling mid-thought as your gaze continues to flicker up and down his form.
Because you? You are wearing a plaid skirt, a ruffled cream blouse, stockings, and boots that are way too tall to pretend you didn’t also plan your outfit, and a tote bag that’s got absolutely nothing useful inside besides your phone, wallet, lip gloss, and an emotional support water bottle.
Which is exactly when you notice it.
The colors. The textures. The vibe.
Oh my god.
You blurt it out before you can stop yourself, stepping the last few feet toward him like you weren’t just frozen in place two seconds ago. “We’re kind of matching.”
Senku glances up, and there it is. That thing he does. The slow, calculated glance from the hem of your skirt to your blouse to the edge of your bag and back up again, all while maintaining that unreadable expression. Like he’s gathering data. Like your outfit’s a puzzle he’s solving in real-time. His mouth twitches, just slightly, into something that toes the line between smug and genuinely amused.
“Yeah, I guess so…” He shifts his weight, pocketing his phone. “You look nice.”
You blink. Buffering. “You—uh. You too! I mean, not that I was—uh, yeah, thanks. You look good too.” You internally wince. Recover. “I hope you weren’t waiting out here long?”
He shakes his head, “Not really. Got here early on purpose.”
You nod, awkward and a little breathless, trying desperately not to read too much into it. You glance toward the entrance, mostly just to distract yourself in something that’s not his facial structure or the way the light catches on the slope of his nose.
“Should we… go in?” you ask, gesturing toward the doors. He hums, a quiet sound, like he's still mildly amused, and nods, stepping in beside you. Not ahead. Not behind. Right beside.
You scan your tickets at the entrance, hands just barely steady, and try not to overanalyze the exact distance between your shoulders. You try not to notice the faint smell of something clean and earthy—maybe his shampoo? Maybe something herbal?—that drifts off of him every time he turns to speak. You try, in vain, to be normal.
The museum’s quiet. Dim lighting. Cool air. Echoes of hushed conversations and soft-soled shoes against the polished floors. The first exhibit is drowned in amber lighting and filled with fossils in glass cases. You both drift to the same one without speaking, reading the plaque in tandem, standing so close your elbows almost brush.
He speaks first.
“Cretaceous, huh,” he says, voice low and a little warm, like he’s half-talking to himself. “Not exactly cutting edge, but still cool.”
You blink at him. “Are you—are you seriously judging the dinosaur bones right now?”
He glances at you. “Just saying, there’s been more interesting finds. I’d rather see a well-preserved stromatolite, personally.”
You snort. Actually snort, and he grins, which is possibly the worst thing he could do because now you’re staring at his lips and—
“God, you’re such a nerd,” you mutter, grinning before you can help it.
“And you’re not?” He raises an eyebrow, tilting his head slightly as if daring you to lie.
You scoff, turning back to the plaque like you can hide behind a block of educational text. “Yeah, okay, fair. But at least I pretend to be normal in public.”
“Mm. Is that what this is?” he says, and he doesn’t even try to hide the smile this time. It’s subtle, just a twitch at the corners of his mouth, but it makes your stomach do a little flip anyway.
You don’t answer. Not right away. You’re too busy trying not to combust.
You keep walking, slowly, drifting from case to case. The exhibits start to blur together after a while—early mammals, glacial imprints, fossilized flora—because your brain is short-circuiting every time his voice dips a little lower to point something out, or his hand lifts to gesture near your shoulder, or his sleeve brushes your arm.
You can tell he knows it, too. Maybe not the full extent of your internal spiral, but enough to sadistically enjoy how flustered you get. He’s not smug about it, nor cruel. Just quietly observant. Like he’s keeping a mental note every time your breath hitches a little or you laugh a beat too fast.
Somewhere between the meteorite collection and the preserved taxidermy wing (which he naturally had opinions about), you start filming. Nothing extravagant. Just quick clips on your phone—soft pans over the displays. He doesn’t comment, doesn’t shy away when the camera catches his shoulder or the back of his hand. Just lets you do your thing.
You’re halfway through the museum when your feet start to ache (your fault for wearing boots with no sole support) and your stomach lets out the saddest, weakest little growl. Senku hears it, of course. He doesn’t say anything—just jerks his chin toward the small, in-museum café tucked into the corner past the rotating exhibit, and heads that way without needing a response.
You order something simple. He does the same, and somehow, magically beats you to pulling out your wallet and paying. And then you both end up at a tiny table tucked near the window, warm afternoon light refracting through the glass and shining just right. You’re pulling your phone out again before you can really think about it.
He raises an eyebrow when he sees you tying—and failing—to discretely smile at your phone.
“I know that face,” he says, stirring his coffee. “What are you scheming?”
You grin, wide and sweet and a little mischievous. “You said I could pick the trend.”
“Unfortunately,” he mutters, setting down his cup.
You show him the audio.
He watches the sample once. Then again. Then nods. “Got it.”
You give him a quick breakdown anyway—“Ok so basically we just shake hands. So you would film me first to ‘My name is Pink, and I’m really glad to meet you.’ Then you do ‘You’re recommended to me by some people.’ Then back to me: ‘Hey, ooh, is this illegal?’ And you finish it: ‘Hey, ooh, it feels illegal?’ You got that? ”
Senku just gives you that flat, unimpressed look, the one that makes it impossible to tell if he’s judging you or already planning your execution in terrifying detail.
“Simple enough,” he says. “Let’s get it over with.”
You record it in pieces. The lighting’s good, the cafe’s not too crowded, and somehow, despite the secondhand embarrassment threatening to combust your entire being, you pull it off. You film each other, trade off holding the phone, and try your hardest not to start laughing as you record Senku's deadpan face. By the time it’s done, your face hurts from holding back a smile, and Senku looks a little too smug for someone who just debuted on the internet via meme format.
You save the clips to your phone, already planning how to edit it later.
You both take your time finishing your drinks after that—talking more now. About the exhibit, about the parts you skipped, about other museums you like. The vibe’s different. It’s looser, comfortable in a way you didn’t fully expect to get this quickly. He’s still sarcastic, still has that flat tone and know-it-all quips, but now he says your name a little softer. Looks at you a little longer when you talk.
Eventually, you both stand, a little reluctant but you both know you should leave before it gets too dark. The sun’s setting once you step outside the museum, casting everything in that amber-gold glow again, and it makes his profile look unfairly cinematic as he stretches.
“You’re surprisingly tolerable company,” he says as you walk out together.
You scoff. “Wow. Thanks. I’ll be sure to put that in my LinkedIn endorsements.”
“I’m just saying,” he replies, glancing at you, “You’re not as obnoxious as most people.”
You bump your shoulder into his. “Aw, you like me.”
“I didn’t say that.”
“You implied it.”
He doesn’t argue with that, which might be worse.
The walk back is slow. Neither of you really rushing, just sort of drifting through the early evening like you're trying to stretch out the time you have together. Somewhere between chatting about your favorite childhood shows and bickering over whose major has more long-term debt attached to it (his argument: “You can’t put a price on revolutionizing orbital propulsion”), it hits you how easy this is.
And more dangerously—how fun. You can’t remember the last time someone made you feel this keyed-in without even trying. Like your brains are constantly sparking against each other like flint and steel.
Then he says something offhanded. Something completely innocent. He’s explaining something about a propulsion system prototype—specifically, fluid resistance and force ratios.
“It’s all about tension and release,” he says, absently adjusting his sleeves as he walks. “That’s how you maintain velocity without risking collapse.”
You glance at him sideways, smile sinisterly curling at the corners. “Mm. I’ve got some tension I’m sure you could release.”
He stops. Stops walking. Like his operating system just force-quit.
“…What?”
You keep walking a few paces before turning to look back at him, mock-innocent. “What? I’m just being honest. You should be more careful with that mouth of yours, Ishigami. You’ll feed into the online delusions.”
