I want you to know:
I want you to know because i can't bare the thought of you not knowing anymore. I want you to know how much i love you, how much i think of you, how much i would do for you if you were mine.
I'd let you go out and have fun, even if it meant leaving me bored and alone at home, because i want you to be happy, and your happiness is my happiness.
I'd make you sandwiches while you played your xBox, pick up your socks from the living room floor so your mum wouldn't get mad, give you massages every time you asked, and even when you didn't...just so i could hear those little sighs and see the goose bumps form on your arms.
I'd laugh at your jokes even if they weren't funny, pretend to like ALL your friends so you didn't feel you had to choose between them and me, try not to get jealous when the other girls looked at you.
i want you to know how much i would let you get away with, i would pleasure you and stay unsatisfied, probably even let you cheat and never say anything...i would let you treat me like shit, be distant, not reply to messages, say mean things and stay, because having even a little/cruel bit of you would be sooo much better than having none of you.
So maybe it's for the best that you don't know, because i would help you break me so many times, and perhaps end up even more helpless than what i am now.
But i still can't help but fantasise about how my life would be if you knew.
