finding myself again

I haven’t been around lately. I gained 2 kgs, and I’ve been maintaining my weight for 2 months... I was actually quite ok with my weight for some time, until now. I met a guy, he’s super sweet and funny, and we’re actually together. The only problem is he’s making me feeling bad about my weight. Not consciously I think, but he talks A LOT about losing weight, trainings, diets... I can’t understand if he’s trying to talk me into losing weight or it’s just a talk. It makes me think that if I won’t lose weight he’s gonna get bored with me or find someone better? I don’t know... It just puts a lot of pressure on me. I was thinking about losing weight healthily but now I want to lose weight fast. I want to be thin. I don’t want this feeling of shame and unworthiness... I really want this to work out but my anxiety is waking up.