You Live. You Learn. You Grow. You Change.
It’s funny to look back on life. Each day feels so long, but in the blink of an eye its minutes fade to days, that soon become weeks, months, years that flash bye with no warning that it’s all coming to an end. Each celebration of the new year it’s easy to take a moment to look back on the year that has just flown by. Technology makes it all seem so glamorous. We have memories of pictures, videos small glimpses of the highlights of the year. Collections of birthday celebration, time spent with loved ones, new experiences, all of the glorious things that mean so much in the moment. But what happens when we take all of those small memories and we line them up. A time-lapse of what once was. Some find it sad, to look back on what they have lost. The things that broke them down creating their own living hell. Others find it exciting to reminisce on all the things they have experienced in their life. Celebrating all that they have gained. No matter the good bad and ugly it truly is a time for growth. All of our memories, our pain, tears, love, laughter are what shaped us into the individuals we are today. No two people ever follow the same path. There is no one that shares the same headspace as the one that you live in. What a beautiful reality to know that no matter where life has gone, you are the only one to experience it from your perspective. Does looking back on the sadness hurt? Yes, but that only means that you truly felt passionate about something. Does looking back at the happy bring you joy? Of course, because it means that you get to take yourself back to that feeling of pure bliss. Life is a crazy, disgusting, hard, exciting, brutal, wonderful things and it’s crazy to think we are truly living.
For so long I feel like I was never truly living. It felt like I was going through the motions. Just living each day for the moment I was able to close my eyes and it can end. Wishing each day away so that I could be one day closer to not having to do this bullshit anymore. Then like a blink of an eye it stopped. I stopped wishing the days away. I stopped wondering when is this life going to be over. I started feeling the true meaning of why we’re are put here. Finding love in all of the small things. Surrounding myself with positivity. Doing things for myself, to ensure I was the one creating my own happiness. It’s like I woke up one day and realized that I am the creator of my own self. I am the damn author to this story and I refuse to let it be anything besides a fairy tale. Will there be ups and downs, of course, but I will fight like hell to ensure that I live the best damn life that I can! For me, becuase I deserve it!
-m