He blinks once. Twice. Visibly buffering. You can see it—like the gears in his big science brain just misfired, unable to reconcile engineering terminology with whatever the hell that was. His ears go a little pink—barely there, but enough to clock if you’re looking for it. Which, obviously, you are.
He clears his throat, and mutters something under his breath about “not being responsible for your interpretations.”
But he keeps talking after that. He can't help it now. Neither of you can. The conversation never drops again, not even as you split off at the corner of campus, your fingers still curled around your phone like it's holding the rest of the evening in its little glowing blue-light screen.
You go home buzzing. Not from the caffeine. Not even from the TikTok you’re already editing. But from him.
Because if there’s one thing that’s true about you—it’s that once you start liking someone?
Oh, they never get to rest.
Extra notes time again! || Sorry I really didn't feel like writing out the trend and like the comments and stuff again… I physically cant think like that anymore
Anyway! Both your respective fans go crazy when the initial collab drops
Comments and dm’s begging you guys to post together more—and I mean, who are you to deny the fans?
You make appearances in all of his videos where he “needs” an extra pair of hands
And he’s always seen in your “what i do in a day” videos or weekly vlogs
The tension on camera is undeniable and everyone is always asking if there's something going on, but neither of you ever respond.
⋆.⌬ ˚𒉭 ⋆
After that, you two just… keep hanging out. Off campus, mostly. Call them dates, call them… whatever—no one’s really labeling it, but they keep happening. Even in a group, you and Senku have your own orbit. It starts with subtle things. Shared glances, half-smirks, a sarcastic “oh really?” muttered under your breath every time he says something too smug. He always responds with a coy, “Don’t look at me like that unless you want something,” and you always raise a brow and say, “Maybe I do.”
You’re both like that.
Witty. Sharp. Teasing.
During stargazing, you’re lying side-by-side on a scratchy old blanket, staring up at the sky when he starts pointing out constellations, spouting off facts like an open textbook. You interrupt mid-sentence with, “Is this your way of seducing me? Because it’s working.”
He glances at you sideways. Doesn’t even pause. “You’re the one lying next to me under the stars. I’d say the seduction’s mutual.”
And at the beach? The energy’s dialed up even more.
You’re in a bikini under his oversized button-up, hair still damp from taking a dunk in the ocean, when you say something cheeky like, “You’ve been watching me all day. Just admit it.”
He doesn’t even blink, much less looks at you. “I’m studying gravitational pull in action.”
“Oh?” you hum sweetly. “Like, my body’s gravitational pull?”
“I meant the tide,” he deadpans. “But your ego has its own orbit, so sure.”
You throw a handful of sand at him. He dodges. Barely. And then throws a precise, infuriatingly accurate clump right at your ankle.
Even when your schedules are packed, you somehow always find time to circle back to each other.
There’s never been a conversation about what it is between you, but neither of you need one. You’ve both carved a little space into each other’s lives now—distinct, irreplaceable, and entirely yours. No one else quite fits the shape.
So it’s no surprise that you spend a lot of time in each other’s dorm—or in this case, Senku’s off-campus apartment. Sometimes for studying when the library’s full, but mostly just to hang out in the comfort of each other's presence.
You’re dressed in low-rise sweats and a tank top, now buried beneath one of Senku’s old sweaters. The one he threw at your head earlier after you started loudly complaining about the cold. The sleeves cover your hands, and the collar’s stretched from years of wear. It smells like detergent and something vaguely medicinal—like tea tree or menthol or maybe him.
He’s at his desk, deep into some spreadsheet or CAD model, muttering to himself about air resistance. You’re flat on his bed, legs swinging, phone held above your face as you scroll through TikTok with the sound barely audible. Every now and then you giggle. Sometimes you send him one. Sometimes he looks away from his screen to actually watch it.
The silence isn’t awkward. It never is with him. Just the quiet clack of his keyboard, the soft hum of his laptop fan, and whatever sound bytes your phone decides to throw at you next. It’s routine by now. Domestic, in a weird way.
He leans back in his chair eventually, spinning halfway to glance at you. “Hey,” he says, like he didn’t just finish modeling an entire turbine blade. “In class the other day—when Takahashi brought up reward pathways—you didn’t say anything. You disagree with the textbook stuff?”
You glance over your phone, one brow raised. “What, the dopamine bit?”
He nods. “And the serotonin model. You looked like you were biting your tongue.”
You shift onto your side, propping yourself up on your elbow. “I mean, yeah. Kinda. The textbook oversimplifies it. Dopamine’s not just a ‘pleasure’ chemical. It’s tied to motivation, reinforcement, emotional memory—like, the anticipation of reward, not just the reward itself.”
He’s still watching you. “Go on.”
And that’s all the permission you need. You sit up straighter, words spilling out like second nature. You talk with your hands, tangents spiraling into other tangents—sliding effortlessly into a topic you’ve buried yourself in for years. Limbic circuitry, behavioral loops, cortisol inhibition. You explain how physical touch spikes oxytocin and drops heart rate variability, how endorphins are natural painkillers, how the brain is wired to crave proximity.
Senku’s not even pretending to work anymore. His laptop’s still open, screen glowing against the side of his face, but his eyes are all on you—sharp, focused, borderline amused.
He hums. “So… theoretically,” he says, tapping his pen against his lip, “if someone were, say, stressed. Touch could help regulate that.”
“Yeah,” you nod, without hesitation. “That’s why hugging works. Holding hands, even brief skin contact; it’s all connected to emotional regulation. Even something like—”
You pause. Shouldn’t say it. But do anyway.
“—making out.”
There’s a pause. One beat. Two.
You glance at him. He’s still watching you, face unreadable. “Making out?” he repeats slowly.
You shrug, casual. “I’m just saying. High dopamine, high oxytocin, a little adrenaline from the novelty? Basically a neurochemical cocktail.”
His head tilts, expression unreadable. Then, like it’s the most normal thing in the world:
“Wanna try it?”
Your brain blanks. “What?”
“You’re the one who brought it up.” He says it flatly. Almost like he’s bored. But there’s a twitch at the corner of his mouth, and his eyes haven’t moved from yours once. “For science. Of course.”
You stare at him. “You’re not serious.”
He shifts to stand, lazy and unbothered. “Why wouldn’t I be?”
And then he’s walking over, bracing a knee on the mattress beside you. You stay frozen. Your heart is in your throat. Or maybe your stomach. It’s hard to tell with the way it’s pounding. He leans in just enough that you can feel his breath, hovering, giving you a chance to pull away.
You don’t.
And that’s all it takes.
The kiss is warm. Careful at first. Testing. You breathe out against his mouth, one hand finding the front of his hoodie and fisting it without thinking. He shifts, deeper into it, his weight pressing into the mattress as he moves over you. Still careful, but less hesitant now. Focused. Like he's calculating every angle, and still surprised by the result.
His hand finds your waist. Yours slide up to his neck.
You’re not sure when it stopped feeling like a joke. But it doesn’t feel like one now.
He shifts again, weight fully settling over you, a knee anchoring beside your hip as he deepens the kiss. His hands are warm—calloused in the way only someone who spends too long with tools and lab equipment can be—sliding up beneath the hem of his own sweater draped over you. Fingers brushing your bare skin tentatively, like he’s cataloging each reaction, each hitch in your breath.
Your arms move to curl up around his neck, pulling him closer, and your fingers find his hair. Tugging gently, then a little harder. He exhales into your mouth like it startled him.
You smile into the kiss—just a little. And he kisses you harder.
There’s something methodical in the way he touches you, like he’s studying even now. Testing reactions. Adjusting accordingly. But it’s not the detached, cold type of analyzing. It’s quiet intention, attentive hunger. The kind that says he doesn’t let himself want things often. But he wants this.
Wants you.
The sweater slips slightly off your shoulder. His palm follows the curve of your spine like it’s a path he’s memorizing. You’re already pulling him back down the moment he shifts to rise, needing more—needing him. He goes willingly. He always does.
His lips hover near your neck, and when he finally presses them there, it’s with purpose. A mark, claiming. You feel the heat it brings you all the way down to your core.
