i literally cant move

a lot of the most ableist people in the world seem to be the parents of disabled people, which i find to be quite interesting..

since april, i have left my house one time due to a lack of accessible transportation. i miss my life and there’s no end in sight to being stuck at home. im tired

i wish that my brain didn’t think every new symptom was a death sentence. health anxiety is so frustrating

my least favorite part of being disabled is the inability to have any sort of privacy. i feel like my body and my things are not even mine sometimes

i’m working on a letterboxd list of movies about/featuring disabled people and disabilities in general. anyone have suggestions?

having to enter your business through the back door where you take your trash out does not mean that your building is accessible!!!!!!

one of the biggest things i hate about being disabled is that i can’t care for myself the way i would want to. for instance, my shower routine typically just consists of the basic necessities of cleaning (shampoo, conditioner, washing the body) because i need assistance from someone. however i know that if i were able to do it myself i would be able to do all of those things on top of maybe shaving, exfoliating, or even just soaking in the tub to relax. i guess in theory i could have those things but it already feels like a burden needing the basics

i find it increasingly frustrating that i will never know a life where i don’t rely on others for my care. my entire existence is built on someone else’s schedule and it’s been like that since i was born and it’ll be that way until i die. i’m tired.

finally a place that i can talk about my truest feelings about my disability where nobody knows me