My Little Diary

"Introduction"

Preview: "Finding a place where I can comfortably talk about anything makes me feel free, as though I can finally breathe freely and just be myself."

Todays quote: "Sometimes, you just have to go with the waves." - Wave to earth. I Took this advice while thinking of what to write for this first blog. It doesn't have to be anything specific. Usually, when you have a diary you would first write your name, but i'll skip that part, instead, let us go with the nickname "Kenzie. What song are you listening to right now? I have this playlist going, and it’s playing the OSTs of my favorite movies, like 'A Cinderella Story' and 'High School Musical.' I've always wanted somewhere to talk about life, and that is something you should expect from this blog. We will talk about anything, from likes to dislikes, updates about life, and advice, which will also come in handy. To make this a little more personal, I thought to share a little about myself (but not too much, as the internet is still unsafe^^).

I'm in my last year of high school, which means there will be many rants about studying but also advice that I think will be quite helpful. I lovee tennis, taekwondo, kung fu, and dance, though I haven't officially been able to play or join a club. The same goes fpor photography i just got a camera and is searching for places to take pictures. I live in a small town, so there aren't many opportunities. I like to read and write and am actually writing a book that will probably take a few years to launch. I also adore novels, animes, and manhwas in any kind of genre, though I am always a sucker for romance as the hopeless romantic I am. Dramas are also one of my many interests to watch. One of my favorite shows is 'When I Fly Towards You' (and almost all genres you could think of). I think it almost perfectly fits my vibe; the same goes for movies like 'A Cinderella Story.'

For other stuff, I always have a hard time choosing, so if anybody asked for my favorite color or food, it would be based on my mood. Today... it would be purple and a sunsetty pink and orange. For songs... I absolutely listen to everything and love unknown artists. I have also realized I like songs with a guitar-ish vibe. But for my favorite band, it would have to be Wave to Earth.

I think you would have realized by now that English is not my first language, so if there are any typos... well, we're in this journey together, so I can only hope I get better at it as I write. In that way, it can also be good practice for English. Going forward, I hope to find commonalities with many. I've always wanted a place to talk freely about life without putting so much stress on myself.so, Finding a place where I can finally comfortably talk about anything makes me feel free.

Hello my dear readers^^ I'm back with a little update on what I've been doing. I feel like I've been more inactive than ever. Still, I promised to come back. A promise can be such a fragile thing, and that's why it's important to believe in it—believe in yourself and your ability to make it come true.

There's 33 days of school left. And honestly, it seems pretty unreal that I will be graduating soon. School has been the only thing I've known for 13 years. Maybe that's why I'm feeling confused. I have come to understand that it's okay to feel a little worried, stressed, confused, and even melancholic when thinking about this. But at the same time, it's such a weird feeling.

I just wanted to do a quick little update for you all. Hopefully, we meet on a happier note next time.

Sometimes we get surprised when things don’t go our way—sometimes for the better, other times for the worse. It can be hard not knowing what to do or what can happen. It could hurt you or make you happy. It's like a gamble. But at the same time, it can be up to you to decide whether it's good or bad. So instead of wallowing, sometimes it's better to face it head-on. "Maybe this will lead to something better," or "maybe this saved me from something else." Often, we question why specific things happen to us. It can feel so unfair, but when you later sit down and calm down, you will notice just what really went down, and it could even open your eyes to something even clearer. You're not going through this alone. Instead, so many face such problems—maybe not always the same situation but the same dilemma. That’s why I want you to remember to not always look for the negative parts. Instead, think of what you can achieve because of this event. Maybe it could lead to something even better?

Quote of the day: “It does feel different. But at the same time, similar.” - Sk8 the infinity. (tip at the end of the blog)

Hello and welcome once again to this blog. It's been a long time and your friend is calmer than ever!...(that's my hopeless try to make an aprils fools joke). Easter break is approaching steadily. It's only 2-3 weeks away and that also means that exams, assignments, and presentations will be showing themselves.

To approach this I had made a schedule which I highly recommend as it definitely helped calm my nerves as if you simply followed what you've planned things will get easier. Sometimes I couldn't really follow it I cherished short happiness over long. Which is okay, sometimes. but definitely should not be a habit. But I'm trying to take that time back. Finals are also coming the date today is 25-04-01 so from today there is only a week left. And yes, the nerves are building up but at the same time I feel almost calmer than expected because if you tried and worked your hardest, if you just put that little effort in I promise you, you will feel better. I will go try to finish my work and cram a little. sorry this blog is all jumbled up... I'm in shambles having so many thoughts in my head after all the things that are coming my way. Haha..ha..haa anyways, to end this on a good note EID MUBARAK!! I forgot to say that yesterday but better late then never! and as I always say... let's meet on a happier note tomorrow bye bye~~

preview: let's not dwell on it, regrets are part of life. Instead, let it go, and next time? make sure to not miss out on anything.