“You react so easily,” he murmurs, voice low and smooth, like he’s more fascinated than surprised. “Like your body’s just waiting for me to touch it.”
You hate how right he is. Or maybe you don’t. Not when his hands are gliding down, lower and lower, caressing the skin of your ribs to your hips.
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Senku almost feels bad for baiting you with that question earlier. Almost. If it weren't for the way you were staring up at him, all teary eyed, lips swollen and neck marked—courtesy of him, of course—he’d probably apologize. But he has you exactly where he's been wanting you, and you’re definitely not complaining, if the way you're squeezing around his fingers have any say in the matter.
“Fuck… you're tightening up. Are you close already?” he’s cooing down at you, eyes gleaming with a sort of sadistic look, his lips curled into a smirk.
You can't even respond, it's pathetic really, your brain is already turned to mush and he's barely even touched you. You tear your gaze away from him. Your legs are shaking, twitching uselessly at your sides, and you can feel just how wet you are, can hear it every time his fingers sink deeper into you.
Why did he have to be so good at this?
“You’re really that sensitive, huh?” he mummers, dragging his thumb just barely over your clit and he chuckles when your body jerks forward. Your thighs try to close but he’s already in between them, his other hand prying them open, keeping you exposed and needy under his touch.
He’s transfixed on the sight of you. Watching every twitch of your hips, every spasm in your thighs, every time your walls clench around his fingers, the way your eyes roll back when his fingers prod at a particularly sensitive spot. And, of course, the way you bite down on the back of your hand in an attempt to muffle the sounds spilling out of your mouth.
God, it turned him on in more ways than he possibly imagined.
Senku leaned in, his lips brushing the shell of your ear, just to watch the way you squirm. “C'mon,” he breathes, his voice barely above a whisper, “don’t hide from me. I want to hear everything.”
You whimper at that—a soft, choked sound, and he feels it all the way down. His cock throbs in his pants, neglected, untouched, but he doesn’t care about that right now. Now when this is happening. Not when you’re this responsive, this wrecked just from his fingers. And so… Senku moans. Deep and guttural like your reaction does something to him. Like watching you get off is more satisfying than touching himself could ever be.
The way your body moves against his hand is erratic now, your hips shifting up to match the pace of his thrusts, trembling on the edge. He can feel it in the way your walls flutter around him, can see it in the way your lashes are soaked with tears, the way you jerk with each slow curl of his fingers.
You’re close. So, so close.
So he gives it to you—just the right rhythm, the right amount of pressure, and that voice again, like a switch flipped inside of him:
“Go on, baby, it’s okay. Be a good girl and come for me.”
And you do. Practically sobbing into the sheets as your body shudders around him. Your muscles tighten,back arching off the bed, and breath hitching in your throat before it spills out in a loud, desperate moan. And Senku swears he almost loses it just watching you. Watching what he did to you.
“Fuck, that's it… just like that.” He’s a little breathless now, still working you through it, fingers moving gently as you shake and throb beneath him, blissed-out and absolutely ruined. Even as he pulls his digits out, and licks them clean, your body still hasn't stopped twitching.
You're sprawled out beneath him, brain soft and heavy, your thighs sticky, your chest heaving. There's a buzz under your skin you can't seem to shake—like your body hasn't figured out the comedown yet. Like you're still coiled tight, waiting to snap again.
Senku's still above you, propped on one elbow, eyes dragging slowly over your face like he's trying to memorize the exact expression you're wearing—ruined, flushed, lips parted, still trying to catch your breath.
And when he speaks again, his voice is low and rough, the edge of smugness barely masking the heat beneath it. "You should see yourself right now." He leans closer, nose brushing yours, lips just barely hovering. "You came so hard, baby."
You should roll your eyes. Should say something back. But instead, you kiss him. It's clumsy at first—your hands reaching for him, fisting into the front of his shirt, dragging him down with more desperation than you meant to show. But he goes down willingly, groaning into your mouth like he's been waiting for it, like he's starving for you.
His lips are warm and soft, and when his tongue brushes against yours, something in you snaps. You moan into it, tugging him down even closer, legs shifting to wrap around him until he’s fully on top of you, pressed chest to chest.
The kiss turns filthy fast. Sloppy. Hungry. You taste yourself on his tongue, feel his teeth graze your bottom lip, and when you break apart for air, there's a thin string of saliva still connecting the two of you.
Senku stares down at you, his lips pink and wet, eyes dark with an unmistakable desire. But you don’t say anything. You just drag him back down and kiss him again. And this time, you take control.
You find the strength to gently shove his shoulder. A silent request for him to switch positions, this time with you on top. Your hands slip between your bodies, fingers tugging at his waistband, undoing buttons and zippers with trembling precision. You don't rush it, you don’t even speak. You just stare down at him, eyes locked on his, and you let your palm glide over the front of his boxers—feel how hard he is. How long he’s been holding back.
"You didn't touch yourself," you whispered against his jaw, lips ghosting down to his neck. You kiss the column of his throat. You can feel his adam's apple bob under your mouth. "You just... watched me."
Senku shudders, eyes fluttering shut as he hisses through his teeth. "Of course I did," he says, voice low, breath hitching when your hand dips beneath the fabric and wraps around him. "You think I could look away from you like that?"
You smile into his skin, lips dragging over his pulse point, before licking a small stripe against it, warm and possessive. "Then you're gonna let me return the favor."
He tries to say something, probably a snarky comment, or some teasing remark, but it dies in his throat the second you stroke him. Thumb pressing over the tip, spreading the pre-cum, watching his face go soft and slack and honest. His cock twitches in your hand, and he groans-deep and low, like he's trying to keep quiet and failing.
"You're so responsive,” you murmur, voice dipped in faux sweetness. "Bet I could make you come just like this—barely even touching you."
His head rolls back as he nods.
"You'd let me?"
"F-fuck," he breathes, biting down on a groan as your pace picks up, "I'd let you do anything right now."
And there it is-that crack in his composure. The unraveling. You've got him now, pinned under you. Your hands, your voice, your mouth ghosting back up to kiss him again while you work him with steady, torturous strokes. And you swear he looks like he's about to lose it just from that.
"You're close," you whisper, forehead pressed to his, your hand never stopping. "Aren't you?"
He nods again, faster this time, eyes wide, and dazed. You find him beautiful like this.
“it’s okay,” you whisper, kissing the corner of his mouth, “Come for me, and don't look away."
He doesn't.
You watch each other the whole time-while his body tenses, his breath catches, and he spills into your hand with a whine—it’s with your name on his lips. And even after, when he's still trembling, breath ragged, forehead resting against yours, he kisses you again.
It’s softer now. Slower, more sensual. Like he’s trying to catch up to everything that just happened.
You climb up to adjust your position, shifting in his lap to properly straddle him, and feel him twitch beneath you. The air thickens again. You start to move—slow, subtle grind that makes both of you gasp.
“Is this okay?” you murmur, lips brushing his. “We don’t have to…”
His hands find your hips, tentative, but firm enough to tell you he doesn’t want you to stop. “Y-yeah,” he swallows hard. “Just—condom. They’re in the nightstand.” he adds, voice barely above a rasp.
You pause, looking down at him, your hair falling into his face as your lips curl in a slow, nervous smile. “I kind of just want to feel you,” you say softly. “Just you.”
His breath catches, and his grip on your hips tighten. “You’re gonna ruin me,” he mutters, tone somewhere between a joke and the truth.
“I’m on the pill,” you say, brushing your thumb along his cheek. “And I haven’t been with anyone. Not since we started hanging out…”
His gaze locks with yours—surprised, a little shy. “Me neither.”
There’s a beat. Neither of you says it—what this means, or where it’s going—but you don’t need to. Not right now.
You lean in and kiss him again, deeper this time, while he lets you settle over him fully. And when he finally lets go of whatever he’s been holding back, it’s not a fall. It’s a full body surrender.
