My Silent Legacy

but sometimes i still look for you

not always intentionally

when I'm browsing Reddit and i happen to see a comment or post that sounds vaguely like you

i click on their profile, just to see, just in case

i found one such profile last night when i couldn't sleep

and it made me dream of you

still awkward as ever

i couldn't leave fast enough because i knew it wasn't right

but sometimes i wonder

how you're doing

and I want us to have our own home

I've never been sure if I want kids

but I've been thinking of it more lately

also

I'm tired of living in a house full of people

and it makes me feel guilty

you kept a lot of secrets

probably still do

i should have known better

if i were a better sister, maybe you wouldn't have felt the need to close yourself off to everyone around you

maybe you'd be different

i can't help if you won't open up