Starting this blog with mixed feelings. Hello guyss.. sadly once again I'm in despair over school and health. Around my town everybody's been getting sick as the weathers changing and that's why most people in my school were absent also to not get each other sick. Well, not all, because a friend of mine decided to come to school while they were visibly sick, because they didn't want to miss out on school. (mind you there was nothing important, because we had already finished many works). And the result of that? I ended up getting sick. I'm supposed to have an exam next week as I had missed it before, and now it feels like everything is once again falling over. I hope I don't sound too mean but sometimes when you have so much stress building up because you're so late behind and you physically can't work well because of trouble its hard.

The only problem I do find is hard is finding a time to workout. After some searches a lot of people are recommending just before futhor (when you break your fast by eating), so you can drink water as soon as you're done. I've also found this very good suhoor food that I have been eating, (actually my suhoor, is like 11-12 am as i actually just can't wake up and don't like eating in early morning). is this yoghurt with blueberry and then either sliced dates or bananas in the mix.

(how it almost looks)

Hellooo my friend~~ I finally got to know how I did for my exam that I had been stressing about for so many weeks! And let me tell you, it was a ride. Doing the exam was still pretty stressfull but somehow it went a lot better than I expected. Only, I had a little trouble with the writing section of the exam but, i felt a little better, like this heavy weight on my shoulders was lifted the moment i left the exam room. like a breathe of fresh air had come in. And.. after a week, we finally got to know how it went! and the SHOCK ABSOLUTE HORROR i felt when the teacher was about to give me my paper and he even had the time to make jokes like making me catch my paper (crying).

Todays quote: Love is like a violin. The music may stop now and then, but the strings remain forever. – June Masters Bacher

I have been having quite the rest this week, as winter break started for me, i decided to travel to a different city to simply relax before my study begins again. I was a little worried that i wouldn't feel comfortable as im pretty awkward when meeting people i haven't seen in a while, but it all ended up going well and i've been happy. Taking a break now and then is pretty important. I've got this one song playing in repeat with a specific time stamp as i feel it perfectly fits my vibe right now, its "teenage dirtbag" and the uploads from wheatus.

Im sitting on the floor with a little cushion and just enjoying my rest. Earlier i went to the mall and decided to go to a café. I ordered a ice coffee with caramel, and it was pretty nice! i even got a chocolate cookie with nuts and filling and it was so goood. tho it did make me feel a little sugar sick. I decided to do as much as i can as it is actually the last day of my vacation at the city im in, im going back tmw so i tried to not leave any regrets. and for those i have, i isntad tot hink of it positively, i can buy them next time, then i have something to look forawrd to and be more excited to use.

Heyy it's been a while hasn't it? Well... I left of quite motivated with my speech about New Years but just as winter break was over I noticed I really had to put quite the effort in my school work. I hope you have been good, for me I think I'm pretty fine. Actually... I have an upcoming exam and is feeling quite unmotivated to study so i fled over here, my exam is about law legislation and I have to compare my country to EU. It sounded easy till I realized my teacher wanted such detailed answers that it's way too much for me to memorize and learn, so if you have any ideas of how to cope with many questions... I would be veryyyyy thankfull ^^.

"Hard work builds confidence, but… It's scary that all we can do is hope that it'll pay off someday." — Mitsumi Iwakura" 'skip and loafer'

Preview: Always find positivity even when it seems pointless, because if at least we believe in ourselves, I’m sure we will achieve greater things.

Happy New Year! It's officially 2025, and that only means more possibilities to be better! This year, more than ever, I felt this sudden urge to accomplish many things in life. I felt as if it was an opportunity to be better and get back at lost chances. I did have some regrets in 2024, and I do want to make them up this year. It goes from academics to myself and inner peace.

This year, I didn’t do anything special for New Year’s. It’s mostly only I, in my circle that cares~~ but still, that didn’t hold me back from enjoying the moment, even if there were few to care, because we all have our own thoughts and feelings. I want to make sure that I stabilize my life and not overthink, as it has been tough. I’m sure things will get better. Always find positivity even when it seems pointless, because if at least we believe in ourselves, I’m sure we will achieve greater things.

So, for everybody, I hope this year will go extremely well for you. I’m sure it will, so hold on and do better! Don’t procrastinate and just do it, so you don’t have to think about it later and really be able to relax without worries. I’m here, fighting just as hard, so let’s make it our best year! ~~ ❤️❤️❤️