You shift your hips, sliding your hand between your bodies. Senku watches you, wide eyed and panting, as your fingers wrap around him once more. He’s still hard, heavy and warm in your hand, and the sound he makes when you stroke him again makes your head spin.
His hands tense on your thighs. "God," he whispers, barely holding on. "You-you don't have to—"
"I know," you say softly, guiding him to where you want him. "I want to."
You angle yourself, breath catching as you line him up. He sucks in a sharp breath, eyes locked on where your bodies meet, like he can't believe this is happening.
And when you start to sink down—inch by inch, taking your time—his head falls back against the pillow, lips parted, throat working like he's trying to remember how to breathe.
You stop halfway, adjusting your hips, one hand braced against his chest. He feels so good stretching you open like this. You look down at him.
He nods, frantic, his voice almost breaking.
"Yeah. Just—don't stop. Please."
You don't.
You ease down the rest of the way, and when you're fully seated, hips flush to his, both of you just stay there for a second, gasping, trembling, overwhelmed. And when you finally start to move; the slow, steady rolls of your hips—his hands come up to grip your waist like he's afraid he might actually fall apart under you.
At first, it’s easy to stay in control. You set the pace, savor the friction, chase the tension building in your belly.
But it doesn’t last.
Your thighs start to burn, trembling with the effort, barely cooperating anymore. Every bounce turns sluggish, your movements dragged down by the growing heat in your limbs—but you're still moving. Still trying. Because he's looking at you like that.
Senku's laid out beneath you, hair a mess, lips kiss-bitten, and pupils blown so wide there’s barely a sliver of red left. And he’s watching you. His gaze is steady, and intense—like he sees everything. Like he’s not the one unraveling here. You are.
And through the fog in your head, it hits you that he’s smiling.
Not mockingly, just this small, breathless grin, like you’re an experiment he doesn’t want to stop testing. And the way he says your name, low, and rough, like he’s been holding in his mouth for months, sends heat crashing right through your core.
You try to keep moving, but your body stutters. Your breath shudders.
He doesn’t move. He doesn’t have to.
He just says, “You're falling apart, aren’t you?”
You don’t answer. You can’t. And then he speaks again, a little more sure this time.
"That's it, baby. You're doing so good for me... just like that."
His voice—God, his voice. It's low and thick and soaked in wonder, like he can’t believe this is real. Like he can’t believe it’s you. You nearly fold right there.
The noise you make is somewhere between a sob and a moan, your hands scrambling against his chest like you need something to anchor you, or maybe just him. Your whole body pulses at his words like they hit deeper than anything else, heat unraveling inside you faster than you can hold it together.
"F-Fuck, Senku..." you whimper, blinking through tears, hips faltering as you try to keep the rhythm. "I c-can't—"
"Yes, you can," he murmurs, fingers tightening just a little on your thighs, just enough to remind you he's there, guiding you, grounding. Not pushing—never pushing. Just wanting. "You're already doing it.”
His voice dips again, breathless. “Look at you..."
It’s awe. Pure, undiluted pleasure. Every word that falls from his lips sounds like it’s unraveling him as much as it is you. And somehow, that’s what undoes you more than anything
You bury your face into his neck, because if you look at him again you'll crumble-and maybe that's the point. Maybe that's what he wants. To break you down, piece by piece, until you're too far gone to think about anything but how good he makes you feel.
And God, he is breaking you.
He drags one hand up your back, fingers threading through your hair, just to keep you close. He needs you close. Needs you to feel how much he's coming apart beneath you. He's grounding you, ruining you, worshipping you with every tremble in his touch.
"Just one more," he whispers, lips brushing your ear. His voice is strained, like he's barely holding on. “Just give me one more…”
He's losing control fast. Your soft, whiny little sounds are killing him. Every breathy moan, every gasp, every whimper—you're driving him insane, and maybe, just maybe, that's what gives him away.
The way his voice breaks when he speaks again.
"God-you feel so good," he chokes out, hips stuttering beneath you. "You're so—fuck, you're perfect around me, I can't—"
He whines-actually whines—a raw, desperate sound ripped straight from his throat, like he doesn't know how to hold it back anymore.
"I c-can't stop," he breathes, hips twitching up into you without rhythm now. "You're—you're making me crazy—how are you so fucking—tight—?”
You make another sound—desperate and broken—and he feels it. The way you clench around him, the way your whole body answers before your mind can even catch up.
And then, softer-almost pleading:
"Let me hear you when you come, yeah?"
You whine—God, you whine—and he groans, like the sound physically does something to him. His hands are shaking now, trying to hold you steady while everything inside him unravels.
The way you look, the way you sound, the way you're still trying to ride it out, still trying to give him what he wants even as you fall apart on top of him. It's too much.
And he wants more.
Your name falls from his lips again-raw, reverent, broken at the edges-and it hits you deeper than anything else has all night.
You try to keep moving, but your body betrays you. Your hips falter, your thighs tremble, and your forehead presses against his collarbone, like hiding might save you—but it doesn't. He's still looking right at you, and God, he's still talking.
"Just like that... you're so—fuck, you're so perfect like this."
His voice is breathless, thick with disbelief and need. "I can feel you... every time you move, I-shit—"
And maybe you don't mean to do it. Maybe you're just grabbing onto something—anything—to stay grounded. But your fingers slide up into his hair, tugging just a little. And he moans.
Full-bodied. High-pitched, desperate, absolutely shameless. His eyes slam shut. His hips jerk up into you with no rhythm, just want. "Shit–do that again—" he gasps, voice cracking. "Please–fuck—!"
So you do.
You fist your hand in the mess of his pale strands and pull.
He falls apart.
"God—I'm–fuck, I'm coming—" The words are slurred, ruined, his face pressed into your hair as he bucks into you once, twice, and then spills inside you with a choked-off moan. His hands fly to your hips, gripping tight, like he's trying to keep you locked to him, like if he lets go for even a second he'll die.
You're already shaking, breath stolen out of your lungs, your own release crashing through you. You sob into his hair, overwhelmed, while he trembles beneath you, hands still gripping, body still twitching.
When you finally still, everything is quiet. Just your breathing, his heartbeat, frantic against your chest. Your fingers are still tangled in his hair. And he hasn't stopped shaking.
You don’t move for a long moment. You just melt into him, limp and boneless, your forehead pressed to his shoulder, your chest rising and falling against his. He’s still inside you, still warm, still twitching faintly with aftershocks. And even though your muscles are shaking and your skin is flushed and sticky, all you can do is breathe.
Senku doesn’t speak right away either. He wraps his arms around you, his hold is loose at first—like he’s not sure he’s allowed—and then tighter, like he can’t help it. Like letting go now would undo him. His voice is hoarse when he finally whispers, “You okay?”
You nod into his neck, barely moving. “Yeah. You?”
He lets out a shaky breath, something between a laugh and a sigh. “I think I’m still alive.” He says. “But barely.”
You smile, eyes closed, cheek pressed to his skin. “Was that…?”
“Yes,” he says instantly, like you needing to ask the question is absurd. “Don’t even finish that sentence.”
You laugh softly and feel him grin against your temple. There’s a pause—comfortable, heavy with the weight of what just happened—and then he shifts, brushing your hair gently away from your face.
“I didn’t… hurt you, or anything?”
“No,” you murmur. “You were perfect. Seriously.”
You finally lift your head, just enough to look at him. His hair’s a mess, his cheeks are still flushed, and his eyes are glassy—but he’s smiling. Soft. Uncertain. Happy. And for a moment, he’s not the genius, not the scientist, not the voice behind a screen.
He’s just a boy, flushed and messy, still a little out of breath, and completely, irreversibly gone for you.
You lean down and kiss him once—just a press of lips. Nothing more. Then you collapse on top of him again with a soft groan.
“We should probably clean up,” you mumble into his chest.
He hums. “Eventually.”
Neither of you moves.
