My Characters' Blog

Usually practically, but occasionally I’ll dress up for fun.  

“Queen Bee” 

“Sarah and I mostly decided this one.” 

“Desmond is basically one of the really hot guys that’s like half jock that has a crush on the one girl he can’t get so he tries to impress her all the time and ends up just being stuck in the friend-zone” 

“Hot, quiet Jock that’s way out of everybody’s league” 

I’m kinda scared this is what they came up with. 

Signed, 

“Sarah is that one really pretty chick that’s friendly with everyone but has a few friends that she would fight to the death for and nobody wants to get in her way. She’s like a prep.” 

“That weird shy kid that always sits in like the second row and you think they’re focused on their studies, but you don’t know for certain. Once you saw them talk a lot when they were standing up for themselves, which broke the rumour that they were mute. 

Only their friends know how crazy they truly are.” 

I have many secrets. Some are my own, others my parents, or even a servant’s who was a bit too loud while cleaning my suite. 

One of the biggest secrets I have is that my father started the war, not the dragons. Not a single soul in our kingdom other than me, mother, and father knows about this, and I intend to keep it that way. 

That makes the shame even worse. 

I am ashamed that I’m keeping a secret from Mallory and the rest of my friends.

I need to tell someone the secret, and this is the only way I can without letting anyone actually know.

I’m spying for Adrelin. 

I’m ashamed that I like learning about medicine. I’m scared that my father will find out. He doesn’t want a softie when he needs a warrior. 

But sometimes being a warrior gets tiring, and I just need to sit down and learn.

I still haven’t figured out a way to tell my father and Uncle Nick. 

One day I hope I’ll be able to. 

Signed, 

It’s funny, I’m ashamed of my biggest fear. 

I’m ashamed that I am afraid of being all alone. 

Although I’m ashamed of several things (not being nicer and less distant to the kids at school, turning into a crazy Elly with the opportunity to earn killing a dragon thing, being distracted and forgetting to mourn as much for my grandmother, that I’m not a better person, and many other things), the biggest is how much I kept from my friends in the beginning. They didn’t know about my grandmother, or Gavin, or anything. Now I have nothing important (pretty much) left to share, and I’ve never felt better. Secrets are weights. Remember that. 

Pft, like a future queen has time for hobbies. 

However, if I did, I would probably read outside. I love being outside, and gardening is my fav. When I’m too tired for gardening I’ll read. Simple as that. 

Shh, don’t tell anyone I garden. That’s not proper for a future queen. 

One of my hobbies is being with dragons and studying about them. It prepares me for when I get my own dragon, and I greatly enjoy learning about them. 

I also like working with my weapons. Throwing knives is my favourite, but archery isn’t too bad. 

I’ll choose to practice with a sword, or really any weapon, over almost anything. If I can’t do that, I don’t mind learning about medicine. Heath fascinates me, especially the human body. There’s so much we don’t know.

Signed,

I like anything artsy, writing included, but painting is my favourite. I don't count music as art, it’s a separate part in my opinion, and good thing too, ‘cuz I’m terrible at music but an excellent artist. Collin’s pretty good with music, especially with memorising the music, but he never plays. 

Painting is hard, but really awesome. And I like drawing, but I just need something on top of that, and that’s what painting provides for me. I love it so much. 

Also, horses horses horses! Although that’s not really a hobby, it’s more like a lifestyle or religion. ;D 

In my “free” time I enjoy curling up by the fireplace with a good book. I may not be a writer, but I plow through books in no time. In reading I get to enjoy another life, another reality, for a short while, which is so awesome. I don’t have to worry about anything when I’m reading. 

I also enjoy learning, but I don’t enjoy school. There’s a difference. 

Desmond told me that his mother died when he was a young boy, and his father was left to run a huge weapons company (I don’t know which one, he didn’t say) all by himself. He says it’s caused his father to become distant, unhappy, and very protective over Desmond. When I asked him if he still loved him Desmond said “Yes, of course I do. I love him with all my heart.”  Desmond loves his parents, but I hate mine. I admire that he’s able to love them.  I also admire my father, for being able to convince himself himself that’s its right to lie to his subject like that. He may be a terrible person, but he can convince himself he’s not, and I can’t stop knowing I’m a terrible person.  I admire my mother, for being brave enough to go through an arranged marriage    without even meeting the man first. I admire her for giving birth to a child, even though she didn’t love him. I admire her for putting her country first, both of them. 

I admire me, for despite being put through all this crap, still persevering. I just hope I’ll be able to keep doing so.