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Later, you do get up—clean up, change, all that boring post-mindblowing-sex routine—but it’s quiet. Natural. And once you're both back in bed, it’s like gravity pulls you together again without even trying.
The room’s quiet, warm, filled with the soft hum of your joined breathing. Your legs are tangled beneath the sheets, and your head is tucked under his chin, chest rising and falling against his.
Senku’s still. His hand hasn’t moved from your back, fingers lazily tracing the curve of your spine like he doesn’t know how to not be touching you now.
And then, without looking at you, he says quietly:
“…So is this the part where we pretend that never happened?”
You blink. “…Do you want to pretend that never happened?”
He’s silent for a moment too long.
“No,” he admits. “Not even a little.”
You shift just enough to look up at him. His hair’s still messy, cheeks still faintly pink,and there's a light trace of sweat on his temple, but his eyes are sharp, focused on you now in a way that makes your breath hitch.
“I’m not exactly…” He hesitates, frowning slightly. “Good at this stuff.”
You smile. “Sex?”
“No. Well—” His ears go red. “That too. But I meant… this. Whatever this is. Relationships. Wanting someone this much. Letting them in.”
You don’t say anything right away. Just reach up, gently brushing some of his hair out of his face.
“Senku,” you murmur, soft and certain, “you don’t have to be good at it. We’re figuring it out together.”
He swallows, throat tight. “…You’re not gonna run when you realize I’m not exactly the most conventional partner?”
You blink, lips twitching. “After what just happened? I’m definitely not running. I can barely walk.”
He huffs—almost a laugh. Then finally, finally, he meets your eyes again. Really meets them.
“And besides,” you add softly, “I knew how you were before all of this. I’m your friend first, always. I love you just the way you are.”
“I didn’t mean to fall for you,” he says, blunt in that way only Senku can be. You were just… there. Constant. Loud. Infuriatingly smart. Always messing with my things, always in my space.”
You raise an eyebrow. “You’re digging a really deep hole right now.”
He exhales—short, almost a laugh. “Yeah, well. Then one day I realized I didn’t want any of it to stop. I didn’t want you to stop. I think that scared me more than anything.”
Your lips twitch. “You call that romantic?”
“I’m a scientist,” he deadpans. “Not a poet.”
You grin, pushing up slightly so you can lean over him, your hands braced on either side of his head.
“Well,” you murmur, eyes soft, “guess I’ll have to be the romantic one.”
His eyes flicker to your lips, then back to your gaze.
“You always were.”
You lean in and kiss him—slow, like it’s not a first or a second or a tenth, but something you’ve always had the right to do. He kisses back like he’s finally letting himself want you out loud. When you pull away, you rest your forehead against his again, noses brushing. His hands drift to your waist under the blanket, not trying anything, just holding.
“…So,” you say softly. “What do we call this now?”
He hums thoughtfully. “An unplanned but highly successful chemical reaction?”
You snort. “Try again, scientist.”
His mouth quirks. “Girlfriend acquired?”
You blink. “Did you just say that like you unlocked an achievement?”
“I say that every time I make something new in the lab,” he says, matter-of-factly. “Why would this be any different?”
You roll your eyes, but your heart is doing dangerous things in your chest. “God, you’re such a dork.”He shrugs under you. “Yeah. But I’m your dork now. Apparently.”
Ignore the lowk OOC last line… genuinely couldn't find another way to end this quickly
ANYWAY BACK TO THE EXTRA NOTES!
You guys both go kind of MIA for a while; one second you’re posting like normal, sometimes popping up on each other's page, then just… radio silence.
Fans lost their minds, and during your time away, they start making these crazy long theories trying to explain what they think happened to the both of you to fill the void.
Literally ranging from, "He's secretly a serial killer and she was the last victim so he deleted his digital footprint to evade capture.”
“They eloped in the mountains. She’s pregnant. They’re living off the grid with goats.”
“She accidentally killed him during an experiment and is covering it up.”
All of these are objectively incorrect.
In reality? You’re working through your first relationship, and when you’re ready, you’ll both be back.
an: can't blame anyone but yk I gotta be rude to my kitten whiskers bella... already tagged her though so sigh... anyways this was supposed be DAYS ago but I kept adding more stuff. this is the cycle of my life , I can not shut up for the life of me.
I also haven't written smut in a while (can you tell?) so if its bad.. yeah, I tried my best fr. lowk a closeted freak ONG do not leave me in a room with Senku he WILL end up pregnant.
𝜗ৎ warnings: semi-public cunnilingus, minimal humiliation, dom!Xaiver, bratty & subby!reader, playful degrading, mentions of dumbification, oral, high risk; high reward, almost getting caught.
✰ Happy Birthday to my cutie-patootie Xaiver! ✰
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Xavier could be so mean sometimes. Even when you worked so close to him at the Hunter's association. New projects would come up and new wanderers needed to be dealt with almost everyday.
However in the coming few weeks, Xaiver could only poke fun at you for making tiny mistakes in your schedule or from getting in a minimal scratch in the fight. It was endless, and you had no issue with it at first.
That was until he started calling you out on them over and over.
"This is fifth mistake this week; you sure you're okay?"
"Let me go over them again, you know, just to be sure. You've been clumsy these days."
They didn't seem bad, maybe even laced with some genuine concern that you were too stressed. It was the damn smile he did after each one of his tiny critiques.
You could feel a hidden intention with his words, and it was confirmed by the smile he couldn't seem to hide. The worst part was that now he knew it bothered you, and he would keep doing it to see the cute pout of anger on your face.
That was until one day, you were truly stressed. You had three reports due in just the next week about your findings of new wanderers in the area, and fought almost three a day at this point.
Xaiver would watch you slump over your desk with your tenth cup of coffee of the day, trying hard to keep your mind awake after a lack of sleep.
He only frowned, biting back a smirk, knowing he was about to do absolutely nothing to help as he traveled over to your desk.
You felt his presence was near, but did everything in your power to not give him the upper-hand. You knew he could tell you felt like hell on acid, but you wouldn't admit it.
Xavier knew it too. "How's it going?" he asked with a sweet tone, "Everything alright?"
You nod your head, "Of course. This is my job, Xaiver. I can handle it."
He just throws his hands up in defense, "I was just making sure. Can't have you making any mistakes on those reports after all."
You cold only turn you head toward him quickly, already fed up. "Gee, I thought you were actually worried about me." There was that face again; the pouty and mad expression that he loved.
He just shrugged, "You said you could handle it."
And there was that smile; the expression you hated.
You could only stand up, not even caring about cooling off and grabbing his hand to take him to the corner of the office. Xaiver only lets you pull him there, the other hand calmly at his side.
When you finally make it there, you turn to him, hands crossed and standing before his taller figure, letting an annoyed face trail your features. Xaiver kept the simple smile, though now it seems more innocent.
"What? What did I say?"
You shake your head, "What's your issue? You have been on my ass all week about making some tiny errors."
Xaiver looks at you like a confused puppy, tilting his head to the side. "I'm just trying to keep you sharp." He leaves a little punch to your arm too, which only angers you further.
You roll your eyes before going to walk passed him, brushing your shoulders not as hard as you like before his hand grabs at your wrist without turning towards you just yet.
You don't say anything as you let your eyes trail to your wrist, then up at him, letting your wrist stay in the warm palm of his hand. Xavier isn't looking toward you either at first, but then turns slowly.
"What? I can't help out a friend?" His words ran through your head. The nerve of him!
You didn't quite understand what he was saying; not until his head was placed between your spread thighs and feasting like starving man on your cunt.
"Xaiv- someone could... hear us." You finally manage to get out.
He ignores you, head and mouth right where they wanted to be after months of pinning after how to do this the right way. Well, fuck it; There was no "right way".
The bouts of banter that would make his only want to be around you more were torture. He needed you, craved you.
The closet was bigger, but your body felt cramped again the rack of cleaning products behind you. Your hand held tightly to the side of the rack as your whimpers only increased against your better judgment.
It was a blur how you got to the closest but you remembered how quickly Xaiver dropped to his knees, unbuttoning your pants gently and never letting his eyes off of your face as he did it.
After taking off your panties, he was on you. The mere sight of you broke him to pieces beautifully.
His expression had no trace of a smile; only serious and lust-filled desire entwine in his eyes. Xavier's hands slide up your body tauntingly through your uniform, trying to remove any piece that blocked him from seeing you.
His eyebrows furrow in contrast to his closed eyes as he enjoy his meal with gratitude, but feeling the rough fabric of clothes under his hands instead of your soft skin. His mouth comes off your pussy for a moment, breathing heavily as he stares into you eyes.
The smile came back for a moment before fading and his hands come up to the collar and rip the top buttons off. You gasp for a moment, looking down to Xavier with an expression of anger once again before he raises his index finger to his lips and points to the door.
Your eyebrows furrow as you remember where you are, and how someone could hear you very easily if the two of you weren't quiet.
Xaiver goes back to his initial task, diving right back in and you weren't expecting it, which made your head fly back to the rack. Your hand flew up for you to bite down on for a moment to ground yourself in the pleasure he gave you.
His grip on your thigh was intimidating, just like the look in his eyes that never left yours. Short breaths and little gasps could be heard in the room as his motions continued; some coming from him but mostly from you.
"You love this, don't you?" He pants into your pussy. "And here I thinking you were so mad at me."
His words made quiver against his tongue, though the annoyance pooled on your head.
Xavier's cock was punished by the tightness of his uniform pants, straining to no end just from the mere taste of you. To be fair, it was a dream of his.
You felt yourself become close too, your one hand now having a death grip on the metal of the rack and the other gripped against his that was on your breast.
Xaiver was apparent of you chasing your orgasm, and had the strongest urge to pull away and make you beg for it before something arouse to the occasion.
A gentle knock hit the door of the closet, and you gasped before your other hand came up cover your mouth quickly and tighter for other sounds escaping. You head was angled at the door, and though Xaiver had stopped his assault, his head was only slightly pulled back from your pussy.
Your breathing became heavier in fear, and you peered down at Xavier for a quick moment, before hearing a familiar voice. "Hey! You alright in there?" It was Tara.
Damn, you thought. You and Xavier had come in at separate times to not draw suspicion to the two of you being alone in a closet together. To be fair, you didn't know what Xaiver was intending before coming in here either. Nonetheless, neither of you could be afford to get caught.
The lock on the door would save you now, but in due time, it wasn't promised. You clear your throat to respond, "Ye-Yes Tara, I was just-" You look around the room.
"-Napping. I was napping."
You hold your breath, hoping that was enough for her. She knew you weren't getting sleep from stress too. She told you herself how concerned she was for you.
Before Tara speaks back, Xaiver took an experimental lick at your sensitive pussy once again, and you gasped before pressing a hand to your mouth again and looking down at him. You shake your head, timidly but he only smiles.
His tongue was on you, still making tiny motions. Your embarrassment was evident on your face but the feeling only made you feel better. Quiet breaths escaped you as your peak was so close, but Xaiver wasn't giving you an edge yet until you were in the clear.
You turn your attention back to the door. Tara didn't seem to be by the door anymore, and you breathed out thankfully when you didn't see two shadows of feet by the door.
You peer back down at Xaiver before trying to move. His grip on you becomes evident. "Where do you think you're going?" He asks.
You look at him sursprised, "We almost got caught, we can't-"
Xavier lets out a pout, "But you were so close." He asks before moving his head back. He nods, getting up and turning slowly to walk away, "But if you don't want to cum, of course I can't mak-"
Your hand comes up to his shoulder and pushes his knees to hit the ground in front of you. "Just shut up and make me cum."
Xaiver lets out the similar smile, eyes peered up with more desire than before, though impossibly, and then speaks:
"Make that cute mad face again and I'll do more than just that."
۶ৎ warnings: car foreplay, car sex, oral while driving, dirty sex, use of foot (only for a moment) slightly sub!Jayce, masterbation, use of AFAB anatomy, use of she/her pronouns.
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There was such, a long car ride ahead of you. Part of you wanted to excuse yourself to being sick, but you knew Jayce wanted you there: your long time boyfriend was a proud scholar and you absolutely wanted to see him achieve his dreams.
He had told you on multiple occasions that you didn't have to go to this convention, but you insisted. You just hated spending time in a cramped car for around five hours.
You and him had packed everything up and put it in the trunk of his car before getting in and starting the extended drive.
After a few silent moments in the car, you turn to your boyfriend smiling as his nerves were visible. "You excited?" You ask him.
Jayce breathes before clearing his throat, "Yeah, I'm also nervous." He admits. You nod, understanding this convention was a huge deal for Jayce. You rub your hand on his arm, "You deserve this, Jayce."
Jayce smiled at you kindly, "I couldn't do it without you." To which you giggle, "You were smart way before you met me." You tell him.
Jayce shakes his head with a smile. You let your eyes trail down where you notice he was in his normal attire, loose fitting white tee and sweats. It was practical, as you were be compressed for long, and you were up earlier in the morning.
Upon looking, your eyes travel lower. You notice his bulge, soft, sitting comfortably on his.. thigh? Holy shit.
"Jayce?" You ask
He speaks, eyes still on the road, "Yeah, pretty?"
"Are you wearing underwear?" You hear your own smile in the sentence.
It was an innocent question, but Jayce felt himself jump mentally when you noticed. "Uh- no. I didn't do laundry and I was going to shower at the hotel." He admits with a sheepish smile, turning to look at you for only a moment before his eyes go back to the road.
You nod, hiding a smile before snickering and looking out your window. Jayce smiles, "What? You would've done the same."
You nod, "I would've, but you wouldn't be able to tell like I can with you."
Jayce takes a minute to give you a confused look before letting his eyes look down, seeing his soft bulge highlighted in his sweats. "Ah, I see." He laughs and you laugh back.
As an hour went by, you eyes drifted to his bulge ever so often. You knew your boyfriend was big since he had to ease himself with substantial foreplay before getting into anything with you. Seeing it like this however, in this setting; knowing he was nervous. He was humble too, making his so much more desirable. Plus, he was so bite-able already.
Maybe he wanted stress relief.
Your back was against the car door, nicely rested on a pillow you packed. Your foot arches over the console of the car, over his leg and stretched it to the other. When you touch the tip, through his thin sweats, he gasps and he car swerves only slightly.
His one hand comes off the steering wheel and comes to stop your foot and looks over. "What the hell? What are you doing baby?"
You giggle, "Sorry Jayce, you just looked so stressed." The pout on your lips makes it hard for Jayce to look away, to where he sighs and lets himself smile. "You're crazy you know? I could've killed us." He lets go of your foot and lets it roam free on his lap.
You shrug, "I trust you." and eye your foot before letting it trail his cock outline once again. The outline changes from this original state it was in just a few moments previous, almost standing to complete attention.
Jayce head starts to rest on the seat behind him, "Fuck- that's good."
You let your bottom lip invade your mouth and bite it. You hand slides down to play with yourself, loving how pretty Jayce was when he was in pleasure. His eyes peer from the road, since his peripherals couldn't do him justice to see how gorgeous you looked.
Your other hand slides up to your face to bite down on your finger as you rubbed your clit slowly. He couldn't see much besides your hand moving, but his imagination did wonders.
You move your head off the pillow and move to be on his lap, mouth practically drooling to taste his cock.
He moves back, letting you sink your mouth to take him deeply. Jayce was surprised with himself from the distractions and ability to still drive with agility. His head flies back, a quiet groan making its way from his lips. "Fuck, I can't-"
"-You can." He hears under him. Jayce's eyes roll back immediately, loving how you spoke. He watched as your hands slide under your legs once again.
Jayve couldn't take it anymore: his cock was dipping pre-cum in your mouth, but not even from your motions, but from watching you play with yourself as you did it.
The torture of the situation quickly got to Jayce and in a few moments, he was pulled over to a secluded area of a street before turning to you, with a quick, "We have twenty minutes."
He didn't even give you time to respond before kissing you and pulling you into the backseat of the car, flush against his lap.
Jayce practically swallowed you whole with kisses all over you. You smile through a moan as he leaves bites all over your jaw and neck. He couldn't stop his groans just from touching you.
His bigger and broader figure held you against his body and ripped away your clothes; pulling so hard, he could rip them.
The heat of the car increases as he places your naked figure against the back seat, moving to be on top of you and rubbing his hardened cock against your soaked folds, rubbing up and down on your clit to prepare you further.
You nod you head, "Put it inside. Please- fuck me."
Jayce smiles fondly, shaking his head. "No baby, you need to be ready or I'll hurt you." You only frown at him, starting to trace your hand down your body to his cock.
You rub it on your clit once more before holding his shaft and easing his girth deep inside you, which makes him throw his head back. "Oh fuck, my love-"
He gasps, while you make a silent plea to your boyfriend, loving the faint pain mixed with pleasure of his size stretching out your pussy for the millionth time.
Jayve took small thrusts, his cock wrapped around the tight walls of your pussy.
His eyes could only roll back as he sank further and further inside of you, and even when he did bottom out, he wasn't even fully inside. About a quarter inch was left out of you, and when he pulled out to sink back in, he would see the wetness that your core left behind.
His pace quickened, and your moans turned to quiet whimpers as every moan you tried to make died deep inside of your throat.
Jayce felt too close already, only being inside for a few moments now. He pulled out completely, which made a sad moan fall from your mouth with a pout before he leans down to move you up and attach his lips to your pussy.
Your head hits the car door as he moved you and slurped on your clit with need. He groaned out immediately of the tangy taste of the two of you mixed, peering up while a chuckle from you hitting you head.
You only look down, bissed out and lacing your fingers in his black locks, keeping his attention to your pussy than laughing at you.
His hand gripped at your under-thigh, hard and almost punishing, but the vigor of his tongue on you made it hard to notice.
Your moans quicken, and your body shakes when you get close. He pulls his mouth away and sinks himself deep inside again, feeling your pussy accept him without haste this time.
Your back arched against the leather seat of the car and Jayce took the opportunity to hold tight to the back of the passenger seat as he starts to thrust faster into you.
The heat in the car fogged up the windows, and your hand came up to the window. The action made a hand-print that was quickly ruined as it slide down and held your breasts with desperation to ground yourself from the everlasting delight.
Jayce felt his lower stomach pool along with yours, or what he assumes based on how tight you became. His groans turned whiny and eager, yours loud and overwhelmed. In a final hard and gaping thrust, Jayce cums deep inside you.
The noises he made pushed you to cum hard too. You grabbed at his chiseled arms, smiling with closed eyes. When you tried to open them, it was blurry from some tears. The pleasure was perfect, and Jayce seemed to feel the same; his cock still nestled inside, but now softer.
He looks down at you before pull you up to him with ease; You let out a chuckle and hug into him before kissing his shoulders. You both are startled by a loud noise notification on his phone, and he turns to open it.
He scoffs a laugh before putting a hand to his sweaty head and through his hair, "It's Viktor." You eyes look at him with blinking confusion before Jayce speaks again:
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𝜗ৎ warnings: virgin! fic, first time, virgin! reader, pain turning to pleasure, soft dom!Caleb, friends to lovers, unprotected p in v (!practice safe sex!), slight corruption, slight mention of blood, use of AFAB anatomy and she/her pronouns.
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Caleb is your best friend, has been since as long as you could remember. It felt like the two of you had always known each other and you felt comfortable around him.
The two of you lived with each other as neither of your jobs were enough to keep you on your feet. Of course, It was Caleb's idea, but it was a great one.
With his job being hard to leave on a whim, you had the apartment to yourself usually.
After about a week of him out of town, he finally brought himself home. As he walked into the apartment door, he smelled of the nature outside, and like he had sprayed himself with a good smelling cologne before he came in.
You turn your head from the show you were watching: a romantic comedy. You had probably watched it a million times, and Caleb could only roll his eyes with a smile as he closes the apartment door behind him.
"This again?" He nods to the TV and puts his bag down on the floor.
You only wave him off, "You know this is a 'must watch' every few months."
Caleb only smirks as he sits down next to you. He hugged into your body without restraint and you kindly welcomed him. It wasn't crazy that he would have missed you, or that the two of you cuddle very casually. He grew up with you; it was hardly an issue.
As the two of you watched the movie, you smiled as you felt his breath almost completely even out. While he seemed asleep, the movie played a detailed sex scene between the main character and love interest.
You felt your breath hitch as you watched it, the man cumming deep into the woman when they finished.
You were inexperienced: a complete virgin. From school and work right after, you never really thought about sex with anyone, besides the man that slept on your lap.
You eye him, his breath still even before your legs press against each other under his head. When the sex scene was over, you tried to let the thoughts leave your mind, but you couldn't. You wished you had felt sex sometime before. Caleb was slightly experienced from what you had thought.
Late nights in college when he came home with newly made hickey's that you pretended to not see, or be sad about. Seeing a condom fall from his pocket when he tried to get out his card for you when you were buying dinner.
You move your legs again, remember how you feel asleep that night; hand between your thighs, your fingers fucking into you but not enough to make you cum.
With you in your thoughts, Caleb could feel you legs moving under him, to which he didn't bother stopping you.
Caleb has been awake since the loud moaning of the fake scene played on the television. He felt your thighs move multiple times since, and he would be lying if he said he hadn't been hard since you started doing it.
He knew you still hadn't lost your virginity. Caleb had assumed you were turned on from the movie scene. When he usually watched R rated movies with you at home with sex scenes, he watched your body react without you really noticing.
In a suddenly moment, his hand comes up to your thigh, squeezing it gently. You gasp, "Shit, Caleb you scared me!" You push at his shoulder. Caleb only chuckles, getting up, but slyly putting a pillow on his hard-on.
You were only slightly embarrassed at the fact that he could've felt your thighs clench under his head, but you didn't mention it since he didn't. After a while, he would speak up;
"So, have you done it yet?" He smirks, which you see when you turn your head. His face was still pointed in the direction of the television, though nothing was on.
You turn to him, trying to look confused but knowing exactly what he was referring to. You shake your head, now not looking at him. "What?"
Caleb smiles at looks at you, "I'll take that as a no." He snorts.
You shake your head, "Okay, fine. I haven't." You roll your eyes, feeling slightly embarrassed. He was the one you wanted to take your first time, but you two were friends and had been for so long.
Caleb doesn't take his eyes off of you, and though you weren't looking at him, you could feel his eyes boring into your face.
He debated his next statement, but let's it fall out anyways, "Do you.. want to?"
You couldn't hide your face now, and looked to him to see if he was trying to make a joke. His face was serious, looking deep into your eyes, which made your heart rate increase drastically.
"Um, I mean, I would?" You smile, trying to let the casual nature of your friendship shine through how intense the moment was.
Caleb lets a smile trail his face before reaching his hand to your head and ruffle your hair. "Have you even had a boyfriend?"
You move his hand from your head, shaking your head. "A couple, and the others were upset I wouldn't hook up with them on the first date."
Caleb tsks, rolling his eyes. "I'm glad you didn't. You're too pretty to give it up to losers like that." You eye him at his words, then watch as his eyes reach yours again.
Your eyes trail to his lips and he sees it, his lips now slightly ajar as the need to kiss you becomes harder to hide. His hand comes up to your face, his thumb tracing your face.
You lean into his hand, your eyes not leaving his. You were nervous of how exceptionally new this felt to you.
When you keep looking at him, his body now closer and his hand now holding the side of your face. Before he could speak, you got closer too. "Should I-"
"Yes, Caleb." Is all you can mutter to him and almost instantly, you felt his lips on yours. His lips were smooth as he expertly kissed you. He hooks his hand under your thigh and pulls it over his legs to get closer to you, using the hand that wasn't on your face.
He pulls away, lips swollen from the kiss. "Are you sure?" He asks, worried you would feel pressured to make a decision now, "We can wait if-"
You only kiss him again, stopping him from speaking. "I want it to be you."
Caleb feels his heartbeat in his throat as he tried to respond, instead just kissing you and pulling you to straddle him without disconnecting the kiss.
After the tension building of taking off all of your clothes, Caleb lays on top of you, your body bare in comparison to his. You felt slightly insecure, and when your eyes started to drift from his with nerves, he would take off his own shirt.
He grabs your face, turning you to look back at him, "You're so beautiful." You could only stare deep into his eyes with the raw emotion he displayed with the statement.
He pecks your lips, then lays gentle kisses along your cheeks, jaw and crawls down further; then kissing your neck and leaving a sweet bite before leaving kisses to your chest and bosoms, down your abdomen and then around your thighs.
You gasp as he gets there, his breath and mouth so close to your core. You let out a gasp, your pussy tingling with a new fever for Caleb.
He looks up to reaction and smiles before lowering his head to where you needed him most. "You're gonna need to be prepared for me, Pipsqueak."
You find yourself scoffing at the nickname, you hand reaching down to him black locks. Caleb takes an experimental lick to your pussy, relishing in how quick you were to moan when he did.
He leans back in, licking again before his other arms comes up to hook your other thigh and he dives in without a second thought.
Your gasp was quickly turned to panicked moans at the new sensation, and as you started to pull back, Caleb looks up at you with a smug expression, "Come on, does it not feel good?"
You frown down at him, fast breathing apart in your tone, "Mh- Caleb it does. I just-"
Caleb only cuts you off, "-Perfect, I'll keep going."
You let out a "Caleb!" at his words before he dives back in, the words quickly dying in your throat, turning to moans of pleasure.
After what feels like forever, but was only three minutes, you cum hard on Caleb's tongue, and he takes it all. He loves the way you taste, he was so addicted. The ego he felt by being your first; the first to eat your pussy, to taste the sweetness of you and watch as you enjoy every moment of it.
Caleb would be lying if he didn't beg the universe for this. He always wanted to be the man that took you for the first time, and the only one that had you for the rest of his life. He almost had a thought to pinch the back of his arm.
"You gorgeous girl. You loved that huh?" He came up to your face, smiling hard at the pleasure looked on your face after minutes of your passing orgasm.
You only nod, your eyes opening to see Caleb's body on top of you, his eyes never waving. "Are you ready?" He asks you seriously.
You feel yourself nod without thinking, your body absolutely made for him, and you knew it now.
Caleb lets a genuine smile trace his face and he unbuckles his belt. His plaid briefs come down with his pants, his hard-on visible even before he took them off. You breathe deeper now, pussy twitching at the sight of his pinkish-tip. His cock looked angry, clearly begging to be buried deep inside you.
Caleb watches you stare, smiling lightly before bringing his hands under you to pick you up, and he did so with ease.
He brings you to sit on him, his body still sitting up for support. Your body straddled his, pussy rubbed against the utter-side of his cock as it stood up proudly between the two of your bodies.
"Ill let you control the pace." He tells you simply, his hands reach to sit comfortably on your back. You nod, feeling the nerves hit you again, Caleb was big, and you wanted him to feel good.
You move your body to stop straddling him, then hung your body to where you could feel him at your entrance. Caleb would grab himself, starting to ease nicely, deep inside of you. His eyes kept a close look to your face for any signs of discomfort.
Your eyes started to clench tighter, the stretch becoming painful. You hiss and Caleb slows the pace even more. "May I?" He asks.
You don't open your eyes when you nod, trying to focus on breathing through the pain. He almost wants to feel the pain you have to make it less on you. His hand reaches down, playing with your sensitive clit to ease you up, which worked wonders; Your hisses develop into moans, especially with the mix of new feelings.
Your hand travels to the back of his neck, pulling at the baby hairs in the back of his scalp to ground yourself. Caleb groans at the feeling and grabs a heavy handful of your ass. When he bottoms out inside of you, he feels a dripping sensation and looks down, you pussy slightly bleeding at the stretch.
"Does it hurt at all?" Celeb needs to ask, and his eyes link to your expression. It didn't look pained, and his finger never stopped rubbing the bundle of nerves. You shake your head quickly, "No, please don't stop."
Caleb smiles and pulls your head to lay in the crook of his neck, his hands hugging slightly into the back of your midsection to keep your right against his chest. "Hold me, please baby." is all he can say to you.
His thrust were slow and deep, penetrating what you believed was your womb at some times.
Caleb takes a few thrusts, loving the way your pussy squelches around his cock from how turned on you were. He groans loudly into your chest, kissing the skin that traces it as the tightness of you felt too good to react any less. "You feel good baby?" He asks.
When you moan back, not responding, he trails his hand lovingly up your back, "Come on pretty. Tell me how good I'm making you feel, please."
You start to pant, pussy now clenching tighter around Caleb from his dirty words in your ear. You nod, a squeal coming to the surface as your head falls to his shoulder. He speaks up again, loving how reactive you were to him.
"Mhm, you're gonna get addicted to me? Not gonna stop asking me to take you; over and over?" Caleb teases, though he meant it out of love, admiration. He was undeniable in love with you; the absolute image of you like this for him, and only him.
Your hand comes up, tapping his shoulder as you moan out, "I feel it, feel something Caleb." You speak with an almost panicked voice, but almost intertwined with a loss from the pleasure.
"Let it go gorgeous, i'm not gonna take it from you." Caleb's hand presses to the small of your back, your body shaking hard as you let out sobs of pleasure from the intensity. Your hands interlocked with his hair in a desperate plea for him not to stop, but also that it felt too good.
The tightness of you pushed Caleb deep into his own release, his body reacting quickly to push you down deeper, filling you with his never-ending amount of seed.
You moaned as you received it; a new sensation that felt odd, but almost just a good as your orgasm.
Caleb doesn't move, nor let you get off of him as your breathing evens. His head finally falls back against the couch, a smile trailing his lips as he feels the after-glow of the sex.
You peer up at him, feeling a sense of longing to have his lips on yours again. Caleb looks to you, "Hm?"
"I feel the same." You deadpan, which he laughs almost too hard at. You smack his chest, "What?! I thought I was meant to feel different!"
Caleb still laughs, "What did you think? Sparkles would fly around you as you came or something?" He makes himself laugh again.
You roll your eyes at him before hugging deeply into him again, which he accepts with joy. "I definitely saw the sparkles but it was just from seeing you." Caleb mutters.
You move to look at him from his shoulder, "You're so corny."
Caleb nods, "You love me." You snort, but you could only nod.
you’re trying your best to not be too loud, but carlos’ tongue is proving difficult.
the two of you had busy schedules and hadn’t had the chance to be intimate in a while, so when the first opportunity popped up, you of course took advantage of it.
carlos wasted no time, getting your pants and underwear off quickly before moving to lick teasingly at your pussy.
you arch your back at the feeling, chasing it, wanting him to give you more. and that’s what he does, tongue moving down through your folds to push into your walls.
carlos continues that motion for a moment, your toes curling, hands digging into the dark curls of his hair. you feel his tongue pull out, pulling a whine from your lips that quickly morphs into a moan when you feel a sharp suck on your clit.
you’re already close, thighs shaking with how good it feels. carlos keeps sucking on your clit, drawing sounds out of you that you know you should be doing your best to suppress for the sake of your poor neighbors, but at this point you don’t give a fuck.
with one final press of his lips against your clit, you’re coming, hands tugging even harder at his hair as your high hits you hard, legs shaking on either side of him. your chest heaves as your orgasm subsides, a thin sheen of sweat on your skin.
carlos looks up, the lower half of his face slick with your arousal. he smiles sweetly at you like he didn’t just give you the best orgasm of your life.
you get up off the bed, switching positions to push carlos onto his back.